I wish I knew when I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep beforehand. That way I could just stay up all night and maybe accomplish something before I have to face the next day. Well, I probably wouldn’t accomplish anything, but I’m sure I could do more than lay in bed contemplating pointless thoughts. I just wish I could sleep.
we are ALL completely Insignificant in the great sceme and time frame, none of this matters. (except belly button lint)
My life is good I could never be happier Im happy with my gf she makes me happy and I make her happy. She is the reason for the smile on my face. I want to stay with her forever. But people say love dont last forever and I do believe it can but people alwayz hating on our relationship :/
Sometimes you don’t quite understand why is life taking you into such a dark place? Sometimes we don’t understand why all these bad things keeps on happening to us! Sometimes we don’t feel complete in the inside. Its like there’s emptiness and loneliness that each and everyone of us have. We have tried anything to fill the voids. At the end of the day you’re just hopeless, you don’t know where to go or even what to do with it. So we start cutting our self, inflict our self with such a pain. A pain the we thought was such better idea than the pain […]
I don’t know.
I don’t know about anything anymore.
I am so confused.
About everything.
I’m to good a procrastination , these excuses, i just want to die already.
I know I’m gonna end it soon, just not sure what day… before all this trouble I was in I was living a good life. I was happy then 1 night being drunk and stupid I lost it, and end up in jail with 4 assualt charges…. 8 charges total. so I feel I pretty much ruined my life. cuz after trial il be going to jail for 2years. fuck that. ‘ my family is worried about me bcuz they know I’m suicidal, and since I stabbed my self 6 times in the neck 3 years ago. I should have fucking died that time, but […]
Everytime my life gets better, it gets twice as bad after that. Like I’m taking 1 step forward and two steps back. It’s pointless. I still don’t see the point in living. I am trying to get help for my depression. It’s been about a year now, and still, no one knows.
And what really pisses me off is when people say suicide is selfish, and they expect you to stay alive just so they won’t feel guilty. So you can be their mannequin. But they have no idea what you’re going through. They don’t know what it’s like to struggle to survive. If they had […]
i am a fat crap
Hi – I really would like to know how many Amtripalyne I would need to take to ensure death. I’ve taken 60 before of 5mg and woken up 3 days later.
I don’t want to wake up or be in a coma. I want to do the job right.
Some stranger to me called me a moron today; I guess I don’t even care, why should I, they won’t care when I’m gone.
ok so last night I was in my room in complete darkness listening to some catchy tunes. Then I felt really…cold.. and uncomfortable so I went out to the living room (basicaly the whole house was dark) My mom was in another room (the office), and the light shined over towards where I was. I looked at my shadow and instantly wanted to go hang myself, so I raced back to my bedroom and begun the process but stopped myself
Why’d this happen? I could barely control myself, so maybe it was an impulse of some sort?
“I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can’t stand it any longer. It’s the smell, if there is such a thing. I feel saturated by it. I can taste your stink and every time I do, I fear that I’ve somehow been infected by it.” – Agent Smith (The Matrix)
The other night I had an episode…I started to feel like the pain was taking over. Sometimes I can take a long shower and have a good cry and it releases enough tention to come back, but… This time it just seemed to open up my mind to other options. I got out and against my best judgement began to drink and drink and drink… The tears were to much and the hurting in my chest was crushing… I grabbed my keys and jumped in the car racing down the highway. Luckily within the hour I had come down enough to realize I should go […]
I don’t wanna live, but I don’t want to die. I had a dream last night, a man offered to do a double suicide with me; he takes my life and I take his. But I ran, I thought of the pain and ran. Granted, his offer was swords through the gut but it still makes me think that I don’t actually want to die.
I don’t want to live though either. I don’t want a life to distract from.. I don’t know what. I purposefully shun others because I don’t want to be bothered with other, more exciting lives. What most people consider winning(cash, cars, […]
“I shouldn’t be here” is how I would think.
The spirial of thinking in a negative way quickly becomes your justification for exactly the thoughts causing it.
After having everything set out, I knew that the last thing I should do would be to say goodbye. Â I did so on the condition that I met with a professional.
The Human Givings approach is completely different to anything I had heard of previously.
When a cut bleeds, we don’t commit suicide to solve the problem, we put a plaster on and take the neccessary steps to help the wound heal until we take the plaster off and find no trace […]
My english language is my fourth language, so forgive me if the grammar or the words are not correct.
I wanted to share my story, to see if anyone is feels the same like I do.
The thoughts, well, actually more feeling based thoughts, started probably since I was a kid. I grew up with an extremely abusing father, and very poor, in a 3d world country. I didn’t had nothing, but I didn’t wanted nothing either (I am talking about nice clothes or toys) all the way till today, when I am almost 29 years of age. Throughout my life it seems I […]
My life isn’t terrible. In fact, I should be quite happy. No intense pressures, people who love me, I’ve done well for myself and escaped a dysfunctional family.
But the suicidal thoughts are never far away. When I am driving I think about not responding to a curve and letting the car go off the road. Sometimes I find myself in front of the medicine cabinet staring at the bottles. I think of guns and imagine myself pulling the trigger. I’ve recently started hitting myself.
I never think about what it would be like for those left behind.
I’m not afraid of dying. I don’t believe in an […]
Good fucking job, Sierra.
You disappointed her again. Can you do anything right? No? Yeah, that’s what I thought. You’ll never be enough. You’re too much of a mess. No one can fix you. Why do you even keep trying? The results are always the same.Â
You know that you can’t always turn to the razor, right? It just makes things worse. But, you’re good at that. Making things worse, I mean. Really fucking great at that…
You’re fucking beastly. Stop hurting her. She cares about you so fucking much, but you can’t just accept that. How did she even pick you? You don’t deserve her. You’re not good enough, dear. Don’t […]
Counted Calories.Anorexic/Bulimic
Tribal Glory.
Empty Yet Full Stomach.
Passing Time
Heated Water
Legacy Of Insane/Sane
Being this Way has become sane to me.Therefore while in depression mood I am not depressed just sane.And when suicidual I am sane.Tell the doctors I am sane.They just can’t see throughout my eyes They Are Insane!Tell them about the feeling,The hype,The sad joy,And the bitter sweet pain.I want to be sane.Why would you turn me insane?So I could be robotic and dull like the “Normal”People of this damned world?I haven’t time for myself or any of you”Normals”