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I read your article about suicide read this first

January 8th, 2010by rancon

let me tell you frankly, i want to die because i’m in pain or i’m not able to cop with the amount of pain. You may think my reason for suicide is just not enough or fair enough to do this.
But I feel like i’m done with my life. Now if i live more, i cannot make anyone happy.
If i live more the people who loves me will hate me eventually. And I broke up with my girlfriend. And believe me this is not the reason. Even before meeting her, I had a feeling for commitng suicide. But till now i could

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i needed somewhere to hang my head..

January 8th, 2010by takemefaraway

today has been such a bad day….

& i’ve decided that maybe this life just wasn’t made for me…

i can’t keep faking & pretending that there’s nothing wrong…

everything in my world is wrong..

i lost it all; my family, the love of my life, my heart, my soul,my will to make it through…

there’s nothing left to live for & in way im kinda grateful for what i had till he took it all away from me and left me alone here.

but, this burning pain is beyond overwhelming and the tears keep coming…

i ask myself where i went wrong along the way..

if you understand me then you have

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Saved by the bell?maybe, not sure -part3…

January 8th, 2010by readytoctb

Made it to another day, which probably means I will make it through another day. Though if I don’t I can’t say I would be upset. Everyday just keeps getting harder than the one before, I am so ready to end the pain, well at least this pain since I don’t know what if any pain awaits me on the other side. I am to the point that the only thing that keeps me going is thinking of each day of pain as the penance I must pay for my sins, past, present and of course the big future one. I have to somehow today …

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Scapegoated and demonized.

January 8th, 2010by flightsuspended

Opening a window:

There is pressure from all angles.  I see no light and no hope.  I retreated to what I thought would be sanctuary, but was instead spun into a destructive path of escapism, which led to the unforgiving battering by those nearby.  I am victimized.

My heart knows no relief.  There is no purity in my soul.  My mind aches with thoughts of violent crimes and violent suicide.  Haunted by internal and external betrayal, my thoughts bounce from one painful thought to the next.

To personalize the origin of this cogitation only deludes the severity in which it is felt.  My hands are not unlike razor …

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re: All comments on suicide

January 7th, 2010by Gardener

Please, everyone who is thinking about suicide – STOP. Just hold on to any little piece of hope that you can find. Just work on getting through the moment, the hour, the day, the week and so on. I know it’s though, I have lived with depression for 16 years. I know that the beast is trying to take over your brain and trying to convince you that your life is not worth living but it is WRONG! Tell that evil voice that you will not hand your life over to it. Each and everyone of us has the strength …

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Postponing the inevitable

January 7th, 2010by David

I’ll start by letting everyone know that I am a 37 yr old male, with 3 beautiful children and 2 wonderful step children. I was married for 10 yrs, doomed from the start, which is a mute point. Not my reason for being here. In December 2002, I had finally had enough of the physical and mental abuse, so I decided to leave and file for divorce. I still remember, her making me tell my children I was leaving and their sad little faces full of tears. I had to do it, I couldn’t continue to pretend I was happy. As I left she told …

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Masks….

January 7th, 2010by abbygone

i dont show how i feel i am always quite, i am always alone, i suffer alone, the last time i let someone in they only left a bigger hole…..i pretend to be happy, i pretend to be good, i pretend i dont cut, which just makes want to cry….i dont feel nice today, i feel like an ice on this day, all i have to say, is that i am going away

Pretend

Hiding behind the Smiles

Faces and Clowns

Laughs and Fun

I am so Tired of this

I am  so Tired of this

 

Pretending everything is alright

That there is no pain at all

Should I

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please let me help you

January 7th, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and

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just want to response to “why? living…”

January 7th, 2010by buraktamturk

I throught i wrote a post about myself about 1 monts ago.

Now, i am really tired so much. and I still can’t understant that. I wanna die but i can’t try that because i don’t think i can be die (with several ways). I wanna no – one cry for me (after died), and no – one can be say “he died because he failed for …”

will i in life after died?,  i think i will have pain when they cry for me. (may they can be die after i died…)

i just go school at 8 morning, i back home at 4:10. after i sleep to 8 morning. …

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Meet my other half.

