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please let me help you

  February 5th, 2010 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself

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A leap into forever.

  February 5th, 2010 by jD

When I was a little girl, neighbourhood bullies made me bury a tiny baby bird alive. I had no choice or they would beat me. I wear the guilt in my heart every day.

I’m 15 years old. I turn 16 on the 19th June. But you know something? I don’t think I’m going to get there anymore. I don’t really care, either. Another birthday marks another year of being in constant pain. It’s not teenage drama,  it’s not because of the boy I like rejecting me or my parents grounding me, or anything like that, that’s just silly delusions for people that haven’t seen the …

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Why bother

  February 5th, 2010 by someotherguy

I’m so tired. I just want to throw it all away, seeing as I no longer care. I’m 34, married, and have a 3 year old daughter. But I just don’t care anymore. I have a life insurance policy, and ssi death benefits won’t pay in event of a suicide. But I’ve found the way. I know how to make it look like an accident. Now I just have to wait for the right timing. We’ll all be better off after this is done.

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  February 5th, 2010 by WTF

……..i JUS hate my life!!!! ughhhh!

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didnt help

  February 5th, 2010 by mellz

I posted earlier today or last night don’t really know what time but for the frist time I tried to talk to some one about how I feel. I talk to my cousin I told him how I hate my self and wanna die aand how I tired every single time I can. He understand and gave me good adivce but it honestly didn’t help at all I hate feel like such a messs like nothin useless I was hopin that talkin to him would make me stop feeling like this but it didn’t help at all I told him it did so he can …

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Just don’t understand

  February 5th, 2010 by Idealist

Hi readers,

I’m brandnew here. I’m a 48 years old man and I work as a consultant for chipmakers, and I just do not understand how I came into the situation I’m in now.

Lonlieness and cold hearted people are litterally killing me. I was born in Germany, came to France at the age of 14 with my parents, and lived there for 28 years, was married 14 years, with three daughters with whom I  have no contact since 5 years. In 2002, my father, a rude and intolerant man I really hated, died. My former wife hated my father too, maybe more than I did, and …

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Pain of a Child

  February 4th, 2010 by lunasdeathwatch

I’ve lost 3 pounds in the last 2 days. I’m hungry and I can’t breathe. I have no idea why I refuse to eat. Maybe I’m trying to prove something. I just don’t want to live anymore…

I took  break from love for a while, but now I am at the place I was when I was 12 (Yes, to me a year is a lifetime) I don’t want a pathetic little puppy love, meaningless practice relationship. I want the guy I dream about! Why in the hell can’t I have that? Is it really that naive to want the almost perfect guy? I don’t want …

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use less

  February 4th, 2010 by mellz

I am 19 years old, since I was 14 I been feeling like am very use less in this world like am a waste of a body here. I haven’t accoplished anything in my life. I feel like the only reason am here is so people would look at me n feel better about there life and so I can suffer every single hour of my life. I have tired none stop to kill myself. I think about ending it every day. No one knows how I feel and no would understand I keep everything to my slef until today. To everyone I look …

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I just don’t know anymore.

  February 4th, 2010 by darklovex3

The constant fighting, the constant crying, the constant angry slash marks on my arms.  Suicide is probably something that I won’t go through with, however, I wish that I was never born.  That may be awful to say, but I’m extremely saddened by everything.  I’m no longer happy with anything.  I cut myself to feel, at least, in control of one emotion.  Truthfully, I don’t really know how much I can put myself through.  Constant heartache after another.  Constant issues with my family.  Constant battles with the mirror.  I cannot stand to look at myself.  All I see is someone not worthy of anything.  I …

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Hopeless Failure

  February 4th, 2010 by timmyt

Honestly speaking, I don’t think I will kill myself, but only because I don’t have the guts to do it. I really really wish I was dead though. I just really have to get this stuff out. Many people have it worse than me I know, but that doesn’t change the fact that all I feel is pain. I can’t stop crying and saying “I’m so alone.” I’m 27 and married, with one 2 year old and one daughter on the way. Ever since age 13 I have wanted to kill myself. I have thought about it probably every day. I just have never found …

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do u ever get the feeling…?

