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thoughts

  May 10th, 2009 by helper

I am lost I’m helping other people cope, because I cannot do that for myself, that’s what I’ve always done for two reasons. One because it doesn’t seem fair for two people to like fail and second because I keep thinking that somehow just maybe helping them will fix the problems I avoid in my life. I need help and guidance but no one sees it, ever. Its proven over and over again every time I tell someone who I am and how I feel its always like sympathy and I don’t need that I need understanding sometimes there’s some of that to but

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Lost

  May 9th, 2009 by susanl

i’m like alot of people. sexually abused, drug addicted (but not using now), on meds, been in hospitals, tried to kill myself alot of times, cutter, can’t keep job very long, the usaul stuff the bi-polar people have and do. I’ve talked and talked, nothing helps. I always end up back at the same place. To die or try one more time. This time it’s different, i don’t have it in me to try any more. I live in a bad area and in the back of my head i wish one of the gun shots i hear would come at me. You see i’ve …

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Alone

  May 9th, 2009 by fallenknight

Its getting time to head Home. Why was i put on earth just to be abandoned by every one? I’ve never had a girlfriend never know any girl to like me. Never had a friend that i could trust with anything that was on my mind i am alone. No one cares about me so why should i stick around anymore its been 24 years of struggle for me and it will soon be over. Why was God abandoned me? Why did God create me? As a cruel joke? All I’ve ever wanted was girl to love be but i guess that’s to much to …

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Everything is falling apart.

  May 8th, 2009 by lixie

I’ve been suicidal for a while now, after my boyfriend cheated on me 4 times. I really don’t wanna explain, talking about it hurts me so bad. Although I’ve always wanted to write about my feelings for other to see, I was to scared that anyone I know would see it, and figure out it was me.

Well, from when I was 14, I started hurting myself. Cutting my arms and burning with cigarettes. At first, I admit it was for the attention, maybe a cry for help that someone would see me. But after a while I stopped that.. Showing it around. And now it’s …

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  May 8th, 2009 by dyingstar51

I’ve been hospitalized twice for trying to commit suicide. The times I’ve tried were because of me being sexually abused. The first time I was 10. The second 14. Now I am 17 and have yet again been sexually abused. It seems like I’m cursed. I haven’t reported it because the last two times I did, nothing happened. The case was thrown out both times. I’ve resorted back to cutting. I find it as my comfort. It soothes me. When no one understands I know that my razor does. It’s helped me through some pretty shitty times and I miss it when I try to …

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  May 8th, 2009 by erased_orion

I dont really understand why i feel this way…come to think of it, i dont really have as much problems as other people, i mean, I’ve never been raped or anything like that….so im sorry for taking your time. It’s just that…i have no other way i could let this out. My best friend doesnt like to let me talk to her about things like this, and i can’t tell my parents…They’re not here. It’s just that i feel so…empty and alone…always. Im also no good at anything…i cant do anything right, and i have average grades, but i know for a fact that that’s …

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Career Loss

  May 7th, 2009 by softexcel

Many people have lost everything through this recession…  I lost my job and career ‘two recessions ago’ and cannot obtain work to save my life.  Am well educated, an engineer.  But my family is poor, so no trust fund :)   The pain of being ostracized from society and having a career ripped from my hands is so painful that I want to die.  Age discrimination, racism, sexual harrassment, chauvinism, many nasty things go on in the field of engineering.  One must have a skin made of titanium to survive the games, especially if one is a woman.  The women in engineering do not always support

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I Almost Suceeded

  May 7th, 2009 by NoWayItsRick

It’s been almost three months since I almost suceeded killing myself. I had everything planned, right down to the bottom line. I had called to say goodbye to my mother and grandparents. They had no clue what was actually going on. They figured I was just saying goodnight like I do everynight. I was going to take the entire bottle of serious pain killers I had. I still had a small bit of doubt and I tried to cling to it. The pain became too real for me. And it grew steadily worse. I started cleaning my room up. Organizing everything. In my own sick …

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What a fucked up life I lead

  May 7th, 2009 by harmlessfun

I’m finding myself hitting the bottom again…or shall I say bottoming out. That “special” time in life where you feel like you live in the gutter and the world spits on you in contempt as it gently walks by. The world cannot hate me any more than I already hate myself. I would just take my life, but there are so many people that would be hurt that death is not an option. So here I sit in my misery. Committed to a life of solitude. Making the decision that I’ll just start taking prescription drugs to blank out …

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What the fuck?!

