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help

May 23rd, 2017by starbucks

For the past years, I’ve been telling myself “I hate my life”. I just dont like how things are happening, it’s getting harder for me. I feel like everything is in my way. I’m turning 20 this yr. We moved to CA about 6 yrs ago. I have difficulty making friends cause I think I’m weird and awkward. I also have anxiety that makes me nervous when talking to ppl, I am very shy person, I have no confidence, my self-esteem is very low. I want to change myself but I don’t know how. Living here in this country is hard for me, since I …

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Others

May 23rd, 2017by kakapretty9

I’ve been contemplating suicide for so long. I’ve talked to friends about it, I’ve tried to go get professional help but I ran out of money. Now I feel like I have no other options but to go through with it. I constantly feel like crying. Every day is a struggle. I can’t see past day to day. I only think of the right now. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what I would do if I don’t kill myself. I feel like I would only be staying alive to take care of everyone else. I’ve been taking care of everyone …

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If people

May 23rd, 2017by Robstein

How would this world be like if people got along?

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Paranoid

May 23rd, 2017by suicideisnotachoice

It’s seems almost every second now of every day is filled with the feeling of paranoia. I don’t want anyone to know what I’m up to, because I’m determined to finish it. I feel like my dad created a fake account on here and is gathering evidence that he can use against me or to commit me to a hospital. WHY do I feel this way?

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Rain

May 23rd, 2017by Mehikka

I wish the rain would wash me away and evaporated me to nothingness….

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Stolen

May 23rd, 2017by Mehikka

So far, it’s only 10:03 in the morning…And so far all I’m doing is looking at quotes that I normally look at.

Just for once, I want to be somebody’s first choice…

Depression stole my Education

It stole all of my Friends

My Motivation

My Dreams

My Future

My Life

Me….

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Attention seeking

May 23rd, 2017by youwouldntrealise

I don’t tell anyone about how much I’m struggling because I know so many attention seekers who make up shit about being depressed etc. They won’t understand the severity of my sadness and pain, only the ones who live by my side will get an insight in to my torment.

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Is today the day?

May 23rd, 2017by Snowy

Is today the day? Will the 23rd of May go down as the day I finally snapped. My husband told me last night that all I do is threaten suicide but never follow through. Maybe I should, today seems like a good day to die. No one would miss me, sure all those fake people in my family that just like to dump shit on while I’m stuck in a hole. I locked my keys in my car. My mother in law who I work for is pissed because the other girl called in sick today. She is lazy and doesn’t want to run her …

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Music… </3

May 23rd, 2017by Mehikka

I used to listen to music to get rid of my depression or subside it. Until now I can really relate to Her Last Words By Courtney Parker.

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Life.

May 23rd, 2017by _Angel_x

Life is interesting isn’t it ?
You take two grown adults with sexual desires. Minus protection. Equals a brand new human being.
They didn’t ask to be born.
They didn’t ask to be alive.
And now the have responsibilities and expectations to meet up to.
They didn’t ask for any of this.
Now they have to partake in education. Socialisation. Adulthood. Getting a job. Having a life.
A life that will just end.

And you’re expected to just be fine with this. This life you’ve been given.
‘people have it worse than you’ they tell me, ‘what a time to be alive’ they say.

But at the end of the day because of those …

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How much longer

May 23rd, 2017by hiohneh

I’ll have those days (if I’m lucky I’ll get a week or two) where I’ll feel hopeful that all this pain will soon be a thing of the past. Unfortunately, someone, somewhere is just playing tricks on my mind. The pain comes back with a vengeance, all of it. Mentally, physically…I break down. All I can think about are [blank] or the [blank] that I haven’t thrown away. I guess I should censor myself a bit, I’m unsure what may trigger someone else. 

None of this makes any sense and I’m becoming more and more harsh with myself about the little things. I’m sure they’ll see …

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Cry Baby… ._.

May 23rd, 2017by Mehikka

Last night I couldn’t fall asleep. So I opened my window screen and got on top of the roof. I sat outside looking at the stars…that’s when I had the thought to jump off of the roof and onto the driveway. Honestly I don’t know who I am anymore.

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Live for what?

May 23rd, 2017by dominik0801

Hello, people out there. This little post is about my current mood, but also about a little “miracle” happened to me.

Maybe this post will help someone, will make you believe that there is always a little hope, although now I would really kill myself if I had the oportunity.

Let’s begin with the miracle/hope part.
So, about 1 year ago I posted on this forum for the first time, and for the last since until now.
I told everything about my problems, and I was ready to die.
I tried some drugs, I tried different looks, hairstyles, I was at a concert, I had sex, tried different hobbies. And …

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Boulder

May 23rd, 2017by _Angel_x

Have you ever woken up and felt like there’s just this gigantic boulder on you holding you down ? And there’s no way you can move it. And you don’t have the energy to even try. So you just accept your fate and lie there being crushed by its weight. Even when people are screaming at you to get up. And you try to explain to them that you physically can’t. Nothing can break you out of this trance.

You stay under this boulder until the day it finally suffocates you.

That was my morning. How was yours ?

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last goodbye

May 23rd, 2017by Quiet1064

How does one start a letter of this sort? do i just say my goodbyes? Do i explain why i have decided to do this thing? My regrets? my hopes? i honestly don’t know. should i have told anyone? wouldn’t that have defeated the purpose though?

Well its my letter so i guess there are no rules, i can decide what goes on this letter and what does not. So… Suicide.. plain and simple.. people say its the easy way out .. that people who commit suicide are weak, stupid, doing it for attention? like really? and what ever else they decide to call it, but …

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Despite

May 23rd, 2017by vacantvessel

The fact that I’ve been wanting to die and thought of suicide often since I was 10 (I am 20 now & have tried 3 times), I feel this need to feel, useful to someone?

 

Is is that hopeless or stupid? Or is that the human inside of me waiting for some type of reassurance on something.

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I’m fine in the fire

May 22nd, 2017by alina_01

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder some years back but I refused to accept that. To me the issues that plagued me were controllable. Medicine wasn’t a solution but rather hard work and effort was. I took meds for awhile and I remember feeling like I couldn’t react emotionally. I was seeing both a psychiatrist and a psychologist regularly and I don’t feel like it really helped me. I felt like I was better like I was just in a bipolar situation not that I was bipolar. In my mind there was nothing wrong with me, I didn’t need or want to be fixed. But …

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How long have you wanted to die?

May 22nd, 2017by water

I have wanted to die for a little over 5 years.
I have given myself a deadline. I am currently 22. The oldest I will live now is to age 25 or 26 but no more than that. My head was screwed to oblivion. There is no fixing this. I am planning on another attempt soon. Hopefully I can die in a couple of weeks to a few months.. maybe i will just jump off a bridge.

So, how long have you wanted to die?

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Would you

May 22nd, 2017by Robstein

Would you like to have as many people like you, resembling you, being , looking like you?

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Alan Watts says too many real things

May 22nd, 2017by Remnant1994

“We live in a culture where it has been rubbed into us that to die is a terrible thing. And that is a tremendous disease from which our culture suffers, and we notice it firstly in the way in which death is swept under the carpet.”

 

I do believe in God, but nowadays I’m not sure I believe in the way I’ve been taught, being raised Catholic. Religion, tainted by humans. Not as God really intended? I just hope he’s there.

 

“If you are intelligent and reasonable, you cannot be a product of a mechanical and meaningless universe.”

 

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