  February 3rd, 2010 by asdf

do u ever get the feeling like ‘ is that it?’ is this what i was born for , to just exist and nothing more? Do u ever get the feeling your never going to be happy, as in, your were just not meant to be ?

i really feel like this is it you know? this is what the rest of my life is going to be like , ill never  be happy to the extent I want to be , ill just be , ill just exist , go through life doing all the things im  supposed to do , like everyone else, only …

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I just don’t know

  February 3rd, 2010 by lostmind

I’m 19, a freshman in college, and I’m surprised it’s taken me this long to lose my mind. I’ve quit caring about my life. I’ve never really seen it as anything special, but I at least used to care a little bit about what happened to me. Maybe it has something to do with my roommate almost killing himself, or maybe it’s because I’ve finally just felt so alone I can’t take it anymore. I stare at myself and see an ugly, wretched existence that no more needs to be on this earth than cancer.
I don’t feel as if anyone cares, even though my …

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Russian Roulette

  February 3rd, 2010 by lunasdeathwatch

I keep playing Russian Roulette (THE SONG!) over and over again. It provokes my old thought process. I was able to write poetry for the first time in a few weeks. It was pretty intense.

I have to go to martial arts tonight. I like it a lot but I feel stupid since I’m just a beginner, and since I kind of like my instructor and this other guy in my class. But, lucky me… They’re too much older than me. The last guy I dated was 17 and he was flaky as hell! He was so annoying. And he tried to act like he knew …

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I’ve been feeling like this for a long time

  February 2nd, 2010 by The_Artist21

I’m 21 years old, and I still haven’t finished school. Some of my friends are in universities and all…anyways, I’ve been feeling like this since 7th grade, that was 8 years ago, where I first tried to kill myself, with a pair of scissors, I went to see a therapist, but that didn’t help obviously, otherwise I wouldn’t be suicidal right about now. I tried to kill myself last week, because I feel that I have let down my parents, everybody. I live in iceland for the moment, day in day out, I get more and more depressed, I write poems, because it’s a way …

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USA

  February 2nd, 2010 by endingwithlove

I’m 22 and I have  a college degree in music.  That’s about all I have going for me and in this country that is not much.  I don’t have any real skills to get by in this country because it is so totally fucked up.  The school systems here are not conducive to the real world environment  and the economy is fucked as well because we live in a capitalistic mentality where the rich get richer and the poor all want to die.  I am one of the poor that wants to go buy a 40 dollar gun at the local Walmart and blow my …

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  February 2nd, 2010 by happy

I just was looking through some of my old stuff and it reminded me of my past. It is said “One reason God created time was so that there would be a place to bury the failures of the past.” I never really got that saying until recently. My depression began in seventh grade back when I thought that I new pain. Depression hit and everything seemed like it didnt matter. I guess I felt the normal feelings of depression; lack of interest in hobbies, constantly spending time in my room, and being irritable to everyone. The truth is since I was a young boy …

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it wasn’t supposed to be this way

  February 2nd, 2010 by edmadness

When I was 2 years old my brother started to sexually abuse me. That lasted for many, many years. When I was 6 he raped me and then again when I was 12. I learned that saying “no” just got me into more trouble than going along with whatever was going to happen.

I started cutting at the ripe old age of 5 and continued until well into my 40’s. No one ever knew until I confessed to a therapist and she helped me to stop. Thank you DBT.

My first suicide attempt was in junior high. I walked into traffic on a busy highway. The …

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Not one of those happy stories about suicide not being the right decision.

  February 2nd, 2010 by LonelyUtahGuy

People always say that suicide is a temporary solution to a temporary problem but in some cases people have permanent problems and I am such a case. All my life I have been seen as different and spent time in special education classes and was transferred to a different school because I had problems socializing with others. My life during school has miserable and in high school when most guys were getting dates and I couldn’t because of my differences and I considered suicide. Back then I figured that I shouldn’t commit suicide because things will only get better. I have regretted that choice ever …

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Not Suicidal Today

  February 1st, 2010 by SleepingintheNothing

Hello, I’ve posted here before. My name is “SleepingIntheNothing”
I talked before how everything seems pointless to me and I don’t understand anything. I always research why people do the things they do ect. Have been feeling better the last few days. Have been learning a lot about art, and philosophy ect. Sometimes I have a mental problem where I can’t concentrate on anything because of random and unpredictable panic attacks. I just started reading “Sophie’s World” and it is quite an interesting book about philosophical concepts and the meaning of the world. Anyone read it before?
Now I understand that it is pretty normal …

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My Story

  February 1st, 2010 by WantingToShare

I am 16 years old, and alive. I came close to ending my own life a year ago. Practically out of nowhere, I went through a severe depression, and felt hopeless, worthless, and apatetic about my own existence. There were days where I couldn’t even make myself get out of bed. I would cry myself to sleep, and whenever I did wake up, I would go right back to sleep so I didn’t have to feel the pain. I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone about what I was going through because I was embarassed, felt crazy, and still believed that I wanted to end …

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