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the truth hurts

  May 16th, 2010 by Falling

The hardest thing i’ve had to do is tell my best friend the truth.. he’s so dead on and the look on his face told me i was hurting him by not telling him.. how do you lie to the person you love the most? but that’s what they tell you, to talk about whats going on, they never say it could ruin your life

he looked at me with his deep blue eyes and pulled me into a hug “you know i love you right?” now i was crying, not from the pain in my …

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11:11 p.m.

  May 16th, 2010 by Violet Blake

Aly sleeps a lot when I come over, but she tries to stay awake to talk to me. She says she worries too much about how I’m doing.

“Hi Aly”, I try to smile for her.

“I know when you’re faking it”, she whispers.

I sigh, “Your too good”.

She smiles, “No, you’re just not good at hiding it is all”.

I roll my eyes, talking with Alyson always brings about sarcasm.

I like sarcasm, I use it a lot and she understands it. When I talk with Alyson I actually feel normal for awhile.

“You know, it’s getting late”, Alyson says.

I shrug, “so?”

“You have to make a wish soon”, she tells me.

I …

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My suicide …

  May 15th, 2010 by sandiboucher

My flaw, my fatal flaw … being considered beautiful in the eyes of the masses. It meant that the men of the planet wanted to sleep with me but because I was successful and intelligent and funny and had it together … that was all they wanted to do. It also meant there was no sympathy for me. I was one of the lucky ones. I had made it. The irony of it all … I survived ten years of domestic abuse and YEARS of heartache to become a motivational speaker, to teach others that they much value themselves … …

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Choose Life – It’s too hard to die

  May 15th, 2010 by mhyst

I am a suicide survivor. Three times I have tried and failed. They weren’t the kind of failures where I wanted to fail. They were real.

The 1st time it happened, I was 18 (I’m 26 now). After years of abuse from my father, I came to the end of the road. I was running away from my father and he was pursuing me in the car, but I managed to get away. Feeling like I was sure to get caught by him, I hid under a flyover for hours and hours wondering what to do. After what seemed like forever, I decided that whatever happened, …

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I lost a friend or was she just using me?

  May 15th, 2010 by EmoChick

I had a friends who always said she hated me and wanted me to burn in hell. I thought she cared and help her with school and other things. I hung out with her when she needed someone to hang with. She beats me up alot has broken my nose and i had to get surgery from it. We get in alot of fights almost everyday and yesterday she lost it and so did i. I said many things i didnt mean but knew i would never be albe to take back. But I was so upset i cuted my wrist, hands, legs, and my …

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Can’t tell this to anyone.

  May 15th, 2010 by Something.

I would like to say what I feel to someone, I would like to say that all I think about is to kill myself.
But I can’t. They would be worried, without knowing what to do. Just trying to cheer me up and feeling powerless.
I can’t do that to my friends. I just can’t.
Besides, they would try to help and I don’t want help, don’t want people knowing what’s going on.

All I want is tell what’s going on to my friend/boy that I like. I want to hug him and cry in his shoulder. His words would sound really good.
But I can’t. He would think that …

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Hypocrites

  May 15th, 2010 by hoplessdreamer

The truest thing I’ve found
Is that no one cares
They all may say they do
But who is really there?
I’d drive to get away
But it’s like i get followed
They’ll never change
And I know they won’t tomorrow

I wish i could just let it go
But it seems there’s no way I can
They talk like words can’t shatter
And they just don’t understand
They drive you to the hard stuff
The hate and the booze
But give me a reason why I shouldn’t
There’s nothing left to lose

I don’t need to hear
That it will be okay
It’s just what everyone says
To pretend to escape
I don’t need your sympathy
Or your fake apology
I’d rather be alone
Than be-friend my …

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Conversations with the Dark Thing 2

  May 15th, 2010 by Violet Blake

Dark Thing: Hello Violet.

Me: Go away, I know why you’re here.

Dark Thing: No one’s home Violet and theres so much glass on the floor…

Me: I am going to clean up the glass and throw it away now

Dark Thing: Don’t do anything rash now Violet.

Me: What you’re asking me do is rash.

Dark Thing: Oh Violet…

Me: Stop saying my name

Dark Thing: Does that bother you…Violet?

Me: Go away, I’m not going to talk back.

Dark Thing: Yes you are. Pretty little Violet with lips that taste like cherry pie…

Me: STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dark Thing: I’m not going to stop, Violet.

Me: Yes, you are!

Dark Thing: Hush Violet, just do what I’m telling you to do. …

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I wanna die

  May 15th, 2010 by scottywannadie

i cant live in this life no more ive failed my daughter i couldnt even give her shit for her birthday cause im so broke. her mother sees different guys all the time and ive stolen from my whole family to support my alcoholism and gambling habits my job went to shit and im unemployed i feel like my family is suffering because of me.  If i died there would be no worries for anyone no more. Ive done nothing in this life,  no one would care, so im probably gonna find some way to take my brothers rifle and blow my brains out. All …

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How do die

  May 14th, 2010 by EmoChick

I tried to kill my self the other day by over dosing and didnt succed sadly 🙁 I need another plan the most i did was throw up and know I really want to end it get off this place i call hell. Im done with living but i dont really want it to look like a sucide i want it to look like i died of natural causes

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Attempted again and failed :(

  May 14th, 2010 by EmoChick

Yesterday I took a hand full of adivil to poisen my self. I threw up blood but I’m fine now still living and breathing sadly and I dont know what to do? Any other ways I can kill my self?

