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  August 10th, 2018 by clipped-wings

Pets. Those of us who are fortunate enough to have a loving relationship with a nonhuman companion know how much pleasure they bring. Relief from stress. Comfort when we need it. A reason to stay.

I have a companion bird. He’s been in my life for 17 years. He’s a 21 year old White cockatoo. He’s always been a sweet friendly bird. Anyone can handle him. Until recently.

He’s become aggressive towards me. Certain things trigger this behavior, like anything to do with my eyeglasses. I just took the cleaning cloth out and he flew at me and bit me. This happened several times over the past …

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A door

  August 10th, 2018 by despor0

Perhaps he didn’t commit suicide then because he couldn’t conceive of a method that fit the pure and intense feelings he had toward death. But method was beside the point. If there had been a door within reach that led straight to death, he wouldn’t have hesitated to push it open, without a second thought, as if were just a part of ordinary life. For better or worse, though, there was no such door nearby.

Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki

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Sleep in peace

  August 10th, 2018 by angel z

My marriage ain’t working out after my daughter was born. Arguments everyday and all blame is on me! I hate when the person i love the most hurts me the most! I am going to end my life soon by taking sleeping pills so that i can sleep in peace forever!

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God hates.

  August 10th, 2018 by KingReaper1

God hates,

That’s why he no longer creates.

 

I who walk in the shadow of death,

I who ask only be set free from my pain,

I who hath nothing left to gain,

I who have greeted the reaper,

I who has gone deeper.

 

 

I who asked god “O lord release me”.

I who had to see.

God hates that witch destroyed his garden,

God who’s heart has hardened.

 

 

For fate has hold of me,

Showing for all to see.

Tho my scars be shown,

the understanding of my pain….. unknown…

 

 

I’ve ended me seven times.

Yet God makes me pay for my crimes…

Heven nor Hell wants for I,

And all I ask is …

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The Fountains. . .

  August 9th, 2018 by Once

It’s the difference between some humidity, and no humidity that makes heat miserable or tolerable. If you’re lucky, you’ll have access to a pool, if not, then maybe just a cold shower can help cool you off.

A prominent local park has the fountains on this summer. Strong streams,  shooting twenty feet high, raining down cool, cool relief from summers blaze. T-shirts, shorts, trunks, one piece suits and bikinis, flip-flops and bare feet, and the common denominator is water, cycled skyward by powerful pumps that know nothing of the joy they bring.

Teens, kids, one or two adults comprise today’s relief seeking sweaters. God, if …

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I’m not sure if I can do this anymore.

  August 9th, 2018 by sparrow0314

I feel like there’s honestly no point in anything now. Everyday, I’m more tired than ever, and I can’t really find the motivation I need to get out of bed most days.

Sometimes I think that maybe everyone would be better off without me.

I think of the ways I could quietly leave this earth.

Nobody would miss me.

I think of what I would leave behind for others to see once I’m gone.

But then, there are days where I find meaning in life. Those days are rare, but they do happen.

On those days, I feel truly happy, like nothing can get in the way of my happiness.

And then …

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More to the point

  August 9th, 2018 by rivets

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A point

  August 9th, 2018 by Hulk

Some people reach a point in their lives when nobody cares if they die anymore.

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Suicide by Apathy

  August 9th, 2018 by Mr. Anderson

It’s not that I’m making a plan. I’m just giving up. I gained a lot of weight comfort eating, but now I’ll binge or eat shitty to hurt myself. It’s finally hit home that I need to lose weight and be healthier and I’m using that information to slowly tempt fate. No-one would be surprised (including me) if I died, all of a sudden, from a massive heart attack. The depression and anxiety I was dealing with last year has been compounded ten fold by the passing of my father from cancer. I have no energy to deal with these things and I am exhausted …

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Broken

  August 9th, 2018 by blackout21

I am just going to describe my situation, thoughts and feelings here in arbitrary order:
-I am addicted to dimethyl ether(gas in hair spray cans) and media including porn.
-I just now realize how much damage this has caused. I fail at almost everything I try. (85% of the last 7 bigger things I tried)
-I was diagnosed with 3 different mental health issues.(ADD, PTSD, paranoid schizophrenia(here in Europe the chances of being employed with this alone is only around 15%(https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15133589))
-I think I have lost a good chunk of my intelligence.(I once had a high IQ(well seems like I only now know what I have lost))
-I am too uncreative …

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Kick it

  August 9th, 2018 by rivets

Kill it!

I’m sick today. *sniffle cough cough*.

Oh, the black soot of my life lives in my lungs.

I’m breaking and entering the empty spaces of the world on a nocturnal odyssey.

Here’s the soundtrack.

Sitar is best banjo. I’ll get drunk as hell and fall in a lake to that wonderful eastern sound.

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It says ‘No hate’ in the rules

  August 9th, 2018 by ClairDeLune

And I keep hating myself, but somehow am not banned yet, am I. Someone in management is going to be fired for not doing their job..

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Emptiness

  August 9th, 2018 by fakehappy

It feels like an emptiness that is then succeptable to pain, anger and loneliness. I hope people can forgive us all for mental health… we didn’t ask for it.

On a happier note I challenge people to write with predictive text in the comments 🙂 kinda like this…

What I did for you is the best thing I have ever seen in my life. Parrots are not the same as the sun but they can be helpful in getting some people out of the way.

It’s strangely entertaining…

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Facebook sucks

  August 9th, 2018 by fakehappy

the good out of life. It replaces real interaction with superficial egotistical masks. And don’t get me started on stalking… technology is too much for our little monkey minds.

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Article on Dutch euthanasia due to mental health

  August 9th, 2018 by nuclearbackpack

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/stories-45117163

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  August 9th, 2018 by clipped-wings

I’m trapped in my house. I have a hideous rash on my face and I look and feel like a monster. The doctors are taking their good old time getting back to me. Four days of this. I think my disease is going to win this round. I just don’t want to be trapped inside this body anymore. It’s killing me. I’m just so down.

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I really…

  August 9th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

…need to leave and live with my mum. It won’t be easy. But we have no future with her parter/my dad. He doesn’t let us go outside alone to go anywhere. It must be with him. I can’t get a job here because of it. Is this a life? Should we leave? Should we stay here and rot?

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Feeling lost

  August 9th, 2018 by hankbaker64

I’m a confess some shit I wouldn’t if I weren’t drunk enough… Not that I’m suicidal, that’d be obvious enough for even those who know me – a friend of mine once had a dream that I’d commit suicide when he had no idea I, then, recently tried to. I have issues. So so many issues. But that’s the modern psychological narrative. I accept me for who I am, doesn’t mean the rest of the world does;I have friends… lots of em, not that anyone knows the full story. Except there’s not much of a story… I feel like death’s personal project to disassemble a …

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Laughter

  August 9th, 2018 by lonewolf23

My method may not work for everyone but nowadays whenever i find myself feeling insecure about something….i just laugh at myself for feeling that way. Or whenever I fear something I just tell myself “look at your weak ***** ass giving up lol”. It helps me get over it. I actually end up laughing at myself out loud at times if it’s really ridiculous. There’s a certain strength one gets when you can laugh in the face of what your mind considers dangerous. It’s not that you are weak for being depressed but it allows you to feel invincible.

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Scared

  August 9th, 2018 by dancingwithdeath

I’m all alone and extremely suicidal, there’s no one I can contact… I dunno what to do T.T

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