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I might as well die

July 9th, 2009by emogirl1995

I’m sick of this I went on the Internet the other day looking up reasons for suicide and came up with 5 and I have all of them! That must mean I’m meant 2 die by suicide. I just can’t take it. No one cares whether I live or die I just cause problems for everyone the only way out is 2 die I can’t make it right by living. Can’t anybody see or hear me!! Why can’t anyone see I’m falling apart!!!T_T I’m crying right this second

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falling out

July 9th, 2009by nebdy

i told my mum earlier that i wanted her to die, it was a bit irrational an obviously i didnt mean it. she took my laptop away from me, for which i already didnt have the internet on. i flipped out, i dont know why. i just went crazy and started to cry. i cant live without the freaking thing!! i’d have to sit in my room and actually live my life. and for years the internet has become something that helps me escape from my “life”.

 

she rubbed it in though. “you dont know what its like to have someone that close to you die” …

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Apologies.

July 9th, 2009by CJ

I’m sorry to all of you who feel obliged to answer to me because I’m a little whiny ***** who thinks she has problems when in reality other people who have had horrible things happen to them wish they could be in my position. I’m pathetic, and it’s about time you all realized that.

You know what is the most horrible facet to my personality, besides the billion other things? That I look for problems in my life so I can gripe about them. I will randomly be arrogant toward someone in my family just so I an hear them call me names. I love it when they …

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any last thoughts?

July 9th, 2009by lastdose

this evening i randomly got in the worst mood ever. i became dangerously violent and angry, and i was so close to ending it. i sat up in my room for a good hour or 2 sobbing my eyes out, basically letting out 10 years of anger. between being used as a dishrag in my what used to be best friend’s life, and from being pushed down by my family. this isn’t the first time that i’ve randomly became depressed, but this is the first time it’s ever been like this. i can’t even explain to you how i felt. and i can promise you …

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hurts turn into suicide

July 8th, 2009by master2009

I don’t no how to start but i am going to start by saying all of this pain i have is making it into suicide

  1. ~~I’m always home watching my brothers and never have any freedom to do what i want i never see my mom at home spend no day with us no more that hurt because we always used to hange out and have time to share anything with her when we need help or happy or sad or mad but not no more i keep it all to my self deep inside AND never tell no one it hurt to have to fake

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help

July 8th, 2009by missd34

Everyday i walke up my head with the same thoughts of dread facing another day. Im a self harmer i cut just two days ago no this is not a suicide attempt it a short term pain relief that sometimes last for a while but recently im finding myself thinking more and more about suicide i think/imagine myself hanging . I share accomadation at the moment and committing suicide whilst here its not an option but im due to move into my own flat soon and its like my head is automatically making a plan of ending this life i feel like im constantly in …

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Giving up Hope

July 7th, 2009by mdavidson

Well never thought that I would be even considering anything like suicide considering I watched my mom try it twice. I mean I always thought that I would make it in life, you know one of the happy people. Well I guess life has a strange way of slapping the shit out of you and making you realize that happiness is unatainable. I don’t know really what I am going to do. I don’t want to kill myself really I don’t but I really don’t know if I want to go on. I mean really. I guess I just need to tell my story, well …

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scared

July 7th, 2009by emily25

I’m not too sure why I am posting on here right now. I mean, this is a “suicide” website. For the first tim in a long time I do not want to suicide. I am content about myself. I wouldn’t say happy, I am far from that right now. But I am not feeling… selfish in any way. I am worried about my brother (which isn’t really m brother. he is family friend. we both have a mom and dad, but we call eachothers mom and dad as we would our own. wierd,  i know. we all get along that good though. it’s just like …

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Well…hm…

July 7th, 2009by LGchica

Idk i just wanted to post this…

well, one of my best friends told me something yesterday. two things actually: one was that she wouldnt hesitate to die for me and that scares me. like if i told her id be happy if she died (which i wouldnt) shed go kill herself. that scares me with what i might say in anger to her for i bottle stuff up and sometimes it just explodes. thats how i made my friend brendan, my bottle got too full and it just exploded and he fucked my life up lets just say.
second thing she said has more worried me, …

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long road to heaven

July 7th, 2009by long road to heaven

well…where to start…i have been on this earth for 37 years and have nothing to show for it…well that’s how i see it anyway…i was sexually, physically and mentally abused as a child by the lady and family that adopted me.  You ever read “A Child Called It”?  well, my story wouldn’t be much different.  Since i have visited this site and read a few stories, i have began to see things a little different.  i have a daughter that is suicidal and i can’t figure out why…she is beautiful and smart and so sweet and thoughtful. i have made it my life goal not to …

