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FML

January 14th, 2010by drawingfool

I wish I were dead. There I wrote it. I’m too much of a coward to actually go about killing myself so I’m stuck with just wishing I were dead. I’m 32 years old, I’ve never had a girlfriend in my life, have a shitty customer service job that barely pays the bills and I’m stuck under a mountain of debt with the very real possibility of losing my house. I would think it would be impossible for someone to be this pathetic, this much of a loser, but its like life has conspired to make sure my life is a joke. I remember in …

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Forever Sleep

January 14th, 2010by chaos

I think about ending it daily now, I know the easiest quickest way to do it, I have the materials I need to use it, but the question is why don’t I do it?
theres times when i’m right there and ready to do it, but I calm down well thinking it over and stop, But the thoughts return the next day, Why why do I have these thoughts, Maybe I’m just trying to feel alive

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Am I seriously considering this again??

January 13th, 2010by AspoonfulOFsammy

I’ve been here, done this…. but I keep finding my way back to the thoughts of death. I have attempted twice, both (obviously) without success thanks to being “saved” both times. I was in my teens when I tried before… I’m 20 now. I know I’m not old or wise, but these thoughts…. they come back all the time. They’ve been pelting my mind for 7 years. I think about dying at LEAST once a day, sometimes only for a fleeting moment…

Before, I tried with pills. This time, I think if I do it, I’ll hang myself. I did that on accident when I was …

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My new blog.

January 13th, 2010by asdf

Hey ,

I started a new blog.  I’m gonna start jotting down my thoughts , experiences and feelings from now on. I have always wanted to start a journal of some sort but never had the will to write in it. I finally did and would love for you guys to read it whenever you have time , and post whats ever on your mind , what you think about me in general as a person and just comment on my life.

http://depressionalive.livejournal.com/

It would mean a lot to me if you took the time to read it. thank you

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Just talking..

January 13th, 2010by stressedout

I dont really have all that much to say right now. But i want everyone to know that i do know what its like to think death is the best thing for me. if anyone needs someone to talk to or to listen to them, im here. my email is ticanhelp@yahoo.com
feel free to email me anytime.

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Those damn feelings

January 13th, 2010by Entity

Life is a piece of shit. You want something, and when you actualy get it you’re feeling much worse than before. Why the heck most of the people are so calm in ordinary life situations while I’m scared to hell when I experience that. Today it was the same. But it was a little bit different and little bit worse. After a call with one man, I started trembling. I felt anxiety, my head has been hurting and I couldn’t stand it. I was finding how can I get rid of that fucking feeling. I took a shot of some hard alcohol but it didn’t …

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The Countdown has begun.

January 13th, 2010by readytoctb

I am officially back on the clock. The more I think about it, the more I realize that this is something I need and must do. I can no longer lie to myself that everything will work out and things can be normal again, that ship has sailed. Better that I go now than prolong the inevitable, it will be better for me and for the few that may miss me.
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Done and dusted.

January 13th, 2010by silent

So.. This time i really have lost everything. My mother has been missing for 2 months now, my sister has moved to Europe and doesn’t wish to talk anymore, my Father has been dead for a long time, and my brothers.. I haven’t spoken to them in 4 years. I wish to be buried next to the one love of my life and my baby boy. I want Horses by Daryl Braithwaite to be playing at my funeral. Purple orchids and white lilies. For the past 3 years, i’ve just ruined my life completely. I can’t get through a day without having a few lines …

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Done. D-O-N-E

January 13th, 2010by whiteylover

fml. I am finished, finished trying to stop myself, finished letting people stop me. I need to cut, I need that release. You can’t stop me. I am consumed with hurt, pain, and a desire to die. That desire is overwhelming me and I just want to die. I can’t do it anymore, I won’t do it anymore. I pray that I will die and that’s not working. I don’t think I have the strength to pull the trigger but eventually I know I will. I want to die on a wednesday, before church. The people that have hurt me most are at church and …

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survivor

January 12th, 2010by Survivor2194

iAm a survivor !

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This is what i have

January 12th, 2010by abbygone

indiference

that is the opposite of love….love is having emotions, feelings, whatever you want to call them, for another human being…hate is the same thing….both of them are something extreamly intense, indiference is the total opposite…..you dont feel anything…….

my loved ones have left me, Jake died………Lili moved and now she doesnt care about me….My parents only live to work and work to live…..my brother, big brother,  the only one that would at least TRY to understand me left to college…….my little brother just doesnt care….my friends have moved on…they have found new friends and they dont even smile at me when they see me, who else …

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leaving

January 12th, 2010by wishicould

ive ruined everything. goodbye.

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please let me help you

January 12th, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and

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I’ve given up

January 12th, 2010by wishicould

ive stopped cutting. but i want to start again. help?

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see the candles

January 12th, 2010by Brokenshadows

For the most part of my life i was bullied and shut away from being allowed to express myself. From year 5 to year 10 i received constant emotional and sometimes physical torments from the people i believed to be friends, i stuck with them because they were the only people i knew. By the this point i had become very shy around anyone else but these people. Iwas so confused at why they were doing this that i believed them to be right. I began to act along to their games because it seemed to make them laugh. 

In this way, i don’t think i ever …

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So tired

January 12th, 2010by chaos

I just want to die, for years I’ve been thinking of suicide no one knows everyone sees me as care free and happy, my parents love me but i let them down I have a GF who loves me I’m not sure if shes it though I’ve messed up bad in school everytime I try it gets worse, I’m grade 12 but still doing grade 10 classes because I skip way to many days due to depression I say its because I’m sick, really all I want to do is die I’ve thought about ways to do it, easy quick ways but a part of …

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Making my reservation to ctb.

January 12th, 2010by readytoctb

I had originally planned to go the day before my birthday which is in a couple of weeks. However a certain event a week ago made me think that maybe I should wait and see if she would come back. I don’t think I can though, even if she would eventually return there is no way I can hold out the amount of time that it would take. Everyday is to hard, everyday is to painful, everyday I spiral further down into the abyss. So I feel today that I am back on the clock and there seems to be a sense of calm with …

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Taking my last breath.

January 12th, 2010by takemefaraway

I LOVED YOU…

YOU HURT ME!

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I want to die so bad.

January 11th, 2010by quicktomato

i hate life. it sucks so freakin bad. why do i need to live? i have nothing to live for. back to cutting again. it sucks. i wanna go to sleep and not wake up. never see the daylight again. my friends wouldnt care neither would my family. i hate my family my friends are pretty mean. i wanna get ran over by a train and have all my friends and family watch and see… watch how much pain they put me through. no one knows how im feeling but me. and i want to kill those fuckers who messed with me and stabbed me …

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this what i want…..

January 11th, 2010by abbygone

i am lost….i dont know where to go, there are a thousands paths, a thousand hands, a thousand words, a millions souls, Mirrors and mirrors they only show me what i am….what if i dont want to hear it? what if i want to hear lies? to hear that they are worried? that they want to help me, that they want to listen…….but they dont, they accuse, they point, they point to all does marks, mistakes, errors, sorrow, pain…..how can they help me like that? i dont want to hear that they are sorry….why hear apologies? they are not the ones to blame! I dont …

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