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please let God help you

  January 17th, 2010 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and [...]
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I continuously get called Satan.

  January 17th, 2010 by silent

So earlier, i got a blood nose out of nowhere. I haven’t had one for at least 6 years now. To be covered in my own blood when i hadn’t even been cutting felt rather strange because i never bleed. I liked it, the taste of it in my mouth.. I know, this would sound rather strange at the moment, it also sounds strange to me. But having no control over what my body is going to do, felt good. Really good. I don’t even know why i’m writing this, i just feel odd at the moment. Kind of like i’m not here, that i’m [...]
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I Don’t Have The Answer’s- But I Am Here!

  January 17th, 2010 by Del2010

I am here again! That bleak, pathetic void, under the heavy opressive darkensss of despair. I feel, so alone, isolated, within my head. I cant quite seem to relate to people, let alone conect to them. I am watching through numbed out eyes on a world that I just don’t feel a part of. And I wonder, what is the point, when I feel so misunderstood, ignored, or just taken for granted.
And I am tired, I am too weary to keep eduring the ache of the pettiness of the human plight & with it humankind’s stupidity and predictability!
But I also know this – [...]
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Why am i hearing these things.

  January 17th, 2010 by ashley11

Why am i hearing things in my head, In the middle of no where, In class, when im sleeping, Talking to friends ” You don’t mean anything to anyone, Just go die ” I hear them every SINGLE day! I know i have to mean something.. Don’t i? I see things every day, On the news, In books, In real life. People cutting, Hanging, killing, Themselfs. I feel like i have to. I have PTSD. I’ve gone through sisters boyfriends getting hit by cars. People dieing from cancer i’ve known, People just DIEING. I’ve always thought about killing myself, But i don’t have the guts [...]
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Never Again

  January 17th, 2010 by pk23

I never want to feel this ever again I want it to go away. I feel broken and pitiful. I cringe when I see myself and I hate myself so much. I hate living everyday I absolutely hate it and I want to die I want it to be over I want to die so much and I can’t do it myself and I hate myself even more for that and I want to go away forever and never return to this feeling inside this feeling of lonliness and despair and sure hatred for myself. It worrsens everyday and I can’t talk to anyone I [...]
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I hate this disgusting world

  January 16th, 2010 by mnemosyne

This world is not worth living in. If I die maybe I won’t feel sad anymore and maybe I’ll go to a happier place where people aren’t all fake bitches. I wish the apocalypse would come right now so that all humans will be wiped off the face of the planet.


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Wanted Dead or….nope, just dead

  January 16th, 2010 by Alreadygone

I am 16, gay, and suicidal, but too scared to do the deed myself.
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please let me help you

  January 14th, 2010 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and [...]
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it’s all too hard

  January 14th, 2010 by Stary

i have a loving caring family and great friends. my job is ok i suppose – i’m in a bit of debt  but nothing that i can’t deal with. i’m renting a little unit – it’s just me and my dog, who i love with all my heart. but i am so alone. so sad and alone. i come home every night and just want to sleep…sleep and never wake up…i want something to be wrong with me. some type of disease, so i can die. i wish i could swap with someone who has a terminal illness and wants to live.

i was in hospital [...]
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“A permenant solution to a temporary problem.”

  January 14th, 2010 by Noon714

This is what I’ve read over and over again, but do these therapists, experts on the human psyche and counselors really know what it’s like to hit rock bottom. Maybe some actually do, but no one in this World knows how I feel but myself. I’ve been in a state of depression for some time now, and there seems to be no end in sight. The “friends” I use to have are liars, selfish and useless to my life so I’ve shunned them out of it completely. I’m only 20 years old, and I’m fairly intelligent as far as intelligence is measured now a days. [...]
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FML

