I have wanted to end my life for the past two years and the scariest part about it is I know i could very easily walk into my bathroom grab some pills or a razor and kill myself, I think that is the worst part. I have no one to stay behind for, I keep thinking oh well one day i will wake up and be happy. Its been awhile since i cried my self to sleep every night, eventually the crying subsided, i didnt need to cut myself anymore i did not care if i felt alive i didnt want to give myself piercings […]
I have been cut-free for 2 months. A week until it’s been 3 months. I keep having severe breakdowns and I can feel my depression coming back. Badly. I want to cut so badly. I miss the blade. I need it. But I want help. I want someone that I can talk to so I don’t relapse. The blade is 4 feet away from me. Someone, anyone, please help.
I swallowed 6 aspirins
Not much right ?
Getting a hell of a reaction
The only rule in this world
Is that we have to die
With enough naivety
We could enjoy the present
No, I’m not one of those
Who can live without any answers
Show me the end
Tell me what is our purpose
Are we stuck in this forever
I need to know
Cause what I feel is beyond anger
How could I possibly forgive the maker
Century of pain
Who put this blood into my veins
Useless puppets
Incomplete being
We are!
Corrupted angels
Useless puppets
We are living and dying
All playing the game
Of some entities’ gambling
Evolving for nothing
The result will be the same
life, you live, you dream, you die.
but no matter what, it goes on. unless you end it. life isn’t fair i’ve learned.
you tend to have regrets, i live in regret everyday.
but at that time it’s what you really wanted.
life can be hard and it never seems to end.
but someday it’ll get better, just stick around.
you save the best for last..
I know that the immediate impact on people around the person who suicides might be pretty intense for a short while, especially if they are someone who cared about the departed. But soon enough life goes back to normal and people move on and find other people, so aside from the grieving emotions which are short-lived I wonder if affects the evolution of our species. Does it strengthen the species by having less weak individuals to pass on genes, does it mess up the balance in favour of the rich (and poor) arrogant assholes, does it perhaps weaken the species as the bereaved individuals are […]
I attempted suicide the very first time when I was 10 years old in 5th grade. I lit my basement on fire. As I walked down into the basement after the smoke had filled it I blacked out. I cam back to awareness on the phone with 911.
Next when I was 12 I slit my wrists. I did it in the bath tub so there would be a more contained mess. I remember waiting and then suddenly I was all bandaged up. I have no scars.
When I was 13 I tried to overdose. I took all the pills I could get and went to sleep […]
Ive had contained a whole lot of suicide thoughts since I was only twelve. First time I cut myself was at the age of eleven. Everyone puts to much pressure on me and it’s hard to control the pain I have inside. My sister is a ***** and my mom always takes her side. I’ve attempted suicide once but gave in. I wish god could just make my life easier by just killing me. Maybe then all the pain would go away.
Been thinking about just ending it all for a while now. It seems like things would be so much easier. I just have all these problems, all I do is make mistakes. I often say things without thinking, or am misunderstood… this just leads to people not liking me. I always have somebody mad at me, usually my closest friends. I don’t have the best relationships with my friends. I’ve never really hung out with anybody, but have always wished to. I came close to going out with a girl last year for the first time, but she all of a sudden said she didn’t […]
I really can’t even find a reason to live anymore..
For the first time in my life, I’m seriously considering ending it all.
We all have these periodic feelings after something bad happens, but this feels real.
I don’t see a half-decent future in my life, immediate and long-term. Not career-wise and not socially-wise.
I feel like if there is a god, he is doing his mighty best to fuck me over, and I’m not sure I’ve done anything to deserve that.
I’m writing this now because a couple of hours ago I received news that basically shut the door on what I considered my only escape route out of this life while still staying alive. It’s […]
Im 13, i live in britian in a country called scotland. A few years ago everything was amazing, i had my family and my friends i loved live. In 2007 is where everything started to get worse, one of my grandfathers passed away and three months later my other grandfather took a sudden heart attack and died. Then i started losing constantrition at school, i couldnt think, i didnt want to have friends. A few boys bullied me, id get called lots of names, when i started high school, everything was okay, i was poplaur, everyone seemed to really like me it was good i […]
I just felt like it was getting a little better with me.. then those stupid people that gonna talk to me about my “problems” are gonna send me to one more -.- seriously.. Ive been talking to seven people now, they dont know what to do with me so they are sending me to another one.. BUT When Im gonna move one with me it dont help to tell the story over and over again! Then I just get stuck in the past. They say” Dont worry we are gonna help you, everything is gonna get better” But when I finally got a break from […]
Time’s still ticking and I haven’t still planned anything beyond the most vague of roughs. Lingering doubts still too strong. What an atavistic bore, really. Doesn’t mean I’m really much “better” though. My normal nights of sleep are of about 5 hours these days and still dropping. The ever bloodshot eyes does wonders for my already severe crazy person chic. It takes hours for me to get up in the mornings. Eating has become boring and unenticing and only the most sugary or spicy foods bring any pleasure now. Ugh.
Any of you ever been to Greenland or one of the Scandinavian countries? Any first-hand information […]
I don’t know who you are.
What am I supposed to do?
I have no clue who you are, it’s as if you are not here.
When will I get some help?
Jordyn_Taylor-Strongi’ve felt like i tried to many times to find myself. i’ve dream’d about the best things. but how come they never came true. why my life so horrible ! i feel ugly but ppl say im pretty sometimes i just dont believe them. i dated i guy over the internet we were in love but i couldnt do it anymore, i was a fake i felt like it wouldnt be fair for him to live on dating a girl he dont even know what i really look like. not only that, […]
Good morning the world. Monitor. People.
my mood is much better today. I don’t know why! My boss called and asked to come to job tonight, even i dont need to work so i am happy, don’t wanna be at home .
Overall i know what fucks my minds. I just stuck. I am stuck in this position. Studies are over, sports are over, military is over, all my lovely things are over and i can’t find them time coz of job. So i all i need to do is to change job, find a new flat, to buy a car and start living again.
I am sure […]
Fucking right. I feel like SCREAMING.
I guess I am just going to post some things about my recovery if anyone cares to read this, maybe it can help you.
I started having suicidal thoughts at the age of 13 when I went through a stage where I couldnt seem to please any of my family, friends, or current boyfriend. I felt like I couldnt do anything right, I didnt have anyone to confide in or talk to, and my life was pretty much at rock bottom. I spent three whole years depressed, drinking, smoking pot, & cutting myself whenever I felt too overwhelmed. I stopped caring about school & almost failed […]