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We’ll See

May 12th, 2009by imforgotten

I don’t know how to live the “right” type of life. To me, living hurts. Dying is simple. To die, all you have to do is stop. To live, you have to do everything. Somebody told me that every breath you take is a choice. If that’s the case, I’m going to stop breathing. That’s my choice. To be or not to be? I choose to not. I’m tired of living. I have chosen how I want to go; I just need a place and a time. I’m waiting but we’ll see. I know that nobody should want to die, but I do. That’s what …

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To Anyone II

May 12th, 2009by jtmajor

I have created a website specifically for talking to someone, of course I am the only one operating the website so it may be kind of hectic for awhile. Just keep positive, and sending your thoughts.

Love,

Jake

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To Anyone…

May 12th, 2009by jtmajor

I have been there, too. many times. my best friend shot himself in July of ‘08. I’ve even had a loaded gun to my head in the past few months. if you need to talk to someone, contact me:

paintballerspike777@yahoo.com

jacob.major@stu.oldham.kyschools.us (easiest)

MySpace.com

I can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel.

If you need someone, I am here!

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yep

May 12th, 2009by helper

To be alone, to sit here, to want to move on, but something’s always there holding me back.

 

I want to move on, I want to get better, but my mind blanks every time I write these words, for this is pure misery, living in a hole, waiting, waiting, to get better.

 

But I know I will get better, for I have told myself so, but waiting, waiting for that day id like waiting for rain in the desert.

 

It will happen someday, I really do know, but what to do until then, I just don’t know.

 

I am not

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Tonight will be the final night.

May 12th, 2009by kaizoku

Tomorrow I will watch daytime television– women-hosted talk shows, court TV, soap operas, etc– until my brain either rots or explodes. Or I will start to think like a woman, which is a fate worse than death.  Goodbye

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May 12th, 2009by patrick1

Hello to all readers,

I am an aussie uni student and am researching the topic of suicide for a presentation tomorrow. I have read many of the posts submited to try and gain some insight into the topic and could’nt help but feel so deeply saddened by what I’ve come across. Saddened mainly because many of the people that have submitted posts appear to all have one thing in common. That is that they seem to feel that they are less worthy of life and happiness than others. Happiness is not designed to be complicated and illusive. Everyone is entitled to be here, that is why you are here in the …

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Surely I Won’t Go to Hell…

May 12th, 2009by painterofmusic

Since I keep coming back here, I have to throw in my cent and half. I’ve noticed a couple of things, before I go into my horrible depths of self-pity… First, I thought I was the only one who wrote with proper grammar. Gosh, does it sound horrible that I would notice such a thing when I’m low enough to even be on this website? But honestly, I’ve barely known what people were talking about when I’ve read other forums on random things. Please, any grammar dorks on here, go to yahoo! answers with a red pen and you’ll come back satisfied. But I can understand …

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Today is the end

May 11th, 2009by robins

Every day I feel less like living more like dying.  I feel like a zombie going through the emotions of life only to be grasping.  My husband truly hates me.  How do I know?  He tells me that I am a horrible person who has no redeeming qualities.  All I do I do for him and our child.  He just hates me and I am not sure what to do with that.  We have been together since we’re 18 and I just can’t see how to go on without him.  That’s all I ever wanted to be was his wife.  I really have no life without him.

I …

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Poem

May 11th, 2009by helper

i sit here in this room,
i sit here alone,
i sit here just awaiting my doom.

I want to get help,
i want to get better,
i want to do all of this, but i was never a yelper.

I don’t know anymore i feel myself getting lighter,
I sit in a daze,
trying to become a bit of a writer.

I know i am not good,
Not a writer, or a person,
but i hope to get out from under this hood.

This is a hood where i hide,
where i don’t have to show my face,
but i guess i seem to have died.

I may end my life,
but everyone always says life is to short,
But …

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Untitled

May 11th, 2009by imforgotten

I just posted something earlier on how I stopped cutting three years ago but started again today. Well, I was talking to some friends about it but I didn’t tell them that I started cutting again. You see, my friends and family are the type that judge your every move. If you make a mistake, they won’t forget about it. I’m just tired of living up to their expectations all the damn time. Why can’t they just accept me for who I am? I’m constantly trying to change myself to please them. I was overweight and they didn’t like it so I lost 50 pounds …

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Again

May 11th, 2009by imforgotten

I stopped cutting three years ago; three years ago today. However, I find myself today, picking up a razor and taking a field trip on my arms. I thought I stopped for good but today when I picked up that razor and started cutting again, it felt so good. I hadn’t realized how much I missed it until today. I know my family relationship will be ruined if they find out that I’m at it again and I’m afraid of losing my boyfriend. I know I have to stop but it never felt so good before. I don’t think I can.

