All i wanted was someone to care, to WANT to be with me and have me as theirs. That was all i ever asked for. I have so much to offer and give, yet i have nothing to receive. I’m done with being the one who keeps fighting for a lost cause. Sometimes I am happy and distracted, but only in public. Once the door shuts I’m alone. Completely and pathetically alone. Why doesn’t someone want me? I’m beautiful, happy (sometimes), optimistic (through out the day), passionate, and accepting. Â I keep telling myself to give it more time, eventually I’ll stumble upon someone. Â But nothing […]
well i’ve had enough i gave it 0ne last chance but now i realize my life will never change. it’s time to except the truth and just give up. i will never be happy. it’s time for me to go thankyou to everyone who cared and tried to help. but it was just too late. goodbye…..
Took me a long time, but I perfected my suicide method. The success rate is 99.9%. I left .1% off just because there could always be errors in anything. It’s a really painful, yet accessible method of dying. The pain should only last about 3-5 minutes at most. I was just so proud of myself that I had to brag about it a bit here.
That being said, my life got worse. It’s still getting worse each day. I find myself more alone and desolate each day. The loneliness in my heart has sunk deep into my soul. The depression that has strangled me has tightened its grip. […]
What a bunch of crap. Being born into this frickin cruel world. I don’t want to be here but do not yet have the courage to finally let it go. As much as I am struggling with whether or not there is a God, I don’t want to live in eternal hell either. This is bad enough. I can even see my friends pulling away. They’re getting sick of my pathetic life too. Sigh…………
With every step that I take
I rattle those
fiery bars.
Burning through the air,
slices down my heart!
Looking deep inside
I see you there
in my arms!
Oh, what a joyous feeling I get,
but its buried alive!
I’ll never see your face
and never brush your arm
never get those kisses
that I
so adored!
Oh, what is this hurt
thats burning me inside
escapes through my throat
hoping that I die!
Ever wonder where to off yourself? Last thing I want to do is bum someone out who I know. Don’t care if a stranger finds my corpse. Hotel room is one option. You end up just screwing up the maids day but leave a five spot on the nightstand for her and she’ll get over it. Next, there’s the woods/hiking trails but you run the risk of nobody stumbling across you ever as the animals will start to eat your stinking body. There’s also the swim out as far as you can in to the ocean until you drown, your body will eventually wash up […]
I mean, it doesn’t seem fair to bill a person who was involuntarily committed. Is that what they do? It also seems a little cruel to bill someone who came in voluntarily because they are suicidal. To do so would encourage more suicides, it seems.
no one on this site actually gives a fuck about me do they?
anyone want to tell me why the fuck Alyssa my so called best friend called me a *****? She doesn’t care if I leave now. Now I know for certain everything was a lie. Every word she said to me. She never loved me. She never was my bestfriend.I
I knew it was to good to be true. I knew I couldn’t have friends. That’s just me. I think she right. I am a *****. Who should die..
You laugh and you smile
just like everyone else
You talk and you hush
You play games and have fun
You hang out with your friends
But noone knows…
You are the walking dead
You try to hide your empty eyes
Cause they strike fear in their hearts
You walk and you sit
But you are always floating somehow
Noone suspects the grim reality
burried underneath your pleasing words
only when you are alone
you let the truth speak in red
you are the talking dead
mute is your real mouth
your heart caved in
silenced you stand
in the face of incomprehensible horror
as frozen eyes […]
People have been advising me against trying to overdose because of the low success rate, so I still want to give it a try and now I’m thinking if I take all the tablets when I’m up a tree with a noose round my neck by the time the tablets knock me out I’ll be that fucked I’ll just hang myself, which was my original plan a year ago.
What do you guys think to the added dimension?
my close friend mason reid cutler age 16 killed himself on june 19,2010. this boy was my everything he would always make me smile and he was the one i’d run to if ineed help or advice. he had just finished his junior year at our school, he was a track star, wrestling star, cross country runner he did it all and he was everyones friend! he would always smile and laugh he was strong. and it makes me made how people can say that u can spot someone who is depressed and might be suicidal well guess what no one would have ever thought […]
My best friend died in January. My daughter has lied to me once again and is avoiding me.  I have no one to talk to no one to trust. I have no support system except my psychologist and that’s not enough.I just can’t take it anymore.
if you are out there, reading this letter, then you are probably as scared as i am… i want to die. so do you. lets make sure that it is quick and clean ok?
In this world, in the end you always are…
i just don’t understand why it hurts so much now…
I used to always loved being alone.
Hello, my name is Tori and i have had depression for about four years now. A week and a half ago my boyfriend broke up with me, and i have been a total mess. i have barley moved from my bed, i barley eat and sleep, I’m forced to take showers and i haven’t attended school. I want to die so badly, I don’t want to feel the pain anymore, I just want it to all go away. About a week ago i made a pretty lame attempt to kill myself, I took an assortment of about 50 pills, and my brain felt like soup […]
I have decided that I am for sure going to end my life. However, I have one wish. I want to be able to go on one vacation with my kids. I have two kids that have never seen the ocean.
Also, we haven’t ever been on vacation together. I just want to be able to give my kids this one awesome memory before I go.
If anyone out there can help in any way, I would be in debt to you. Even if you just live close to a beach, somewhere warm, where we could stay for a week.
I hate begging, I guess […]
Im only in 6th grade. I have been called MANY names . Also have been accused for many rumors , it sucks. They call me LINDSAYLOHAN , & worst of all CRACKHEAD -.-” .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MeFezGJF7mA
“My Body Is A Cage”
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I’m standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It’s a hollow play
But they’ll clap anyway
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You’re standing next to me
My mind holds the key
I’m living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the […]
Sleep forever or never sleep,
my choices dwindle, Â counting sheep.
The aching nights or lonely pain,
I step outside, sleep in rain.
Freeze to death or sleep forever,
i chose the second, now or never.