I’m 46,married but I like guys I have 3 teenage kids, job that does’nt pay the bills, an alcoholic and been chased out of local AA, overweight, no passion, kids do drugs, kids are on probation, dogs and cats have ruined house, car broke, phone broke, tv’s been shut off, computer broke, been writting a suicide letter for weeks. Funeral plans are mostly done. what’s I dont get is why im still here, why I take a shower in the morning. mostly worried my kids will do the same after i’m gone… wtf
I have to do this.It’s not a choice for me because I know deep down inside once things get better they will get worse 100%.there’s 1 million questions but no answers so why create theories? why wait for failure?I think about suicide all the time sad,happy,bored it doesn’t matter what I do it’s still going to be there.I can’t run with broken legs
So much has been going on. I hate it all. I hate my life. I want to die. So let me die.
The boy I like has been noticing me more.. he’s been talking to me a lot lately, and I catch him looking at me. I want something to happen between us. But I’m scared if he knew everything about me he’d run in the other direction.
I found this…just on the sidewalk. I don’t believe in coincedences or anything but it ‘spoke’ to me…
Move on.
It’s just a chapter in the past.
But don’t close the book.
Just turn the page.
Hey guys i wanted to say that my numbers were erased, so if you can just text me again and i’ll program you in 🙂 thanks.
There are times when I lose hope. When everything seems to be falling apart and I’m getting hit left and right. There are times when I want to give up and let the darkness swallow me. But then I think…what good will it do? I’ve been to that dark place…the place where god no longer exsists and not even your family and friends can save you. In that place you search and search for that one thing that will save you. Yourself. But it’s hard…it’s hard to figure out something that could be so easy to know. Yet it’s gone. And you struggle and struggle […]
i dont think i can do it anymore. my depression is so bad it is almost palpable, a crushign weight bearing down on me. I feel like I’m trying to carry and elephant on my shoulders, while trying to make everyone around me think it is a parrot. It hurts physically to move, I don’t want to eat. I’m not tired, but I just want to go to bed.
And nobody cares. At least I dont.
I cant deal with this anymore.
Hello.
It is 26 July, my name is Harry, it is my real name. I respect all the readers of this story, so I`ll be honest and upfront with you. I am from a black past, no family, no one who cares for me. I am 34 years now, and look back on a extreme hard life where I had to pay for everything myself from off the moment I was a child. I am raised by the state, in a church institution, and was learned everything the hard way, the assumed I was going to become a bad boy. I got extra attention cause of […]
I’m not an angst riddled teenager. I know that I am loved. I know that I am worthwhile, smart, attractive and could make a difference in the world.
But life is hard, it is tiring. It is one obstacle after another, most of which I suppose you learn from, eventually enriching your life experiences. I admit, my life has had more obstacles than many peoples. For one thing I have chronic medical conditions which have severely impacted my quality of life, loosing jobs, having to drop out of school multiple times, and putting me in ongoing debt, even with government assistance and insurance. I also have […]
I can not stand this place anymore. I need any and all ideas on how to do the final deed but I want it to appear natural so my wife will get insurance money and no one will realize it wasn’t suicide. I am a grown man (mid 30’s) with good core values. I served in the military and paid for my GI Bill out of my first years’ salary. I had a girlfriend going in that I was gonna marry when I got out. She sent me a letter saying she was sorry but she messed around and didn’t want to be with me. […]
I just want to talk to somebody, please.
I have skype
My best friend last year died in a suicide. His wife had cheated on him and I knew he was dangerous and I tried to save him and his career without involving authorities. One day he failed to check in at work and I suspected the worse and visited his home. I opened the door and he was laying in front of me where he had shot himself with a very high powered rifle. The stuff was everywhere. My heart hit the floor. Ever since then I made contact with an old close friend that happened to have been a married woman. At that very […]
So I was originally googling best methods for suicide and came across this site. I thought there might as well be one place I wrote the truth.
The reason I want to kill myself, is I’ve lost who I was, everything. My friends, talent, school marks, personality. Lets just say I’m a complete failure.
I think I am a perfectionist, I needed to be reassured so that I didnt fade into a nobody, but hey too late for that!
One night in the city waiting for a lift a man tried to rape me in a dirty bathroom, He ripped off my shirt and touched me, I […]
So.. Like many, I am new at this. I have never written a blog or a journal where other people can see it, the only things I have written have been for my eyes only. I’ve read other people’s entries from here, some about how they can’t deal with life anymore, some about how they are feeling as they write and others about how their families are suffering. I feel for you.
Reading other people’s stories has made me figure out that the feelings that I am feeling are real, that other people out there are feeling the same, and it’s nice to know that I’m […]
I had a big future ahead of me, not to brag or anything but I’m pretty smart for my age, and kind of attractive, awesome grades and stuff, good health, etc. then I got culture shock(in a foreign country). try living without any friends or social life for a year. I stopped taking my “happy” pills (they’re not exactly antidepressants)because they weren’t working. I went into a deep depression and tried to kill myself several times but I stopped like 2 months ago. I really miss cutting and burning my arm, its all my dad’s fault. he thinks he’s helping me, taking away things I love […]
my urge to cut has gotten really bad i wanna do it
I am a 15 year old that has had the roughest years ever to start i think i might be anarexic cuz i skip lunch and think im fat all the time and weigh 140 lbs. My parents hate me they actually make fun of me and dont take my opinions into account and my dad found gay porn on my computer i mean i dont really wanna be gay it all started in 4th grade everyone called me gay cuz i hung out girls so i turned gay cuz everyone said so and im not proud of it and i dont get horny […]
Ok hi everyone I’m new to this and I just joined. All of you seem like good people so I’ll give it a try. So pretty much for a year or two I haven’t been feeling like myself anymore. My brain feels all messed up and I just can’t think straight. I found out not too long ago that I have anxiety and I’ve been having anxiety attacks. I’m kinda still finding out how to control it but it’s still not good. A lot of stuff has happend to me, mostly me being heart broken.. I know a girl that uses this too and I’m […]
I am not sure why I came to this site. I have been there. I cry everytime I read that people are hurting so.
So many of you are so young, it’s so sad to hear your giving up. I went thru the same horrible crap when I was your age too. I tried a few times to leave but never worked out right.
I still have times where I don’t think I can make it anymore but I pull thru. Life is what you make it. There is help to get out of home situations if you can not take it anymore.
Please live […]