i am still not sure if people care im new here and was wondering how i could survive life not knowing what i’m supposed to do. is iot normal for some people to be strong and others crumble when they get hurt. i need some answers and i need it know i am constantly wondering about life and why i have the one i have. anybody??? no of course but still i need help. i want to know if its worth it to live past 14 years…………………….
Should I die? Or live? I think ill be way better off when Im dead…SErioulsy…I dont deserve to live because I just do shit and other fuckin shit…Im just a worthless piece of shit…and I dont want to live anymore For ReAL….
Well i HATE my life!! So many reasons! 1st Nobody likes me at school…and i get TREATED like CRAP! i Have like no friends and people just talk shit to me and my face!! Im so tired of it! Then at home its another thing i argue with my parents alot and with everyone… theres noone i can talk to about my problems because it just doesn work out! I HATE MY LIFE!! i already tried to commit suicide soo many times and i’ve cut my selft a lot and i just got my arms coverd with cuts. and No one know I do this […]
Im pulled this way and that way.
Im pulled up and down.
My emotions are pulled daily.
My thoughts are every day.
Wishing I would be able to relax.
Wishing I would have some peace.
People thought me and my gf wouldnt last, people alwayz hated on our relationship that we have because we are so happy together ya we do have our ups and downs but all relationshipz are guna have that no matter what.People thought she was guna break up with me and she has but she wasnt serious serious because it was just an argument we have and my family hates her because of me 🙁 and wat Im afraid is 1 day she guna end it forreal this time and idk what im do but maybe itll be best if i go away..I never thought […]
I have everything in life a year ago, I have looks, charm, decent in studies, good family and have friends. I really can’t relate to most people here talking about committing suicide.
But I’ve been depressed lately. I’m 19 and i felt I’ve nowhere to go. My results sucks now, I can’t get into University, I have greying hair as well, which means my looks are gone by the end of this year, and I have no motivation to live on anymore.
Today, I made a commitment to myself that I’ll at least make the most of what I have until I commit suicide. I plan to […]
im dead
It feels like everything has reduced to crumbs, literally everything. The color has just drained itself out of the world and I can’t come back to the surface. I thought about ending it all last night. I wanted to so bad. My boyfriend doesn’t understand. I need him and he doesn’t care. My uncle has recently been diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia. Today he is leaving us. There is nothing more they can do for him. The tube he breaths through they are going to take out this morning because he doesn’t want to suffer anymore. I would give anything to be in his place. […]
I started going to a new counselor about a month ago. She’s really good, I like her. Like, I’m finally realizing just how many unresolved issues I have. It’s scary. I never realized how good I was at hiding it all, burying it. Making myself forget just how unwanted I’ve always been. For 15 years it’s all been building up. That’s far too long to keep everything pent up inside.
I never realized just how much being bullied has affected me. Being seen as an extra to my parents and everyone else in my family. Not ever having  friends.
All these feelings of depression, inadequacy, sadness, being lonely. They’re slowly starting […]
So I was looking around my house but couldn’t really find a good/ sturdy place to well…. “hang” out for a while, (lol)
But I think I’ve found it! The garage!
We don’t park our car in it so it’s essentially empty, what do you think? how will my body be discovered?
ihave nothin 2 say but jzt endin it now icant take this pain anymore..so iguss this is bye she iz seriouz she hav givin me 2many chancez n ijzt fuk it up..icant force some1 to be with me 4evr
Although it is over doesnt it seem great. Tummy ache for three days straight. A Split headache and ignoring everyone cause for the past two depress i felt like shet and more depress than every. Fml. Fuck my health. And Fuck about living. Im done….
there’s giggle within, but i ignore then cause i know deep inside the pain is much stronger and if i feed into my happiness it will make the fall so much harder when i crash.
Did my innocence ever exist? Who knows, and nobody cares. I’ve been fucked up for so long. It mattered once,
When I was a teenager, prople worried
Wondered why I was constantly bleeding.
But my mom just saw the most recent marks of self-hate I’ve made. And she didn’t care. She pointed and said, “stop it.” Okay, sure, I’ll get right on that. If nobody else cares, if nobody else is worried, why should I be?
I’ve been keeping a great weight losing regimen of not eating, excersicing, then puking myself thin.
It doesn’t matter, my heart’s still beating. Idon’t need love, I hate […]
I want to die, but I won’t. I’ve been crying all day. I want help but I don’t. I think I should go to hospital but I’m not severe because I don’t have a plan.
we were walking down the street when all of a sudden this guys head splatters on the ground next to us. dead.
Hello. I am new. I lost my cousin Richard J.Garber II on May 2, 2011 due to suicide. He played a huge role in my life. He was more like my brother. He left us all behind to pick up the pieces. Pieces which we will never ever fully get back. Our family is completely ripped apart. It was crappy before but now its worse. Some lost their jobs. Others who were close now are no longer speaking. Everyone is blaming everyone. I suppose that is how […]
It’s strange that the only place I feel safe letting out this side of me is to strangers on the internet…
And now I have to go back to pretending
If I could just have my music and the type of books I read.
I’d be the happiest person on the planet.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QW4x4gswm-o
“Tsubasa wo Kudasai” (Please Give Me Wings)
Lyrics translation:
“If I could have my wish come true right now
I’d want to have wings
Please place wings on this back
like a bird
I want to spread my wings
and fly in these heavens
To the free sky with no sadness
I want to flutter my wings and fly
Even now, I don’t need money nor fame,
what I want are wings!
The things I dreamt as a child,
I still dream about them today!
I wan’t to spread my wings
and fly into this wide sky!
I want to flap my wings and fly to this
free sky filled […]