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No Bullshit

November 12th, 2017by mimir18

I’ll write in french.

Je vais mourrir. J’ai hâte de trouver le bon moment pour le faire. Pour bien le faire. Pour être sure de pas me manquer.

Je suis dans la fin vingtaine et du plus loin que jme souvienne j’ai toujours struggle face à la vie.

Je connecte pas avec les gens. Ça marche pas. Pis jsuis tannée. I give up. C’est tough de pas pouvoir sentir ce feeling de fusion avev quelqu’un.

Jpense être autiste. Ça m’aiderais p-t de faire les démarches pour avoir l’aide dont j’ai besoin mais j’ai plus l’énergie.

Le système de santé est pas acceuillant pantoute pis ça mtente plus de me battre.

J’en …

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Chronic Medical Illness-Suicide

November 12th, 2017by cubbyblue2016

Hi,

Was anyone here happy with life then stricken with a medical condition that causes them to now be suicidal.

Toxic Brain injury for me. Progressive illness.

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3

love changes us

November 12th, 2017by superficiality

“love changes a person”

as a child, we know of the stories where the boy gets the girl. they fall in love. they get married. and they live happily ever after. there is no fighting, no drama, no heartbreak. but that’s all they are: stories.

love changes a person. but so does heartbreak.

 

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Christmas

November 12th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

Damn fuck all this Christmas shit off. The advertising and milking everyone doesn’t get any better each year.
Sorry if I offended anyone who likes Christmas

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3

hm

November 12th, 2017by ohboyohboy

i just thought about my plan of dying before reaching 20 and how weird it is and also maybe how dumb it is. it seems far away but it’s only 5 years away and yeah i wanna fucking die every day, i’ve continuously thought of stopping in front of cars on the way to and from school (i haven’t done it yet so i guess that’s good but also bad), but isn’t it irratioinal? to fully plan this out? i can’t go through with the plan but if this were just an impulse thing, then it’d be easier. i don’t know what i’m trying to …

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The Irony of Suicidality

November 12th, 2017by Disenchanted7

I know you won’t believe me, but you feel suicidal because you have too much, not because you have too little. Believe me, once you get diagnosed with a terminal condition and suffering becomes a very real prospect, you will want to live and be healthy again more than you could imagine. I’m not saying it’s wrong to feel the way you do, you are not responsible for your genetics or circumstances you were born into. But please do not throw your life away unaware of the value of life.

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so miracles do happen

November 12th, 2017by sadlife958

 few weeks ago I dropped my wallet somewhere and I couldn’t find it to save my life and that’s where I had all my money and all that stuff. I looked everywhere  in my room in my car practically everywhere  and I sat down I was trying to think when was the last time I saw it and the last time I remembered having it was when I was at Starbucks the night before. so I was like Wow Let me give it a shot. So with the little gas that I had left I drove to Starbucks …

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1

November 12th, 2017by lostallhope001

I wonder how many people on SP have an abusive/crazy parent.. The root of all evil

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0

thinking of him

November 12th, 2017by tribulation

and you will stay awake

alone and in the dark

for hours on end

waiting for him and wishing for him

while hes sound asleep,

not wasting a single thought on you

 

 

and when you finally get some sleep,

he’ll wake up

and his first thought will be of you.

his first feeling will be regret

for not seeing you when you were right there.

do not go back when he comes for you

or you’ll be wide awake,

wishing for him once again

when he re-forgets you.

 

t.a.-g.n.

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2

The apparent pointlessness of it all.

November 12th, 2017by ME Thal

If i can somehow prove that there is no ultimate meaning, i’ll kill myself.

https://youtu.be/Tuu-n9kADt4

https://youtu.be/l2vF_mdC-Fo

https://youtu.be/wXh5JprKqiU

I don’t have a need for control stemming from my troubled childhood, Dr. Milfi https://youtu.be/r1myharpKIE?list=PLIFSfeB-gAVq4yeFtn9sgBiNO_BXD4ETu

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Selfworth

November 12th, 2017by ClairDeLune

I have this therapy group that I go to once a week, and it’s called a “selfworth-group” because it is supposed to help people who lack a proper sense of selfworth, i.e. people with low self-esteem, people who are self-conscious, etc. We’re currently six members, and during a meeting we usually do some kind of exercise, sit in a circle and talk about ourselves, or just listen to the psychologist explain concepts of selfworth.

What I did learn through that group, what I realized more than I did before, is that I am hugely dependent on other people’s reactions and conscious and unconscious feedback towards me. …

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Oh God damn it

November 12th, 2017by Darkspark

For fucks sake, how many times can I go in and out of planning suicide in the span of one day…fuck it always comes back, maybe it’s time to do it or seek some more professional help…though that thought scares me. Maybe I would regret getting professional help. After all if It doesn’t work then I could lose access to my method…what to do?

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0

I cant tell

November 12th, 2017by itsmecat

I cant tell what is the truth and what isnt anymore
I cant tell if I really am the bad person I make myself out to be the one who doesnt know how to love or let people in or give good people what they deserve etc.
Or if Im the sweet girl that some claim me to be
but they dont know me very well either
I cant tell if Im crying because of the stress or if Im crying because I want to die
or both
Its driving me crazy, I cant figure it out and I cant trust anyone to tell me
I cant trust myself to tell me..
I …

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November 12th, 2017by lostallhope001

If you could be somebody else, who would you be? It can be a celebrity, animal whatever.. (Rivets I know you would want to be a cat)

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1

Not fair

November 12th, 2017by lostallhope001

What did I do wrong to be/feel like this? So many happy people out there..

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5

PLEASE HELP ME

November 12th, 2017by noah5678

I can’t deal with all this anymore. Always feeling too hot, all this anxiety, all the painful memories and feelings, my severe lack of motivation everything that bothers me, stuff that is even too hard to understand and explain; I would be dead right now if suicide didn’t hurt while doing it. I feel like everything is just going to continue to get worse, which is why I hope to never wake up again. EVER. I also can’t STAND the person I am.

if you want to know more, I suggest reading some of my other posts.

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5

Random Thoughts

November 12th, 2017by eternaldarkness

-Why do hot dogs come in a packs of 10 but hot dog buns come in packs of 8? Are they trying to get us to buy 40 hot dogs and 40 buns just so we can even it out?

-Why is paying someone to have sex (prostitution) illegal, but paying someone to have sex with someone else and sticking a camera in their face (porn) legal? The only difference is one is with a camera and one without.

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Isolation

November 12th, 2017by lostallhope001

I hate my fucking narcissistic sisters and their stupid narcissistic kids. When they come and visit us (at my parents house). I just run upstairs and isolate myself. are there people who isolate themselves from others too? Just waiting for my package to arrive next week so I can finally take my life and rest in fucking peace

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2

I was once very handsome

November 12th, 2017by madhurgupta

Now I am not so handsome. People used to be jealous of me because of it, and hurt me and made me suffer, and my mother and father simply watched and did nothing.
Why the fuck.

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2

The Past

November 12th, 2017by ClairDeLune

When I look at pictures of us, I don’t even recognize the face I see there anymore. Was that really me once? He seems content, at peace, happy even. He smiles, genuinely. He is okay with how things are, good and bad. He is okay with how he is, he knows what he’s worth, and knows his place in this world.

Seeing myself like that is weird. It feels so unimaginable, there’s just no way I was that person once. Seems way more likely someone photoshopped those pictures. I am as far away from whoever he is both in the past and in the future as …

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