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WHY????

  May 6th, 2008 by hippiemom004

Iwake up every morning and thank god that im alive, and today wasn’t any different. so tell me what went wrong? im 37 years old, mother of 4, i have a grandaughter that’s 2, her mother is due in june with another girl, and all i want to do is end it all. my kids are 22(with a 2 yo and another 1 on the way), 18 yo son, 17 yo daughter and a 16 yo daughter. they all hate me. i’ve been in a loveless marriage from my husband for almost 21 years now. i really didnt think that i was that bad …

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Lowest

  May 4th, 2008 by TheNextProphet?

I have OCD. I HATE IT!

Because of this I don’t “hang out” or have any real friends, so I spend most of my time by myself. I try to make friends but it is just awkward and people just accuse me of following them and tell me to go away. I’m just socially clueless. I try to fit in but then get made fun of for overdoing everything that EVERYBODY EXPECTED FROM ME IN THE FIRST PLACE! How do I please you people? I go on and on about my obsessions and other OCD-related crap. I just don’t …

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Blah blah blah

  May 4th, 2008 by Jan

Does anybody really read these things?

I feel like I’ve come to the end of my life. I’m 43. I have four kids. Every reason to stay alive.

How did I get here? They tell me it’s because of bipolar disorder. I’m sure I do have it, but that doesn’t change the way I feel today or why I don’t want to go on living.

I had a normal childhood. Maybe I didn’t get the nurturing I could have. Hell, my parents were just kids themselves. When I was 14 I wanted to die (I’m not sure exactly why), so …

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Still Can’t Believe It Ended Like This

  May 4th, 2008 by TheNextProphet?

I have written here before in an entry called Lowest.

When my school fell apart, I switched to a Christian school for sixth grade which I thought would be a great experience because I had a few friends there. I had no idea what I was in for. I had been picked on a little before for my OCD tendencies but not much afterwards, but I always knew I was different. I was tortured my first few months of sixth grade but eventually people left me alone. I managed to make myself a little less different. However, two of the tormentors …

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My Life

  May 3rd, 2008 by Grey

I recall from my younger years faking suicide. My parents would be gone from home, and when they’d return, I’d see them coming up the driveway. I’d quickly spread ketchup on myself and the kitchen floor, and lay on a knife. Now, as an adult, I realize I craved attention, to feel needed and loved, while at the same time trying to show my family what they would be missing if I wasn’t around – hoping that something like this would give them the motivation to give me what I craved.

I quit a job because I wanted more time to spend with …

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“The Sun Also Rises”

  May 2nd, 2008 by Trinity

Life hasn’t always been so depressing for me, I used to be a very outgoing, really funny child, and happy person. I had really great friends and a close family back then. People understood me, and I understood people. Things have changed though…my life has taken a turn for the worst, and I am completely out of control of it.

I really wish there was no such thing as disease and suffering. I’m sick of suffering from this horrible disease, no one understands me or what I’m going through, I just can’t take the pain anymore….

Evolution is a cruel but beautiful process which creates …

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  May 2nd, 2008 by Trinity

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Ill be you crying shoulder

  May 2nd, 2008 by wilkie

    im a kid whos gone through alot of stuff in his life and up until a couple years i was considerd normal and then all of a sudden everyone of my so called “friends” just abbandend me

    I dont know why and someplace i dont wanna know. Now i didnt know why i stared but i just started cutting and at first just to see what it was like and as time went on it became a habbit and a copping thing for me.

    And well a couple months ago i was gonna commit suicide, i had everything planned out from the time to

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why

  May 2nd, 2008 by nobodyspecial

What’s life for? Are we just walking air and food processors playing an ecological part in the world’s natural system? Are we here to make life better for other people? Are we here just to experience joy and suffering and maybe learn something?

