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Feel Like a Loser…

  October 9th, 2009 by Nikknakk

So 2 weeks ago I went on a job interview and they said I would be a great addition to the team and they offered $20.00/hr. I was so excited I said yes, they said ok we are just going to check yoru references and get back to you to set up for your first day. I went shopping for new outfits because this job was business casual dress code. I got my hair cut and nails done. Then I never heard back for 2 weeks and today they call and said they want to keep their options open. WOW, i feel like a loser [...]
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How

  October 9th, 2009 by could

At the moment I am contemplating ending this. I even called the suicide line…was on hold for 5 minutes before hanging up after listening to a machine, what a crock that is. I am bipolar and have extreme depression swings even for being bipolar(this has been told to me by several doctors now). When I’m manic I’m more or less ok, but over the past few years my manic swings are getting shorter and less frequent, from what I’ve read most of you are teenagers, I am not. Through my life I should have died naturally more or less about 10-12 times, from electrocution (3 [...]
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want to die

  October 8th, 2009 by lalalinda

so i just swallowed 4mg of Ativan, 100mg of Citalopram and 200mg of oxycodone or something like that… oh and 2 shots of smirnoff but thats all i could handle cuz i kept throwing up in my mouth cuz im all shaky and nervous right now. this is my second suicide attempt. i just  really want to die, and i hope this works. i also have a plastic bag with an elastic band next to me that hopefully i will remember to put on my head just before i start to pass out. anyways, i really hope i took enough stuff!


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  October 8th, 2009 by peter

was sexually abused when i was a child.didnt say to nobody that.was growing up in strict family.was just waiting to be 18 and leave my country cos culdn stand face of the guy who was raping me for 2 years.
when i was 18 left to study uni in other country.was thinking that was the best solution but i was not ready for that.was trying to be best student and show everybody that im THE ONE,basically didnt eat was studying all the time,didnt realize that i was so skinny,soon after i was underwieight,went back to my parents and from underwieight i was soon overweight cos [...]
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Trying to help others

  October 8th, 2009 by Ericka0192

Hi, my name is Ericka Peele and I am doing my graduation Project on teen suicides and Suicide prevention and i have no clue where to begin.
The reason I got interested in teen suicides is because I nearly lost my older sister, who tried to take her life, and with a reason history lesson, I have learned that my great-grandmother committed suicide and my father have a history of trying to commit suicide before I was born.
If there any information on how I can help, please let me know.


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Lost

  October 7th, 2009 by Monwell

I’m just a teenage guy. I’m stressed beyond belief. I don’t know where to turn, my school work id fluctuating. At least I have running but even that I’ll only ever be so good at. I’m running out of options and I need to know if someone has any ideas before I actually decide to do something stupid again….


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Tired

  October 7th, 2009 by serenity2338

This is it in my time of need nobody is there to help me. I want to die but I don’t want to live. I am sick of living a lie! The people in my class say oh she is such a lovely girl always happy and smiling, they don’t even know me! It is all just a lie. In all honesty I am so unhappy. There are times I look in the mirror and think wow I look pretty or boy do I feel good. That is such a rarity, truth be told I despise myself. I despise the person that I have become. [...]
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lost….

  October 7th, 2009 by xbrokenheartx

i moved from north dakota to south dakota back in may i had to break up with my boyfriend that i have been with for like a year.. that was really hard.. i had to leave all my friends behind… I started this school new school my junior year i am 17.  i have tried to make new friends but no one will even talk to me they call me that new girl.. all my friends from north dakota stabbed me in the back they all started calling me a whore and i thought they were my friends i told them everything but i can [...]
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Right Now

  October 6th, 2009 by hamkid

Right now I, a 16 year old hidden bisexual man, am laying in my bed rotating a pair of scissors. Ive been listening to “The Prayer” by Kid Cudi for the last 2 hours. And over the last few weeks my life has just been going straight down hill. 2 Fridays ago, i decided that i would finally come out to this other gay kid that i thought was pretty awesome. I trusted him, even though we barely knew each other like that. then i became comfortable with him and thought life was going great because i had someone i could be real with. Then [...]
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help

