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Louder

  August 20th, 2009 by mffarrow

Tonight during dinner with my friends I left the table and walked away.  I left my wallet, keys, and mobile phone behind.  None of us realised that I wasn’t coming back.  I don’t know where I went, exactly, but somehow I ended up at home.  I must have broken in.

Why did I leave? Where did I go?  When I woke up, my hands were dirty, and there were scratches on my arm.  There was a knife stuck in the mattress next to me, but no blood.

My brain wants me dead, and I am scared.

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First time failure.

  August 20th, 2009 by sandysuicide

Ok, so I want to talk about the first (and only) suicide attempt I’ve ever made. It took place about a year ago. It was a pretty fucked up time in my life, as I’d just gotten my 2nd DUI and almost at the same time I was breaking up with my girlfriend. I was so in love with this girl I won’t even bother to elaborate on it, as it would probably make most people sick. That said, I was on my way to work one morning shortly after I’d gotten out of jail, and recieved a call from my ex. As we were …

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I’m Not Perfect

  August 20th, 2009 by stormeynight

I’m not perfect and I’m the first one to say that. I cry when people don’t look and I always end up falling in love with people only to be told in a mild sense that I don’t deserve them. It’s always the same. Yes I am 23 and I have never been kissed by a guy or told that they love me or anything because everytime I try to get close to them. I get talked badly about like I AM NOT supposed to love anyone ever. I’m a *****, I’m a whore skank slut whatever. In a way I’m at fault. I lock …

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regressing

  August 19th, 2009 by helper

Hey guys, been off this site for awhile, i was actually pretty proud of myself, been over 2 months since i have self hurt, or contemplated suicide. that was quickly overturned a few days ago, when i learned i was going to a school, a school that contains a girl that used and abused me. she was supposed to be my best friend, and be there for me, i hadn’t had friends in so long, or really ever for that matter, and she was there for me, hung out with me, and made me feel good. but in all this joy, there were tiny red flags that …

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No reason to live, things have only gotten worse.

  August 19th, 2009 by Krisse

I’m 19 years old, and I’ve been through more than any person should in their lifetime.  I’ve been raped twice, the first was by my “loving boyfriend” when I was 15, he said he loved me, and I believed him.  Because of this, I was stupid enough to stay with him.  As if that wasn’t bad enough, he also physically and emotionally abused me constantly.  My so-called friends knew what was going on, and they just sat there and did nothing.   The best day of my life was October 15th 2006 when I got into a car accident and he was killed.  I thought the …

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Suicide :(

  August 18th, 2009 by MjLover123

Im 13 years old and ive been thinking about suicide for a while now .. my grandad passed away in april and i was a huge fan of michael jackson who died at the end of june .. i keep crying at the tragic things that have happend to me .. i want to end my life so i can rest forever instead of my friends mocking me and saying that im obsessed with michael jackson .. i cant even talk to my best friend about my suicide attempt because shel just get mad and think im being silly .. ive always wanted a child …

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why am i still alive?

  August 17th, 2009 by peppermint

hi, i am new here (sorry about my bad english) and i was hoping that i could finally tell how i feel and maybe.. someone would understand and listen. well, i feel like shit and i don’t fit in to my familys perfect world. my friends don’t take me seriously and my grandfather likes to hit me.

i guess this all began when i was 12 because he hit me for the first time (i am now 18) i don’t know why but my grandfather has always hated me. when i was 14 he told me that i am a pathetic asshole and terrible big sister …

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It’s been a while…

  August 17th, 2009 by erased_orion

It’s been a while since i’ve been here….i wonder if that’s a good thing or not. Still, im glad there’s some place i can vent all of this.

Really, i don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want there to be a name for this feeling…Im not sure what i should do next.

