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Suicide attempt number 3: failed..

March 25th, 2017by Kur0-Nek0

So, I did it again. I once again tried to kill myself. Lol, this is the 2nd time this week, and the 3rd in the last 2 months.

This time I tried to choke myself (of course not with my own hands lol). To tell the truth it really hurt, my head felt like it was gonna explode, I coud not hear anything, and my sight was really hazy. I also have red marks on my face now (I think that they’re called petechiae). does anyone know how long it will take for these marks to go away?

Well, I really am a loser though. lol   …

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Travel

March 25th, 2017by braiNsane

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New girl.

March 25th, 2017by KillingMyselfForYou

I’ve spent some time now reading stories and thoughts from the others here. I’ve really been wanting to say how brave it all is. Its brave to say what you feel inside because many people never get that courage. Like me. I have never found that courage. But I think I may now. Suicide has become a daily contemplation and its really beginning weigh me down. I have been through this before, but its a bit worse this time around. I get very scared of myself. Its like I get into these modes of feeling too calm. If that makes sense. I could be in …

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Trees and such

March 25th, 2017by braiNsane

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The Deafening Sound of Silence

March 25th, 2017by Black Monk

Yesterday evening I was closest to killing myself…………no one knows it yet although I doubt it would make any difference to the way the treat me now. I needed some help, needed someone to talk to….so I called up my friends to meet me before our tuition. I went there early, waited almost half an hour till they arrived. It was already way past the time tuition begins so the bluntly told me that they have no time and will talk after the tuition. This hurt me a little for I had waited somewhat like 30 mins for them and they couldn’t even afford to …

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I wish you had cancer…

March 25th, 2017by Immurement

I would watch you rrot.

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pain

March 25th, 2017by _lost._.one_

My heart physically hurts.

my head physically hurts.

my legs physically hurt.

and i think im breaking,

 

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Doubt

March 25th, 2017by pensivepen

  • I’ve been living miserably in this world for like 17 years. I’ve been depressed for almost a decade. I happened to have sleeping & eating disorder. I hate myself but I love the people in my life especially my family. I love hearing them laugh. I love it when I make them happy. Maybe, I could still love my life. Maybe, there could be a reason for me to go back to who I was. I am kinda stuck between attempting to end my life and finding a reason to go on. But I don’t know. I think there’s no going back. There’s no

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Thank you for the math test.

March 25th, 2017by Chip

So I was going to log in to comment to a post, not to create a post, but by the time I completed the stupid ass “answer this complex addition equation to prove your humanity” for the fifteenth time, I’d forgotten what I was going to comment on. So, please file this post under rants. And, yes, I am not a robot.

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Title

March 24th, 2017by whiskered-fish

There is no point in trying to get better. There is no reason to keep going.

Kat isn’t worth saving or salvaging. She’s just not worth fighting for. I want to give up.

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Another Deep Thought

March 24th, 2017by Foxglove7

I am 35 years old, but it took me nearly 36 years to get here. Is that a riddle? No. I just counted in utero time. But that shit is deep……..

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Rough…Day?Week?…w/e

March 24th, 2017by LMNO

I haven’t been much of a poster, i can’t seem to log in from my phone where i do most of my reading on SP.  It’s probably for the best really, before long I’m pretty confident i’d start to _*fill in the blank*_ most of this community too.  But I had kind of a bad day, or a bad few days, whatever it is… Just worse than recent weeks, not that those have been so great.  I guess i’m just looking for a distraction to help me to forget what a f*ckwad i am.  Anyone feel like sharing some of their recent happenings?

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Why Wont You Answer My Prayers

March 24th, 2017by Gary

Okay, its a death sentence. Why wont you let me chose my time? Why wont you help me end this misery? I don’t want to do this anymore. But, being here is torture. All this bad news and crap is more than I can take. Please let me choose. It my choice but you pull me back in to this quagmire. I don’t want to do this anymore. Turn me off…please.

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March 24th, 2017by StarryEyed

I’m worrying all the time. I don’t know how to quiet down my fears.I’m increasingly turning to drugs and alcohol to get through the day.

But I’m trying to make positive changes, every morning I work out and walk about 9/10k steps a day, I’m eating better. But at the same time I’m restricting my calories ‘too extremes’, more conscious than ever, more suicidal than ever. I don’t know what it means or what to tell the doctors, in some ways I’m better, others I’m not. I dunno what to do.

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Collapse

March 24th, 2017by LittleBead

The stress has been piling up on my shoulders so much that I have just collapsed. I really can’t take it anymore. One thing added and I will run away or do something to myself because I can’t bear all this sadness and these concerns.

I can’t work anymore, I know that for sure. I can’t sleep, I can’t attend university. They have kicked me out anyway. It’s got so bad lately.

I’ve been feeling pathetic also because I know that there’s no future for myself. No handsome prince on a white stallion to save me. No miracle to happen. No fairies with their magic wands making …

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This is Your Heart — Don’t Let it Tear You Apart.

March 24th, 2017by Shephard

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Life now is but a constant stream of memories, distorted by the harshness of reality. When sentimentality is your affliction, only the facts will sober you up from your misguided ways. That’s all it amounts to once the dust settles — being misguided, and going against your better judgement.

That’s all I amounted to.

But things have changed. For better or (hopefully not) worse, I have no choice but to discard my old self and embrace a new path moving forward. The path I was always meant to take, but shied away from due to an acute case of loverboy syndrome. Despite it all being in vain; …

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Life sentence

March 24th, 2017by AgentQ

Once you’ve tasted it there’s no going back. That black metalic taste is stuck with you for life. The feeling of being empty, dry, wasting away, nostalgic, longing, bitter, envious, calm, indifferent. It becomes your source of motivation. This dense bolus of regret, fear, apathy, anger,

I was a happy little boy once. i’ll try to remember him.

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i have a problem; myself

March 24th, 2017by kuso666

The only way to get rid of my problems is to get rid of myself. Because I am the problem.

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Free fall (nutjobcantlove and eternaldarkness)

March 24th, 2017by Waldschläfer

Been trying to respond to the “Is it the right time to die” post for ages now, but my comments keep disappearing into the void. So, here goes …

Interesting discussion here, nutjob and darkness ! Thought I’d chime in.

I studied Golden Gate bridge suicides in forensic detail to the extent possible on the web. Basically, a free fall from a height and the subsequent impact onto a resistant surface (e.g. land or water) causes massive internal injuries because, at the moment of impact, the internal organs are still traveling at speed, due to inertia … any object in motion continues in motion unless impeded by …

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So fucking scared

March 24th, 2017by kamidaka

My father went to my uni to pay the tuition fee. And they told them I’m not on the list.

He called me, obviously. I felt scared, so so scared. I was able to pull off a temporary lie, not sure how much that’s gonna last.

Do I seriously have to die now? I didn’t even published chapter 3.

I’m so sad.

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