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suicide as a hopeful thing

  August 16th, 2009 by heidi

Hi all, i’m new. i’m feeling suicidal, having been on and off for some time. But for me it is a source of hope. I feel as if the universe is telling me that my presence is no longer required. I can’t find work, i’m running out of money, i have serious health problems and no insurance and i will probably lose my house. my great fear is that i will be forced to live in my car. i think if i was told today that i had terminal cancer i would kiss the doctor. it would be such a relief.

Planning my death gives focus …

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At least here noone actually knows me..

  August 15th, 2009 by Spinni

[I WARN YOU NOW THIS IS LONG]

I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.

Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it …

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Parasites

  August 15th, 2009 by disconnect

Humanity and civilization are complete parasites. Little viruses destroying the Earth. I can’t live in this world.  I can’t find any sort of “reason” or “goal” to live. To make money? To work and slave to “live”? To repeat everything, over and over in the same boring routine. I hurt everyone I love. Everyone leaves everyone, no point in even starting to get to know someone. Everything will ALWAYS fall apart. And i see no matter to living to be consistenetly dissatisfied and hurt. Living a life miserably is no way to live.

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My Life is unormal

  August 14th, 2009 by Unormal life

I don’t want to write a long text.

I don’t want to go to school, I am afraid of failing in School in Life ,being homeless..

I got the choice suicide or not?

I am 14 retoke 7th Grade I am now getting in 8th.

Why am I still alive? What is keeping me from suicide?

For a fact from my life now it’s great, but school is startin and I am so scared, afraid of failing.

I am broken down I am forteen and I still wet the bed.\

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into the shadow of darkness

  August 13th, 2009 by suicide4me

Well I think the time has finnaly come for me to step into the shadow of darkness

I’ve lost my job, I have no family or friends, no pets, no plants, no reasion to live,

obese and 54, no hope for tommarow, I’m broke, soon to be homeless, no sex, no loves, and when I pass no-one will notice till my landlord checks my apartment because I haven’t paid my rent.

Well it’s time

goodbye

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this is it…

  August 13th, 2009 by cindyinNH

i feel like i am slowly drowning myself in mindless shit… i have settled for a life that makes me unhappy simply because i know there is nothing better for me out there. the only person that keeps me  from doing anything stupid is my son..  but yesterday the asshole i have settled with just reminded me of everything wrong with me.. how i am with him because he was the only one willing to be with me cause i am fat, ugly, and dont have much going for me. how i am thousands of dollars in debt, don’t have a driver’s license, have a dead end …

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what to do…

  August 13th, 2009 by cook2012

what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the …

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i’d really love to help

  August 12th, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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Worthless.

  August 11th, 2009 by GenerationxPlastik

You can choose to read this or not. I know it’s long.

I’m 17.
Ever since I can remember I’ve been witnessing abuse in my household.

When I was 4, I remember seeing my parents fist fight all the time, & I could never understand why. I remember seeing a few relatives standing in my doorway, but I don’t know why they were standing there, or if they really were there at all. I got my first taste of first-hand violence when I was 5. My mom was holding me in her arms while my dad was punching away at her face. & I remember asking him to …

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Rejected.

  August 11th, 2009 by Jess66

I feel rejected. The other night I got into a huge fight with my parents, they were screaming about how they have known I “have problems” for 3 years now and then kicked me out (I don’t have a car) so they told me to go walk, I walked to the streets for two hours and alone and crying, because I felt like they didn’t love me. And it sucks becuase I didn’t have any one else to tell who I felt would give a shit. But there’s one person whom is so extremely nice and caring but, I hate burdening them with my problems all …

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No hope for the heart broken

  August 11th, 2009 by BrodieSwankie

im sorry everyone but i couldnt find another way out life is too hard when every one you love just hurts you in the end life has been hard im sick of being depressed all the time i was only ever really happy with chantal i started to get depressed after peter took his own life i miss him so much i think life would of been good if he was still here i hope to see him in the after life what ever that might be i have tryed to kill my self befor a fewtimes and not just over chantal but im ready …

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it will never be OK…

  August 11th, 2009 by neverbeok

It will never be ok…

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My Gay Ex Boyfriend

  August 11th, 2009 by eagle7613

Hi,

I hope that someone will be able to help me.   I feel I can’t tell anyone anything and trapped.  I had a child by a gay man.  My daughter is beautiful, and I don’t regret having her.  Now, that I see him come by the house more often it’s usually nice, but there’s one thing that is making me angry.  He has a nice boyfriend who comes over, but I see the two of them kissing in front of me.  His boyfriend used to be me kissing him, taking showers and baths with him, and going out doing things together.   You get the picture.  My …

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what a life.

  August 11th, 2009 by cook2012

what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the …

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need God

  August 11th, 2009 by plshelp

I hate my life period. I am almost 30 and I’ve never had a real boyfriend and all the relationships I do have ends with them leaving me for someone else. Everytime… I give money to these men and tell myself I’m helping them when deep down inside I know I’m buying there time.
I don’t have kids and I want them worst than anything. The only thing I wished for as a little girl was to have a family of my own. I had surgery to see if anything was blocking my ability to have kids and as a result of that I found out …

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Lost Cause

  August 10th, 2009 by Neverendingpit

I’m going straight to the point here..I’m undiagnosed. Doctors don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. My symptoms are so random. I used to be so happy and pretty until I started taking birth control. Even though I’m off it now, the damage is already done. If I drink anything, I retain alot and expell little. My skin is darkening and I look like a dude. I’m a freak. No one looks at me the same anymore. I don’ blame them, I hate looking at myself too. I want to get out of this shit hole that is my life. I want to …

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What’s wrong with me?

  August 10th, 2009 by Pyro C

I’ve been contemplating suicide for about a year now. I was on birth control pills to help regulate my period and insulin levels. I used to blame my depression on the pills but even after I got off of them I still have really low lows of depression. I graduated high school at 16 because I couldn’t stand all the drama. People were so petty and fake I couldn’t take it anymore so I got out of there. Maybe I felt like people would really think what I did was amazing. I grew up in a small rural town where nobody graduates early so maybe …

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ah well…

  August 10th, 2009 by I'm_Sick_of_it

Hi, I rather don’t want to say my name,
I live in Europe, and I am 17 years old,

I have a disease, Which makes it very hard for myself, to lose weight,
If I lose 1kg, and eat 1 meal, I will gain that 1kg again,
I live healthy, I try to exercise, Nothing helps, And there is no cure,

At This very moment, My weight is 160Kg,
I know, I’m fat, But many, many people bully me,
And that is what was the beginning of my ‘fall’

I tried many sports, hobby’s, enc enc,
I found none to be appealing to me,
Till I started to game, I love playing games, becoming good …

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Lost

  August 10th, 2009 by forgotten

I am not sure who will see this, are if they will care. Everyday I have consider how to end this pain, the empty feellings that are in my heart . I am sure it will be by pills I hope I have enough. I have wanted for so long to talk to someone and empty out my soul to. But I think God is tired of my tears, if I were he I know I would. I feel so tired of trying, putting on the smiles saying I’m ok. But I am not ok. I take care of my edlery father and I have …

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Everything is Different

  August 10th, 2009 by hatethisworld

I really dont know why I feel so alone…I have so many people in my life that love me very much, but I feel so alone.  Sometimes I think maybe that is the reason why I feel alone.  Life is so wierd these days.  I feel like it is all just a blur.  I stay up late and sleep in late.  I go to work and hate it.  I come home but I dont want to be here.  I use to never be like this until poof one day everything is different.  I honestly dont think that I am depressed but maybe I am… I …

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