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Death beckons

  February 8th, 2019 by Sanarisonordic

As I sit here, listening to Bohemian Rhapsody, my cold hands trying to remember the placement of letters on the keyboard– I contemplate death.

I want it to end. For too long I have sustained this shell without hope, happiness and peace. It’s hard-living. I am what people in my country would call comfortably-off. I have a job that I hate. It’s going nowhere. My ambition to live up to my potential isn’t going to work. I can feel it. And I hate it. But to be fair, I hate most things. I hate people, I hate the way they are petty and jealous, greedy, dishonest.

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Same old problems same old habits.

  February 7th, 2019 by xRocketroxasx

It’s been over a year since I felt the need to self harm in order to get some peace of mind for short period. Today it was unbearable, the ceaseless disarray of thoughts laying on me with their full weight on me. I had to divert attention, in the past I’ve stuck with spots so clearly out of sight no one would ever know, but I was so set on relief I just went after my arms and the sensitive skin to provide the best release. Thank goodness it’s winter and business requires button up shirts. In the past this would of been a costly …

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not dark, just empty

  February 7th, 2019 by heartlessviking

I feel like if I was well adjusted I would be happy… . as I write this I’m enjoying the clarity of a new monitor, the clear beauty of a perfect keyboard. I want to be happy about these things, and maybe I’ll succeed in purging my nervous frustration and be able to…

I’ve got a C in a class, which I know is acceptable to everyone else, but that’s the thing: not to me. I want an A, and now I feel like I need to fight ten times harder to not less this class slip….

I’ve got to figure out so many things; car repair, …

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Inspiration (thank you)

  February 7th, 2019 by Hope Dream Love

“You Ok?”
“Yes. Why do you ask?”
“You’re crying”
I close my eyes tighter trying to hold back the tears but it’s no use. I fall to the ground as the tears turn to sobs. You quickly fall beside me holding me close.
“Its Ok. You don’t have to tell me. Just let me hold you until the pain stops. You don’t have to face it alone.”
I buried my face in your chest as you held me tighter. Your shirt now stained with tears. But you didn’t care. Your only thought was of me. Wishing, hoping, begging for me …

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Whiskered Fish

  February 7th, 2019 by darkwillow

You haven’t posted in a while… How are you doing?

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  February 7th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

Why did l wait so much and endured so much? Why did nobody help all this time?

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A Sh*tty Week and I hate My Country

  February 7th, 2019 by Todamnbad

My fibromyalgia pain has been coming in strong. Its so strong. You literally feel like you’re dying, but you are awake and live through all the pain. Well if any good news, i been trying to change my life. 10x harder with Fibromyalgia. You feel bedridden, sick, and with no energy. You can sleep 8 hours and just restless when you wake up from all the pain. The sh*t takes it toll on your nervous system. It actually from any trauma you had in your life. I had two finger surgeries and mentally abused all my childhood starting at age 4. God, it makes me …

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Another unpleasant experience…

  February 7th, 2019 by PatheticMale

So today I was crossing the street near a roundabout and I saw a taxi car exit the roundabout without using his flashing light. (Really dick and dangerous move especially in this snowy weather… On top of that it was a fking taxi driver… A guy whos job is to drive and he cant do it fking correctly) So I yelled at him something like : “Use your fking flashing light you fking degenerade”. He screamed something back but I just didnt care and kept going on. Little did I know that he stopped his car and went after me… He then grabbed and pushed …

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Why… why why why… :-(

  February 7th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

You made me so happy!!!! Why do we have to live 15000km apart? 🙁
I have to see you again some day…. i have to I absolutely have to…

Squeak squeak.

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Dejected Filthling

  February 7th, 2019 by Klownisak

Nobody is available to keep me company. Some days it can get so unbearable. It’s even worse at night, and I would feel helpless, unable to cope. All I can do is put on my headphones and listen to music just to block everything out.

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Share your play list?

  February 7th, 2019 by Calico

“There’s no one there to save me from the nightmare that I call myself” Anson Seabra – Broken

“If I could realize that it’s your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself ” Alec Benjamin – My Mother’s Eyes

” I’m paralyzed where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should” NF – Paralyzed

“My bones have found a place to lie down and sleep… all my children can become me what a mess I leave to follow” Daughter – Smother

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A New Me

  February 6th, 2019 by vwbeatles

I’m officially at the number zero of people I can talk about suicide with without making people triggered, uncomfortable, or being told I should seek help or call a hotline. I guess talking about it just makes it worse and just makes me want to do it even more! Because nobody wants to be friends with a sad *****, you might as well eliminate the sad ***** altogether and kill her off. In addition, I’m officially at the point of no longer making myself vulnerable to the point where I begin to contemplate these thoughts. Did I finally solve the puzzle as to …

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#CantWait

  February 6th, 2019 by jr.

When i kill myself in a couple of short months, its going to be the greatest thing i ever accomplished in my young life 🙂

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H-2

  February 6th, 2019 by hiohneh

Everything is falling apart.

God…why? Please…just end this.

Give me a chance. I’m trying. Do I need to be locked up somewhere? What do you want? How much longer?

I can’t. I can’t deal with this pain. Thinking about losing the ones I love. Thinking about never having that special relationship. If you want me to suffer, give me a reason. God…why?

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What happened to lifelong loser?

  February 6th, 2019 by tiredofchronicpain

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favourite posts on here

  February 6th, 2019 by tiredofchronicpain

Hi Guys and girls. Please post your favourite posts on here and explain why. I am eager to make a bookmark of them. It can be on any site, including suicideproject dealing with nihilism/wanting to die/suicide notes, etc.

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Writing

  February 6th, 2019 by darkwillow

Despite going to college for music, my biggest passion has always been writing stories. But, it’s usually hard for me to write stories. And frustrating. I try for hours and often come up with nothing I seem to like. It’s always been like that. I can never get the stories in my head on paper. And so, I quit, and I went to music.

But a few days ago, I woke up in the middle of the night. 4 am I think. And I wanted to write. And I did for 3 hours straight. And then after school and work I wrote for 3 more hours, …

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  February 6th, 2019 by Hoody

Fell ill today. Slept through the day. Everything happened yesterday was like a blur, how i tried to help myself in every way i thougt possible and didn’t do it at last. I want to get ill. Just like this,i hope the common cold would escalate into something more severe, to justify all the emotional pain, to give my family and friends a reason that they are more likely to accept. I want to go. I want to go. Please let me go while i can muster the courage. Please let me go when i am with family and pets. I want to go in …

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Wow

  February 6th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

I cannot believe how much emotional pain l have felt all this time. So intense, so much and alot of time along the years

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Yawwwwn…

  February 6th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Not suicide related

I’m sleepy and worn out. So worn out. Always worn out.

Yawn.

I wonder if mousy can go to heaven tommorow?

I guess not.

This world sucks.

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