  May 6th, 2009 by Crazy C

This is the hand we’re dealt, live with it or get the fuck out of here. Survivors to the right, whiners to “get the fuck out of here!” Abandoned as a kid, mother – suicide, brother – homicide, father – sonofabitch! And to boot, I’m bipolar with no coping mechanisms whatsoever. Should I get out my terrible towel and cry a river?! It’s good to see that the females are still here to play the savior-nurturer to all the male “misunderstoods”. This isn’t a suicide blog. This is the fuckin’ lonely heart’s club.To most of you, suicide is some romantic notion. There is nothing romantic …

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im done

  May 6th, 2009 by Looney

well it started yesterday when i had decided to take maybe about 7 left over tylenol and some green pills, i think they were aleeve.  then i asked mom to bring me home some asprin and i took about i think 8 of those. today i went on ahead and took about 30 more asprin and later today im taking 30 more asprin.  im thinking about taking the whole bottle but ill just wait maybe until i finish writing this.  ive finaly decided to just do it instead of talking about it because in reality no one else can feel your pain or what your …

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Suicide Prevention Online

  May 6th, 2009 by padfoots

http://suicideprevention.findtalk.net/index.htm

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slowly getting closer

  May 5th, 2009 by slumber33

my lifes fucked, i went on a week end camp and i met this guy that i really liked, i’m goin out with him now but 2 days ago i told him i luved him, since then he hasnt spoke to me, its not only this thats fucking my head up but i really like this guy and i dont want to lose him, i’m cuttin agen, my legs, my arms, my belly, and each time i think should i cut deeper and deeper untill i reach something that might end it all, schools a ***** my m8’s think i’m depressing (depressed more like) and …

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Dating?

  May 5th, 2009 by meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Hi

I hope this isn’t in bad taste, but I’m male and 32, with a particularly caring nature, and I just find the mentally unstable so hot… Seeing as so many people seem to be lacking any love or attention in their life, I think I can provide a service, ‘therapy’ you could call it.

Any how, I am disease free and possess my own teeth, can travel.

Thanks

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I Have Done IT to Myself!!

  May 5th, 2009 by wornout

In my mid 40s old, have lead a charmed life at times, always looking for the thing that would make me happy. Bottomline nothing can make anyone happy it comes from within. So how do you do that when the weight of the world and the consequences of poor choices and actions culminate into one gigantic crushing smoothering ball and chain. Reality becomes blurred and all you want to do is check out. My children and the fear of death and HELL up to this point keep me from doing the worst however as they are several states away and thier Mother is awaiting me …

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Life When Dose It Start

  May 5th, 2009 by dwillis

Today was not a good day as a matter of fact I can’t remember when i’ve ever had a good day. I am about to share something about myself that no even my closest family members know. I have been suffering from depression, PTSD and Bi polar for 15 years. All because my stepfather physicaly,emotionaly abused me when I was a kid. I want nothing more then to  end my life because I cannot deal with the constant pain eveyday. I don’t get the support I need form my husband who is the only person I have told that matters to me. My mother knows …

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  May 5th, 2009 by Looney

im feeling a little better now since ive been writing day by day on my suicidal situations.  im not totaly 100 percent but depression is never easy to recover from.   sometimes i get so deep in depression that i isolate myself from everyone even my parents.  sometimes that personal space is something that i need to try and calm myself before doing bad things.  even though im out of a job and having to stay home with my mom, being broke, and facing the possibility of imprisonment, im still trying to look forward instead of harmful things like the knife on the kitchen table or …

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  May 5th, 2009 by Looney

the last time i wrote i was a little to harsh and i apologize for those of you out there who actually read these things.  you have to understand that im at a point in my life where i realy dont care about anything anymore.  when i write i just feel like there is someone out there listening to me and what i have to say just for the moment.  this is honestly the only thing that is keeping me from doing something stupid, but im sure almost everyone has been there.  well im 20 years old about to turn 21 in september.  i realy …

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Update

  May 5th, 2009 by Grey

It has been 1 year and 1 day since I first registered on this site.

My issue was, my girlfriend of 1.5 years, the longest relationship I’d ever know, left me. I had given up jobs, promising careers, and opportunities to be with her, and she tossed it, tossed me, to the wind like dust. Within 2 weeks of this breakup, I had gone to visit her to return some of her posessions she wanted. I’d discovered that she “hooked up” with a guy the night before, someone whom I thought was my friend. Her and this guy got engaged 2 weeks …

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pregnant through incest – how do I get over this?

  May 4th, 2009 by destroyed@13

I can’t stop thinking about hurting myself. It’s like an addiction; I just want to cut, to see the blood, to end this enormous pain.

 

My father made me pregnant at age 13. Then, he stuck a pole up me until I aborted. My mother told him I was pregnant. She knew all about it.

 

How do I go on after this? I am so ashamed. I feel like I killed that baby. It wasn’t my fault, but I feel like it was. I believed abortion was wrong. I would have had the baby rather than kill it. He killed my baby. 

 

I feel like dying.

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