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SEE! NONE OF US ARE REALLY ALONE!!

  March 11th, 2009 by missesMask

I truly understand how you feel life is meaningless. I have felt that way for months and it is very painful. SOme days I think its the day to get it over with, because the pain and hopelessness is just unbearable. This life just feels like a dirty little trick played on us by biology, or cosmology, or whatever. The strange thing is, I think that even though we are suicidal )some of us severely so) I don’t think we really WANT to die. I think we just want answers. THough it seems those answers aren’t reachable (outside ourselves) maybe they aren’t even as important …

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Help me, im dieing

  March 11th, 2009 by Brokenshadows

I dont know wether this will work, ive never raly spoken to anyone before about my problems, i always take things on myself. Why does it seem that everytime you try to do something good it always goes tits up and people hate you for it? I was bullyed as a child, i dont know weather thats why im writing this today, what i do know is that it lead to my insicurity and the fact i dont tell anyone anything. Ive only ever opened up to one person, i loved her, she made my life have a purpose for the first time. The purpose …

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I’m going to Die

  March 10th, 2009 by Apathy

Tonight i’m going to truely give in to this stupid cycle of misery and i’m going to make it end.
I’ve planned it well i beleave no one suspects i’m going to do it, i saw a counselor and i lied to him and chickened out of the help i know i need, walking into his office i felt so sure that he could fix me, help me but then i knew that no one could fix me so i lied and made out it wasn’t as bad as it seemed ironically he asked if i had a plan or some method, i said no while …

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Wait

  March 9th, 2009 by aialbr

I thought furiously about how I was going to let my parents know, would an email be so bad. If I sent an email they would know straight away, but would they have the computer on, would they even check their emails. I know I didn’t, in-fact it was very rare I checked mine, I would normally have at least 100 emails to make my way through as I left it so long before looking. It does seem a little impersonal, but how else would I let them know. I put the thought to one side as my thoughts redirected themselves to …

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I’m Sick and tired of being sick and tired!

  March 9th, 2009 by Zakulover101

So it all started in the fifth grade, My uncle had just died from cancer. I was sad of course. I started to wear alot of black. People of course did’nt care all they did was call me gothic and emo. My life was just so stupid, I didn’t know what to do at the age of 10, I had friends but why would I tell them anything?  So I just became really isolated and just kept to myself, I thought this was just a new to live life, But then my mom was diagnosed with deppresion and Bipolar, Before that my parent’s …

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What if they dont like me?

  March 9th, 2009 by rocky

Me, a 16 year old ******, atleast i think i am, always brushed off my stressors and depression-activators aside…. i never gave a 2nd look to why i am sad. I endured it. I always thought, if I thought about why i am so unhappy with my life, maybe I’ll take some sort of action towards fixing or mending this apparent hole in my life. Being Indian gives me a life full of culture… values… family. From day 1, I have been taught to be the perfect being my parents could wish for. I don’t want to be the perfect being they want me to …

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I am lost, please help

  March 8th, 2009 by helper

Why go up if your just going to come crashing back down again? This is a question I ask myself everyday day night and pretty much all in between as well, but now you must be curious why well that’s a long story… better put down your homework and ipod and listen up if you really want to know… you know on the other hand play angels on the moon in a constant loop that how I’m feeling right now so that will probably fir to what I’m writing.

            Hi, my name is *Kie*. And yes I am aware it rhythms, been told

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My suicide note.

  March 2nd, 2009 by Alexis

Tonight I will die.

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I’m so done I can’t take it anymore

  February 28th, 2009 by Kieylee102

I think I’ve reached the end of my chain. There’s nothing I can do right and I think it’s time to stop trying. I’ve screwed up so bad I just can’t keep thinking that I will make it out this time. School sucks I can’t make friends and no one cares. The teachers make me feel like crap and they don’t even know how much it hurts. This world is crap so what’s the point anymore. If no one cares about then what’s the point to live anymore. Who would care if I where dead not like anyone were really my friends they just put …

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I give up.

  February 25th, 2009 by channing015

That’s it. I just can’t take it anymore. Everyone hates me. There’s not a goddamn thing wrong with me. I’m skinny, I’m somewhat good looking, people laugh at my jokes (yes it [i]IS[/i] at my jokes) and still I’m always the one taking all the shit. I feel like one day I’m going to explode. I keep thinking that school is just like a war camp: I have to battle my way through seven levels of hell. [b]And that’s not even including the bus to school and back and the hallway encounters.[/b]

I don’t think I’ve been through a whole day without
*Getting slapped in the …

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changed

  February 22nd, 2009 by eric3034

I have changed. I am Marcus and I know I need to change but I can’t cus my friends are not understanding and i live two lives where i apere to be a happy outgoing teen at school but when i am by myself all i can think abut is how much i whant to hurt myself i need help but i dont whant to burn or cut i dont know were to go can someone ples tell me what to do

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The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth.

