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Saved by the bell?maybe, not sure – part4

January 10th, 2010by readytoctb

We met for dinner tonight, first time it was just me and her in over a month. I begged, prayed, hoped and feared all week leading up tonight that something would be revealed, good or bad, positive or negative, something from which I could either hang my hopes on or give them up completely. Nothing however was what I got, no hopes that she was coming back and nothing saying she was planning on leaving completely. So again tonight I will go to bed knowing that tomorrow and the next day and the one after that …I will be all alone.  I am so tired …

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January 10th, 2010by emoscars

  She wakes up in the the morning asking, why her, why not anyone else.She knows there are some people in the world with the same feelings, still she feels alone.Like everyone in the world thinks they know that one girl more than she knows herself,well she thinks of if she knows they’re wrong.

In her mind she wants to be alone crying on the inside hoping for someone to save her,hoping for a better life,and hoping that she can have someone to talk to just like her.Wanting to run from everything just cant get away running through darkness,crying at night feeling

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America is dead and I want to be too

January 10th, 2010by Nopoint1968

I am 41 years old and no longer want to live. I’m in America and have watched my country change and move in a direction I no longer feel is safe for artists, thinkers, creative people or intellectuals. In fact it reminds me of Germany. Nazi Germany.

Here are the things you might think are normal if you are under age 40.

News on TV around the clock 24 hours a day every day

News reporters telling you on television a celebrity should accept Jesus Christ as their savior

“Free Speech Zones”

Being herded and made to wait for security to check you and your …

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i am sick

January 10th, 2010by bruisedandbroken16

i, i am very sick. i lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep every night, i stare at the blank walls that surround me and wonder if i’m ever gonna be somebody, i look at my wrists and ask myself what have i done??, i look in the mirror and tremble, i dont eat and whenever i do eat i puke it up afterwards, i want to end my life but dont have the balls to do it, im bruised and i am broken inside, i have a gaping hole in my heart that constantly screams and reminds me of its presence, …

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Why did you do this?

January 10th, 2010by just serve

I can’t believe you did it.  You tried once and i was lucky to get you to a hospital.  I thought you wanted attention, i was wrong.  And now you succeeded.  When i got the call i thought you had taken pills again, but a gun?  Women don’t use guns!  I don’t understand why you did this…

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My death

January 10th, 2010by loveless1

I feel that I will never be loved by men or by friends. I cant act like a normal person and others see that and it turns them off. I feel even worse cause it does not make sense, i have everything I need in life but i cant be happy because i cant act sane. I have wanted to die since I was 6 but I feared death and could never do it.

I want to die but there is someone I love  and I would not want to hurt him. I tried to do it with hydrocodone this Wednesday, but I called this …

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Glowing Mask

January 9th, 2010by hitlerschild

She looks so happy. She sounds so proud. Her laugh is so rich, it makes you laugh with her. Her face glows, like the morning sun. Her smile; so bright, so welcoming. Her heart feels like home to others. But for her, its just hell. She welcomes you with arms wide open, and you embrace her. But only for a while, for you must go. Leaving her behind, as though you were never even there. And so she hides herself, behind this glowing mask.
Her happiness is a mask for her hurt. Her pride is a mask for her guilt and regrets. Her rich laughter is …

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January 9th, 2010by justwannadie0630

I am a daughter, a sister,a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a partner, a student, a young girl, and a grown woman. I am confident and scared, terrified and excited. I am loving and caring, and thoughtful and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, and careful and careless. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided, and mislead. I am hard working and determined. But a little scared on the inside. I wish on stars and dream my dreams. I pray to god and …

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Poems from my heart

January 8th, 2010by shatteredheart

A shattered piece of glass
Lying on the ground
A million little pieces
Scattered all around
Everyone walks by
They only look and stare
No one ever stops
No one seems to care
The shattered little pieces
Dig farther in the ground
Until they disappear
Never to be found
If someone would have stopped
If someone would have cared
These shattered little pieces
Could have been repaired.

Words that can’t be spoken
That only cause you pain
You hold inside while they burn
But they never go away
In this world there is no hope
Nothing can suffice
Until that one comes back to you
Brings love back to your life
Love can make you crazy
Love can bring you pain
But that one who gives these feelings
Makes it …

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this site sucks

January 8th, 2010by gomez

i tried suicide.
i’ve hung up myself.
my girl saved me.
i still blame her for it .
You speak about rabbis or priests , you are obviously an effort to bring customers to your religions.
this , however it’s useless for a person who’s got suicidal tendencies . the bare fact is that all our lives are senseless , there’s no heaven , no justice ,no reward.Every suicidal effort is just an attempt to take a slight control upon our lives.
You think we’re desperates.
I think I’m logic.