  January 14th, 2010 by drawingfool

I wish I were dead. There I wrote it. I’m too much of a coward to actually go about killing myself so I’m stuck with just wishing I were dead. I’m 32 years old, I’ve never had a girlfriend in my life, have a shitty customer service job that barely pays the bills and I’m stuck under a mountain of debt with the very real possibility of losing my house. I would think it would be impossible for someone to be this pathetic, this much of a loser, but its like life has conspired to make sure my life is a joke. I remember in [...]
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Forever Sleep

  January 14th, 2010 by chaos

I think about ending it daily now, I know the easiest quickest way to do it, I have the materials I need to use it, but the question is why don’t I do it?
theres times when i’m right there and ready to do it, but I calm down well thinking it over and stop, But the thoughts return the next day, Why why do I have these thoughts, Maybe I’m just trying to feel alive


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Am I seriously considering this again??

  January 13th, 2010 by AspoonfulOFsammy

I’ve been here, done this…. but I keep finding my way back to the thoughts of death. I have attempted twice, both (obviously) without success thanks to being “saved” both times. I was in my teens when I tried before… I’m 20 now. I know I’m not old or wise, but these thoughts…. they come back all the time. They’ve been pelting my mind for 7 years. I think about dying at LEAST once a day, sometimes only for a fleeting moment…

Before, I tried with pills. This time, I think if I do it, I’ll hang myself. I did that on accident when I was [...]
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My new blog.

  January 13th, 2010 by asdf

Hey ,

I started a new blog.  I’m gonna start jotting down my thoughts , experiences and feelings from now on. I have always wanted to start a journal of some sort but never had the will to write in it. I finally did and would love for you guys to read it whenever you have time , and post whats ever on your mind , what you think about me in general as a person and just comment on my life.

http://depressionalive.livejournal.com/

It would mean a lot to me if you took the time to read it. thank you


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Just talking..

  January 13th, 2010 by stressedout

I dont really have all that much to say right now. But i want everyone to know that i do know what its like to think death is the best thing for me. if anyone needs someone to talk to or to listen to them, im here. my email is ticanhelp@yahoo.com
feel free to email me anytime.


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Those damn feelings

  January 13th, 2010 by Entity

Life is a piece of shit. You want something, and when you actualy get it you’re feeling much worse than before. Why the heck most of the people are so calm in ordinary life situations while I’m scared to hell when I experience that. Today it was the same. But it was a little bit different and little bit worse. After a call with one man, I started trembling. I felt anxiety, my head has been hurting and I couldn’t stand it. I was finding how can I get rid of that fucking feeling. I took a shot of some hard alcohol but it didn’t [...]
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The Countdown has begun.

  January 13th, 2010 by readytoctb

I am officially back on the clock. The more I think about it, the more I realize that this is something I need and must do. I can no longer lie to myself that everything will work out and things can be normal again, that ship has sailed. Better that I go now than prolong the inevitable, it will be better for me and for the few that may miss me.
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Done and dusted.

  January 13th, 2010 by silent

So.. This time i really have lost everything. My mother has been missing for 2 months now, my sister has moved to Europe and doesn’t wish to talk anymore, my Father has been dead for a long time, and my brothers.. I haven’t spoken to them in 4 years. I wish to be buried next to the one love of my life and my baby boy. I want Horses by Daryl Braithwaite to be playing at my funeral. Purple orchids and white lilies. For the past 3 years, i’ve just ruined my life completely. I can’t get through a day without having a few lines [...]
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Done. D-O-N-E

  January 13th, 2010 by whiteylover

fml. I am finished, finished trying to stop myself, finished letting people stop me. I need to cut, I need that release. You can’t stop me. I am consumed with hurt, pain, and a desire to die. That desire is overwhelming me and I just want to die. I can’t do it anymore, I won’t do it anymore. I pray that I will die and that’s not working. I don’t think I have the strength to pull the trigger but eventually I know I will. I want to die on a wednesday, before church. The people that have hurt me most are at church and [...]
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survivor

  January 12th, 2010 by Survivor2194

iAm a survivor !


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