Holy S*** everything is dieing hopes dreams people theres so much pain in this world it drowns out the good. The pain of a lost relationship or failed project brings me down about 6 feet under one day I will be gone might as well make it soon
I am longing for that feeling
to be close and there’s nothing you can do
Sir, you have a maximum of 7 days left to live…
Doctor, please let me hear those words
I’ve been close, but never close enough
What should I do in the remaining time?
And with each passing day the gladness rises
…to know to be finally going home
and spend these last days in uncomparable peace
You only understand it
if you have felt it
I’m new to this sort sort of thing…
For the past year my desire to die has been at its strongest and I always thought that jumping of a bridge would be the best way out but after 3 trips to the bridge I’ve realised that I can’t go out that way so at the minute I want to try overdosing on tranquillizers/ sleeping pills/ alcohol/ what ever I can get my hands on to top up the concoction. I wont those my nerve on this one, I just need to stay in this frame of mind and everything will be ok soon enough.
I given life a chance […]
can someone give me a reason to live? my problems are getting heavier so i think i want to kill myself..but maybe if theres one valid reason to stil be alive..i will.
My heart wants to unite
But never can
In this dirty world because
any kindness is abused
by the human mind
If only alone for an hour
I am absent from your words
the emptiness begins to crush me
in a way so painful – indescribable
So Why not unite
as a family – in death
I’ve been out before…
The human existence separates us all
And I’ve given up on it
I don’t understand
what we’re waiting for…
There’s nothing left
for me in this world – for you?
I need to go home
There is no substitute…
I am counting the days
I am waiting…
And I’m going crazy
There can not be
Not another year
It is simply impossible
My longing, my yearning
Makes my every activity here
Seem completly […]
On Moday I posted that I planned to end my life on Friday; I am glad to say that today I changed my mind. Various things contributed to that. Firstly I got an email from my soon-to-be-ex-husband, rejecting all my reasonable suggestion for an amicable and quick resolution of our property settlement. Rejecting them for no other reason than to maximise the hurt he can inflict on me, drag the fight out into all eternity, probably in the hope that he will wear me down. I then realised that I cannot leave him to raise my children, he will ruin them. If I die now, […]
It’s nice to hear I’m not the only one that feals the way I do. I don’t feel like I belong in some other world i just don’t feel like I belong in this one. even as a child i didn’t fit in. I just feel like I don’t understand people. I don’t know who I am and despite of my best efforts I feel like I never will. I just feel like maybe there is something wrong with the way my brain processess info. I’m very intelligent I just seem to have very little in the way of social skills or understanding. Like many […]
He didn’t text me like he said he would. He was the one who wanted to try and remain friends, but why is it do i still feel like i am the only one fighting for this? i accepted his decision, but when i went to enforce my side of the deal, he faltered. Four years burned away by one simple crush. Four years of constant wishes for each others embrace. Yet that means nothing, nothing at all to him. “It doesn’t matter.” How can it not matter when you are the one who wont let me go? You said you didn’t want me, yet […]
So far it seems to be the only thing I can think to say to him sometimes. He’s the nicest guy I know. That’s why I love him. He may be stance sometimes but that’s why I like him, he’s different and tries to help. He knows next to nothing why I cut or why I’m so sad. But he still shows he cares enough for it to really hurt when he starts to talk about the girl he’s in live with. I’m jelous of her, uet Ive never met her. How she could stand to dump him and make him sad I can’t understand. […]
Everyone has terrible memories. I’m sure most of the people who are here have terrible, heart wrenching memories that they wish they could just forget about.
I too have those memories. For some reason, they penetrate my heart and get underneath my skin that I have to stop what I am doing and concentrate on breathing or I might pass out.Â
What is even worse is knowing I caused these terrible memories. I do not know how to love myself anymore. It is so hard loving yourself when you pushed away the person you love most in life.
How can I enjoy life when I can’t stand my […]
ive thought about it alot.I feel like I should go.my so called best friend doesn’t even want me here anymore.I don’t have any other choice then.I have to die.right? I have no other option….right? This is the only thing I can do to fix it all?
I don’t have a reason to live now.. but I have millions of reasons to die. I thought of suicide but I’m afraid to do it. I always ask myself, why do I need to have this kind of life.. I only want a simple and normal life..but my life is really tough, and it sucks.
When I was a kid my parents separated.
My sister doesn’t like me, she hates me for no reason.
I live with my grand ma because my mom need to work abroad, and its really sad.
I don’t have a best friend, ever since.
I don’t even have a single friend here.
I hate myself..i […]
I’ve never thought about what
love could be, until I met these
people. Until I met people I could
trust. I wondered for years
what that word was. Now, here I am.
Several attempts in the past. Drugs
and alchohol behind me. I’m here.
No more cutting. It’s harder than I ever
imagined, but I’m slightly safer. I’ve
never tried this hard to make a difference
in my life. I’ve never tried to keep alive.
What is it that’s keeping me here now?
It can’t be what I feel in my heart…
can it? It can’t be that I’m growing beyond
my shell. Panic sets in. My heart beats faster,
I can’t trust. I can’t be here and be happy,
it’s […]
Crying is a gift that I’ll gladly use whenever i can. You people are like my brothers and sisters – family of the broken, bearing in common the same death wish. And now time is closing like a brick wall in front of me.
And I don’t want to feel better or life to improve. I want to cry with you and I want to die with you. Let us walk this road together til the end of the tunnel and there’s only one way out and you know it…Take this and cut me so you can prove to me that we are sharing the same […]
stuck in the house again. hah, what a joy. would try to get Angus out, but he didn’t reply the last (and first) time I texted him so. Zoe’s not allowed, Emma’s not allowed, Angela’s ill, Rachael’s grounded because she got excluded.
Fuck sake, I really don’t want to be alone again today. oh, and Jake and Bambi aren’t on MSN anymore :3 yay. probably gonna have another slip up. oh well.
Wondering…Wondering; Should I move on, this has just. Urgh, it’s been ages, A year. And still I’m just as much here as I was then. I get the feeling that if I stop waiting, I can finally move forward, with everything. But will I really be as happy as I would have been if I waited. I just want to know, do you really care? or is it just me wanting you to care.
death is the only wa to end it all and live
Suffering, every day
How could I know, this is the price I’d pay
Always the one, to make them laugh
It feels so good, knowing I’ll have the last
And I’m not faring so well
Deep inside this personal hell
We all find ways, to ease the pain
Looking for a reason, to walk away
My feet planted firmly, on the ground
I’ll leave this world, without a sound
Endless nights of tormented sleep
The nightmare inside, destroyed when I leap
And I’m not faring so well
Deep inside this personal hell
We all find ways, to ease the pain
Looking for a reason, to make us stay
Follow your heart, listen to your mind
There’s nothing left, when you leave us […]
im kayla and im 18 and i yell a lot but no one can here me and last night i cut myself and no one cared i heart is like no one is in it they dont wanna be in it my family don’t care about i cry my self to sleep at night