January 7th, 2010by rampside-girl

Hello, Im Hana  John.

I am Hana’s other half, I like to take control, I like to make her life hell.

She does not deserve your pitty, she does not deserve to live, all she deserves is the pain I put her through. I cut her and torture her until she crys for death, but I will not let her die, because then she would be free.

This may cofuse some of you, but I do not care, because aslong as this girl stays alive, I control her and I WILL make her wish she was dead.

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stop it

January 7th, 2010by whiteylover

i need you not to care so i can kill myself already.

 

K3T do not feel free to com,ment on this!!

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i dont fucking understand!!!!!!!!!!!

January 7th, 2010by wishicould

WHY THE FUCK AM I THE STUPID ***** WHO ALWAYS THINKS SHE CAN TRUST SOMEONE!!!!! I ALWAYS GET FUCKED OVER! FUCK THIS WORLD! IM LEAVING!!!!!!!!!!!! IM FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!!!

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even alone, you can never pray off this pain.

January 7th, 2010by takemefaraway

 

there used to be a time when the world around me seemed so precious, so beautiful. i wanted to be part of the world that everyone else seemed to fit into. then it seemed that i wasn’t made for the good, easy life. haha i crashed pretty hard at top speed.

 

i listen to each and everyone of you share a thought, a story. bringing up painful memoreies or unstoppable thoughts. i feel like though i have so much hurt and shit in my life, there are perople who get it.

 

thank you.

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my death scene

January 7th, 2010by wishicould

my ideal death would be out in a beautiful field full of tall green green grass, i would take out my razor blade, lay down, cut my wrists, and enjoy the warm fresh breeze as i slowly bled out, going from a beautiful scene, to a beautiful death and freedom, i dont like how cruel this world is. there is very little that i find beautiful, but a huge green empty field is one of the few things, and i would love to live my last moments somewhere that wasnt horrid.

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Goodbye.

January 7th, 2010by rampside-girl

I wish no one to bother with this post, I just need to write to get it out.

I can not take all of this anymore, everything has gone wrong in my life, with the mystery mental illness I have, if I new what it was then maybe I could help myself or something, but I don’t know what it is, I have not slept properly in about 10 months, during this time I have changed so much, I don’t know why I wanted to live, ive attempted suicide a number of times, but i have always bottled it at the last moment because I didn’t …

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when i think of our song…

January 7th, 2010by takemefaraway

I never thought I’d die alone
I laughed the loudest who’d have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn’t think enough
I’m too depressed, to go on
You’ll be sorry when I’m gone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I could still feel alive
When I can’t wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over I survived
And I can’t wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
-adams …

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Saved by the bell?maybe, not sure. cont…

January 7th, 2010by readytoctb

I made it through the night, sort of. Been awake since 3am more depressed than ever. I had a doctors appointment this morning about an unrelated issue but wasn’t able to make it through without breaking down, it takes about 2 sec of being around me to know something is seriously wrong and when asked it makes me think about things and I just start crying. My glimmer of hope has made me delay my plans which is good i guess, but it has also made me aware that I will continue to be in pain for longer than I had planned. I am so …

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hmm….

January 7th, 2010by wishicould

just a thought, dont people always tell everyone to “listen to your heart” or “do what you wanna do” or “do what is going to make you happy” what about for those of us whose hearts scream for death, we want to die, and we’d be happier dead, why do these things we are told not apply then?

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i cant even breathe…im ready to die

January 7th, 2010by takemefaraway

so far i forgot how to be myself and i cant remember what i ever wanted outta life.

i cut myslef last night… it wouldnt stop bleeding and i admit that for once i was kinof afraid but comfortable with the thought od dying. i’d never have to be alone again and i could do things without worrying about everyone…

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i have gone too far

January 7th, 2010by abbygone

i have no way to go now….

what can i say? i dont know what do! there is this whole that rips me apart every night…i thought i was doing a good job not cutting but know…..i see the knife, scissors, even mirrors and there is a voice inside telling me to do, that i  need it……

tell what i am supposed to do! i thought i would be all good now but……i feel alone and sad all the time and there is no apparent reason for it! i am just sad depressed…

i stared writting poems again and they all talk about pain, suicide, sorrow, hate, monsters, …

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