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Is There a Way out Of Suicide?

  December 5th, 2009 by teresapartridge

I have turned to alcohol to numb my pain and my thoughts about committing suicide. I have nothing left to live for, this is the only way out, but I want to go to Heaven. I feel that my son had abandoned me and my husband, I would like to be reunited with my entire family, as long as we’re split up, I feel lonely and lost, then the thought of suicide frequently keeps entering my mind, I have enough pills to take my life, but I don’t want my husband to be alone.


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Why am I still alive?

  December 5th, 2009 by Hyacynth

1. Remember the old lady at the grocery store, the one with out the smile on her face? You smiled at her and looked at her eyes. You made her happy. Thats why you are alive.

2. Remember the dog you saw in the park? The mutt that came up to you and wagged her tail? You rubber her ears. She so longed for the touch of a kind person. That’s why you are still alive.

3. Remember the beautiful flower garden you saw last week? Did you look at it? No? [...]
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Flying…

  December 4th, 2009 by SiLvEr_PoIsOn

So… it’s kind of like flying in a weird-not-really-way… and flying when you have no wings doens’t work out too well… time goes by slowly when everything is grey but it goes by fast when everything is not grey. Grey… grey… grey… everything is still grey. It’s weird and confusing and weird and confusing over and over… it hurts but it feels good in a weird numbish way. Memories are so incoherent and messed up. I can’t remember… i can’t remember it… and if i do i don’t remember if it’s real or a dream, or a picture, or a story conjoured up into a [...]
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Perfect Life

  December 4th, 2009 by violet

I don’t have reason to complain. My life mostly has been going very well, except for being picked on in middle school, and now years later, not doing well in school. I have a family and a boyfriend and other friends that love me. I have accomplished a lot and am not in debt, yet. I know that I am smart and not ugly and a good person. However, I am sensitive and overreact to things, and even though I know I am I just can’t stop myself. I know I can change things, which I am trying, sort [...]
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I’m hanging on by a thread

  December 4th, 2009 by mitch

Hi, i’m just really scared. I’m not used to writing my problems down like this, but here it goes.

I’m 17. Growing up has been pretty hard. I have 2 older brothers who are now all grown up. My oldest brother is gay. When I was 8 or so he would make me touch him, do things for him. It wasn’t until i was 9 when he started raping me. I was so stupid, i had no idea what he was doing to me. He kept referring to it as ‘massage’. I always told him to stop, but he wouldn’t. I was too scared to [...]
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Last year

  December 4th, 2009 by no1lovesmetruely

I had a suicide attempt last year. The boyfriend I lived with had recently dumped me and I didnt take it so well. A week after our breakup I woke up one morning and while in the shower decided I wanted to die. I just couldent figure out how I was gonna do it till it hit me. Im gonna go buy a gun and shoot myself. I purchased a gun and drove to my ex boyfriends house and he was just pulling out the driveway, thankfully he was there because I wanted him to see me die. He walked up to my car and [...]
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so i cut… no big deal

  December 4th, 2009 by just me

obviously everyone on here has a “problem” or two when it come to the thoughts of society… but I don’t think I do… as a matter of fact, I think i’m pretty normal. I have a few addictions concrening self mutilation and other things, but why, PLEASE tell me why does it matter. its my choice. i love it. its what helps keep me going. its the best thing that i could do to keep myself sane. ever heard the saying only the sane can admit their crazy… well thats so true, i’m crazy. I’M MESSED UP IN THE HEAD! but everyone is to a [...]
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PLEASE READ

  December 3rd, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or [...]
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Alone???

  December 3rd, 2009 by MayDarkSmith

When I’m not with my girl it feels like I’m alone…i don’t know what else to do but cut and cry over it…what am i supose to do???


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Control

  December 3rd, 2009 by CJ

it’s unbearable, you know?

i’m sorry to everybody. every fucking body.

peace and love


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I am getting thought to die always

  December 3rd, 2009 by srao9496

I am a house wife.but I want to do job.I came to US recently but I tried for job I didn’t get.

I am frustrated.Always I am getting feeling to die.what each and every task I am feeling so.If I am unale to do any simple task I will be depressed and I feel that I am useless.

I am a waste candidate and I can’t do anything in my life.These are my thoughts.I am trying to motivate myself but I am unable to implement it.

I am really frustrated.I am feeling like I am useless person in the world.

