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Fight for life…

June 13th, 2008by faerie

It’s never easy to think of suicide as just to end your life. It’s more than just slitting your wrist, popping pills, poisoning by gas fumes or running over a cliff.

my entire life, i’ve been nothing but a huge scar. You see a sweet girl one day, then you start to see what sort of pain is really hiding inside of my heart.

I am very anemic and my heart is very weak. I couldn’t breathe sometimes due to post-traumatic stress. I had 3 blood transfusions in the past and one day may need heart surgery. But I lived with this torn heart.

I …

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If Anyone Cares…

June 13th, 2008by Irrel_Avant

Growing up I was really poor but I was always told, “You are going to be something great!”. School was so easy most of the time I felt like I wasn’t challenged enough. I have always been good at most things I try. Girls have always wanted to be with me. I’m smart, wise, artistic, good looking and athletic. I can do everything from paint portraits to fly a plane, all self-taught! I have a wonderful girlfriend who is everything I ever wanted in a girl. But I feel so lonely. So empty…. My heart hurts and I don’t know why. I feel like I …

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I’m Sorry

June 12th, 2008by pauldugan13

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY

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i made a mistake

June 11th, 2008by sad and trapped

i know so much. i know things that my boss did, that are wrong, but i have no proof, and his victims will not speak. i try so hard. all i want is to be a superhero and do the right thing i just want to live a life like in the comic books. to fight crime. i think that is how i will die, saving someone, because jesus said there is no greater act than to lay down your life for somone else. i am crying, i have a gun and i really want to use it on me. i want to die, …

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ready to die

June 10th, 2008by doesnt matter

i am a married white male 47 years old married for 24 years or so been with my wife for 26 or 27 years. have a first grandchild on the way (its a girl). but i am thinking i wont be around to see her.but its ok . i did my best raiseing 3 sons none of which can even stand to be around me. all in all i am not that bad of a person but people precieve me that way.had one affair on my wife . she would have you believe it was 7-8 but its just not true.i lost one week of …

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Living on …..

June 7th, 2008by shumph

I now look back and realize that I have been suffering from different degree’s of anxiety and depression over a number of years, from a number of triggers.

My story, I hope, will give people hope and let them live through my experience. I am a normal person and if anyone of my close friends or work colleagues were asked to describe me, I would certainly know they would say that I have a super positive attitude, have a great sense of humour, always happy and always willing to do anything for anybody.
A very normal happy person……..of which many look at me as a role …

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Why me ?

June 6th, 2008by Xgothikal-emo-bbeX

People allways think that bullying doesn’t hurt well I can prove them wrong ! Way wrong !
I get bullied because of what my mum is . Because of what I am . Why does it allways happen to me ?
I get it all the time . My family and friends stick by me but half the time I just want to end the lot ! No more suffering ! No more pain ! No more bullies ! No more torture !
But does it solve anything at all ?
Well the answer is no !
It helps them win ! They allways pick on the people …

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People

June 6th, 2008by Xgothikal-emo-bbeX

It was verry hard goin to high school,meeting new people for the first time but I knew I wouldn’t fit in with these people.My mum was a lesbian.People soon found out and I was tormented by it.I felt I couldn’t deal with all the trouble as well as my school work. It was causing my grades to fall dramaticaly and I wouldn’t tell no one.I was afraid , thinking people would class me the same.People found it funny to be bullying me and it was causing me to self harm.I hid the cuts by using make-up.I thought it would be better to end my life …

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I’m Sorry I am NOW Happy

June 3rd, 2008by pauldugan13

I’m Sorry..

EAT DOG SHIT FOREVER !!!!!!

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Ready

June 3rd, 2008by BAM

I was really surprised such a site existed where we can discuss wanting death and not be put away.

I’ve already been there, wrongfully.

I’m a writer, it’s the only thing I’m good at and it’s gotten me into trouble. Back along, I was expelled from school because I blogged in a dark lamenting sort of fashion.
I didn’t mean anything by it, but the school had enough. They didn’t want to be liable.
It was actually two ex friends who gave me away. They destroyed my life like I was an ant.
They expelled me because they thought I would kill students or myself.
They washed their …

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why me.

