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My Measly Attempts at Suicide

  May 21st, 2010 by Dolli Darko

So, I am a 16 years old female who lives in California, and I just got released from juvenile hall on March 24. I was sober for 2 months thanks to juvie, home supervision, and the fact I had to pee in a cup. One day, I got super drunk at the beach with a few friends. I have self esteem issues, and it was really affecting me that day. I was in a good mood, but I thought this girl was prettier than me and I started to feel disgusting. My mood changed violently. All of a sudden I was screaming at people because …

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Wait!

  May 21st, 2010 by PandaQueen

I didn’t get to say goodbye to my son. He took his own life because he couldn’t cope with his pain anymore. I’ve had a lot of very bad things happen to me in my life but his death…the way he died was the absolute worst thing to ever happen in my life and I am having extreme difficulty trying to live…just waiting to die now. I have no way to cope with this event. I know that tomorrow may or may not get better and that I have to be alive to find out what will happen and that is …

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too much . . .

  May 21st, 2010 by xxalonexx

how much can one person take ? how much pain , betrayal , heartbreak . . . uud be surprised how much i’ve been through . i joined this site today because i dont know what to do anymore . ive been through so much shit in my life and it just keeps getting worse as i get older . i might as well start where everything began to fall apart .

when i was in 5th grade i went to my grandparents house for the day with my family . we got there and all my aunts and uncles were there too , so we …

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~Goodbye && Goodnight~

  May 21st, 2010 by SempaiRuinz

~Whiskey Lullabye~

Speakings from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complainee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, it’s my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond

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Tired….

  May 21st, 2010 by erased_orion

I’ve been a member of this site for a while now, and really…I haven’t been on this page for about 5 months because I thought everything was going to be fine. Someone helped me stop cutting, I was doing okay at school. And then today, my stupid dad just…

My parents want me to stop going to school because we just can’t afford it right now…heh. It’s nothing new, I’m pretty sure tons of students are facing the same thing. It’s just that…I was going to be a junior in high school. I was so excited for everything, prom and thinking about college. And now, just 3 weeks before …

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Its hard for young kids;

  May 21st, 2010 by teishaleigh

Im 12, and ive been slitting my wrist for almost a year.
It all started with a guy, and he played me, and i really loved him, I know. It sounds silly, but then it turned into heaps of drama, I started doing it more and more because of him, and i told my bestfriend.
She told the school one day, and they rang my mum. Sadly i got sent to the princables office, and was crying so much. I was shattered someone else new. I was angry she told, But i sort of new.
My mum was shocked by this, and sad to. I was a …

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Did you forget to feed yourself?

  May 21st, 2010 by Traiitor

My eyes shift to the left. What do they see? Maybe the real question is. How do I feel? I don’t feel these dark circles fading. I don’t feel my appetite coming back. The way i feel on the inside, its beginning to reflect on my outside. The sad part is, they begin to see it to. Im rotting, and the world knows it. I don’t feel this dry taste of blood in my mouth leaving soon. Something is not right. I smile, but only to show what i just spat up in my mouth. I grit my teeth and glare at the monster …

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i still dont know what to do… help?

  May 20th, 2010 by imsorrymom

1. there is no way i am getting rid of my guns (i have multiple, two pistols “glock 19 and .22lr”, an Assault Rifle “AK47″, and a sniper rifle”Remington 700”.)  chances are that i would shoot my self with either the glock (less mess) or the AK47 (my most prized possession, its like a child to me) 2. there is no damn way im getting hospitalized cause i will be totally judged and i would not be able to join the army in 1 year if i decide to live after. 3. i have no medicine, i only told one friend and they dont take …

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Why is dying so hard?

  May 20th, 2010 by Matt

I won’t bother attaching some long and pointless sob story to this. I’m sure that, whether you’d admit it or not, the people who take the time to read this are all a bit sick of them by now. So, straight and to the point. I’ve decided, I’m ready to kill myself. The issue is I’m not sure how yet. I’ve tried hanging myself once. I got to the bridge and sat there for about half an hour trying to talk myself into it but ultimately didn’t have the guts. I’ve held a steak knife to my throat to my throat at night since I …

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Over and over again

  May 19th, 2010 by EmoChick

You keep on hurting me and keep pretending you didnt do anything wrong when you know you did. It hurt when you do this. I told you your one of the reasons i want to kill myself  and you still wont stop. I just wish you were diffrent and didnt hurt me i really want to be your friend.

