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meh

  October 8th, 2018 by uuuggghhh

do you ever feel like you’re cursed or the universe hates you or something like that?

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  October 8th, 2018 by PatheticMale

Do you think that living alone (no intimate relationship) for the whole life is possible? Or will it drive you crazy eventually?

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Hope!

  October 7th, 2018 by Secrets4Ever

I don’t know about you.  But I refuse to give up.   Guess I’m just too defiant to just lay down and die. (So here I am again)  I don’t know the future.  I do know I won’t accomplish much in a self pity mood    So its time to get busy.  To clean my home.  Mop my floors.   Find a way to be productive even if its in a small way.  But anything is better than sitting here and being whiney.  I can’t go back in time and change the past.   That will get me nowhere.  Life moves forward.  Not Back.

*NOTE TO …

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Am I selfish.?

  October 7th, 2018 by Virus.Found

I can not get over it, that things will never be fair. I’m too sensitive about everything. I’m in chronic pain and Doctors could never help me. Or maybe I think I just couldn’t help myself. For 9 years I’m into this Depression and it just got worse. It started early in school, that I realized that something was not right. About me and the tiring reality to go to school everyday. Other Kids seemed so careless. I came too late everyday. It started with 5 Minutes, then 10, then 30 and sometimes I missed the first period. I think I must be a broken …

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Petulant Children

  October 7th, 2018 by rivets

Adult brats. They’re all like babies that learned how to talk. Are we all like this, really? I get angry easily and lash out after the last straw falls on the heap. It definitely doesn’t help matters. If I’m getting angry about other people being irrationally angry, that’s irrational anger. Adoy. It’s like a contagion. You notice it and the anger underlines nervous energy, and suddenly you’re manic. Brains are the worst thing ever. These processes make no sense. And people ask me why I drink alone and don’t go to parties or the bar. Adoy. Because drinking to forget that other people exist is …

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Anyone watched ‘The Sound of Insects’?

  October 7th, 2018 by Yoges

It’s an experimental docu-fiction of sorts, based on a true story of a suicide by starvation that took place in Japan. It narrates the journal entries of a dying man, as he withers away inside his tent in the middle of a forest and life recedes piecemeal from his body.

It was inspiring in a strange morbid way. I’m thinking of following it’s example when I finally fuck off to hell. The method is painful but there’s something cathartic about it that I can relate to.

First, it tests your resolve to spite at life when you still have a chance to walk back to society and …

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hello

  October 7th, 2018 by noonoo12

anyone remember me? how we all doing:?

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I can’t wait for the day I decide to die…

  October 7th, 2018 by LetTheLostKittensPlay

Seriously, I’m just so upset with myself and nothing feels great anymore.

I really feel like I’ve messed my head up so bad over the last 12 years, to the point of no return.

I had a panic attack today, first one in ages… guess why? The delivery person came, I ended up getting really overwhelmed for whatever reason… jeez.

I just hate showing my face to anyone. There’s a reason why I became housebound. I feel lesser than everyone else, to the point where I fear others can sense my insecurities. Can sense that I feel inferior. Even to a delivery person who’s just there to drop …

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New Person, Same Old Mistakes

  October 7th, 2018 by Blue65

After months of despair and crippling loneliness, I’ve achieved the impossible.
Me, a kissless loser, found a real gem. Someone who actually cares about me, enjoys me and all my quirks, and tries to push me into bettering myself.

I was riding the high for months, it’s the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.
All I’ve ever wanted was just somebody to share my time with, somebody I can just, finally open up to.
Someone to listen, to love me, and just care.

Of course I looked at myself a lot. A relationship can’t work, how can I expect anyone to love me if I can’t even love myself? …

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The doses which I require

  October 7th, 2018 by Mimo

I want to, so desperately.

To stare outside the window once I’m out of my trapped mind,

For others to feel sympathy and ask questions as to the reasons of my choices.

Simplistically I only wanted to feel better, and I just wanted to be lost forever.

I took two now, I’m tired.

Maybe someday I’ll take more.

I hope pain isn’t an issue.

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All I Want

  October 7th, 2018 by SuzieSalmon

My mindset hasn’t changed since January, I still envision myself not existing anymore but I’ve gained more sorrow because I’m around my family more. It gives me guilt, makes me feel so selfish. For once I just wish I could envision being where I feel is home and building the life I’ve missed out on. I wish there was nothing wrong with me and I wish I was strong enough for my family and for my husband. I want to be better. Its almost, December.

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Numb

  October 6th, 2018 by Undecided13

I’m in that point of life when I could no longer feel the sadness, no longer feel the pain. I could no longer feel anything. Its like I’m just numb. Just drifting into the darkness that had broken me more times that I could count. So much pain, I wished for it all to disappear. I wanted to escape, because I am too much a coward to face it. I guess I got my wish, then.

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Shattered Life

  October 6th, 2018 by Secrets4Ever

Am I a ghost?   I sure feel it.   I no longer feel alive.   I feel like I’m lost at sea.  Broken and battered beyond all measure.  Not much left of my life now.    Little hope of complete recovery.  Life has almost no meaning.  No true purpose left.   Friends all gone.  (not that they were much to brag about…back stabbers).  Career gone.

Shattered Dreams.   Shattered heart.

A prayer seems fruitless.

God seems deaf.   ( not that he ever listened to me) I am not on his radar.    Never really was.

Nothing left to say.

 

 

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Do you feel it too?

  October 6th, 2018 by wearehannahbaker

That somehow the day will come. And you will eventually do it.

It doesn’t matter if you’re having a good couple of days or months. Or even years. It always comes back. The urge of just ripping your skin out.

Of wanting to cut your wrist and just bleed yourself to death.

Of finally opening up that bottle of Vodka and mix it with all the benzos you’ve been storing.

It will come for all of us. Someday.

We will never be fine until we’re not here anymore. That’s our fate and I crave for it more than anything else.

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Dear Xanax,

  October 6th, 2018 by wearehannahbaker

Thanks for keeping me numb and saving my life again.

 

Next time…don’t.

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im back

  October 6th, 2018 by Lime17

i was so proud of myself. i was getting so much better but now i cant handle it again.
im so disappointed in myself and im suicidal again even tho my life is finally completely fine.
What the fuck is wrong with me

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  October 6th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Why is this world so fucked up?

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no way out

  October 6th, 2018 by AKidWithAName

She was drunk.  Doesn’t that make it my fault?  She was raped before.  That’s the only reason she did it.  She wouldn’t have done it to me if it wasn’t done to her.  She was too drunk to know what she was doing and it wasn’t her fault, right?  And God will condemn me for adultery and homosexuality.  She’s taken any chance of heaven away from me.  She stripped me of any hope for a future.  There is nothing after this.  Not even death could let me escape this hell.  It’s never going to end and I am going to continue to be tortured by …

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I

  October 6th, 2018 by jr.

“I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can’t stand it any longer”

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  October 6th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Someone asked me if l could destroy the world, would l do it? I think yes, what about you?

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