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The bill

  August 9th, 2018 by annon111

If you were suffocating, and the price of a breath of fresh air was just a little bit of blood, you would pay, wouldn’t you?

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T

  August 9th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

I feel like I’m gonna explode. I can never manage to get my fucking thoughts out in a productive manner. I’m gonna fucking lose it one day.

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I took some suicide memes a little to serious. Whoops

  August 9th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

You know,
I almost feel like having situational depression is so much easier.

With situations, as soon as the issue is resolved, your bad thoughts will go away
But what if… what if the problem is you?
I pay my car payment 2 months early
I have more then enough money left over to survive each months
I have 4k in my savings at 20, a car, zero debt, GREAT credit, a family that loves me, friends that love me, a man that cares more about me then he should, going back to school in a few days and i should be joining the army in just a bit here.
As you …

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Melodrama

  August 9th, 2018 by Casino96

This is it

no condescension, no insight, no bullshit, no connection

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I’m a bad person

  August 9th, 2018 by Casino96

And I can’t figure out how to stop being one.

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Survived My Attempt

  August 8th, 2018 by HadEnuff

I am a 65-year-old single, gay, man. Forty-nine years ago tonight, when I was 16, I tried to end my life.  I wanted to die.

I took nearly an entire bottle of Bufferin. It was the only pills I could find. The main reason for my wanting to die was because of my sexuality. But I also felt very unloved and unwanted by my parents, which was not true at all (I was an only child).

Early the next morning I became violently ill.  I had a powerful diarrhea and was vomiting.  They alternated about every 15 minutes.  This went on for hours.  I also had a …

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Parents doing irksome things

  August 8th, 2018 by Casino96

I worked today. I had a lunch break today. I checked my phone on my lunch break today. That’s how I learned my parents decided to put the family dog down while I was gone. Without telling me until they did it. A Facebook picture and a text. And our pet of 14 years is gone. I didn’t even get to say goodbye, and I was his favorite out of the four of us. What the fuck. Why couldn’t you at least set a fucking date, maybe two days in advance. I wouldn’t even have to be there. I would have just liked to know …

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Visine hides me from the world..

  August 8th, 2018 by NobodyKnowsorCares

I carry Visine everywhere with me, because ik il have to cry every hour, its crazy how fast my emotions fill me up, and i just need to cry them out just to act normal. Ive been at work for only 3 hours, ive broken down over 10 times now. Feels like every 20 mins i have to remove all my emotions from me or my head will just implode..

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sorry mom.

  August 8th, 2018 by someonelost

first I want to say that the comments you let on my last post made me feel a bit better so thank you.

Today I went to the cinema with my ex-stepdad cause we are still kinda of close, well he asks me once every 6 months if I want to do hang out, and I, of course, say yes cause I still want to see him but every time he asks me I still have this little voice telling me “you’re mad at him for what he did to you and mom, so stop hanging out with him”. Anyway so we went to the cinema …

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Too long ramble #823

  August 8th, 2018 by ClairDeLune

Every damn night now I have this extreme anxiety and my thoughts just keep racing and racing. And I know tomorrow night is going to be the very same way, and the night after that, and after that, and there’s no reason to think that anything would change anytime soon. How am I even supposed to cope with this? It’s starting to ruin my days too, because all I can think about when the sun is up is how it’s going to be when it isn’t.

I just lay there in bed, or pace around the apartment, and all that’s keeping me from losing my mind …

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Cant control these urges I have…

  August 8th, 2018 by NobodyKnowsorCares

This spans 2 hrs, (7pm I finished writing this)

I finally got out of bed around 5 pm today, I had work at 6pm, the second I opened my door to this new day… all I hear coming from the end of the house was
“Why do you sleep so much? God, its already 5 in the afternoon, you have work in an hour, what is wrong with you.”
All I could say back was.
“Because I like sleeping.”

While I was preparing food, before work. He walks past me, looks at me, and remarks that “oh you look really unhealthy and skinny have been drinking or …

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Seeing If Things Get Better

  August 8th, 2018 by anon72

I’ll stay for another day and see if things get better.  Even though it’s cliche and seems like a lie that things will get better.

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not right

  August 8th, 2018 by machila27

Hi whoever is reading this,

thank you again, for the comments in my last post. I had no idea that coming across this site and writing to strangers, would help me.

For my third post: I’m here to talk about some things I do, and that I hate, but can’t help it.

It’s about my emptiness again.

My friends talk to me about the things they do and are proud of all the time, or sometimes things that upset them. I can see how happy, or sad, they are about it. And of course I try, keyword try, to be happy or sad for them. But every time I say something, …

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  August 8th, 2018 by 5ara

lets consider this as a diary
….
so what should i talk about in the next appointment with my therapist:
1. how to deal with stress
2. do a schedule about the things that i should change to be better
3. know exactly why i am depressed in order to do point number 2
4. some tips to fulfill my life
5.how to stop being obsessed with my friend ( which i like )

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:(

  August 8th, 2018 by someonelost

  1. So I don’t really know what to say or how say it  but do you ever lay in bed and just think about your life and how messed up it is? Cause I do that a lot and I start to cry… Since last year my life has changed a lot my step dad that I knew since I was 3, left my mom and my mom started a depression, I was acting like everything was okay while deep inside I was just brocken. My mom made me see someone to talk to and it helped me but I think that it also broke

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Toll The Bells

  August 8th, 2018 by rivets

Time to pretend to be sane.

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….

  August 8th, 2018 by jr.

I hate waking up every morning. I hate dealing with life everyday. Wish I could just die. It will be so much easier

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  August 8th, 2018 by freeroma

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Is it real?!

  August 8th, 2018 by negar

hey
have you ever had this feeling that” wow am I really alive and I’m living just like any other creature in this world ?And some day I’ll just die? How can it be possible that I really die someday and even how it is that I am alive now”

it just feel like suddenly you realize you are responsible or at least what you do matters at least for yourself, you have something which is given to you but you seem to have forgotten about it and suddenly you realize it may each moment disapear and you may die but… it’s strange ,will I someday really …

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Tonight is the night

  August 8th, 2018 by Scars_13

25, almost 26 years and I always knew that I will die this way…

I always put on a face outside, every person thinks I am happy and cheerful. Nobody really knows the real me.

And tonight it was decided! The plan is on. At the end of the week all the pain will go away…

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