So this is what it’s like to be confident?
Too bad I’m drunk. ^_______________^
So this is what it’s like to be confident?
Too bad I’m drunk. ^_______________^
Today I asked myself who I am today?
Today I do not know who I am today…
Things are just no t working out in my world today…
I am definetly not myself today…. wishin’ I had some novacaine…..
My right side of my face is numb…. now a headache arises and causes more pain..
Let it all end and let me movve on in a sweet way that i may rest peacedefully but not in sleep but in death……
That I may actually enjoy…… Yes I admit I am Scared…….Of what you may ask…..
Honestly I cannot explain it but I am scared, and scarred as well……
Take the pain away and […]
Everbody needs a good rant time to time… and live journal doesn’t really help its nice when people can actually read what you have wrote and understand it instead of make fun of you
Hello there. I found this site a few days ago and have been debating on whether or not I should join. Well, I joined.
I created this story as a way to try to express how I’ve been feeling lately to my friends. I’m not quite sure if they understood it though…
Anyway, I’ll try to post more info after the story. It just seems like it would be easier to me that way.
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A figure walks into a room and inside the room is a wizard. He walks up to the wizard and asks, “I have heard that you are a great […]
I stare at a white wall
Hoping for a hand to grab mine
Of course it doesn’t
My hand is ice cold
I let tears fall off my cheeks
Gasping for air
Grabbing my blade
Taking my pills
1..I start to calm down
2…I’m breathing normal
3….A smile creeps upon my face
4…..I feel myself slipping away
5……I drop my pencil
I drop the photo
I drop my memory of you and our smiles
I lose grasp on reality
6…….I stare at the white wall
Anyone from southeast/south england?
There are those advertisement-like things that keep appearing and using up our space. Is it just me or does anyone else find it a bit … you know … useless.
What the hell? And who came up with that great idea in the first place, to post advertisements for wedding gowns on a side called “suicide project”. I feel like dying, not like getting married, douchebags. Well done.
If they want to sell something to us, how about tombstones? Or cyanide capsules?
I’m sorry for this spam post. I just find it insensitive and inappropriate.
Have a nice day nonetheless!
I’m my own worst enemy. Why do I feel the urge to destroy my life? I’m confused.
I’m gathering more problems at school. Noncompliance and shit. I didn’t go to school today. What’s the point anyway? There was a lot of work to do for today. Didn’t do anything. Didn’t go to this exam. What bugs me even more is that one project I’m working on with some others. I do that voluntarily, actually. But I can’t come up with any energy or motivation. I’m just leaving my friends hanging.
At this rate, I’ll get kicked out soon. And somehow I don’t care. I want them to […]
I never thought I’d be in this situation. I am hurting so bad all due to my greed. My debt has taken over and I have stolen from a friend. I am awaiting to hear if charges will be filed. I want to pay back and if I am in jail there will be no possibility of doing that. I have a loan for the majority but I can not go to jail. I will be dead before that happens. I am at fault have no one to talk to and even if I did I am not worthy of anyone. I am beyond […]
I’m going to keep looking… I know your out there somewhere.
Got in trouble to day because i let the hamster out for a run about the house but the back door was open. My dad said a cat might of got him. I think he made it to the forest he is free now.
school to day was the same every one calls me pizza head and fat again. Went to feed the duck’s and wonder how deep the lake is i wanted to jump in and drown. I think i am going to kill my self soon just want to no what is the best way
I just found this site. I must say its amazing. And so .. where I am. I just hope I don’t say anything to mess anything up with my account. Can you all teach me the ropes here ?
Thanks
Much love-J
Letting go of what i hold dear
i pray and remember that horrid year
loving and kissing those memories away
rejoicing in the sweet smell of the warm summer hay
laying back with you at my side
cuddling and sneaking glances at the sky
i remember your arms so gentle yet tight
holding me together that one summer night.
Behind these closed doors
i smash everything against the walls
i scream and cry
till it all comes out.
Behind these closed doors
i whisper your name into the darkness
i whimper and hide
till its washed out.
Behind these closed doors
i scratch and rip open myself
i curl up and try
till my hopes no more.
UGH! I can’t stop thinking about this man. Keyword is MAN, definitely not a boy my age. I know it’s stupid, and I shouldn’t think of him in that light. How do I break this reaction? Maybe if he was a jerk or appeared flawed in some way it would be easier, but from my perspective he isn’t. How can I stop thinking of someone as amazing? I don’t want to think about him, but I truly like him. Disgusting how the mind can easily be taken over by hormonal drives. For once my Id and Super Ego coincide, but they’ve teamed up for a […]
Wow, i had it to my throat…that stupid knife. So addicting..so shiny. I promised. I could’ve done it too, had he not interrupted.
This is my second post, it feels pretty good to be able to talk freely without a bunch of people telling you how insane you are or why life is worth living, blah blah blah.
I was thinking recently how badly I wish I had a crazy dream like sailing solo across the world or tying a bunch of balloons to a deckchair and flying around dropping pennies on people. I was never talented at anything, not music or sports, so there was never a big hopeful dream that fueled my desire to live. Imagine going out in a blaze of glory, beating the cannonball run […]
I really don’t care about life anymore.
I just got turned down by the one that I now love.. He used to love me.. He would always say that.. But now.
H use with my friend and is saying that he likes me and loves her.
I asked him why he said he lived so many times if he was just gonna do this to me and all he said was ‘idk’.
I know I’m over exaggerating.
But there’s more than just that that is screwed up in my life.
This feeling is getting stronger and stronger as the days go by. I think about dying, and in some sick sense, I find relief. I feel like it’s the only way I’ll ever be at peace with myself. Sad, huh? I just don’t care anymore. Getting up in the morning to go to school is the hardest thing, then on top of that I have to put on an act so that people will stop questioning me. It’s been like this for a few months now, and I just want it all to end.. I’m so lost.
Anyone?? Hmph 🙁
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