I’ve dealt with depression my whole life. The only time it eases is when I’m in a relationship .. then I feel normal, like a worthy human being again, like a semi-attractive man again. But all my relationships invariably end with me being discarded. I don’t make it difficult for them .. I don’t stalk or harass or bother them. In fact, they …

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My story

  May 1st, 2008 by Mary

I write because I am hoping that by simply writing, this intention will fade. Thirteen years ago, my father mmitted suicide. Soon afterwards, I made my first suicidal attempt. Two other suicidal gestures followed the attempt. At that time, I was seeing a psychologist twice a week. Now, years later, I not only do not have the financial means to seek psychological help, I feel less inclined to want to seek it. I have recently relocated to a new area. I am near sixty years old. My motivation for moving was to be closer to my …

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My story

  May 1st, 2008 by Mary

I write because I am hoping that by simply writing, this intention will fade. Thirteen years ago, my father committed suicide. Soon afterwards, I made my first suicidal attempt. Two other suicidal gestures followed the attempt. At that time, I was seeing a psychologist twice a week. Now, years later, I not only do not have the financial means to seek psychological help, I feel less inclined to want to seek it. I have recently relocated to a new area. I am near sixty years old. My motivation for moving was to be closer to my …

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Suicidal Again

  May 1st, 2008 by Failure59

I’m a 50 year old man. Very high suicide group. Alcoholic. Learning disability. Frequent depression through the years, anxiety disorders and so on.Have been suicidal since sixteen. Am now jobless and deeply depressed. Am trying to think of painless, peaceful ways to suicide.

I think that I’ll try a compressed inert gas, such as compressed CO2 or ********, in my car. It won’t be messy or smelly for the landlord that way. Maybe I can make it look like an accident for my relatives. Welding accident… the valve was opened accidentally while he was transporting it…

People shouldn’t have so many children, you know. There would …

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friday its only days away but it feels like a lifetime

  April 30th, 2008 by deadfriend3

Well I suppose 2 days is a lifetime at the moment its kind of funny to hear about suicide via hanging… My advice is do research on what ur gunna attatch the rope to, I have been for the past few days and when i can go n buy my rope to make my knoose friday afternoon I will get to prove that it really is strong enough… Ya know it is great to be able to write on here where no one knows you or where you are because this way I can say whatever I want and i dont have to worry about …

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Fuck it

  April 29th, 2008 by sean

well, i really dont know why im still living, ive had enough of this fucking world, i figured that out when i was 7.

saw my friend hanging from a rope and dangling from the ceiling, worst thing ive ever seen in my life, and every single day from that point on, ive always wondered why did he do it? it seemed like a good idea to me, it really does, ive even tried it before. well i did once, but the thing i was hanging off of just broke and i fell ot the ground, and i layed there for about an hour just crying …

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Stop the Bullies

  April 29th, 2008 by StoptheBullies

I wouldn’t be the first or the last to commit suicide because of bullies. I’m intelligent. Talented. Get along well everywhere but in the office. My boss, a freak who was fired from a job 20 years ago for molesting dead bodies in a funeral home likes to send me out to accident scenes (I’m a journalist) to take body photos. He’s sick. It’s bad enough I have to go to fatalities, fires, murders, shootings and brains on the street but when I come back all they do is laugh and joke about it. None of them have to go. They sit around and joke …

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How to say goodbye

  April 29th, 2008 by deadfriend3

For many years I have been very suicidal I have always found ways out of my depression. Infact I have found my own ways with out medicne to cope with my depression and suicidal thoughts/tendancies but now I dont have those abilities anymore. I dont have anyone to talk to and I cant get my family to listen to me. I have no more hope or care for this world because I have found the truth in life and knowing this is what is making me give up. I dont have very long left but that is not a bad thing infact I can say …

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Will I make it out.

  April 21st, 2008 by DePressMe

It is good to finally have a place to post what I am really thinking and feeling. So many other sites don’t allow suicidal posts. I understand why—that could really make a lot of people worried. In a sense, this is not a suicidal post because at the moment, I am sitting here writing instead of getting the gun out. Oh, the gun is already out. It was left out from last night. Mainly I sit around thinking or fantasizing about shooting myself. I feel like a failure—like nothing I have done in this world has made a difference. I just got out of an …

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Balls.

  April 19th, 2008 by Ox

I’m not a social person. I don’t like being around people. Most of the time I think they’re judging me, thinking I’m weird or going to talk about me behind my back. I know they won’t but I think it anyway. So I avoid any kind of social situation. I just sit in my room all day…

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hey

  April 8th, 2008 by tashi

hey guys, im not exactly new 2 this, but ive never actually writen anything 2 post other tan comments and stuff, but im just saying tht im here 2 help, and tht i think tht the ppl who actually write on this are very brave for putting themselves out there for something like this, but if u r suicidal, think about things b4 u do anything.

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Love sick made me emo

  March 20th, 2008 by Skull_Boi

🙁
emo_boi

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