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Uncertain How to Proceed

February 14th, 2007by Dancingapricot

I feel like an anomaly. I’m 27 years old and have never so much as kissed a woman, much less had a relationship with one. When other people talk about the relationships they’ve been in or the difficulties they are having with romance, I find it hard to feel any sort of sympathy. I am entirely unable to empathize with them. I believe that people who get to be my age like this begin to become bitter and develop anger towards the opposite sex. I find myself having these reactions but try to suppress them. I want …

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sorrow

February 8th, 2007by killerjoy

Fuck….I dont know what to do anymore I hate myself every second of my life…I feel so ugly I feel so angry at times because I get so sad at night when im alone..I always try to invite someone over…I dont want to be alone. I hate being alone I hate it so much I wish I had someone to talk to my therapsit who I used to see hasnt made any contact with my since last in november…I feel so weak now. I tired to stop cutting but I cant help it I feel so pointless. I just wish I had someone to talk …

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hapiness is an illusion

February 7th, 2007by lost

i had cut myself, she made me promise to stop. i wanted to kill myself, i couldent leave her. she was always there for me for evreything, even when i wasent there for myself. i care about her. i know somethings wrong, she cuts herself in school… ALOT i dont know what to do, shes in so much pain, i want to help, i dont want her to be alone. i try so hard, but i dont think she trusts anyone, she yells “FUCK OFF WHAT PART OF LEAVE ME ALONE DONT YOU UNDERSTAND” she ignores me …

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Help is never there

December 19th, 2006by liz

Why is it that when I actually reach out for help, it is never there? Why is it when I don’t want help or interference, it always appears? Why do others minimize my problems or say there’s nothing wrong with me? All I want is to quietly exist. But I cannot exist as I am now.
I feel anger so much these days. I don’t know what to do about it. I cannot release it and I cannot live with it. I went to a psychiatrist who said there was nothing wrong with me. I saw a …

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Why

November 29th, 2006by bb

Why do people see suicide as a “tragic loss?” This question has constantly plagued me when I have succumbed to the desire to live. Some of us do. Perhaps we don’t see the world as others do. Perhaps we just understand that living is wonderful but death is not scary. Is it better to live with disease hoping for a cure that may never come without experiencing severe side effects? And even if one feels the woes of these effects the disease returns to ravage us. The disease may be cancer or even something hidden…what most call “depression” may often be a different reality.
What …

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This is a poem or something i just wrote

November 7th, 2006by onliMe420

-In the dark sound of my room. Drowning in loneliness and silences. Myself has become numb to the tears drawn down to my face. My daily smile has fade away with pain and anger never seen before. loud sounds haunt me day and mostly night. making me fear life. pushing me to the edge of death. wanting to jump of a building to stop thought of ending what god gave me : life. Life which has become horrible for me making my everday a menu of torture and pain. Silence in my head when not knowing what to do. emptiness in …

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upside down

October 27th, 2006by Amy

What do you do when nothing makes sense and those who say they love you only hurt you? What do you do when they hurt you again and again until you are left an empty shell?

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October 17th, 2006by Rachel

I live everyday felling sorry for myself, well i know that people must have it worse off but i just need this nightmare to be over, it’s like a vulture feeding off my flesh and any left happiness is being sucked out of me like a wirlpool of terror. The feeling gets stronger each day, and theres no-one i can talk to about it.
Thinking back to when i was younger, well it’s not hard, it only started a few years ago, it was so easy. But trying to imagine back to when my body was full of live, when i could walk around the …

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October 17th, 2006by Rachel

Somtimes it’s just gets to hard, the mistakes i’ve made that wern’t my fault, then why do i feel so bad about them. I’m stil in high school so i still have to deal with getting threatened and bitched at of a week day, a group of kids in my year who really don’t care who they hurt. Out side school is just as bad, rumors spread about me, that are so obviously untrue that people believe them anyway. When i see anything sharp i get unfightable urges to cut myself, i never thought i would beable to ever hurt myself, unless it was from …

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October 10th, 2006by prettyscrewups

i want him back so bad i cry every night cut my wrist begged him to come back and i get hung up and dont call me back i dont want anything to do with you.. i love him so much and he has no idea … yea i made mistakes and fucked up i should no im the one paying for it i want him back i cant call i cant message him or email cuz he never checks it i just dunno wut to do and i dont wanna give up i stopped calling him cuz everyone told me by doing that …

