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is this a sad song or a happy one?

June 12th, 2018by born.loser

this is my favourite song by the way. listen to it at least once a day. and mostly likely going to be the last song i listen to before i do the deed 🙂

 

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Yesterday I tried to kill myself, but the weather was so nice

June 12th, 2018by Pitlobster

At first: Im german, so please sorry my bad english. In part i will use deepl.com to translate, i hope it will not peeve you.

Yesterday, not the first time, i went out to kill me. In the backpack my rope, in mind pure pain, i tried to reach GrĂĽnwald (which is ja very nice and natural place here, with much trees. The most citizens here are very rich). I made some wrong decisions in my life, like them opening my own business. Unfortunately, I’m technically gifted, but I can’t handle money. As a result, I still have obligations that I cannot pay even though I work …

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anybody?

June 12th, 2018by Mr Angry-mosta tha time


anyone remember this or the person who did it?
it was about 2 years ago now its really stuck with me, i wonder if theyre still here…

also sorry its sideways i dont know why it wont let me post it rightways

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Hello

June 12th, 2018by Failure143

I just wanted to say thank you for all of you who helped me yesterday. I was honestly going to end it tomorrow but then I saw the replies. I guess I’m glad to know at least some people care, even if they’re complete strangers. To be honest, this is the first time I smiled and ment it for a long time, and it’s all thanks to you. And to anyone who is on this site and just feels like offing themselves, the people here are going to help you through it, so just hang in there.

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Stuffing my face with ice cream

June 12th, 2018by eternaldarkness

Sigh…

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Different

June 12th, 2018by Mordred

The world is foreign to me in a lot of ways…things have changed. A lot. When I was young, I was shown that the world we lived in was very dangerous. If you were a girl you’d probably get raped at some point by someone — that was just reality. It could be anyone. My girlfriend was raped by her dad. Girls were essentially just sexual commodities (and we were young at the time). Boys, well we were trash. The motivated ones hustled to try and make money. Some of us became drug dealers or drug addicts. Most of us were drug addicts. Then there …

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Dead

June 11th, 2018by Buscetti

I made this a few weeks ago, need to do more vent art. Especially since I’m off for two days

 

 

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Just sharing

June 11th, 2018by idoztknoe

I dont want to talk about it.
I wake up every day with this gnawing feeling. I try to push it away, but it gets worse.
It doesn’t stop. This feeling.
It hurts. It stings. All the heartache, the stress…it gets to you.
But all I ask, is that you understand.
Its deep depths of darkness, and loneliness. Like a boulder of weight always on your back. Slowly hurting you.
It doesn’t stop unless you make it.
When you die you cease to exist, so why fight if when your dead it ll all not exist.
Some took the leap. I really do envy them.
Please just understand that I’m not trying to be …

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Clearly

June 11th, 2018by spectralgiraffe

Everyone has given up on me except my boyfriend. I don’t know what he sees in me honestly. He refuses to believe that I’m a failure. He thinks thats bs. But I know its true. Sure I was scared of the water at the beach, but got in anyway. Sure I was extremely physically exhausted some way into doing that walking track, but I kept going. Sure I tried to climb up something that he tried to climb. Sure I made progress on walking down stairs (my balance kinda sucks on them)…

…so what. I’m not any less of a failure. Its not that i’m not …

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Wearehannahbaker

June 11th, 2018by unknownsoldier

if you want someone to talk to let me know.