  February 20th, 2009 by misunderstood

“There are worst things you can do to the people you love than kill them. No matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.”

I’ve decided that dying is not the worst thing that can happen to you. Living…living everyday…with the knowledge, and the pain, and the hurt, of being betrayed by the only person you gave your heart and soul too.
That kills.
At least when you’re dead you don’t feel a damned thing.

I hate this–hate myself. I disgusts myself. I’m a ***** panzi ass ugly ***** that can’t get over the past because …

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suicide is jx dumbbb.

  February 19th, 2009 by sukk.it

okhay well this is my side of the story.
why would yu want to die for somethinq so stupid and someone who doesn’t even care
for you. face life, and think as everthinq in a positive way nothinq bad will happen.
ask your self if you really would sacrifice dyinq for someone else. and ask your self aqain
if they would sacrifice dyinq for yu? yeah none of us are perfect, cute, popular, many friends like.
but everyone is special in their own way. everythinq has a reason. you were brouqht into this world
to make a chanqe to others not to sacrifice dyinq for some one who doesn’t …

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Frustrated

  February 18th, 2009 by LinaB

What the fuck.? I’m so frustrated. i’m so weak and ugly and stupid and…FUCK i can’t stand myself. I hate being trapped in my head. I have a shrink but she doesn’t get it. I haven’t told any of my friends about my… thoughts or whatever. they don’t know me at all. i hate being so fake. I literally have no reason to want to die. that just makes me want to die more though. i’m such a lazy whining prick. i want so bad to suck it up and get over myself but i cant. i cant do anything. i want to much. i …

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Breaking pionts exist….

  February 18th, 2009 by AbsentFeeling

I think I may have reached a breaking point. I know I don’t have anything to be depressed about, but I am. IT SUCKS! I hate it, everything, everyone. I was singing terribley morbid poems to my dog. My freakin dog! I don’t think he seemed to mind though, its not like he understood a word I was saying. I am empty, like a bird’s bones. I am hollow, happiness is hollow, life is hollow. It feels fake and uninteresting. Why is it? It should be but it isn’t. When everyone screams in class like retards because we have some famous actor coming over. …

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Change Me

  February 18th, 2009 by Sirachick

I went to counseling like I do every 2 weeks. And we talked, and she said that they can change that I want to kill myself. The fact the I want to kill my self is logical. I have logic. I have a long speech about you die anyways and life doesn’t matter. I told her this, her reply: We can change the way you think about that (Or something to that extent). WTF? So I talk to ma mom about it and she’s like “They mean the way you perceive life” and I’m like, the way I perceive life is the way I think!!!!!! …

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Just talking to myself

  February 17th, 2009 by anapurna

Sometimes just to write – not to have worry about you knowing who I am helps. I don’t share my struggle…I have tried and not found understanding. Am i walking through a valley of death? I don’t think I am suicidal – but i am depresed and sometimes I just wish I would fall asleep and never wake up from it. i am not preaching to anyone I ant to make sure you know this for I do believe in God and yet I feel forsaken – I feel so alone. I just finished two history classes and the grade for both classes …

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My story-ish

  February 17th, 2009 by Stonecolddeadinside

I know that people always say, “Oh it’ll be okay” and “Oh I’m so sorry”. They say all these things that just don’t help. But when you need it the most, there’s always one person, who’ll actually say something that helps.

I’ve lost a lot of things, Family, friends, the love of my life, and even the will to live. It hurts when someone you love lies to you, or your family disowns you.

A few months ago, I got in trouble with the law for my brother’s Marijuana in my car. I made the illogical decision to let him smoke in my car before …

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This is a goodbye letter

  February 16th, 2009 by AnthonyJackson

I have never been good at these things so I will just type what I feel. Alot of people will sit there and say that they want to die, and they are unhappy and they want it to end…I want to die because I hate myself completely, I dispise the fact I am breathing right now. Im 28 years old, not very old, not very young, kinda in the middle of my life and I am ready to die.

My whole life has just been wrong, I was not even 2 when my father left my mother. She was torn up about it and never let …

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What would’ve happened?

  February 16th, 2009 by Ms. Attica

Tuesday November 17, 2008

I get home from school, the second I get there all I wanna do is dissapear.
I waited until my mom left for work, to have to house to myself. Once she was gone I lock all the doors leading outside so no one can get in. I go to the bathroom with my backpack, tissues, and cold medicine (the kind that makes you drowsey) I lock that door too. I go to the corner, and burst into tears. I cried for 2 and-a-half-hours. I then unwrap 6 of the pills, I take 3. I threw the other 3 away. Afraid that …

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