I can’t get this out of my head. Three weeks now and 6 months before that. When will you stop haunting me? When will this pain subside, this dependency to hear that voice that in the past so tenderly whispered my name through the deep nights? Too often i look at your photo and shriek into the pillow and wish that i had the courage like mom to slit my throat. I gave up that pain that released my feelings of frustration and feebleness for you. Now you say it doesn’t matter. What i feel doesn’t matter. All i want to feel is you, but […]
The days blur,
blessed with dreams,
dreams of you
with dreams of me.
Those dreams aren’t real.
Those dreams are false.
They always come
but at what cost?
The cost of blood,
the cost of pain.
The haze is fading,
and so i pay.
I paid the cost
and now I’m lost.
Forever wandering,
forever washed
ashore that empty
lonesome beach,
that some may call
eternal sleep.
I have been depressed since the 9th grade, and I’m 21 now. It really blows. I think about killing myself often. I honestly don’t know how I am still alive
I got in a pretty bad car accident in January, but I didn’t die. I didn’t even get hurt. I felt bad then, because the night before I had been thinking about killing myself…I didn’t do it on purpose
I’m an awful person. My therapist tells me otherwise and logically, I know it’s not true, but I can’t help believing it.
I don’t have many friends. I used to have some friends, but now I’m living at home […]
I beg to taste the feeling of death, to allow the darkness to enter my veins and freeze my blood stopping the circulation of my breath. I scream on the inside as I quietly wait for the date of my death (May 26th 2011) to come around.
I want to savor every pain emotionally and physically possible during those quiet last few moments. Just because you are alive does not mean you are fully living. In my point of view, it is the very last few seconds of your life in which you live the greatest. Those quick seconds slowly ticking your life away, you live, […]
The truth. How can I face it? The truth is, 2 years ago, i experianced my first love, and heartbreak. The truth is, that I’m in a severe depression from that because of him. The truth is, I want to change.
I want to change into someone different. Doesn’t everybody here? Doesnt everybody just want to breakfree? From all the hell we have to go through? My sibling and I got into a fight today. And today, was the worst fight ever. My sibling, shoved all of my failures, all of my nightmares in my face. It was worse hearing it, i just wanted to punch […]
meh i want to take my life right at this moment take all my pills and stab myself so i could never feel any more pain and that goes through my head everyday and i cut my self more and more deeper and depper just hoping i have taken my last cut my last hit i am on my last stand what is life with out joy life has been cruel and so have i and i regret it all but now im stood here with three bottles of aspirin and four packs of pain killers and i really want nothing but the best for […]
Making mistakes is bound to happen to everyone. No one is perfect and no will live a beautiful life. This past weekend was suppose to be a fun and stress free weekend for me and without a doubt it was up until the time I got home. That Saturday night I went my friends house to attend a random party, didn’t know the person but if I am with friends I can care less as most people would do. We all packed in a suv to head over for this party. I took advantage of having the liberty to drink so I did, little did […]
She accused me of not having any drive in life
She said that’s why she would never be my wife
Isn’t ironic, how the one thing that gave me drive and made me wanna be
Didn’t want to be with me because she saw no drive in me
“I’m saying no because people don’t really change, so you must be lyingâ€
Says the girl who was desperately in love with me, without me even trying
“Well that’s my opinion and i’m gonna stick with itâ€
Well do you not think that makes you a hypocrite?
How come you can change so much that the idea […]
I haven’t heard from you in days and I tried to reach you all the time and I’m so worried about you cus i know exactly how you feel and how intense this is, you mean a lot to me, please talk to me please!!
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I had an exit bag, but I didn’t have the helium so I just tried to slowly suffocate myself. I kept trying to focus and stick with it but I guess the panic got to me in the end, I don’t really remember. I could barely get up afterwards with a huge headache and a lot of dizziness and I threw up. I guess I’ll have to try harder next time or something else. I’m tired of the pain and I just want to die. I can’t even do that properly it seems.
Can I die? Do I have to keep living in this darkened hell we call earth? Everywhere there is suffering? They suffer unwillingly. I willingly want to suffer. I want to die. I want to be in pain. It’d be another reason to take the pills I long to take bu to no avail. this pisses me offf. I don’t understand why I have to sit here and put up with everyones bullshit, I pretend to be someone I sure the hell am not. I’m not a happy fun person. I’m an antisocial lette. (If you don’t know what that is…look it up) I hate everyday […]
The first taste of death, the first overdose but not the last.
hello i am a 32 year old female, im in school and have a personal counselor who is helping me cope. i was rape at 12 years old and is now and was forever been thinking suicide thoughts for me not to do it have to be a blessing. i figure out that a lot of people will iss me and it only when i am talking about the pain in my past is when the thoughts become worst. i am depress and sad and i think im crazy. the counselor is helping me in a very good way but my mind is still mess […]
So i thought things would be so much better after all that crap from last week but its gotten a bit worse. this morning i woke up with scratches on my arms and i have no idea where they came from. and everything is all just going to hell for me. Everything is just the same as it was last week. i really dont kow anymore.
I tried to wait until the end of the next four weeks, but I cannot wait any longer. On Friday I will go. Tomorrow I will change the type of title on our house, so my boys instead of my bastard husband will inherit it. I have already made a new will, and tomorrow I will also make my boys the beneficiaries of my life insurance. Already made sure it covers suicide. Then order a bottle of helium…
It’s a very lonely place once you have made the decision. Two concerned friends called today, I didn’t completely lie, they know I am not doing well. […]
Stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Get help.
I lied so he would stay. <3
What does one do
When they hate who they are
With every second that passes
I loath myself more and more
It’s frustrating as fuck
I’m dead inside
Mindlessly going through the motions
The feeling inside of me has turned into actual pain
I’m going mad
I thought I could handle it
At first I ignored it
Now I just ache
What kind of sick fucking cycle have I stumbled into
I have a noose in my closet
But when I look at it all I can think of is the people I would hurt
You’re just scared. Confused. And there’s nothing wrong with that. You’re only human.
So throw away those dark thoughts. Stop feeding them. Because the more you tell yourself that you’re worthless, that you can’t take anymore…the more you will start to believe it.
You’re NOT hopeless.