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one that’s less jumbled up, or so i thought

June 11th, 2018by treetop506

I am tired of it all. Moreso stuck in a space where, I want to do things, but I don’t see the point. I don’t have much going for me. I used to write in high school, but my best writing only came about when there was a person of interest in my life (except for one piece. but it was just a cover of myth of sisyphus. Still nice though). Not much luck there. I don’t offer good advice and my level of discernment regarding humans is incredibly low, so I don’t know how I could be a therapist. I am patient and I …

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Pointless

June 11th, 2018by numbanddontcare

Everything has become meaningless. Today I tried to get out and apply for jobs but I can’t even do that. I got so lucky my friend gave me a place to stay for free till the end of June but then I’m homeless. I don’t have motivation to keep breathing. I don’t know why my body even keeps going. I am stuck not wanting to exist. I can’t choose between life and death. I come here to try to find courage to off myself. I try really hard to find it. I’ve been depressed for years now. I have no family that I talk to …

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insert eye grabbing title

June 11th, 2018by treetop506

There’s not much for me to say. Alright that’s a lie but there’s not much to say that’s important, and won’t sound like I’m running on and on about the same worthless crap. I don’t see myself becoming anything more than what I am currently: a good for nothing, parasitic lazy airhead. I’ve boosted myself in terms of motivation time and again, but the thrusters always burn out. I’m 19, in the middle of an open field accompanied with 0 direction. I don’t know what or how to do anything. I’ve been sleeping a lot lately, which is a trend I adopted before I was …

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The truth

June 11th, 2018by Ree1222

This will probably be my last post. Stay encouraged in your life pursuits. Goodbye

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Dark clouds rolling in.

June 11th, 2018by falling_soup

Yesterday marked a year since I was sexually assaulted. Today is the aftermath of what happened a year ago. Going to the ER, calling to report the crime, the shame, the labels, people not believing my story. I feel like I am standing on the top of this hill and its cloudy. I can see the dark clouds rolling and I know its happening. The blades of grass is blowing in the wind around me, the sky is turning darker and darker. I can feel it becoming colder and the rain starts. When it rains it pours. The intrusive thoughts, the little will I have …

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I’ve got nothing to lose (20years down the drain)

June 11th, 2018by Urm8451n

For all my life, 20 years, I had dreams.

Those were 20 years of hopes, of good will, of hard work, of wanting something.

I had a reason for everything I did, I had something to go toward to.

Today at around 12:00, I just crashed. God if you are there, please beware – I’m broken God.

I’m completely shit-broken, I have such an abdominal pains that I can’t run anywhere, and my mom is dealing with her horrible cancer alone. I’m in the university and I lost control. I can’t help her beside talk or try to convince her to move on. I can’t help financially cause I …

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Message to my girlfriend

June 11th, 2018by Whatarethechances

To my girlfriend, laying only inches away from me right now.
All I need is for you to ask if I’m okay. Ask me how I’m going with everything. Ask. Just make an effort. You didn’t notice me crying and sobbing before? Or you just didn’t want to get involved? Just make an effort and it might stop me.

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Too Old For This Life

June 11th, 2018by idrathergarden

I should know better. What happened?
Stage 4 cancer? A brutal surgery and treatment? A narcissistic husband that I am financially dependent upon? A lost career? Lost physical beauty? An abusive adult child who has no empathy or human compassion of any kind? A successful child who can’t be bothered? Depression?

During my treatment my daughter was my caregiver. She was so quick to proclaim to the world that she was my caregiver all the while never giving me so much as a sip of water. My husband demanded sex knowing it caused me great pain. Then left town again for HIS career. He constantly reminded me how …

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Switch with dying person

June 11th, 2018by James1951

Why would you wish life on another person when you want to die yourself? maybe they will also prefer death to continue to live in a world where people hurt and kill one another.

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Why do I even try?

June 11th, 2018by Failure143

I’ve been around for years and have seen nothing but pain and suffering my whole life. I’ve tried for years to get help but it never works. Not to mention, I’m still a minor and have no value to anyone. I’ve moved from my mother’s house to my dads(they’re divorced) and his girlfriend and him team up against me all.the time.

I’ve been wrong all the time and everyone keeps telling me I’m smart then whips around and tells me I’m stupid, or I’m retarded ect. Now I’ve found this site and need help. Why? Why do I try? When I’m too depressed to eat, too …

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