You thought I didn’t care..
I did.
You thought I was never there for You..
I was.
I hope this is your reality check..
Because I won’t be there when This all hit’s you.
So, Here is my suicide letter..
Dear Reader,
I’ve held this depression in way to long.
I know I may seem like a coward for doing This, But It’s my choice..
It’s not your fault, It’s mine.
I can’t stand the world anymore..
It’s a hell hole.
You’ve tried your hardest to make sure I am happy, But, Truth is, I never will be.
I want to be flying free in […]
Your too young to die! You realize that yourself you know, and you wont do it, because you still have so much to look forward to!
Try again after 30 By then you will truly KNOW if this is what you want? I have been through kidnap, identity loss and sexual rape, and not even i automaticly know what im going to do. I turn 30 next year.
Suicide is not something simple to do. For me it mostly involes testing different flow fittings and similar devices. Look, if you want to kill yourself, then i suggest drowning. Dying is basicly shutting your brain off. Your brain […]
You made me believe I was worth something.
You made me think thing’s would be okay.
Your the reason Why I am doing this.
I thought you loved me..But for you, Love isn’t a word.
I had a challenge..A whole new world to face..
With all these fears.
Obviously, You forgot, I can’t do this by myself.
You have a cold heart..& I hope you cry when You read this.
Suicide is my way out.
Just like cheating was your way out.
i’ve given up just wishing for death and i have to do something about it. i’m filled with so much hatred and resentment and i keep everything inside and it’s tearing me apart.
A year has now passed since the worst day of my life. The day my sister walked into my room, holding the phone and crying. My initial reaction was that my parents had died as they were driving home from out of town at the time. Whenever I look back on that day I always wonder if it might have been better if that initial thought had been true. Â But it wasn’t, and now I’m stuck living without one of my closest friends, because he decided to end his own life.
The guilt is unbearable. The sadness holds me down. But the worst part of it […]
hello. this is my first post on this website or any kind of forum for this so i don’t really know where to begin. honestly i don’t know what’s wrong with me but i want to kill myself. i don’t even feel like i’m even allowed to feel this way. i’ve had a “good” life and upbringing. I have extremely loving parents but i guess the main problem is with myself. i’ve always had low self esteem and always thought i was too shy and weird. i’ve been in therapy but recently stopped going. i’m on celexa but it’s not helping me at all. i […]
I’m at that stage where I don’t feel anything. I’m tired and I genuinely can’t do this anymore. Trying and failing seems to be the reoccurring process in my life. I’ll probably fail at death too.
I hate who I am.
I’m stuck in a fantasy world.
I can talk all day about what I’m depressed about & It’s still there.
My depression get’s so bad, I can’t sleep for day’s..
I also have insomia..Which makes it worse..
& I’m also bipolar..
& Let’s just say, I’m not really skinny..I’m fat.
My mom died when I was 7 & She was never really around..
She devoted her life to drugs.
My dad..Well..He left when I was born..& He did drugs to..
The only hope I had was my grandma..
I held her hand while she took her last breath..
I can’t […]
I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYTHING I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO FUCKING DIEEE
I cant take this anymore. she said she cant talk to me because she has a boyfriend and he would get mad. she didnt tell me who it was though. great, another boyfriend. well she obviously cares not about me, so theres no reason for me to live! so i grab the rope, i already know how to tie the hangmans noose so this will be easy. i tie the knot, go get the ladder and attatch it to the ceiling. i climb the ladder, place the rope around my neck. as im doing so, i think about what im leaving in this world. i am leaving all the […]
Overwhelmed with guilt,
Because every bite you take is a compromise.
Terrified of the things I need,
Because they lead me into a dark place.
I am a perfectionist,
Or maybe I just have a death wish.
In this game it’s all about loss, and gain,
But to me it has always been about the loss.
And I’m starving, but it’s okay;
It’ll be worth it in the end.
I’m far from what I want,
But it’ll be worth it in the end.
Beauty is pain as they might say,
And I’m in agony.
I’m screaming for forgiveness,
Because I know I am wrong, but I do not want to be right.
And with all the hurt inside,
I keep my secrets […]
I originally posted this about a almost a year ago and unfortunately I still haven’t worked up the courage to kill myself. Nothing has changed except I haven’t seen a mouse in awhile but if I’m not running the ac, I can smell dead mice. I didn’t want to rewrite this, so I’m just reposting it. Today is my birthday. I’m 45 today and all I want for my birthday is the courage to end my life.. Or to die in my sleep. My preferred method of death is by drowning. There’s a place not too far my house where I think I could do […]
Hi guys, as you saw on my post yesturday I was heading out to a water park/amusement park. I had fun while I was there but it was hard for me because of my social issues. I felt like people were staring at me and well someone said a rude comment to me. ‘By the end of the day I felt so stressed out. I don’t know where I’m going with this. Hah ):
I heard can’t just drown in bathtub, need something to hold the head down for a while. How can I do that? If I get drunk, will it do?
I’m still considering drowning. Just thinking of doing it in a more private place.
I have felt all alone and lonely. It seems that no one likes/loves me. My ex-boyfriend broke up with me for another girl. Everyone else around me have got partners. When I see them walk hand in hand, hug or kiss, I feel so jealous. I just want someone to love me and hold me. Is it too much to ask for?
Someone please talk to me? Anyone? Whether you are suicidal or not, let’s get to know each other. I also get suicidal constantly because of my depression. Though, sometimes when I feel okay, I feel like I should give life a shot…Anyways, we could either […]
I am almost 31 and getting very tired of living and struggling. Won’t
go into my life story, however. I’m strongly considering suicide for
the past 2 or 3 years, but have not attempted it yet mostly out of
fear of pain and/or failure. Also, to a lesser extent, some
fear of death itself. But more afraid of scary, painful dying process
hence reluctance to take overdose, etc., to date. Thoughts of suicide
are with me all day every day. And I want to know I have an out. The
medications (except Valium, which is mine) I have access to belong to
a diabetic I […]
My struggle against The Beast
the grouch
“i was a young boy that had big plans now im just another shitty old man i dont have fun and i hate everything the world owes me so fuck you glory days dont mean shit to me i drank a six pack of apathy lifes a ***** and so am i the world owes me so fuck you wasted youth and a fistful of ideals i had a young and optimistic point of view wasted youth and a fistful of ideals i had a young and optimistic point of view ive decomposed yet my guts getting fat oh my god im turning […]
Guys, I am scared. I can’t sleep in the night and have been crying from day to night, my mind is restless. I have been swallowing pills, drinking shampoo, cutting myself, the urge to jump down from a building is so strong, but my mum’s devasted face is haunting me, I don’t want my family to live in guilt. What should I do? I am so scared, so scared that my life will be ended by myself.
in order to live