June 2nd, 2008by m0ntana

if you want to know my life traumas comment on this.and ill get back to you.

so im 16 & on the outside i look fine and normal.
but wait till you take my clothes and layers off.
im one big scar. i have to many cuts to count. i have to hide them everyday from my sibblings.
i try to be happy,i swear.
i LOVE to cut,thats the problem..i love the feeling.
i use to use a key to cut,it left a nice scar.
then i moved onto scissors,and they left little scars.
so i moved onto a knife with teeth..i also punch things tempting to break my hand..but instead it just …

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Its my fault

June 1st, 2008by blonde

I once thought i was coping well till i hit rock bottom It started when i was about 14 when i got beat up and we moved away from the area i grow up in i was never close to my mum so all i had was my dad but then he got cancer i becambe his carer he was only 44 he was young i never thought i’d lose him but in 2001 he died i was there when he died and from that moment on i was on my own no one held me and gave me support i felt like i had …

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Untitled

May 28th, 2008by TkElle

I’ve literally been aware of this website for no longer than five minutes, but I can’t explain how relieved I feel for having typed ‘suicide’ in a search engine. Some of the stories I scanned are heart-wrenching and I don’t feel I can compare (even though that isn’t the point), or even justify why I feel so awful. I’m 15, and in the midst of my examinations. I find it impossible to revise for them, maybe because I have a constant thought of how I may fail if I don’t revise. But that makes the process worse. I feel pressured by myself – guilt-tripped in …

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life and trials

May 27th, 2008by andrewk5

Hello my name is andrew and Iam writing this because Iam at a crossroad in my life on weather to live or die. through out my child I was raped by adults and some of them are family but some how I made it through even if I block out the pain I tred to kill myself onces and did not get my wish but I here today still dealing with the pain of my life Iam considering it again but something keeps telling me you will regret it I don’t no where to go in my life I feel as if my …

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I don’t know who is going to read this

May 27th, 2008by terynbaugh

Hi I just have been feeling the need to share my story with someone and this seems the place to do. I am 25 years old I have two children and a year ago I tried to kill myself. It is something that has become an everyday question as to was it really that bad that I needed to end my own life. Well at the time it was but now I realize that it would have stop my pain but only increased the pain of my family. I understand that everyone is different, but from first hand experience I am …

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May 27th, 2008by malisala

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I wish i was dead!!!

May 27th, 2008by malisala

Hello i am 21 years old and a survivor of rape. I was raped over a period of 4 years. Life has not been the same for me since. I started self-harming when i was 13 two years after the rapes started. It quickly became an obsession for me and i am now addicted to it. It is the only thing that will take the pain away for me. I really feel now that my need to die is greater than my need to live. It is all i think about he has won and i have lost. I have tried to be strong but …

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blah. im alone in the world

May 25th, 2008by emilyyyy3

ok, so i am 14 years old, a freshman in highschool. my father died when i was three years old and i have been trying to deal since then. i have been depressed for about 6 years. i try to tell my mom but she just doesnt get it. i talk to this lady at my school but she doesnt know the whole truth. i started cutting at the beginning of second semester and i havent stopped since. i dont try to hide them cuz i just want someone to notice and to care. but no one has said anything yet. i used to have …

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limits

May 25th, 2008by Georgia

everyone has limits. I’ve spent most of the past ten years close to mine. I’ve reached them a few times too. I’m sick of being the one who helps everyone else be happy, get things fixed and such. I get the message though. Someone out there has decided things shouldn’t go right for me, I shouldn’t be happy. I’ve had enough of being miserable, putting on a brave face and being there for everyone else.

I have HIV, i’m the most careful person iknow when it comes to condoms, and i still managed to get infected. most of my …

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A Happy ending

May 21st, 2008by ncemtchick

I have suffered from depression all my life. It wasn’t until age 34 that i was finally diagnosed with Bipolar II. I first tried to kill myself when i was 20 yo. Then I went into a drunken and medicated rage when i was 34. I attempted suicide 5 times during a 2 year period. Fortunately my life has turned around and I love life now. I haven’t done this by myself. I have a wonderful psychiatrist that has literally saved my life. I also have a therapist that has saved me from myself. I just wanted to share this and hope it can …

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