Justification, if only for myself, about my consideration of suicide.
I have no reason to live any more I hate my life all I do is cause others around me pain. I never smile and when I do it is fake. I figure it will all be easier for everyone for me to just die, no one will care and when I die I wont care either. I have thought about it before but never managed it. I know I will miss things I love like reading and anime but I also know that when I die I wont care any more. All I want is a quick painless way to die, I have no […]
I suppose Iâ€™m writing this down as a way of trying to understand the situation but to be honest I doubt I will
The pain is immense, I canâ€™t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I canâ€™t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, it was snatched away from me. Whilst writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancÃ©e, to my daughter and my unborn children, my life […]
K3T I’m getting really sick of K3T, getting really sick of coming here and always, always, always seeing his posting over and over agin. And their all the same. And what he does doesn ‘t seem to be ‘helping’. Am I the only 1 who feels this way? Can somebody please help me get rid of him.
Well, i’ve never really been a positive person. I just cant see many good things worth living for in this life. I rent a house with some friends, but am moving in with my girlfriend. The depressing part is i love her and am ready to get a place together, BUT i have to get rid of all my stuff because we dont have room in our new place. Music is my life and now i have to put my guitars, amps, drum set, etc, up for sale or in storage. My attitude has declined and now all we do is fight. I dont want […]
in short here is a list of the bad things that have happened to me in the last 7 years: kicked out of school, diagnosed with crohns disease, developed anorexia, taken advantage of sexually, severe flare up of crohns- complicated operation, recovery from anorexia mentally but noy physically after 4 years of it, grandad died, heart broken, off to university only to have to quit after a month- severe flare up of crohns, eventualy told if i did not have a op to remove a lot of my intestine and have an ileostomy (for god knows how long!!) id die before xmas(dec11) if i did […]
Tomorrow, I’m going to take every anti-depressant that I own, and painkiller, and drink all my alcohol, then I’m going to take a razor to my wrists, deep as possible and lie on the train tracks and wait for a train. I’ll time it perfectly, I want to see the train coming.
I don’t know why I have registered on this site. It would seem that even though I have such ‘feelings’ of suicide that I’m nothing comparable to others on this site. But then why have I registered and why do I seek out ways to kill oneself? Constantly everyday I’m plagued with helpless, hopeless, depressive (What do you even define as depressive?) feelings and everyday I find myself tearing up, even at school when I’m in class. I think I’ve been, for the most part, pretty positive in the eyes of many; but on the inside I find myself hurting. Some days I tell myself […]
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I am average, or below average in my opinion. In my mind I have never done anything worth while, nor do I think I ever will. There is nothing for me to aim for, nothing I am passionate about or wish to learn. To a few people I’ve spoke to about it I say I feel like a ‘non-entity’, I lack my own unique identity. I guess that that’s kind of a stupid way to put it since that is basically being non-existant but I use to think I […]
Tonight I needed to do something. I’ve been saying I would speak w/ someone…but I never seem to do it. For yearsÂ have felt alone, deserted, desolate, godforsaken, isolated, obscure, off the beaten track, private, quiet, remote, removed, retired, secluded, secret, sequestered, solitary, unfrequented, uninhabited. I despise things around me once I hit that point. Like you all mention in your posts…there’s good days and there’s “those days”. It could be as small as the supermarket not having that one thing I needed to pick up. For get it, there goes my […]
I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve had these feelings before and they never ended up very positively. Â I just cut myself and it wasn’t enough. My life is just headed downwards and I don’t have the energy to change things. I haven’t left the house all week, except to go to the bar and get drunk. I finally showered this morning because I have to go to work. I’m disgusting. I need the strength and courage not to buy pills today after work. I have a feeling I will. It’s like uncontrollable. I don’t want to live like this anymore. 🙁
ETA: I really don’t […]
Im not me i look in the mirror and see this lonely sad girl.She has everything she always wanted alot of friends doesnt know whats missing she asks herself over and over.She wrote these words but the need solving like a puzzle she wrote them on the wall of a cabin hiding behind the bed thats not her home thats where she goes to be alone.
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She loves taking a walk in the park at night by herself just to watch the moon and stars wishing she was up there she wants to believe she could fly away just disappear […]
I see a star and wish upon it that one day everyone could disappear or i could die,in my mind there is silence in the real world theres nothing i care about.I wanna not see and hear anyone and the things people tell me keeps getting worser and worser asking myself why am i suffering and why doesnt wishes come true.Peple ask what happened to that fun,happyÂ person she wasÂ she would answer she grew up and saw the real truth, she was introduce to the real world she found hatred she found better she knows better than what she used to know.Guess what the girl was […]
Wow. This site is interesting. I felt really weird as usual looking up things today related to death and suicide. I found myself combing through this site called gonetoosoon.org. U can read online memorials of ppl who have died. And u can search HOW they died. So there I was reading memorial after memorial of suicidal deaths. I am 28. I see that there are many ppl on here that feel the way I do. But in real life–I find none. I have spent the better part of my adult life trying to cope with this blackness, and emptiness and darkness. And ( I do […]
anyone know another sight like this i can post on?
i have been feeling this same depression for about5 or 6 months.im young, i should be happy, and having fun. hell, ima teenager. but yet, i want to curl up and die. and never ever open my eyes to this pain i keep feeling again. everyone tells you, “you’ll be okay, everything will get better and go away” i’ve came to the conclusion that they’re liars. and everything will never get better. i will never fully be happy like i want.i want to die and not have to wait for this to go away. my family hates me. my friends dont care. and the only […]
i have wanted to die off and on since i was 13 years old. i’m 28 now. i have been off an on a/ds for the past several years but they make me physically sick. apparently i get serotonin poisoning! i have so little naturally in my brain that when i take these meds i actually overdose on it.
how ridiculous is that.
these days i’m so low, so tired, so done being here. i want to disappear, to die to vanish and i constantly fantasize about a disaster that will take me away or make me leave.
i can’t talk about it with my […]
“If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs. And maybe your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery, isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance. Of how much you really want to do it. And you’ll do it, despite rejection in the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go […]
Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â I did research on how much does it cost for a funeral service, it sure costs alot, cheapest way is by cremation, stillÂ adding up in the $1,000’s, Â i don’t about yous if you thought about this too, Â i’ve been thinking about getting some kind of cheap life insurance to cover my own funeral, i don’t need all that fancy stuff neither orÂ anyone toÂ visit or even see me inÂ a coffin, just bury me & let me be in peace forever,Â Â i tried to be happy in life, but it was never meantÂ to be, i will only smile the day that i die, my lonely suffering heartÂ can […]
on march 7th, it will be 7 months since i lost my soul mate to suicide. i still feel like i have no idea whats going in the world. everything is black and i cant seem to make sense of this world without him. i miss him with such a passion that sometimes i feel like my heart will never heal. does this feeling ever go away?