a thought came to me when I was in the bath just now. I wish I was a child again. I have more courage then. I didn’t stop to think whether I will succeed. I just want to die and i did wat i thought will kill. no worries or thoughts of my family suffering. everytime i decide to give myself time, to try again, i only end up hurting myself. im so tired of trying. so tired of pushing myself. so tired of hurting myself. i do alot but they are never enough. i try to smile, act happy but inside i cry and no […]
something happen to me last night . the way that the moon was looking at me. it was like i was dying on the in side.none stop blood burning in inside my body. the pain just feels sp real and there was nothing to do to stop it. crying for help and no one comes to help me but somw how i knew that no one was going to come for me no one can here me at all . the scream’s i doall thru the night . the pain is killing me from the inside out. CAN SOMEONE JUST HELP ME FRO ONES! stop […]
I’m back. I went away for a while, believing that things are getting better. But they are not. They just get worse. Try and try. Go out, talk to ppl. Only make me realize hw lonely I am. It’s all wrong. I wonder what went wrong. Now I’m like a zombie waiting for my time out. That urge to push me off. Keep thinking of jumping. Have nightmares of them. A premonition…my head hurts so fucking much!! Like gonna burst.Cant stand it. i wish im dead. ill be better off dead.
Why do I even go? It’s not like I can really talk to them?
They probably tell anyone who would listen.. especially my family.
My whole life I have been rejected by everyone around me. My friends have left me at every corner, my family no longer talks to me, I feel lost, disappointed and constant emotional pain. In 2010 I tried to focus on university and work, while ignoring and attempting to make the most of my situation. However things became harder. I lost my motivation, I was left by the few friends I had and at 19 I had never kissed a boy, as I was afraid of being judged at left by the one thing I had, my family. This year I finally decided to deal […]
I havent been here for a while now. Cause I thought I was better. But I’m not. The reality of it is I’m worse than I was before. It’s just that now I’m ignoring the pain as it’s sucking me in deeper and deeper. Nobody wants to talk to me. I stare at my phone hoping someone will. But they don’t. I more alone than I’ve ever been. I just want it all to end. I can’t take it. I heard a knock upon my door the other day I opened It to find death staring in my face. This is my new favorite song. […]
I’m gonna fucking do it tomorrow night… but I’m unsure.. emotionally I wanna do it but physical me is to scared…. Inside I know this is wrong.  I’m fucked up okay? Theres nothing left of me. I’ve been fucked over to many time. I lost trust… Today at like 10 pm i was walking down the streeet with friends and I look at houses and I imagine people just having fun… I would be in there… but i’ve fucked things up to be there… just a few seconds ago my GF dumped me and told me I was cheating on her… And i didn’t know how to […]
I am so lonely. So hated. So stupid. I should just kill myself now. Nobody would notice, nobody would care.
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I don’t know who is going to read this
i find this very interesting, It really grab my attenion. I self harm myself by scratching deep into my back till it leaves marks on my back. It may hurt but i dont care.I just though i might share it with you guys.
I would assume a large amount of people here know about a.s.h, or least know what it was. If you don’t, google it. It was around from about early ’88 to the early..maybe mid 2000’s (though I don’t think it was that late..most recent thing I found was 2001.) So it’s been a really long time but, I’m curious if anyone knows if it’s around in one form or another anymore. I’m almost positive that the only thing still existing is the archives, but anyone know anything else?
just got back from a weekend recovery for guys who were raped as kids. it was incredibly confronting. I got back and streight into the hands of centrelink and their bumbling. I really arent in a position to deal with this righ now I am hurting all over and I am a train wreck IDK what to do I am jus so exhausted
I was sixteen years old when my first boyfriend broke my heart. We were madly in love with one another. We knew everything about one another and loved everything about eachother through the good and the bad. We made plans to get married and have a family some day. A year into the relationship he broke up with me for no good reason at all. I was completely devastated. I didnt know what to do. It felt like my whole life was just ripped away from me. I spent all my time with him, i hung out with his friends, he was apart of me. […]
No, I don’t have enough money to fly the kids all over the US.
I don’t have enough to keep paying all of the bills.
And my boss enjoys reviewing my performance and pissing in my face on a regular basis.
I have a gun, why haven’t I stuck it in my mouth?
I’ll figure that one out soon.
I’m not exactly sure what to do anymore. My best friend suggests I get help and I know I need help but I’m scared what my mom will say. I will be the odd person out, the only person in the family who would even consider suicide.
I am always overdosing, I don’t believe it’s a problem I’d need to go to rehab for. Is it? I overdose maybe every week? I’m not constantly doing it Everyday so why tell anyone about it?
People I know have been cutting, but it hurts and I always cringe when I think about it. But I have two recent cuts […]
Okay, all I can think about is my past. Everything that I did. And Now I look At Me Right now. And I say to myself.. ‘What have I done’ And I look where I changed…. I can Never Find It. Am I the one changing or are the people around me changing? Is this really life? Or am I just living it wrong? I try to fit in with the minority. I have no spot to go into though. I wanna kill myself right now cause I gave up My life for this girl. I was so in love with her That I didn’t see that […]
Hi. I have just finished registering, after having read the thread about exit bags. I am currently “planning†on suicide. I say “planning†because i have not put much effort into tying loose ends, getting my affairs in order, etc. I don’t have the time, or the energy. I just want to go. But I have a severe problem, I’m very very very very VERY afraid of any unpleasant physical sensations that I am convinced I will experience using the inert gas exit hood method (despite what i have read to the contrary). This is the method I would prefer though. Simply because although I […]
Binging and Binging And Binging on food. What the fuck is wrong with me. I hate myself. I cant even controll myself.I need to stay away. I need to fade away. I dont want to live like this. But for now… im just a binger.
I have been depressed for a few months now maybe even a year and when i was diagnosed with clinical depression it almost locks you up and you feel as if you cant get out, like there is a black cloud following you and it is raining bad thoughts in your head. The worst part about my condition is that my emotions run through my family and my part of my family is depressed as well, im still a young man and with all this mess going on i feel like (as others do) useless and have thoughts that the world could really do better […]
Why did i have to be born?!?! All i do is ruin peoples lives and they ruin mine in return. Why is the world like this? Why are people like this?!?! So cruel, so unforgiving, so horrible. This world is better without me. People will have less problems without me. I cant take it anymore. Im getting closer to killing myself than ever before. My life is hopeless. Why cant i just die already!?!
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