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Almost 50 years of suffering……..

  October 10th, 2018 by Paperdoll

I’ve done the medications, done the talk therapy, hospitalized – I have 35 years of psych records,so no nothing else is going to change at this point in my life.  I thought I needed someone who understands my pain to give me permission to go, but I don’t now I’m at peace with the idea, have the place, time, method, its very well planned this time, I hope I fucking get it right this time, I keep screwing it up (I’m such a failure)  This time I have announced it on Facebook -yesterday, told everyone I know that I am ready to go this week. …

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School

  October 10th, 2018 by unknownsoldier

who ever said school is easy is a fucking liar!

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Happy birthday!

  October 10th, 2018 by PatheticMale

Exactly 19 years ago this pathetic existence came to life… Damn some people my age are having kids and shit and I´m still insecure virgin sitting home playing video games. I dont think I am ever gonna be good enough for anyone.. I am exactly the same as I was when I was 12 except I have lost the potential to achieve something and also I do drugs now.

I am home alone today, the anniversary of my birth is the last thing i wanna celebrate.. I am going to go out on friday and combine excessive amounts of alcohol and cocaine so I guess you could …

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  October 10th, 2018 by rhianweisensee

school makes everyone so depressed. i know for a fact it is not just me. when i walk into this place, i suddenly feel alone. everyone does. except for the ones who fake their own life. like laney or ashley. damn i cant explain their level of fakeness. but i know for a fact that they are all depressed inside. or that could just be me and im crazy. probably so. but yesterday i heard that someone lied about going to a mental hospital which pisses me off because i have been. nobody can fake the feelings you get when you walk in there. similar …

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  October 10th, 2018 by Yikrens

Lose everything like you got some.
To be allowed to make losses that had been abandoned with an lasting spell.
To have the attributes to

 

 

earlier occupied number

066306086190
06764182254
068110618344

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New Idea

  October 10th, 2018 by Yikrens

A way to get a message back here to know who died.

I can’t do mine just. The Drugs are almost under political control.

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Forgiveness

  October 9th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

Well, I’ve been thinking about whether I should forgive my older brother he is in jail again on his own stupidity of his own drug problem long story short I have a bad history of enabling my brother with money and the debt he owes me is somewhere around $1000-1500 dollars just an estimate I would have to look through all the transaction transfers via Facebook, Western Union, and Smart Deposit for bailing his ass out of jail near the end of August and within the following month of September he got arrested again and I am kind of done having to relive another ten …

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Misanthrope

  October 9th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

I’m a misanthrope and I dont want to change.

In fact I’d become a hermit if I had a chance…live in a little house in the woods surviving from teas fruit hunting and potions…studying the herbs…watching the sun and the moon in total solitude and silence.

More I meditate less I want to be with people.

Is that normal? F*ck if it isnt. It makes me so good…life is so much better far from people talking and talking a lot of sh*t over my head and demanding me to be happy and have plans and get money and I suppose if they knew they’d demand me to stop being …

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It’s bad now.

  October 9th, 2018 by NiceGuy2001

On the 1-to-10 scale of despair, I’m probably about a 9 right now. Much more, and I’ll be climbing up into the attic and putting a belt around my neck.

I’ve learned some very UGLY things about myself this year …. specifically my capacity for JEALOUSY. I’m pushing 60 years old, and never had I ever had to deal with JEALOUSY before.  And I hate it. It shames me.

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Headaches

  October 9th, 2018 by morado123

They’re getting worse. I feel like I want to crush my skull if it means I can stop the pain.

They’re killing me.

I can’t concentrate.

The worst part is, they’re not migraines. The headaches are most likely stress induced and there is no cure for this.

I hope I just lose consciousness.

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You were right

  October 9th, 2018 by holdingonbyathread

I tried. I tried so hard. Guess you were right, Mrs B. Guess I’m just as dumb as it f*cking gets.

I’ll stop pretending I can even be anything in life now.

You were right. It gets better. But that’s just another lie you (and everybody else) tell me that only a naive piece of shit like myself would believe.

 

 

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I Cant see anything so good about the world…

  October 9th, 2018 by sisyphus2

4 years ago in high school, I was doing well in school had a few genuine friends who I really enjoyed being with and could talk to like an equal.That was the last time that I was truly happy in my life after that nobody ever treated me like a human again, to them I was trash. Around this time I began to develop memory issues which I suspected were caused by an underlying neurological disease, it worried me so I decided to visit a doctor, the doctors turned out to be extremely cruel and unfair to me in their diagnosis, I stressed to them …

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It’s taken me this long

  October 9th, 2018 by claritee

I don’t really have suicidal ideation anymore. I’m on Lexapro now and feeling as if my brain has been calmed. So why am I here? I don’t know. I went back and read some of my old posts. And I’m trying to remember my state of mind and how broken I was. I was such a mess. Still am to be honest, but less so.

My posts consisted of me talking about my ex and my breakup. It has taken me this long, two years, but I’m finally and truly healing and I’d say, 85% over it. I haven’t talked to my ex in a year …

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Drinking problem

  October 8th, 2018 by ANONFORWOOD

and about problems, it’s more like ultimate solution than problem to me, i don’t really remember when i started drinking or how bout i believe it’s in my genes. I’ve suspected my father and already know my mother’s been drinking alcohol even when she was pregnant. funny she said she was drinking only lots of beer but not other drinks. first i remember i was about 15 when i drinked enough time accidentally burn house which isn’t clear yet my mother’s blaming others but it could’ve been me.  i just can’t imagine myself being sober, it’s only morning and when I’m working and I’m pretty …

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Doing bad

  October 8th, 2018 by Brokenlostsoul

I am stuck in my room all day. It is hard to go outside my paranoia is very bad right now. I have schizophrenia. I hear voices whispering in my ear I can’t get calm. I don’t know how much I can take I have been like this for eight years. I slit my wrist very bad a few months back. I can’t take  the racing thoughts my mind never gives me a break. Please God have mercy on my soul I can’t take much more. I love you grandma and grandpa thank you for everything I can’t take much more

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Questions, Please Answer

  October 8th, 2018 by Todamnbad

Does anybody here overthink or easily stress themselves out? I guess that’s what anxiety is. I never feel calm and my mind keeps overthinking shit like its so important to try to remember everything and i hate it. What would you recommend for a person that struggles with daily constant thoughts, easily stressed out and overthinking?

 

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  October 8th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

You ever love someone so much you literally suffocate without them? Go catatonic without them? Have their image in your mind being the one thing that kept you from dying when your body was running out of air?

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Why?

  October 8th, 2018 by IrrationalLion

I need you so much. Why did you leave me ? Ive lost many people I was seriously close with but losing you isn’t the same. Losing you is actually like losing half of myself. I can’t stop crying. Our memories playing on repeat in my head is haunting. Im praying to the fate of the world that some how you’ll come back to me. Im scared of what will happen if you never return..

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Attn: Persephone

  October 8th, 2018 by 1bigzero

I’ve been asked to try to contact someone who used to post on here under the username of Persephone. I don’t recall having “met” her here, but we have a mutual friend who is really wanting to get in touch. Please email me at tcro999 at Gmail dot com.

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Random thought

  October 8th, 2018 by LetTheLostKittensPlay

I’m a twin who had to be born via emergency caesarean due to being crushed in the womb. My twin was pressed too tightly against me and was near enough stopping my heart. I wonder what the chances were that that could have killed me.  Probably only slight, but this just makes me think “was I even supposed to be here?” If only my sister survived and not me.

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