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Habitual Disease~

  May 19th, 2010 by SempaiRuinz

“I really don’t see the point, in all of this, anymore. Things would be better if I just ended it. I think I might…”

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This is why, though they’ll never know

  May 19th, 2010 by Just a stupid kid

My past doesn’t really matter now, although the wounds still run deep in the hearts of my family and friends. I’m ashamed to say that I made those cuts and sores within them everytime I tried to hurt myself. This could be interpreted as me being self-centered which is not my intention, I just realise how much my actions effect other people around me and I’ll take responsibility for that.

I haven’t been a member of this website for very long, but I’m choosing to write now, because my one pressing reason to kill myself is something that I can’t bear to talk about with anyone. …

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Is it worth carrying on?

  May 19th, 2010 by payback

I’m 50 and have suffered with an incurable kidney disease since I was 16, I also have osteo arthritis in a hip. I have faced six open surgerys, I have to take nearly 100 tablets a day and drink 6-8litres of fluid a day.
For the last 5 or more years I have been suffering with severe depression as well, I tried to take my life once but couldn’t do that right, they just locked me up for a month….. I get so much pain that it makes me feel sick and the sweat runs down my back, I have to have carers in three times …

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So…

  May 19th, 2010 by Anna

My name’s Anna and I’ve posted a great many things here before, so if you’re interested in my ‘back-story’ so-to-speak, please search my name on the post dashboard, because this isn’t me talking about the same stuff and therefore I cannot quite be bothered to re-type it all. But, I digress…

I have a problem today.

The day I had scheduled to commit suicide has become… impractical. My boyfriend and I have booked a holiday for about a month after it. The initial plan was to complete everything scheduled for after the date beforehand, so that I could die all in peace and whatever else. But now …

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Stop hurting me !

  May 18th, 2010 by EmoChick

Okay you do that. After threathing to burn my house down, breaking my nose (having to go get surgery witch cost over $2000), giving me brusies and scares, hiting me with a knife, beating me up, and chocking me. And you say if my dad calls the cops on you that your gonna kill me. Why don’t you kill me already so my dad will just call the cops on you and then my death wouldnt look sucidal but like a murder. It would be perfect you would get the punisment you desreve and i would be in a better place. I cared for you …

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I’m going crazy right now.

  May 18th, 2010 by Shorty

I don’t know right now. I was seriously going to do it tonight but I just don’t know.

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I need help please.

  May 18th, 2010 by imsorrymom

“Suicide is a game that you dont win, you just decide when to lose” – R.M.

i have a question to those online right now or who ever. if i am really really depressed and want to kill myself about every minute of every day, how do i reverse that? lately i just dont think im going to make it to august. Lately i actually want to die. no “real” hesitations, just looking in the past for clues where i went wrong.

P.S. If any of you noticed, i am new here so sorry if i suck at it or i put crap that dosent make sense.

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What is the truth?

  May 17th, 2010 by loreildarksky

Today I found that my Dad is in the hospital. It’s nothing serious, apparently, but they’re going to keep watch on his shoulder, which is broken.

Thinking about this has made me wonder.

He’s always hurting himself, by working too hard. That’s all he ever does; work. He’s hardly ever home, an lives on a different planet. He can’t communicate.

It makes me wonder; he doesn’t have to work so much. He’s wearing himself into the ground for no reason.

Is it because he doesn’t want to be around us?

Or around me?

I wouldn’t be surprised. No one in my family really likes me– in fact, they can’t stand me.

I …

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  May 17th, 2010 by nicky

Me at my school seeing my dead boyfriend. i think im going crazy.

me: Why did you leave?

him: Because you wouldn’t listen to me.

Me: that didnt give give the right to do it.

Him: yes it did. i told you not to go.

Me:  Come back. I wont do it again i promise.

Him: Its to late im gone. you should have thought twice i just did that to protect you and you just went behind my back and did what you always have done.