  October 5th, 2009 by xSatanx

Well im not sure why im here i geuss this site just felt like the best place to share my story. Ive helped a lot of suicidal people and i was told that i was very good at helping to change there lifes i listened to them and helped but ive never had any one help me. When i was born my mother and father were addicted to cocaine things weren’t so bad my dad had a stable job and i had my grandfather. When my grandfather died i was about 4 or 5 my dad became closer to my uncle who was also a drug [...]
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God? Bullshit

  October 2nd, 2009 by Ryuu

I’ve felt this way for a while now. I’m an atheist. I considered myself christian for a while but decided it wasnt for me. I’ve never really had anything against people who believe in god but I never understood why they did really. Now though, now I just cant take it anymore. I’m so sick and tired of hearing about people giving god credit for their acheivements and blaming the devil for their misfortunes. That shit is absolute tripe. Where do all the good things come from? luck. Where do all the bad things come from? luck. Luck is the reason for everything. People like [...]
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kitten_666_@hotmail.com

  September 30th, 2009 by Calamity Jane

because I have tried to move on from what I have previously written on this site, but I can’t delete my comments.

If anyone figures out how to delete comments can you please tell me?

kitten_666_@hotmail.com


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Diana

  September 27th, 2009 by erased_orion

You asked me once if my wounds healed.

They do, but only on the outside. I wonder if you’ve realized that on your own. I can’t find it in me to tell you that, and i don’t know why.

I would like them to, really. I want to stop…but i can’t do it on my own. I guess it’s because i’m such a weakling, huh?


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change

  September 21st, 2009 by helper

it appears that no matter how far any of get away from this we all regress at some point or another, but i guess thats when we got to think about how we healed in the first place.


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i’d really love to help

  September 21st, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.  so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or [...]
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July 2, 2007

  September 18th, 2009 by aspersion

This is a story that I have written about “My Perfect Suicide.” I posted it about 2 months back and had a few comments about it but I wanted to clarify that this is a true story that happened 07/02/07 (4 days before my 18th bday) and I survived.

“Tears slowly rolling down my discolored face comes from pondering my short fate. I listen to my left blinker click in the distant background of my thoughts while I wait for my turn to enter the freeway heading east toward the dusky sky. Getting the green arrow, I squealed the tires on my red Mustang GT. The car rocketed [...]
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a new blog type thing

  September 17th, 2009 by trying to recover

http://suicidesavior.webs.com/ this is my new website. please come and look. yeah.


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It just gets worse.

  September 17th, 2009 by Coyote

I posted here once, back in July I think.  At the time I had just graduated college with a degree in music.  I had a part-time minimum wage job, and was living illegally in a friend’s dorm room because I had nowhere else to go.  A few people responded to my post, and one even offered friendship, but I was too afraid of getting caught on this site by my “roommates”, so I didn’t come back and see that.

Since then I’ve had to give up my job because I couldn’t afford to get an apartment or support myself.  I had to move back to my [...]
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Purpose?

  September 14th, 2009 by steveagain2

Do you believe that some people aren’t put on this earth to get what they want/need? Because, lately, I believe that. I believe that certain people are put onto this earth as a warning to others, to never really get what they want and force themselves to accept what they’re given or die trying.

Example: I’m sure a lot of you know about me and my ex. I rant about it nearly everyday. What I’m sure you didn’t know what that she was depressed, too, before she met me (I’m not being egotistical, it’s the truth). She cut herself, was very closed off to everyone, etc. [...]
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On the edge of giving up.

  September 13th, 2009 by Peace

Well, i’ve done it, i have dumped my girlfriend, i wont repost it but you can search for the thread: Feeling weak and pathetic

I decided to give life a 2nd try, life doesnt circle around love yet it hurts alot when you are broken but now it feels like my past is catching up with me again and i am really tierd of being alone..

Im not talking about getting a new girlfriend, i’ve lost a friend due to “love”. I just wanted someone to talk to, someone who i could talk about bunch of things with, someone to speak to when i feel awful and [...]
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