I feel like I can’t do job anymore.don’t know [...]
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F Depression, Sing some Christmas songs

  December 3rd, 2009 by Shane

I’m in the same boat, guys. I deal with suicidal thoughts, depression, paranoia and all that jazz. I have made mistakes but I’m trying hard to make a better life for myself. I drive without my seatbelt because I get a thrill of having a death wish.

So if you’re interested in a CD for Christmas (with some adjoining art…these projects are fun to do), give me a shout-out at SMK5Q2@hotmail.com (No immature negative bashing please). All I would need is a mailing address and there you go. I understand that I’m a complete stranger, but music can be a powerful healing tool. And giving people [...]
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please

  December 3rd, 2009 by SheWas

So i sit here every few days and I cry
I don’t want to ever come out of the dark.
I’m safe in the dark, i know where it leads.
Sunshine is only a mind tease, a reminder of something I can’t have.
So many fucked up things.
I lose everyone I love.
I just want to lose myself.
I just want to be lost forever.
I want everyone to forget about me so I can just do it.
I want to die.
I pray to die every day.
I am 20 years old, when I was 16 they called it a “phase”.
When will [...]
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cut my head open, spill my brains, take everyhting ive ever had. i dont care.

  December 2nd, 2009 by sheneverwas

Today

Was horrible.

I got nasty stares from everyone of her friends.

I felt them burn my back with their hate, saying it was my fault.

Saying “go fuck yourself emo girl! Go cut and die!”

Im sorry.

I didn’t mean to hurt her, to bruise her.

I just was so hurt that a complete stranger would judge me.

Hurt me.

Break me.

The very little friends I have are now staying away so they don’t get bothered by her and her posse’

What have I done??

IM SORRY.

I wish I could work things out with her.

I feel bad, its all my fault…..

Why….???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I got home, I cried and my mother pounded on my door, insisting I [...]
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Retarded.

  December 2nd, 2009 by someoneoutthere

It’s retarded. It’s retarded that no one sees. I don’t need therapy. I don’t need meds. I just need someone to genuinely care about me. Someone who smiles every time they see me. I want people to point and say “See that girl? She’s a good friend of mine. She’s pretty awesome. She means a lot to me.”

Instead, I keep getting friends who want me for my brains, who want me to edit their papers and help them with their math homework because I’m the freaking nerd, in all those AP classes, who’s too nice to turn anyone down.

I’m so desperate to succeed at something. [...]
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What do you do when you Feel like your dead, but you haven’t died?

  December 2nd, 2009 by MayDarkSmith

Hey,

My story is probably just like yours…just a little different i guess. My story isn’t long but it’s something at least… In short, I can’t be myself. My mother is against my sexuality and the person that I’m involved with and I am now home schooled in the hope of keeping me away from this person…it doesn’t make since. Everyone wants me back at school even the people that are against me and yet still my mother does these things. I can’t do any of the coping skills that I’ve been taught to do because she doesn’t like them apparently…

In one year i will be [...]
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i hate this world

  December 2nd, 2009 by kbell

oaky…here it is…the unabridged truth…
i hate this world. i hate everything about it. i hate that it hurt me in ways i cannot even begin to describe. i hate that the damage the world’s screwed up people have had on me have left scars that don’t show…they don’t make me look crazy…but i am…those scars make me impossible to live with, and impossible to love. i didn’t cause this…i survived that…yet i bear the damage and it’s impossible to change enough to ever live in a happy life like so many other people do. i want off this planet. [...]
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Don’t Want to Fight anymore

  December 2nd, 2009 by BecWard

I’m tired of having to fight to survive, fight what I want to keep other people happy. I have wanted to die since I was 12, back then I had to protect my younger sister, so she wouldn’t go through what Ive been through…
The only reason I am alive right now and typing this instead of ending the fight is that I dont want to hurt the ones I love….but why should I suffer?


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yeahh, i want happiness.

  December 1st, 2009 by sarah8362

My point will be to keep this short, I hope I can stick to that.

I’m a cutter and I’m sick of being ashamed. I’m sick of hiding it and convincingly covering up my suicide attempts. I honestly just want the desire to kill myself to go away. I’ve felt happiness and I want it more and more. I’m having a hard time getting that because of my relationship with myself mostly, with my family, and the fact I can’t stop failing school.

Anyone have any advice? I’ve been in this same rut for about 5 years, and I feel like I’m 12 years old again, cutting [...]
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PLEASE READ

  December 1st, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or [...]
Continue reading...