Worst school day ever. I hate my life so much its not even funny. God why are you punishing me? What did i do wrong? I beileve in you but it seems you hate me. Why do people make fun of me. I got stares from people and they just point and laugh. AM I THAT UGLY? Did i look the wrong directions? Nothing but tears today. Nothing but sympthy. My friends said to forget about it or ignore them but thats not working at all i cant do it. Everyday its the same thing. Like i said i am weak. i cant […]
I hide from the world in the shadows,
I listen to the world from under,
I have lost my soul,
Is there no one with me?
Am I alone?
Why must everything good leave…why?
what’s the line in the entertainment biz? “Once more, with feeling!”? Here’s another
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I don’t understand why I feel so bad,
I thought I was over the feelings I had.
There’s no one to talk to or help me out,
I just wish I knew what this was about.
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It can be so confusing, sometimes IÂ don’t know,
what it is that I do, or where it is I go.
Yes I’m alone, but at times I don’t mind,
it’s just that right now, life is a grind.
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If it weren’t for […]
I killed myself when I was 16. But was “saved,” and every day since then has been even worse than the first 16 years. I’ve stuck around for others, for my parents, friends, lovers, children. But I just can’t anymore. Everything and everyone sucks. I’m miserable all the time. Any joy I have is short lived. I fail at every single thing I have ever done. I’ve let so many people down. And the longer I stay, the more the pain piles on. So I’m finally at my end. I have a few loose ends to tie up, but I want to order that hood […]
For all the help and encouragement…. to everyone. I’ve only been here since Saturday, but this place was crucial to my survival through Sunday and yesterday…. I have been encouraged to post some of my writings…. and although I’ve never shared them before this past weekend, I feel it’s the least I can do….. here is another…. titled “If Things Don’t Change”…
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With my feelings,
there’s no pickin’ or choosin’
’cause most of the time
they hide away snoozin’
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When I look inside
it’s only perusin’
I’m so empty now
my life I am losin’
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If […]
I know a lot of people are here because they’ve lost some one …. Â
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I never thought
I could feel this bad.
I’m so sad and lonely,
what a good thing I had.
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It was finer than wine
and sweeter than honey,
I was richer then
but had less money.
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It was so good
and I didn’t know it,
but now that it’s gone
I’ve turned into a poet.
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This love that I’ve lost
it’s gone somewhere new,
this love that I’ve lost,
yes, it was you.
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These […]
well im 17 im changing my life around doing away with the depression and taking out the old people that made me that way that really arnt my friends in the first place. the only true friends i had both died not even a year ago. \ im a very good listner and can relate to a lot of yalls stories and i really need new friend to talk to so just comment, add me on facebook or send me an email at tigger944@yahoo.com oh and that the email for my facebook to.
Alone with my feelings,
there is no one around.
My head is reeling
from all of the sounds.
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They all seem so hazy,
I can’t make them out,
it’s driving me crazy,
I just want to shout.
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As I continue to fight
these things in my head,
the day fades from light
and I get ready for bed.
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As people come in
and out of my life,
they all seem to grin
unaware of the strife.
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The conflicts inside
are strong and yet silent,
from others they hide
but within they are violent.
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Watching the sun fade behind the hills
I’m waiting for you, as I eat these pills
The wind at my back and the sun on my face
You know, it’s such a beautiful taste
I know I promised, not to lose my faith
But it’s so hard, dealing with this pain
Sanity seeping, out of my head
You know I’ll rest better, now that I’m dead
Forget it all, let it fade
A time when I, had seen better days
The smile I wore, hid the fear inside
A time when I knew, that I would die
Don’t look back, don’t be afraid
The past is gone, it […]
I can’t blame anyone for this but goddamn human culture focuses on human relationships. I’m pretty big into all forms of art but all it ever is is people in love. Paintings of lovers or female nudes. Stories of falling in and out of love. Songs about relationships. And even when those relationships are failing all I can think is how lucky those people are that they can at least enter into relationships. I’m 29 and a lifelong professional and personal failure who has never had a love interest; never had any woman who has cared for me romantically or has desired me in any […]
Every time I see or hear about someone who has died, been in an accident or killed in some way I can’t help but think “lucky bastard” or “I wish that was me.” Why can’t it have been me that died? why am I still alive when other people die who want to live?
even when I was holding my mum’s hand as she passed I way I wanted desperately to trade places with her. That is an image that I can never forget.
I want to die but I dont want to kill myself, I just don’t see a point to go on living so I […]
That moment where you’re just about to go and kill yourself with no barriers to stop you at all;
This feeling right now is so incredibly intense.
i don’t care about my birthday anymore. even though my friends and family are excited, i really don’t think it’s worth the time celebrating a life that isn’t worth celebrating. Sure i’m another year older, but what good does that mean? we’re all going to die and so far from what i’ve seen life is basically a contest to see who is in this marathon we call life the longest. But i don’t like being a conformist, i’d rather be watching it from above instead of actually being in it.
i guess i’m lazy that way.
First is a new poem, written on Thursday, May 5 2011….. it pretty much explains why I’ve never owned a gun in over 50 years of life…. I’ve never wanted to hurt others….. it is titled “IF I HAD A GUN”
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If I had a gun
I’d show y’all what fun
If I had a gun
we’d never see the sun
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If I had a gun
you’d all still look for some
If I had a gun
I’d be the one you shun
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If I had a gun
there’d be no “we have none”
If I had a gun
it would not be […]
My semester one exams are coming up in 3 weeks. I have loads of pending work. I don’t understand anything. I’m just so stressed right now and combined with my depression and anxiety I feel suicide is my only option. Alot of you on here seen to be managing – even if it is one day at a time- so please. Some advice on how to stop myself from killing myself?
Thanks for reading. Replies would really be appreciated. Thanks.
Like the title said im done. I cant do it. i cant go on like this. I dont need fake happiness to continue my life. I don’t even have a friend who understands what im going through. I doubt anybody can see the real me. I’m pretty sure they will once i’m dead. I dont want attenion cause that is the last thing on mine list.
You know… i dont even know who i am. I dont know who is in mine body. Who is in here is just another puppet being controll. Who knows who is controlling mine emotions. I know im not strong […]
Hi i know NONE of u know me but iv wanted to kill myself for years but i finally got over it and anyone who is feeling down and out can talk to me 🙂 i wanna help ppl overcome this just like i did instead of takin the easy way out 😡 so if ur lookin for someone to talk to hit me up 🙂 btw i anit into god or nothin so dont worry bout that shit
Following a small story I read, I feel tonight I should go. It is the perfect night. Perfect setting. And who would see it coming? HAH.
I’m ready to overdose.
Ready to die.
Pill#1..
Pill#2…
Pill#3….
So on and so on I will slowly die and slowly disappear.
Who would care
I have a sweet wife and four kids, but I’m still sad. I don’t want my kids to be the ones who’s dad killed himself. I’ve been thinking that every fathers day would be a bad day for them. So instead of ruining a second day for them I could do it then.
I have decided to just stop talking to people when all I wanna do is die. I hate when people ask me for help on school work. They don’t even know how to say my name and they try to cheat off of me? No.
And my mom is really mad at me for some reason. I’d rather not retell the story cuz it’s only gonna make me mad, but she basically hates me for being ”rude” I am NOT rude. I stand up for myself, but I’m not rude at all, I’m probably one of the nicest people you will ever meet. But she hates […]