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Come on guys!

May 11th, 2009by suicideisforbitches

Turn that frown upside down 🙂

Life is soooooooooo worth living and people should try their best to hold their own! Anyone who can’t is a bit ridiculous in my book so cheer the fuck up and get on with your lives damn it!!!

Seriously, no one -no matter how crap their lives are – should consider suicide unless suffering from a terminal illness and in serious pain, otherwise just think, you could have a much worse life. Walk down the street and you’ll pass hundreds of people with hundreds of tons of shit they’re all pulling so don’t think your all alone in your pessimistic world!!!

Peace out fuckers

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To anyone…

May 11th, 2009by jtmajor

      I have been there. too many times. my best friend shot himself in July of ’08. I’ve even had a loaded gun to my head in the past few months. if you need to talk to someone, contact me:

paintballerspike777@yahoo.com

jacob.major@stu.oldham.kyschools.us (easiest)

MySpace.com

I can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel.

If you need someone, I am here!

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This thing called life

May 11th, 2009by massmale413

I am a 59 year old male who just wants to go to sleep for a very very very long time….forever would be nice.  I just want to die in my sleep, without experiencing any pain.

If I were to die right now, I could honestly say I have lived my life to the fullest given certain constraints.  You see, I was born with very bad asthma back in 1949.  Back in the 50s, doctors didn’t know what to do with us children with asthma.  So they made us stay in our beds, put a big piece of plastic over the bed, and pump in oxygen.  …

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lost…

May 11th, 2009by allalone

As I sit here trying to write what is so called my life, it is hard to not have suicidial thoughts…

It all started since I was 8 years old. I don’t know why then but I remember one night my brother and I were in the kitchen while my drunk dad and my mom went to the store because my dad demanded more beer. I went to the kitchen sink and grabbed a knife and put it towards my stomach I told him I wanted to die! He took it away from me. After that, it did not happen again.

Recently my ex-fiance from almost 3 …

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Breaking Down @ Every Corner

May 11th, 2009by joshuadpeterson

I imagine myself as the boy stumbling out of the bar at 3AM alone and walking home. I don’t know what “home” is anymore, but I’m going to walk there, drunk and abandoned. And at some point, I’ll start singing a few songs that remind me of him.

I wish I could say I’m so sorry. I wish I could say I love him to him. I wish he felt the slightest bit of remorse for every time he said I meant less than nothing to him. I wish I could wake up tomorrow and find his car parked outside my house, knocking on the door, …

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7,7,7,0

May 10th, 2009by AbsentFeeling

I forgot about everything. Just a total blank out and then I fell apart. Tears were pouring down my face. When my mom finally came back from work we decided to go for a car drive. She said, as she often does, that something wasn’t quite right about me. Then she asked if I was at all suicidal. I quickly told her no, hoping to hear what would happen if I had said yes. She did a small cough/laugh and said that if I said yes I would go straight to the Mental Hospital. I know for sure that I couldn’t talk to her about …

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Untitled

May 10th, 2009by painterofmusic

No one is going to read this. I don’t know why I came back here to this website. I figured I never would after I found it the first time, but here I go again… This is exactly like when I found out I was pregnant, to a T; I was going to end my life, but then, an opportunity presented itself. I saw what might be a reason to live. Judging by before, assuming that the past paints a pretty good portrait of the future, I’ll be worse off than before. If I had gone through with everything before, I wouldn’t be hurting this way …

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May 10th, 2009by lkg7315

Like many other people have said, I’m not sure why I’m writing this.  I guess just to get it out.  I’m 39 years old and my life is such a mess.  I’ve been married three times, and apparently no one can live with me.  I have three kids whose lives I’ve probably ruined.  They have a mom who loves them very much, but won’t have a dad.  And I know all to well how that can affect your self esteem.  I work and try to the best I can, but it just seems like I make things worse on everyone around me.  My poor mom …

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Pure and Simple

May 10th, 2009by fredknowman

I want to kill myself. Simple as. I hate myself so much and I know, in order to improve the lives of those around me I must die. There’s some fancy new bridge opening soon near my home. I’m planning on making the opening ceremony something to remember. Lol.

People always say there’s something out there to live for. But I’ve hung around enough times before. I tipped away a lethal conconction full of pills, bleach and other household cleaning products once to give myself another chance. Then I tried to jump out of a window, only I got stuck because I’m so fat. But this …

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