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I read your article about suicide read this first

January 8th, 2010by rancon

let me tell you frankly, i want to die because i’m in pain or i’m not able to cop with the amount of pain. You may think my reason for suicide is just not enough or fair enough to do this.
But I feel like i’m done with my life. Now if i live more, i cannot make anyone happy.
If i live more the people who loves me will hate me eventually. And I broke up with my girlfriend. And believe me this is not the reason. Even before meeting her, I had a feeling for commitng suicide. But till now i could

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i needed somewhere to hang my head..

January 8th, 2010by takemefaraway

today has been such a bad day….

& i’ve decided that maybe this life just wasn’t made for me…

i can’t keep faking & pretending that there’s nothing wrong…

everything in my world is wrong..

i lost it all; my family, the love of my life, my heart, my soul,my will to make it through…

there’s nothing left to live for & in way im kinda grateful for what i had till he took it all away from me and left me alone here.

but, this burning pain is beyond overwhelming and the tears keep coming…

i ask myself where i went wrong along the way..

if you understand me then you have

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Saved by the bell?maybe, not sure -part3…

January 8th, 2010by readytoctb

Made it to another day, which probably means I will make it through another day. Though if I don’t I can’t say I would be upset. Everyday just keeps getting harder than the one before, I am so ready to end the pain, well at least this pain since I don’t know what if any pain awaits me on the other side. I am to the point that the only thing that keeps me going is thinking of each day of pain as the penance I must pay for my sins, past, present and of course the big future one. I have to somehow today …

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Scapegoated and demonized.

January 8th, 2010by flightsuspended

Opening a window:

There is pressure from all angles.  I see no light and no hope.  I retreated to what I thought would be sanctuary, but was instead spun into a destructive path of escapism, which led to the unforgiving battering by those nearby.  I am victimized.

My heart knows no relief.  There is no purity in my soul.  My mind aches with thoughts of violent crimes and violent suicide.  Haunted by internal and external betrayal, my thoughts bounce from one painful thought to the next.

To personalize the origin of this cogitation only deludes the severity in which it is felt.  My hands are not unlike razor …

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re: All comments on suicide

January 7th, 2010by Gardener

Please, everyone who is thinking about suicide – STOP. Just hold on to any little piece of hope that you can find. Just work on getting through the moment, the hour, the day, the week and so on. I know it’s though, I have lived with depression for 16 years. I know that the beast is trying to take over your brain and trying to convince you that your life is not worth living but it is WRONG! Tell that evil voice that you will not hand your life over to it. Each and everyone of us has the strength …

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Postponing the inevitable

January 7th, 2010by David

I’ll start by letting everyone know that I am a 37 yr old male, with 3 beautiful children and 2 wonderful step children. I was married for 10 yrs, doomed from the start, which is a mute point. Not my reason for being here. In December 2002, I had finally had enough of the physical and mental abuse, so I decided to leave and file for divorce. I still remember, her making me tell my children I was leaving and their sad little faces full of tears. I had to do it, I couldn’t continue to pretend I was happy. As I left she told …

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January 7th, 2010by abbygone

i dont show how i feel i am always quite, i am always alone, i suffer alone, the last time i let someone in they only left a bigger hole…..i pretend to be happy, i pretend to be good, i pretend i dont cut, which just makes want to cry….i dont feel nice today, i feel like an ice on this day, all i have to say, is that i am going away


Hiding behind the Smiles

Faces and Clowns

Laughs and Fun

I am so Tired of this

I am  so Tired of this


Pretending everything is alright

That there is no pain at all

Should I

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please let me help you

January 7th, 2010by

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and

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just want to response to “why? living…”

January 7th, 2010by buraktamturk

I throught i wrote a post about myself about 1 monts ago.

Now, i am really tired so much. and I still can’t understant that. I wanna die but i can’t try that because i don’t think i can be die (with several ways). I wanna no – one cry for me (after died), and no – one can be say “he died because he failed for …”

will i in life after died?,  i think i will have pain when they cry for me. (may they can be die after i died…)

i just go school at 8 morning, i back home at 4:10. after i sleep to 8 morning. …

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Meet my other half.

January 7th, 2010by rampside-girl

Hello, Im Hana  John.

I am Hana’s other half, I like to take control, I like to make her life hell.

She does not deserve your pitty, she does not deserve to live, all she deserves is the pain I put her through. I cut her and torture her until she crys for death, but I will not let her die, because then she would be free.

This may cofuse some of you, but I do not care, because aslong as this girl stays alive, I control her and I WILL make her wish she was dead.

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