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i don’t have any goals in life..

November 13th, 2017by death bunny

this is something that bothers me lately, since i’ve got out of a four-year relationship.
i don’t know how to proceed in life. nothing excites me, and i can’t find interest in anything. i don’t have any motivation to do anything, and i don’t really have any hopes or dreams.
when i was in this relationship i had someone else to care for, but when it’s me and myself – i couldn’t care less.
i feel really bad about everything, and going out, socializing, makes me feel worse.

seriously, the only reason i’m still here is because of my son. i don’t want him to have a bad start …

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What i did to my gun not too long ago. would you had done the same?

November 13th, 2017by sadlife958

this was my gun that I was mentioning about in some of my comments/replys to people on the topic including member CAUSE OF DEATH: SUICIDE. this is the very same gun for the last 4 years that I have been contemplating to shoot myself with many many times I have gone on bridges or into the woods while pointing it at my head but I just couldn’t seem to pull the trigger and a few times I did but while my head was moved away. Originally the gun belonged to my father. my father bought this gun around the …

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an unknown error has occurred: do you wish to continue?

November 13th, 2017by deadd

length warning (sorry)

 

I’m about to be suspended or expelled from college, even though I have a 3.8 GPA, decent extracurriculars, blah blah blah. I’m suppose to graduate in May. My (ex) roommate called the cops on me because she could not handle verbal embarrassment, and lied saying it was assault. My friends came down for the weekend, the first time anyone’s really visited me in my three years here. I got into a bad fight with my roommate back in February. I was friends with this one girl for say a year or so, and I confronted her about blocking me on twitter, which sounds …

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Hello.

November 13th, 2017by LetTheLostKittensPlay

I posted something on here a while ago and the thing got deleted. I’m not sure what happened. :c

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i’m planning to kill myself.

November 13th, 2017by spookichick

in a few months i will have the means to die on my own terms at the age of 52. i have a history of major depression, and other physical problems. i know that life for me will not get better, and the pain i feel every day is too much for me to bear. i will post notes until i am ready to end this bullshit.
pam z

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What Happened to My Comment?

November 13th, 2017by spreject

Posted a super long, thorough comment earlier (as muspelhem). Spent a good chunk of my valuable free time on it. Now it’s gone. What gives?

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last night

November 13th, 2017by superficiality

last night,

the knife slipped from my hands

the screams echoed as blood dripped onto the floor

the puddle of blood on the floor was red

and i was nauseous

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Days Like These…

November 13th, 2017by Baked13

It is days like these when you realize that this facade you put on, creates this false belief not just for the outside world but for yourself as well. It deceives you just as much as it deceives the world.

Then when reality dawns on you each night when you are alone and in the comfort of your true self and tears, that the feeling never leaves you. That temporary laugh and glowing smile is sheer deception and the definition of pain and suffering.

It is days like these when you envy the dead. When you want them alive not so that you can enjoy life together …

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Screaming but mute.

November 13th, 2017by Baked13

I don’t think i have ever felt this lonely, worthless and hopeless in my entire life. My will to die is increasing with each passing minute. My detachment from everyone growing stronger with each greeting we exchange. I’m lifeless. I have no energy to do work. It’s like i’m literally spelling out failure for myself. I’m screaming out for help but at the same time i know that the only thing that will save me is my escape into oblivion. I have this constant tug at my heart. I have a broken smile. And I have sad eyes. Even my physical appearance is screaming out.

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Done with waiting

November 13th, 2017by lostallhope001

Impatiently waiting for my package to arrive so that I can kill myself finally. It can take 5 to 10 days. I just can’t wait no more.. If it won’t be here quickly I swear I am going to kill myself, oh wait..

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Logic – 1-800

November 13th, 2017by lostza

I don’t wanna be alive
I don’t wanna be alive
I just wanna die today
I just wanna die
I don’t wanna be alive
I don’t wanna be alive
I just wanna die
And let me tell you why

All this other shit I’m talkin’ ’bout they think they know it
I’ve been praying for somebody to save me, no one’s heroic
And my life don’t even matter, I know it, I know it
I know I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it
I never had a place to call my own
I never had a home, ain’t nobody callin’ my phone
Where you been? Where you at? What’s on your mind?
They say every life precious but nobody …

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Life is…

November 13th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Life is… [fill in the blank]

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Do you think you’ll ever be happy?

November 13th, 2017by eternaldarkness

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This year

November 13th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

Terrified. Half dead. Disgust. Sit down and shut up. Stare at wall. Stare st something. Flashback. Drink a beer and think about my suicide. Try my hardest to make suicide a reality. Fail. Try again. Fail. Smash my head against wall. Try again. Fail. Slam head on hands. Try again. Fail. Punch myself over and over in throat, legs, head. Try again. Fail. Scratch open my stomach, legs, arms. Try again. Fail.

Last year. Terrified. Think of ways to end life. Try to make 400$ to buy gun. Fail. Go to sleep. Have nightmare. Try again to get 400$. Fail. Go to sleep. Have nightmare. Have …

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Planning to go in the New Year

November 13th, 2017by hadenough636

I can’t really perform suicide this month cos it was my sister’s birthday on the 12th so I don’t want her associating her birthday with my death. I can’t really do it in December either cos of Christmas so it looks like sometime in the new year I will off  myself because there are no family celebrations in Jan/Feb.

Are you planning your death so as not to associate with a family / friend event

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November 13th, 2017by theblackveal

Do you ever just feel used all the time?
I do things for people out of kindness and as a distraction from my own shitty life, but then I just get shitted on.
Karma never works either… go figure.

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advice? (trichotillomania)

November 13th, 2017by iamdarling

i am so pissed, and upset, and frustrated

so, i’ve had trichotillomania for five years now, a condition that causes me to pull out my hair. i seem to pull out my eyelashes the most, and i am trying to stop this, but i still relapse from time to time.

recently, i did relapse, and i’ve noticed something strange.

my eyelashes are growing back straight.

this is especially upsetting for me as my bottom eyelashes have always been quite curved, and they are long and black aswell, so, they look really nice. but now my bottom lashes on one eye are growing back straight and the bottom lashes on …

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I will die on Friday

November 13th, 2017by leah_is_broken

There’s no more hope to hold on to

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Afraid of love

November 13th, 2017by lonewolf23

Why am i afraid of love? I enjoy talking to her and bonding but for some reason i can’t allow myself to get past a certain stage with women. It’s like the initial spark is easy to take in, however i can never make it something serious. I always cut myself off from these connections naturally. Its not because i want to but i do it because i fear of what it could turn out to be. The tought of being in love with somebody sounds nice but it also scares me. I think I’m afraid of allowing myself to be happy with someone and …

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Wanting to Go to Sleep Forever

November 12th, 2017by magdeleina

This morning I got to sleep in. I rarely get to do that, just stay in that blessed oblivion. I don’t dream often, but I had a dream that I got in my car and just drove away, left my family, my friends, my university. I drove for hours through snowy forests and endless plains, into a different world where I was free.

When I woke up, I wept, because I knew that wouldn’t happen to me. I awoke once more to my parents’ disappointment and my withered friendships. I awoke to my tanking grades and crushing responsibilities. I awoke once more to my wretched physical …

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