How was everyone’s day? Mines Shitty and depressing. Ignore my friend who was trying to help me. Damn depression. Damn headaches. Damn sleeping but only to waking up the next day. Damn life….
Well I suppose I should start from the beginning and fill all you in. In May 2010, this guy Alex asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes and it was the best realtionship ever! I know that I’m young, and can’t fully understand the concept of love. But I truely believe he was the only one for me. We were best friends before we dated and could talk about anything and everything. We would sit on my porch for hours talking endlessly. Sadly, back in January 2011, after dating for about nine months, i broke things off with him on a sudden impulse. […]
I’ve tried the few times when I am alone. To fill up the bathtub sink below the water. Let out all my breath and some how try to find the courage to breath in. As hard as I try I can’t will myself to do it. Why won’t I just die. My husband found me trying to overdose on pain pills Why won’t he let me die I can’t give anymore can’t he see I’m selfish, stupid, worthless, lazy, I’m a bad mother, and have no ability to bridal my emotions why won’t he let me die.
Yeah so some guy in Vancouver (Canada) shot up some empty cars, went back in his house and shot himself…
What was the point in ruining some folks cars?!!
so till about two and a half months ago i was the most normal happy girl with a good life in general. My boyfriend then broke up with me coz i argued too much and he had warned me about it several times but i guess i just took him for granted and neva expected him to really end things.. We only dated for six months but those were the happiest ive eva been..ive had a few screwed up relationships before nd wen i met him he made me feel that all the jerks before were worth goin thru to meet him…he was an amazing […]
“I’m a sociopath….there’s not much he can do for me.” – Dexter tv series
This is what’s really been bugging me for the last year or so(i dunno, time is funny when you’re on drugs). I’m a sociopath/psychopath of some kind and coming to this realization has made it really hard to live the way I used to.
It seems like, now, I spend every minute of every day depressed because I know what I am and it saddens me to know I’ll never have the normal life I want. I always figured that I’d grow out of this, whatever it was but now…
“There currently is no […]
i just want to kill myself, but i cant because if anything happens to me family cant bare it. so i just want to die in a way that no one can know that i killed myself…they should think that its an accident…i wann 2 die…plz god help me
now i’m not afraid of any thing, i’m ready 2 bare the hurt that will be caused. just waiting for sister marriage, once if its done i’m going to plan for it.
i’m pissed off with my character…because of which i lost most valuable person in my life
so you’re supposed to be like all happy that the cancer is gone, along with half your body, but it is so freaking hard to be bald and have one breast and try to be normal again because that’s all you EVER think about is being normal again. Even when you are like it doesn’t matter what you look like is such a lie. such a lie. such a lie.
I realize this site is more about ‘suicide’ and ‘depression’ but I think this kind of relates.
I have an eating disorder and it has made my life a living hell. Last summer I stopped eating, I lost 10 pounds in a month, that wasn’t enough. 4 months later I dropped to 90-95. It was the best feeling in the world. Unfortunatly I craved food, all the time. I started hitting or cutting to ditract fomr the cravings. Sometime in late October I discovered how to puke. I binged and purged alomst everyday for 2 months, I used a toothbrush. Over Christmas break I fainted for […]
I used to believe people when they told me I was pretty, or beautiful, or had the perfect body.
I used to look in the mirror and think, “Well, at least I’m not ugly. At least I have that.”
But lately, I just feel like a monster. I’m not pretty. I’m not beautiful. My body is hideous. Â I don’t see how anyone could ever want someone as ugly as me.
When I look in the mirror, I am disqusted. No, I’m not hideous, or fat. I know that. But I know I am not as pretty as I am expected to be. Society taught me that. I didn’t just wake up one day and hate myself. Society destroyed me. People learn to hate because Society taught them to do so. Bullying, hatred, gossip, rumors; they all happen because of it.
That girl that just killed herself beacuse she wasn’t good enough? The boy who is too scared to admit he is gay? The mother who is about to have an abortion because she is only 15? […]
I don’t even know is this the right place to tell my story but I have to. I have kept it in for so long and I feel I need to talk about it.
When I was in high school I had a best friend, a girl who meant everything to me. We were so close that she knew all about me – my downs and falls, rights and wrongs and vice versa. But she had a problem that was bigger than others. Her mother and father got divorced and her mother did not deal with her anymore and turned to God, she just thought that […]
Tonight was the night, i was planing on over dosing on sleeping pills but eveyone has made it very clear it nearly never works, im really dissapointed in myself cause i dont want to live anymore but it scary having to die, i guess the feeling scary to but i never felt it but i dont want to feel it, i think im thing it to much through ive read on dying on the last few day and starting to feel hopeless and more an more alone. but people made it clear my cry for help is not being heard i know some […]
When I was 12, I tried to commit suicide but chickened out/failed after I already cut my wrists.
Since then I’ve been too scared to try again…until now?
About 3 years ago, my Aunt attempted suicide (not her first try..but she overdosed), my grandmother and sister have both attempted to commit suicide as well. Â I’ve gone to counseling for depression before, but now the circumstances are different.
Recently ran into a lot of legal trouble with drugs and I’m now once again considering suicide before I get locked up or have to tell my parents. Â Can’t decide which method. Exit bag looks pretty nice right now, but I […]
I’m putting together a suicde playlist (songs about suicide and songs to commit suicide to). So far all I have is Goodbye (I’m Sorry) by Jamestown Story. Does anyone know any good ones?
I don’t want anything out of life besides its end. Not just my own end, but the end of everything. Where can I meet someone as filled with misanthropy as I am, someone who gets off on the atrocities that fill the headlines of newspapers worldwide? Homicide, suicide, genocide… where are you my morning star, my villainous vixen? I can’t do anything without you. I can’t take over the world without your existence.
i am the bad guy. I’ve gone my whole life thinking I’m a victim of the whole “nice guys finish last” type scenario. But that’s not it. I’m not a nice guy. I’m a worthless prick. I deserve what I’ve been given, because I hurt people. And being hurt myself did not give me an excuse to do that. So I apologize to the people I hurt. You’ll never see this apology, never know that I’m saying sorry, but it’s out there in the ether now. I hope it comes to you in some way.
Hello, i don’t know where you all come from but at the moment in my country it’s 1 a.m. Am still in school am 17 years old. I don’t know where am going. Everything around me make me sad or kinda depressif. All my friends are in college, so they don’t have time for me. They are all always busy. And i have no one too talk about how i feel. So i guess why not talk to a page called Suicide Project ? I don’t know what i was searching for on google. By the way sorry if, my english is not perfect. I […]
I just found one of my blades in my book..
Talk about luck!! 😀