I’ve went through my whole life feeling like I was different from everyone else. I knew I was smarter than the grades I got through every grade of school. When I went to college I failed out in two semesters. I just have nomotivation to do anything and it seems like it gets worse as time goes on. I can’t find a job because I have criminal history, so I’m leaching off of my dad. The fact that no one else my age is in the position I am makes me feel like I’m lagging behind, destined to fail. Most of the time I […]
Outwardly, nothing would seem wrong in my life…I am a research scholar in a reputed university..have done really well in my studies up till now..have a proper family and a bunch of friends..but I have been single all my life…It was by choice up till now..I come from a society which gives a lot of emphasis on marriage and like everything else, the society itself has fixed norms..a certain age to get married, a certain age to have kids…I find al this absurd..but right now, I am under so much pressure from all sides I dont know what to do…Arranged marriage is a very common […]
Like the title said,”Why do i even try?” I try to get help. No fucking used. They just never replied back. I told my mom about the bullying. What do i get? Support. Is that a bad thing? Not really but all i feel is support no care. Why do i care about people? I dont know i just dont know. Do i get any care? Barely! I just cant feel it anymore. Why do i even try? Why do i try so hard? Since yesterday last night i barely can breath. I barely can breath right now? I just want some extension cord and […]
I don’t even know where to begin. I’v always had a good home life. Parents are still together.. they have never been abusive to me or eachother. They have always supported me no matter what.
I’m not rich, but i’m not poor. We’ve always been able to afford the necessities and a few luxuries.
I am intelligent and have I have high self esteem.
Up until i graduated high school i was always bullied for being fat.. although i lost weight and I have been skinny since 9th grade. Does that make sense? no, it doesn’t. I stopped caring and I have felt good about […]
I am 20 years of age I lost my mum a year ago my gf has left me and taken my faugther with her and I recently found out she is sleepug with somebody I used to be friendds with I have lost the will to live
the only fucking pepole who deserve to be bullied are the pepole who actually bully others i mena serioiusly this can significatley fuck up pepole i mean honestly columbine was probaly because a kid was picked on and it was his cry for help look at ed gein he was a pshychopath because he was rejectede and bullied and babyed by his fucking mother and he went fucking insane i mena what do you get from bullying pepole i truely fucking hate all bullys so if your a bully go fuck yourself and yes this is comeing from someone who has all been a reject […]
It’s my 19th birthday next Monday and most normal people at the age of 19, in Scotland, go out to work, go out drinking at night with friends and get in and out of relationships with loads of girls. Whereas me, I’ll be in the house playing call of duty trying to avoid reality until my 20th birthday watching my friends get girlfriends, get paid from their jobs, go on holidays and generally enjoy their lives, hanging out with me at my house purely out of pity. That has been the sequence for the 17th and 18th years of my life so why should my […]
I stumbled across this website while researching some “things” and wanted to say hello ~
This is the part where I have to fight on my own.
When He ripped out my heart, now I’m dying alone.
The pain is unbearable, it’s beyond my control.
But it’s what I deserve, what I have to pay, this toll.
I tried to climb out of this living Hell, but Satan pulled me back down.
I wish I could just die, anything. loss of blood, hanging, or drown.
I can’t breathe anymore, and I’ve given up hope.
I want to keep myself busy, but I just can’t cope.
My sorrow suffocates me, while my maladies bury me alive.
And I sit around all day, just waiting to die.
I cry all night long, wondering […]
She loves everyone
Her arms are always welcoming
Until they were cut off
Nobody Appears
Nobody speaks to her
She only sees what she used to have
She looks at the clock
And sees it’s her time to die
Grabs the pills
Swallows
Without even saying goodbye
*I’m not a good poet it was just a a whim
anyone from CA?
i’m in my mid 30s. i love myself. i love my family. i was
given a good life (intelligent, attractive, talented, etc) –
but i would never wish my life experience upon anyone.
what brings me here is i am entirely 100% alone. i go days
without talking to anyone besides my family on the phone or
salespeople at stores. i’ve never been able to bond with
people. i never had many friends growing up, but i crave it
so badly. i’ve always wanted a great relationship and/or
great group of friends but so far the count is still at […]
well im 16 but ive been through a lifetime of hardship and heartache i mean ive been down and out for yars and writng or typing it out helps and ive never had anyone to are to see if that would help i men i truely have wanted to commit suicide and yes ive cut myself and tried pill but i just cant do it because of my fiance i think she cares but she just dousnot understand what ive been through well to start off my dad was a heavy alcoholic and he had an accident when i wa sin 5th grade and then […]
I’d like to say it was my most recent job, but I’ve been fired from one since then, too. So it makes using this site extra painful. Rubs salt in one of my many open wounds. I don’t think I’ll ever work again. There’s no point in trying. No point in trying anything. I want so desperately for a woman to care about me, but there’s no point in trying to find one. There is only more failure.
Wow, I really love life. I have had a month of trying to get to a place where I am depressed enough to take my life. In that month I see that life is something really special. Every thing is so clear. I want to live.
Circumstances dictate that suicide is the only way to not face consequences of my own making.
One moment a person is alive, and the next life is gone.
Just what is on the other side ?
What if I find once there, I really don’t like the accomodations and want to leave ? Kind of hard to reverse a […]
im a 0 or less on 1-10 so its done. but more itsa total overall with no real mater even though im a reject failier. fungh shosh hmm shhhhh
i know life last foever so if i die i still exsist.
Depressions eats away at my mind every single day, some more so than others but it’s always there. Some bad things have happened in my short 18 years on this earth but the events of Saturday night have hit me intesenly and I don’t know if I can recover and even if I can I don’t think I want to. Saturday night started as a trip to visit the family that I call my own, even though they aren’t exactly. They were at a friends having dinner so I went and joined them. We started drinking and playing some card games and people started going […]
how do i check myself into a state hospital? I’ve been in local care but want to go to state. how?
I tried to kill myself today. Even had the rope around my neck. The knot was tied. I couldn’t do it. I don’t know for sure if death will end my pain. I wish I wasn’t so alone.