A bit too gloomy here for my taste.
To anyone who thinks they have it bad.
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Nobody will take me seriously. Life is horrible i have like 2 friends 0 true friends my mom cusses me out every time i talk to her my dad wants me gone as soon as i finish highschool, i just hate everything and everyone, i can never do anything right, i cant even kill myself, i tried with some sleeping pills after cutting my wrist but i passed out and woke up 4 hours later : /, i cant keep a gf so i have given up on trying for one the last one i had said she loved me the first time then broke […]
nobody would tell that i’m not okay..
i’m a good pretender.
they will see me smile, say i’m okay and laugh…
but if only they will look deeply in my eyes they’ll see i’m crying inside.
i don’t know how long will i live to pretend and fool myself to believe that everything is fine when it’s not?  i really wanted to  rest and end all these.
I feel so tired with life.
I hate how I’ll become so happy that i believe nothing will ever bring me down, that all i need are my friends, family, and those good times! then 10 minutes later when it’s just me all alone, i feel myself crumbling into despair as i realize that after all of what happens, at the end of the night it’s just me. I hate that feeling. Knowing that no one will be waiting to kiss me or hold me, no one to claim me as their’s. I hate knowing it’s just me, alone in that bed wishing for more than just myself.
Uplifted and freed
tumbling softly through this haze
my distant dreams forgotten
life is at once ablaze.
Shot down and screaming
falling viciously through this wish
my fading hopes forgotten
life is at once broken.
I’m new to this forum, but I came here because I’m very depressed about something physical in my life that is most likely permanent and will not change. I can accept things that I can change, but when I hate something that will probably be permanent, there is nothing I can do about it. When there is something in life that I hate so much and nothing I can do about it, it makes me so distraught, angry, and depressed. I feel like a lesser version of who I once was. I used to be such an outgoing and fun person and now I haven’t […]
All this pain I feel
It can’t be real
All day and night
I live void of true life
I’m sickening of this facade
Maybe it’s time I start to fade
So goodbye
From the girl who cared
The girl who cut.
I used to think that I should just give up and quit. To be honest, that was all of five minutes ago. I was ready to break down and die, leaving everything and everyone I tried to support alone. I mean, I was supporting my family, my boyfriend, myself, just a lot of people. I felt like the only person who even bothered to support me was God. I was ready to give up everything I had worked for and just lay down and die. Instead, I mustered up my courage and called a crisis hotline. I didn’t want them to call an ambulance (I […]
I am 18 years old and I’ve been facing shits all the time.
It’s amazing how people think, everyone is different. Some think like there’s sunshine every second and some think its always dark.
It’s not easy to live, I know. Its rather a challenge we need to face, every hour.. every minute, every second. I, myself have thought of suicide more than anyone in this world. I think its the best way to free yourself from everything. That its the only way out of this empty room, that’s its the only solution. I am really tired of living, I am really tired of making […]
Oh Sir, dear Sir
Can I take this mask off?
Will you go running off as well
Along with the other strangers
Oh Sir, dear Sir
It’s awfully hot in these clothes
Long pants and shirts
That hide my body
Would you mind if I didn’t wear them?
Oh Sir Stranger, dear Stranger
Could you yield me some freedom?
Some air for these lungs?
My wounds need healing
My scars yearn for time time
My soul craves rest.
Oh Sir dear Sir
This pain is too great
Im resigned to my fate
You just stood by and watched
But at least you never left.
Oh Sir, dear Sir
give […]
I’m so tired of it all… the foolishness
Wearing a mask
Smiling on the outside
but ready to break inside
How can I hang on any longer?
I’m in so much pain
And I’m shattering
Every day
I reach out
Help me
I need help
Save me
Theres a lot of drama at my school. I used to have 2 best friends but ones of them back stabbed me and i just wanted to get rid of the bad friends. So now i only have one friend. She recently stole my clothes. How i know okay… She spent the night one night and she got mad at me and went to sleep and when i woke up she was gone (her mom picked her up) So the next day i was looking for my fave shirt but couldnt find it so i jst wore something else. At school i come and shes […]
I was wondering if any one has heard from Maeliin? Sorry if i spelt that wrong. She was understandably very upset in her last post but it was deleted and i’m very worried. If you read this please post just so i know your ok.
I allowed my first suicidal thought to take shape when I was in the fifth grade. That was 22 years ago. Suicidal thoughts have never left me since. There are days when I feel like I cannot live another second of this life and other days are somewhat easier. I hope I am not one of those that will live to be a hundred. How does one explain to someone this feeling that never goes away? When you try, they seem to brush you off because they are frightened and can’t deal with it or they get upset and […]
This is all going to sound stupid, but I need to vent or something.. Me and my boyfriend have been broken up for almost 2 months now. We dated for 8 months before he ended things. I didn’t see it coming. But anyways, I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. He was the very first person in my life to push me into believening myself, or believing that I was actually worth something. When I was with him, I felt beautiful, I didn’t have to impress him, he didn’t care if I wore makeup, or sexy clothes. I felt smart when I was […]
I’m sorry if I cause drama or something on here. But I feel like I’m safe to pour my heart out on here. Because the name of it is” suicideproject.org”.
I’ve been dealing with depression for the last like 7 months. It’s gotten worse over the past months I’ve been trying to forget about it. It went away for awhile but it came back after a while. I’m to the point where I hate myself and my life so much that I just want to end it all and then the pain will cease. I’ve been thinking about the most painful ways to kill yourself, and […]
Rant about life, the people in it who screwed me blind, and the seething hatred of all things earthly.
When I read the comments on here about people promising to stay alive for as long as possibly from the help of you guys, it really makes me smile, I mean this website can be truly depressing sometimes but then there’s always that little bit of hope that somewhere on here someone has helped another person live for at least another week, that’s true friendship right there.. even if you’ve never met!
You guys are absoloutely amazing and I wish everyone the best in whatever they decide, I can honestly say I’ve never found such a supportive community ever before, you guys should be proud […]
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This has saved me a few times.
when i was about ten years old i realized that i had a problem.
the littlest things in life never seemed to pass by, which just made it even more of a problem when my parents fought every night saying the worst things to each other. how can they love each other? they don’t thats why the got a divorce. YEARS later and i still cant get over it. but neither can they. since then my dad has been remarried and my mom still has the same boyfriend that ended there marriage. but about the small things…. on a summer day i let my younger […]
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