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What does the society want from some one who is about to do it

July 7th, 2009by AlbertJhon

20 years from today which is 7th july 2009 and the burial day of Michael Jackson, I was a kid of 10 and was thinking that my life is not worth living. I might have killed myself if I could but surely I did not. I dont think it was a mere cause of depression and emotion. Let me put the facts and figures in front of you and you decide what should people like me do. Since I am definately not the only one in this situation, society has a responsibility to do some thing about this. I am not saying , that society should bear the burden …

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Two Addictions That Will Never Be Cured.. Maybe

July 7th, 2009by jessicaxrawr

When I was only nine years old I was hit in the face with the fact that my father is a drug addict. He has been one since before I was even born, I just never knew. I did not know how to deal with it whatsoever. Once I had made that discovery, my world came crashing down. I began to cry myself to sleep each night, wondering why this was happening to me, why God put this down on my father, if I actually did deserve this life. I know my father’s drug addiction doesn’t seem like a lot to be so upset about, …

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the Past

July 7th, 2009by icedullieth

I’m not sure how to really do this but here I go:

My senior year of high school was the worst year ever. I was struggling in my classes, it wasn’t looking like I was going to graduate, my parents were constantly disappointed in me, tellling me to grow up, and I had few actual friends. My stress level day after day just kept rising and rising, until it hit the point where I had to cause pain to myself to lower it. I started cutting myself. For a while the cutting really helped. Then a friend saw the cuts and freaked out. She went around …

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Seriously considering this

July 6th, 2009by dyingj

When I registerd here I was seriously considering ending my life…I felt that I just could not go on anymore…my heart was broken, as well as my spirit.  I had just finished crying my eyes out, and cursing God, why when he had the chance did he not take me…I had replayed are the hurtful things my husband has said to me over and over in my head…I also had just watch another amature video of him and his girlfriend post on the net…I watched and listened to all the things he said to her…and thats not the only one of them that he has …

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Worn down

July 6th, 2009by Jason

So, here I am, sharing my story with strangers. Maybe that’s the best way.

What can I say…I am not seeing the point in going on with this charade called life anymore. I am 37 years old, and feel that there is nothing to look forward to, except working jobs that I hate that I feel are beneath me for the rest of my life, and being alone.

The dreams I have been pursuing of doing photography for a living have not come to pass. There were a few times when it was starting to look pretty good, but things either came to a grinding halt, or …

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Need your expert advice in commiting suicide.

July 6th, 2009by Dione

I am so tired of all the lies and all the decite, people who call themselves my friends stab me in the back and don’t even care about other peoples feelings. I go to school faithfully to get an education and professors treat me like shit and like I am worth nothing, Do I have to pay for this crap? I have attempted suicide twice in the past, someone always found me passed out on the bathroom floor. I would like to make it happen for real this time, I want to kill everyone who has ever been mean to me especially the ones who …

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Need help

July 6th, 2009by maya

I’ve always been afraid to talk about my suicidle thoughts that haunted me for years and years back,afraid of considered a crazy pothetic person with no beliefes and courage.

My parents were divorced when I was only 7 years old,it was hurrable and i was forced not to see her or even mention her name or say”mamy”for example,it’s all because of my dad,I had no relatives,my sister and brothers were all I have,could’t communicate with anyone in a normal way..still I am that way..

I got married to a sick man and had 2 wounderfull boys and after 7 years of merrage i am fighting for divorce …

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July 5th, 2009by emily25

left alone again. why am i not use to this yet?! i mean, i should be by now. i dodn’t even know this person too well. what was so wrong with it? why did he thing it was so worng? to actually talk to someone. i have a bofriend. he has a girlfriend. i can sorta understand, and i respect his choice of not wanting to talk to me anymore. it just dosn’t make sence to me though. every single time i get to actually talk to somebody and feel comfortable about it. my life changes. it makes me happy to be able to do …

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DONE WITH THIS SITE

July 5th, 2009by darkgermandeath

I’m done with this site all it has done is give me false hope for happiness when the only way i’ll be happy is if im away from every one except for my future wife i feel she believes i dont love her and that im talking to nothing but girls so this is the last time you’ll here from me Goodnight to all

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birthday suicide/wierd dream about you

July 5th, 2009by darkgermandeath

For the past three or four years i’ve though about killing my self on my birthday which is coming up in a little bit.Im getting married in septembor but i dont don’t know if i can suvive my birthday by the way i had a wierd dream earlyer today about i was at my birthday and people off of here started walking up and then every one started falling down then i woke up .

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