just got back from a weekend recovery for guys who were raped as kids. it was incredibly confronting. I got back and streight into the hands of centrelink and their bumbling. I really arent in a position to deal with this righ now I am hurting all over and I am a train wreck IDK what to do I am jus so exhausted
I was sixteen years old when my first boyfriend broke my heart. We were madly in love with one another. We knew everything about one another and loved everything about eachother through the good and the bad. We made plans to get married and have a family some day. A year into the relationship he broke up with me for no good reason at all. I was completely devastated. I didnt know what to do. It felt like my whole life was just ripped away from me. I spent all my time with him, i hung out with his friends, he was apart of me. […]
No, I don’t have enough money to fly the kids all over the US.
I don’t have enough to keep paying all of the bills.
And my boss enjoys reviewing my performance and pissing in my face on a regular basis.
I have a gun, why haven’t I stuck it in my mouth?
I’ll figure that one out soon.
I’m not exactly sure what to do anymore. My best friend suggests I get help and I know I need help but I’m scared what my mom will say. I will be the odd person out, the only person in the family who would even consider suicide.
I am always overdosing, I don’t believe it’s a problem I’d need to go to rehab for. Is it? I overdose maybe every week? I’m not constantly doing it Everyday so why tell anyone about it?
People I know have been cutting, but it hurts and I always cringe when I think about it. But I have two recent cuts […]
Okay, all I can think about is my past. Everything that I did. And Now I look At Me Right now. And I say to myself.. ‘What have I done’ And I look where I changed…. I can Never Find It. Am I the one changing or are the people around me changing? Is this really life? Or am I just living it wrong? I try to fit in with the minority. I have no spot to go into though. I wanna kill myself right now cause I gave up My life for this girl. I was so in love with her That I didn’t see that […]
Hi. I have just finished registering, after having read the thread about exit bags. I am currently “planning†on suicide. I say “planning†because i have not put much effort into tying loose ends, getting my affairs in order, etc. I don’t have the time, or the energy. I just want to go. But I have a severe problem, I’m very very very very VERY afraid of any unpleasant physical sensations that I am convinced I will experience using the inert gas exit hood method (despite what i have read to the contrary). This is the method I would prefer though. Simply because although I […]
Binging and Binging And Binging on food. What the fuck is wrong with me. I hate myself. I cant even controll myself.I need to stay away. I need to fade away. I dont want to live like this. But for now… im just a binger.
I have been depressed for a few months now maybe even a year and when i was diagnosed with clinical depression it almost locks you up and you feel as if you cant get out, like there is a black cloud following you and it is raining bad thoughts in your head. The worst part about my condition is that my emotions run through my family and my part of my family is depressed as well, im still a young man and with all this mess going on i feel like (as others do) useless and have thoughts that the world could really do better […]
Why did i have to be born?!?! All i do is ruin peoples lives and they ruin mine in return. Why is the world like this? Why are people like this?!?! So cruel, so unforgiving, so horrible. This world is better without me. People will have less problems without me. I cant take it anymore. Im getting closer to killing myself than ever before. My life is hopeless. Why cant i just die already!?!
-End(my life)
Its really nice to be hugged, even if  you have to hug yourself because there is no other option.
I feel like I hate my family.
I feel like I hate most of my friends.
Who’s left?
I recently wrote a post on my blog about Crazy Glue.
Crazy Glue Kicks Clag’s Ass In the Treatment of Broken People.
So how do you fix anything that’s broken? Well, im guessing in America you could fix them with Crazy Glue. Im an Aussie though so all we have is Clag. I’m pretty sure that Clag never really fixed anything including one piece of paper to another. Actually based on what i know of all the kids that ate Clag in primary school all it does is fuck you up … well fuck you up more. I’m pretty sure that […]
Just wanted to say, that the bibble or Jesus never said ANYTHING about suicide at all!
Why? Because the ULTIMATE JUDGMENT rests in the hands of god! HE HAS THE POWER to decide what happens to you when you die! No one can sentense you to HELL, but HE!!!!
I just want this pain to stop–I just want this pain to stop–
Was I bewitched so by the thin red line
To notice not that time released its hold
And let pale Iris snip the silver twine
To steal sweet youth before it turned to gold?
Existence now is not what I was told;
No seraphim and harps to grace my ear,
Just silence, painful silence, and the cold
Discomfort of my masochistic fear,
So icy cold, yet somehow seems to sear
My soul until the ache’s too much to bare,
As mortal life mirages now appear:
Intangible are they; away they tear.
Mistake, it was; the curtain fell too soon
When razor’s edge did charm me […]
I have this song stuck in my head. It reminds me of me sometimes. Sometimes I feel like killing myself just because I’m bored, completely unaffected, apathetic. I feel like one day I’ll just be bored to death; literally.
Anthony walked to his death
Because he thought he’d never feel this way again
If he goes back to the house then things would go from bad to worse
What could he do?
He wants to remember things exactly as he left them on that funny day
And if there is something else beyond, he isn’t scared because
It’s bound to be less boring than today
It’s […]
i’m so far from where i once was. 3-4 years ago was a great time for me, then it all evaporated pretty fast, my job, love life, friends and family, and my motivation.
first of all i lost my job when my childhood friends felt usurped and could not respect my new position in the company even though i earned it, my boss came to me and told me they had talked about my performance. i was doing what my boss wanted and what our suppliers wanted, being in charge i shouldnt be doing the actual work, but they didnt see it that way. i […]
This is a huge simplification of a long-running problem:
A lot of people would envy me. I am a young, healthy, quite attractive & intelligent adult male. I am about to study at a good university.
But I am tired of life. 4 years ago I was popular and the happiest person alive. Now I am not happy and have no friends; they all left. I thought this was the reason for me feeling awful, but now I believe its a mental thing. It is a living curse, my mood goes up & down, where the ‘up’ is emotionless and the ‘down’ is suicidal. There is no pleasure […]
If you are suicial, I know your feelings, and second i really know your feelings. And i know that you are not guilty, or the problem is not you, please think that was you know that?
It is difficult to let you understand because i don’t use english as my primarily language, i would, I was 16 years old and i was seriously throught suicide everytime. and i don’t think it right now.
If you search my username, you will find lots of posts. I really had these feelings and i know how to kill that.
I know it is hard to kill that thought. Every problem can be […]