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My Life is a Failure

  May 19th, 2010 by A Lonely Soul

Through out my whole life I was that kid over there. No one ever seemed to like me so I was forced to create an entire personality and live a lie. The one thing the brought me joy was being praised for my intelligence. I even recieved 2 schoarships to my current private school. Well my family is kinda poor so that helped a lot and they bragged about it and I felt a little good. Now I am failing out and might have to leave the school. I’m just a dissapointment again.

Since I was little my only goal was to graduate highschool and then …

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Habitual Disease~

  May 19th, 2010 by SempaiRuinz

“I really don’t see the point, in all of this, anymore. Things would be better if I just ended it. I think I might…”

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This is why, though they’ll never know

  May 19th, 2010 by Just a stupid kid

My past doesn’t really matter now, although the wounds still run deep in the hearts of my family and friends. I’m ashamed to say that I made those cuts and sores within them everytime I tried to hurt myself. This could be interpreted as me being self-centered which is not my intention, I just realise how much my actions effect other people around me and I’ll take responsibility for that.

I haven’t been a member of this website for very long, but I’m choosing to write now, because my one pressing reason to kill myself is something that I can’t bear to talk about with anyone. …

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Is it worth carrying on?

  May 19th, 2010 by payback

I’m 50 and have suffered with an incurable kidney disease since I was 16, I also have osteo arthritis in a hip. I have faced six open surgerys, I have to take nearly 100 tablets a day and drink 6-8litres of fluid a day.
For the last 5 or more years I have been suffering with severe depression as well, I tried to take my life once but couldn’t do that right, they just locked me up for a month….. I get so much pain that it makes me feel sick and the sweat runs down my back, I have to have carers in three times …

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So…

  May 19th, 2010 by Anna

My name’s Anna and I’ve posted a great many things here before, so if you’re interested in my ‘back-story’ so-to-speak, please search my name on the post dashboard, because this isn’t me talking about the same stuff and therefore I cannot quite be bothered to re-type it all. But, I digress…

I have a problem today.

The day I had scheduled to commit suicide has become… impractical. My boyfriend and I have booked a holiday for about a month after it. The initial plan was to complete everything scheduled for after the date beforehand, so that I could die all in peace and whatever else. But now …

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Stop hurting me !

  May 18th, 2010 by EmoChick

Okay you do that. After threathing to burn my house down, breaking my nose (having to go get surgery witch cost over $2000), giving me brusies and scares, hiting me with a knife, beating me up, and chocking me. And you say if my dad calls the cops on you that your gonna kill me. Why don’t you kill me already so my dad will just call the cops on you and then my death wouldnt look sucidal but like a murder. It would be perfect you would get the punisment you desreve and i would be in a better place. I cared for you …

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I’m going crazy right now.

  May 18th, 2010 by Shorty

I don’t know right now. I was seriously going to do it tonight but I just don’t know.

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I need help please.

  May 18th, 2010 by imsorrymom

“Suicide is a game that you dont win, you just decide when to lose” – R.M.

i have a question to those online right now or who ever. if i am really really depressed and want to kill myself about every minute of every day, how do i reverse that? lately i just dont think im going to make it to august. Lately i actually want to die. no “real” hesitations, just looking in the past for clues where i went wrong.

P.S. If any of you noticed, i am new here so sorry if i suck at it or i put crap that dosent make sense.

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What is the truth?

  May 17th, 2010 by loreildarksky

Today I found that my Dad is in the hospital. It’s nothing serious, apparently, but they’re going to keep watch on his shoulder, which is broken.

Thinking about this has made me wonder.

He’s always hurting himself, by working too hard. That’s all he ever does; work. He’s hardly ever home, an lives on a different planet. He can’t communicate.

It makes me wonder; he doesn’t have to work so much. He’s wearing himself into the ground for no reason.

Is it because he doesn’t want to be around us?

Or around me?

I wouldn’t be surprised. No one in my family really likes me– in fact, they can’t stand me.

I …

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  May 17th, 2010 by nicky

Me at my school seeing my dead boyfriend. i think im going crazy.

me: Why did you leave?

him: Because you wouldn’t listen to me.

Me: that didnt give give the right to do it.

Him: yes it did. i told you not to go.

Me:  Come back. I wont do it again i promise.

Him: Its to late im gone. you should have thought twice i just did that to protect you and you just went behind my back and did what you always have done.

Me: But i had to i didn’t do anything wrong you were just to scared to do what anyone else would have done. you …

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