I still cut. I don’t know why they just set it aside….im trying to ask for help, really i am. It took a lot for me to take that step and ask, but all they did is ignore it and act like it doesnt matter if i disappeared from the face of the planet. …

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to the wounded

  August 16th, 2009 by Looney

hi to all my fellow suiciders out there.  i would like to encourage you to just read what i have to say.  recently it was drawn to my attention that there were so many suicidal cases through out america even in iraq where all of our soldiers are fighting.   so in all faithfullness i along with many others have dedicated our time to help or talk to those who are going through these episodes.  I am a soldier deploying to Iraq.  please email me when you get the change at virgak47@yahoo.com or google virgak47@gmail.com.  please take this as a way out of realy …

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suicide as a hopeful thing

  August 16th, 2009 by heidi

Hi all, i’m new. i’m feeling suicidal, having been on and off for some time. But for me it is a source of hope. I feel as if the universe is telling me that my presence is no longer required. I can’t find work, i’m running out of money, i have serious health problems and no insurance and i will probably lose my house. my great fear is that i will be forced to live in my car. i think if i was told today that i had terminal cancer i would kiss the doctor. it would be such a relief.

Planning my death gives focus …

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At least here noone actually knows me..

  August 15th, 2009 by Spinni

[I WARN YOU NOW THIS IS LONG]

I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.

Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it …

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Parasites

  August 15th, 2009 by disconnect

Humanity and civilization are complete parasites. Little viruses destroying the Earth. I can’t live in this world.  I can’t find any sort of “reason” or “goal” to live. To make money? To work and slave to “live”? To repeat everything, over and over in the same boring routine. I hurt everyone I love. Everyone leaves everyone, no point in even starting to get to know someone. Everything will ALWAYS fall apart. And i see no matter to living to be consistenetly dissatisfied and hurt. Living a life miserably is no way to live.

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My Life is unormal

  August 14th, 2009 by Unormal life

I don’t want to write a long text.

I don’t want to go to school, I am afraid of failing in School in Life ,being homeless..

I got the choice suicide or not?

I am 14 retoke 7th Grade I am now getting in 8th.

Why am I still alive? What is keeping me from suicide?

For a fact from my life now it’s great, but school is startin and I am so scared, afraid of failing.

I am broken down I am forteen and I still wet the bed.\

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into the shadow of darkness

  August 13th, 2009 by suicide4me

Well I think the time has finnaly come for me to step into the shadow of darkness

I’ve lost my job, I have no family or friends, no pets, no plants, no reasion to live,

obese and 54, no hope for tommarow, I’m broke, soon to be homeless, no sex, no loves, and when I pass no-one will notice till my landlord checks my apartment because I haven’t paid my rent.

Well it’s time

goodbye

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this is it…

  August 13th, 2009 by cindyinNH

i feel like i am slowly drowning myself in mindless shit… i have settled for a life that makes me unhappy simply because i know there is nothing better for me out there. the only person that keeps me  from doing anything stupid is my son..  but yesterday the asshole i have settled with just reminded me of everything wrong with me.. how i am with him because he was the only one willing to be with me cause i am fat, ugly, and dont have much going for me. how i am thousands of dollars in debt, don’t have a driver’s license, have a dead end …

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what to do…

  August 13th, 2009 by cook2012

what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the …

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i’d really love to help

  August 12th, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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Worthless.

  August 11th, 2009 by GenerationxPlastik

You can choose to read this or not. I know it’s long.

I’m 17.
Ever since I can remember I’ve been witnessing abuse in my household.

When I was 4, I remember seeing my parents fist fight all the time, & I could never understand why. I remember seeing a few relatives standing in my doorway, but I don’t know why they were standing there, or if they really were there at all. I got my first taste of first-hand violence when I was 5. My mom was holding me in her arms while my dad was punching away at her face. & I remember asking him to …

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Rejected.

  August 11th, 2009 by Jess66

I feel rejected. The other night I got into a huge fight with my parents, they were screaming about how they have known I “have problems” for 3 years now and then kicked me out (I don’t have a car) so they told me to go walk, I walked to the streets for two hours and alone and crying, because I felt like they didn’t love me. And it sucks becuase I didn’t have any one else to tell who I felt would give a shit. But there’s one person whom is so extremely nice and caring but, I hate burdening them with my problems all …

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No hope for the heart broken

  August 11th, 2009 by BrodieSwankie

im sorry everyone but i couldnt find another way out life is too hard when every one you love just hurts you in the end life has been hard im sick of being depressed all the time i was only ever really happy with chantal i started to get depressed after peter took his own life i miss him so much i think life would of been good if he was still here i hope to see him in the after life what ever that might be i have tryed to kill my self befor a fewtimes and not just over chantal but im ready …

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