i’m gaining weight again and tbh it makes me feel so fucking gross i hate myself for eating and not running enough to burn off all the calories . my birthday is coming up in like a week and a half and god knows i’ll probably be stupid and eat cake and not run after . i’m slowly slipping back into the headspace i was in when i was 71 pounds and tbh i either am gonna lose a lot of weight and feel really good or i’m gonna be hospitalized again .. whatever . i need to be skinnier regardless of what my doctor […]
would anyone care to share what you are thinking RIGHT NOW? no filters.
I can’t stop cutting. Now I can’t go more than three weeks without doing it.
2 days ago, i turned 24 years. And i still don’t know how you guys can motivate each other to continue live life as it is. Drinking every weekend? Comitting your life to a girlfriend/wife? Even without any of these tools, i see posts about guys that regularely has pronounced themselves dead that they shall return from the dead, or have some sort of optimism around their own excistence. How??
I do feel sorry for anyone who feel threatened by this question, or anyone who feel offended by this. I will delete it if it is found to be offending. 🙁
When I was born, I had less weight on me then I was supposed to, and don’t get me wrong I understand other people went through this too. I also understand that people go through being teased and being taunted about their weight throughout their lives. But I want to help you understand what it’s like to be black and underweight. I am currently 13 years old, and I weigh 73 pounds. The average for a thirteen year old (f) is 82-137 pounds. Now I feel like you can believe what you want to believe when it comes to normalcy to 13 teen year old […]
let’s play truth without the dare.
reveal a secret that you haven’t told anyone.
i wish that i didn’t have a child.
Have to act like human today when it feels like a spinning top took residence inside my head and it’s all off kilter.
There’s not enough coffee in the world to make acting like a human enjoyable.
Help, I just can’t do it. I’m living the dream and the dream is shit. Screw the dream, screw the man, screw the McCoffee. I don’t wanna people today. But I gotta, so I’ll do it like tearing off a band-aid and make it as fast as possible. Then I can maximize the time I sit around wondering what to do with myself. Sounds like fun.
When do you think you’re not capable of love anymore?
i’ve always thought of this because these young people deserve the time to get better but is it alright if they did actually kill themselves? just to think of it if their depression comes from internal reasons that kind of depression never goes away does it? or is it just that they don’t know much of life so that they cannot really just die? it may seem like a dumb question but at which time is it acceptable to give up. i’ve wanted to die since 11 now im almost 19 nth changed and yeah that maybe is nothing but when can i just say […]
i really hoped for things to go well for my life to work but everyday feels duller than the day before. i seriously don’t know why i’m sticking around. meeting people, working life, socializing it’s all so tiring so hurting i wish i can just leave end this nonsense of pretend. it’s like it’s all foggy but just around my head everyone can see and smell and i’m just blindly moving. a damn robot. gotta look good gotta small talk i’m seriously done. the fact that nothing won’t change makes i even worse. i don’t think anyone really cares if i went they’ll just say […]
So I put a post on here about a month ago or so about a situation I’m in. School ending has not helped at all, but to anyone out there that wants to hear my story I’ll give a recap. An ex-friend, who I will call Callie, had been pulling away from me and I didn’t understand why. I wanted to understand why, so I asked. And she said everything was fine, as did everyone else. I didn’t understand though, so I kept pushing. It got worse and worse. I was talking to another friend, who I’m going to call Eli, and she took my […]
I fell in love with a girl in high school we were friends this was the girl of my dreams, she rejected me! I tried to kill myself driving recklessly not around other cars but in secluded places, One of them was dead mans curve! A Very steep long road with curves, I manage to get a fish tail going, A very bad one! I fought the steeling wheel relentlessly back and forth over and over! I was very much out of control for a long period of time! I managed to get control again and I was physically tired, That’s when I decided […]
i’m bleeding out
in my bathtub tonight
don’t be scared
darling you’ll be fine
i’m bleeding out
i’ll be dead by sunrise
don’t be scared
i promise it’s alright
i’m bleeding out
it’s done now , i see light
don’t be scared
you’ll win this fight
– xoxo , Li <3
I want to go mute. I want to stop talking. It would make my life so much easier to just shut up, stop talking, and never say a thing again.
Well, in retrospect it wouldn’t. I wouldn’t be able to speak my mind, say my emotions, or show my feelings without learning another language made of hands.
I dunno what this is for. Maybe to ask for people to help me go mute. Maybe to get it off my mind. I just don’t know.
I’d like some advice on how to just… Never speak again.
And before you go off about how it’s such a bad idea; […]
I genuinely wish something catastrophically happens and I’m, well, dead..off…no more of this, as in being alive in this flaming ball of fart gas ya’ll call life. 45 seconds of each minute my brain fries my ass in some fantasy death…..the next 15 are saying wtf……still here.
Off all 60 please. wtf……I hate this. ?
i am getting my affairs in order:
1. updating my will
2. redoing my “health directives”
3. appointing a new trustee
4. changing my power of attorney
5. preparing letters, momentos, and gifts to give to certain people
6. rechecking my life insurance policy
what a royal pain in the ass. lol
Not everyone who wants to die has an illness (physical, mental, etc).
Some people just want to die.
I have wanted to die so many times in the past decade I can’t count. Six years ago I met someone from this website and we got married, but long story short – after countless breakups – we are finished for good. Too much has truly been said and done at last, and without him helping me, life is simply too hard.
Did anyone read that story about the Dutch teenager who was euthanized recently? She had been raped multiple times, her life was so short and full of so many nightmares. Compared to her, my life has been a cakewalk. And yet, that tired bitter […]
Man I’m just so fucked up and tired and hopeless and nothing seems to fucking matter anymore. When will this fucking tiredness gonna end?
I’m just so fucking tired.