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My Personal Damaged Goods

  May 14th, 2010 by LuckyLemon

I don’t even have to ask why it feels like bitterness is my best friend. To know the answer, all I have to do is reminisce about the past and the things that I have gone through. My time on Earth has taught me above all things that life is unfair. I feel useless and pathetic admitting such a things, but it’s the truth, as hard as it is to swallow. I have a fuck of a time choking the reality of it down. Most of the time it gets caught in my throat on the way down, not making it to my stomach where …

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Hello, My Name Is:: Anxiety~

  May 14th, 2010 by SempaiRuinz

‘Cause I don’t wanna be like this. I’ve been running these streets, for too long now. I’ve got nothing that’s true, but this song now. But the further I go, I wanna go home. I fuckin’ swear that I care! But its hard when you stare into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare, all my desolate soul, in my desolate home, it’s my desolate role. Yeah, I’m here all alone. I can’t think of a reason, to get the fuck out of bed. Curtains closed, lights are off. Am I alive or dead? I haven’t shaved in a week.

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freedom

  May 14th, 2010 by lost_soul

I finished my last final for the year. I thought I would feel a sense of accomplishment or some breath of fresh air. Instead, I was anxious. Scared. Shaking even. I don’t know why, but I felt like my world would crumble once I got my results back. It was raining and usually the sound of rain would calm my nerves, but nothing could keep that thought out of my mind. What was I suppose to be worried about? I studied nonstop for the past 2 months for that test. I knew the answers and now that that’s done summer has officially began. My freedom …

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Coward

  May 13th, 2010 by tate

I’m not selfish enough to let go. I want to, but I know how much it would hurt my family. I don’t want to be the cause of the problems. I am always the peacemaker.

I keep dreaming about it though. It is romanticized to the point of beauty. I know I am unhealthy. I’d rather kill myself slowly with diet and exercise. (I’ve lost 4 pounds this week. My ribs are showing again.)

I know I have a problem, but I can barely talk to a teacher, a friend. (I locked myself in the bathroom because I had to knock on Dr. Cesie’s door. I know …

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Tomorrow

  May 13th, 2010 by hisfootsteps

Tomorrow is my birthday.. my 31st birthday. 31 was my fathers last year in this world. On August 1st 1985 when I was just 6 yrs old , my dad took a gun to his head. He didn’t care about me, he didn’t care about anything I guess except himself. And now here I am way too many years later and this man still has so much power over me. A man I barely knew.  A man that if you ask many people they will tell you was a horrible man, not even worth the dozens and dozens of tears I cried over him. A …

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Thoughts aren’t they?

  May 13th, 2010 by JustThoughts

Just the other day i woke up in the middle of the night, I had a nightmare. I just stopped seeing my girlfriend and she has allready moved on. That hurts me, sure it does. But i dreamt that i walked into her house, she was sitting with her new guy and, i pulled out at gun and blew my own head of. I woke up, terrified of what i had dreamt, and i couldn’t let the thought go. Everytime i am doing anything, i am thinking about how it would be, if i got up and killed myself, right now. And often my life …

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I’m Looking for An Answer

  May 13th, 2010 by Violet Blake

Teachers think they know everything, but they don’t.

Chemistry is the dullest class ever, especially when my teacher Mrs. Krud  (yes, that’s her real name) drones on and on about carbon solutions and blah, blah, blah.

I’m usually lost by the time she says the word “Today” at the very beginning of cass.

It’s easier to daydream, most of the time it’s about pickign up a two-by-four and shooting up Mrs. Krud’s classroom. I don’t have many violent thoughts when it comes to other people, but Mrs. Krud is the devil reincarnated, how a man ever came to marry her is beyond me.

“Violet, do you know the answer?” …

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My Letter

  May 12th, 2010 by jnicoli

I attempted suicide for the first time just a few days ago… I am still here, however. I took 33 sleeping pills and drank more than enough vodka to get really messed up. I’m not going to lie, I woke up the next day and hated myself even more for still being alive. There have been many horrible events in my past that to be honest I don’t even care about right now. See, I had the greatest friend in the world, he was always there for me, helped me get through any obsticle put in my way. He couldn’t of been a better friend, …

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………….

  May 12th, 2010 by shadesofgrey

I am 19 years old.  I have spent the past 8 years struggling with depression.  I have tried to kill myself three times.  I have spent time in a mental hospital.  I meet with a therapist twice a week and a psychiatrist once a week.  I have tried several antidepressants, which so far barely have an effect.  Nothing works except the various recreational drugs which I use to self medicate, such as marijuana, alcohol, prescription drugs, and whatever else I can get my hands on.  I can’t remember the last time I went a full day without getting fucked up on something.

I have been cutting …

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