Me: But i had to i didn’t do anything wrong you were just to scared to do what anyone else would have done. you …

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You are not alone

  May 17th, 2010 by Baby Blud

My name is Zoe and i am 20 years old. From the age of 6 i have suffered from manic depression due to certain circumstances in my life, that if you don’t mind i would rather keep private. Due to these circumstances, at the age of 12, i began dappling in crime, drugs, alcohol and began experimenting with my sexuality. I became hooked on hard drugs at the tender age of 15 and at age 16 left my parents house to seek my own life, although i had no money, no qualifications as i did poorly at school and no job or home. I was …

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LIFE IS SAD :(

  May 17th, 2010 by love death or live life

dosnt life get every one down?? but for some it s more than usual for e.g me im 15 and suffer from mild to serious deppersion and it sucks being sad and having suicidal thoughts in my head every day,feeling alone is normal for me.. the only time im happy is when im with my boyfriend.But other wise life gets me down my whole family not talking to me ,my freinds at school mates are starting to diss own me no wonder why im feeling alone all the time… its like iv got no one to lean on no one to support me…

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exactly nothing left just one more to go..me

  May 17th, 2010 by nicky

What if it happens again. What if everything changes. Everything’s gone down a big hill and now its almost over. Since you left every things changed everything including me. Nothings the same i feel nothing sometimes its so hard to see. i do so many things that you would be ashamed of things that you would stop me from doing. But not now anymore no ones going to stop me. i want to die i just want to leave this world full of lies people that cant control anything. i thought that i would never be like this again i promised myself but that doesn’t …

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Suicide

  May 17th, 2010 by want2die

I’m 15 years old… and I want to die now bcoz everyone says that I have no future I’m not good in studies and my mother says that it’s better that you just gone.. so the day she said that (3days back) I thought maybe I should try killing myself but now I’m thinking how to do it (any ideas?)… well now I’m gonna die tomorrow I’m jumping from the 4thfloor of the stovner center.. I’m gonna call everyone I know first just to say bye I’m going but wont tell them where… well not my dad coz I have not met him since he …

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another way

  May 17th, 2010 by what do u think

im a 28 yr old who feels like hes telling just another sad story and yeah i kno some people prob do have it worse but they are not me and i am not them. it all started anout 4 yrs ago when i left my kids mom who are now 7 and 4 we had previously broken up numerous tome cuz we just had different live and we werent really a couple. she took the break up pretty hard and moved 12 hours away telling mre she would be back and i feeling sorry for her let them go little did i kno she …

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so lost and alone

  May 17th, 2010 by lostsoul

i just dont no wat to do anymore everythin has become such an effort even to get out of bed in the morning… ive tried to end it once before and im getting to the point where i want to again my friends just dont understand wats going on and just push me away i feels so alone and lost please help

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Tyrant

  May 17th, 2010 by steven

I’m the tyrant that is the cause of your death. i cause you to suffer and sob while i looked and didn’t care. Only anger was what came from me. I looked at you cry and it made me want to scream at you to shut up. It made me want to cause more pain and suffering for you. it made me happy to know i was doing this. It helped ME. Only me. That is who i cared about. But i will show you kindness. Kindness i make you believe is true and pure. But it is simply a mask. A mask for hate …

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I need help this is not a joke. (NO RELIGION PLEASE)

  May 17th, 2010 by DEADALREADY

First: I am hopelessly alone. Second: because of this I think about killing myself almost constantly. Third: so I am trying enjoy what I can (which is very little) just so I can stay content enough not to kill myself. Something specific: I have a very strong attraction to my step-sister, more specifically, her feet (but not just her feet). What I want is to be able to take good pictures of her feet, with her consent, and I don’t want anybody to know about it except for me and her. The problems with this are: She has a long time …

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suicide weeks over…

  May 17th, 2010 by imsorrymom

and i dont feel safe anymore. tomorrows the last day i will wear that yellow ribbon for suicide awareness. it was a shield. against my gun. now im alone. again. im feel sad again. i cry. icry i cry i cry. my mom will cry. they will wear black at my funeral. i have til the end of the summer to turn my life around with pure luck or they will wear black to a closed casket. i still cry though. i temp myself by putting  my gun to my head. loaded, cocked, ready. finger on trigger. but i dont pull. i just need to …

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I’m such a Selfish *****

  May 16th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I’m spending the whole day with Alyson.

She gave me the biggest scare I’ve ever felt in my whole entire life last night when I was at her house, and I knew I needed to spend more time with her then, I can’t leave her alone for a minute, I’m too scared. I don’t want her to leave me at all, but I don’t want her to leave me when I’m not there to hold her hand.

I was sitting talking with her like I always do, laughing about something that happened at school this week, when all of sudden she started acting like she was choking, and …

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If I only knew then what I know now!

  May 16th, 2010 by mark88

      I have read a few of the other posts here and I believe that I’m a bit older then many of you. Here is my story. I always felt like I was different from everyone else, but didn’t start having thoughts of suicide until I was 14. Even then it was only once in a while.I made it through high school and one year of college without an attempt, although the feelings became increasingly worse every f***ing day! In high school I pretended I was fine. When I was around anyone  I always had a smile or a funny comment. No one, especially my …

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