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Sad again

October 3rd, 2006by eveamc

I feel terrible once again. It always happens at night, when there’s nothing to do and nothing to distract me. I feel okay with people but I don’t know, I can’t be social sometimes. I should have tried harder to kill myself before everyone knew. I should have taken more pills. Then things would be better now. Either I would be on medication or I would have gotten a better therapist because people would have known I was serious about wanting to die. Now if I try to kill myself it will be even more shameful because everyone …

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The last straw

September 10th, 2006by maskedemotion6

ITs just nice to be able to wine to someone. Everyone that is my friend is my friend because im a good listener, but what about me. No one gives a shit about what i have to say. I have been putting up with guys fucking me just cuz their girlfriends dont put out, and then being friends with the girlfriends like nothing happened. I put up with guys that are my boyfriends cheating on me. I deal with people thinking i say things, when really i keep to myself and dont like to talk trash. I go to church 2 times a week for …

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untitled

August 8th, 2006by faithmarie18

I few weeks ago when i was at my friends house my ex-boyfriend was over there hanging out. Im not supposed to be around him because about year ago my parents found out that i had sex with him. Well my mom was on her way to get me from my friends house so i was saying by to her and my ex-boyfriend. I had went to give him a kiss on the cheek and when i leaned in we had kissed. The guilt had got to me and i finally decide to tell my current boyfriend. I kinda …

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dun ever trust a guy

August 4th, 2006by susan

i just broke up with my boy friend who i dated with him for three weeks. i felt bad when dumped by him. he fooled me around.and i just wanna commit suicide coz i love him badly. why guy always betray the ex when new girls come across.i hated guy………..i wish he will never get fall in love again. so tat he wil not hurt others.wat kind of living hell.save me from hell.pls…………

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to give hope to those who have lost a loved one to suicide

July 29th, 2006by Grocott3

I want to share something in the hope it will bring some hope to others
I lost both parents through suicide and I do understand the impact it has on those around who are left behind
What I want to say is that in the beginning it was so painful and I was lost wondering if they ever cared
Today is different and I am happy to share with anyone if it will help you to get through
love and hugs Lynn
please feel free to email me Grocott3@aol.com

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I know what its like

July 20th, 2006by Crowing

I know how u all feel i want to kill myself since i have a sister and brother whos disable he kicks bites cuts me and if i do anytrhing bk at him i just get sent out of the room or wacked and my sister does my head in all the time she im so depressed and im only 12 and havent lived fully yet and yet i wish i was dead i get abused by my family like they forse me do all the things i dont want do and scream at me i get shouted at all the time on cristmas and …

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Alone

July 12th, 2006by jabmanc1987

i find it hard to write this, i feel silly as i have not had a hard life, my family is not extremely wealthy but we do ok, i had a good education and im now at univeristy. i suffered badly from depression wen i was younger and used to cut myself and attempted suicide a few times, although never seriosuly i think. however i thought id sorted myself out. yet since i have come home from uni 4 the summer i can feel myself slipping back into m old ways. i have started cutting again, which is so hard 4 me coz i cant …

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Mom

June 30th, 2006by bye<3

i know i’m not suicidal, yet i am going through a tough timje, and i need to tell someone.
My mom and i never get along, today was one of the worst cases of our arguments. It started off just as usual, she forces me to do my chores, i argue back, then the argueing continues. In the end she basically told me she wanted me to go live wiht my dad( they are divorced).”if you keep acting this way, then maybe i do want you to live with your father full time”-mom. And once when i was about 10 we had a horrible fight and …

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ridiculous

June 23rd, 2006by iamsickofthisalready

So it is all sort of really pointless if you really want to give someone a wake up call and you know better because people don’t change. Don’t put your head in a clothes bag in the closet and then bang on the wall when you start to lose air. He isn’t coming. He already heard you [sic- me] hitting your [my] head against the headboard about a 1000 times trying to knock yourself [myself] out (by the way he is in the loft next door and there are thin walls) and ignored you [me] then. He knew I probably wouldn’t have the courage and …

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Disillusionment

April 27th, 2006by Tomaga

I used to think that things were always going to be bright, new, and shiny. I swore to myself that nothing would go wrong, that i had all the potential in the world, and i could over come anything. My parents always assured me of this, and i could always put my mind to something and master it shorter than anyone i knew. But i never did manage to develope socially, and i grew up with few friends and even fewer people that cared for me.

I went through high school thinking that i was gay for the first two years, seeing as …

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