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Desperate

  December 3rd, 2018 by morado123

In my dream, I wasn’t alone.

There was somebody watching my back.

Someone did love me there. They did not throw me away.

 

Am I that desperate for human connections? For love?

Why am I so ashamed to be alone at work, or at school?

Is my seemingly happy atmosphere hiding a deeper, lonely part of me?

 

Today, I found out that I just can’t throw away letters from my ex.

The reason is that the letters are the only proofs that I CAN be loved, that I’m not this solitary creature that exists without love from others.

 

Perhaps I have a toxic personality, though I can’t see how being quiet can be …

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My body.

  December 3rd, 2018 by strawberrycrown

I’m sure there are many people out there that are in the same boat as I am to a certain degree, but for me what I think about myself and my body are true. Every day I look in the mirror and see a fat, ugly and worthless person staring back at me. I want so so much to become skinnier and to actually change but I can’t do it. I can’t commit to anything and it is really affecting me negatively. I study VCE health and am taught that a factor of mental health and wellbeing is positive self esteem. I have every right …

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  December 3rd, 2018 by Clayton Michaels

You are screaming and I can’t hear you.

I am screaming and you can’t hear me;

One person in a sea of 8 billion.

Live alone and love your T.V.

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The Coward’s Way Out

  December 3rd, 2018 by Clayton Michaels

A man with no legs must learn how to crawl instead of just thinking about ending it all.

A man who can’t see is not always blind, but that doesn’t make some things less hard to find.

I’ve never been able to go with the flow, I know lots of things, but not what they know;

They seem to succeed without even trying.

My efforts just leave me feeling like dying,

but after taking everything into account,

I’m not a proponent of the cowards way out.

 

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  December 3rd, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

what more do I have to say

these are just the pathetic lamentations of a weak coward who let himself be destroyed

I wasn’t strong enough to hold on to meet you. I’m sorry. I can’t ever atone for that

I could’ve made you happy. But I was too scared.

what right do I have to complain

fuck it. to hell with friends, forget lovers. I made my choice. guess I’m riding this one solo.

I want to be that stoical, cold boy with no emotions I was so long ago. I’ve never known how to be anyone else. I could never let you in. Maybe I was just protecting you. …

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what would it take

  December 2nd, 2018 by seemokay

what would it take for me to just kill myself am I just not strong enough to do it myself. Seems like I rather have someone else do it for me. I don’t want to feel my own pain. I rather feel it when I least expect it . But I don’t think I’ll ever have the courage to do it myself. I need someone who will feel my pain & save me by ending my life.

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Selfish.

  December 2nd, 2018 by AKidWithAName

I’m so confused.  I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.  I don’t know where I stand with anyone anymore.  I keep fucking everything up for everyone.  My brain’s so fucked and I don’t know why.  Maybe I do.  I don’t know.  I don’t know if my parents actually care about me.

They used to beat the shit out of me.  They don’t seem to really remember that.  I don’t think they understood just how bad they hurt me when they did what they did.  I’m sure they’d think I was a ***** if I ever told them that “they hurt my feelings”, which sounds so …

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High Hopes

  December 2nd, 2018 by BehindDeadEyes

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very pointless rant

  December 2nd, 2018 by Mouse

*Not suicide related.

Ok, I’ll go play that online game… oops, I can’t, the server contains at least one stupid admin, which sours the server experience too much for me.
Ok, I’ll go play that online game… oops, I can’t, personal reasons.
Ok, I’ll go play that DOS game online, oops, nobody plays it online!
Ok, I’ll go play WoW, oops, I find this game too boring nowadays, and it reminds me of real life in a way… chasing the carrot to be the best, to be successful, oh whatever this means! (plus my lappy is too old I’d be lucky to get 5fps xD)
Ok, I’ll play with brown …

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My Life Cannot Be Salvaged

  December 2nd, 2018 by deathisnear

I am an irreparably broken person. The residual psychological effects of my traumatic upbringing will never fully subside. Every time I go out in public, my anxieties intensify because I feel like I am being judged by everyone around me. Every rejection I receive, whether subtle or overt, reinforces my feelings of inferiority and worthlessness that were mercilessly drilled into me during my critical formative years. Even though I am no longer subjected to the constant verbal and physical abuse that I received between 6th and 12th grade, I continue to suffer everyday and don’t think I will ever be able to crawl myself out …

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44 more long days

  December 2nd, 2018 by jr.

😛

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Rant about my birth (please DO NOT READ if you have children)

  December 2nd, 2018 by AXYZ

If you have children PLEASE DO NOT READ

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m serious, this is going to get nasty

 

 

And I’ll delete it soon enough

 

 

 

This is not directed at anyone but my OWN fucking parents

 

 

I just have to shout this somewhere otherwise I’ll jump off the interstate overpass I fucking swear

 

 

 

 

 

extra spaces & gibberish so the preview doesn’t show up on the main page

 

 

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Here goes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

People with mental disorders should NEVER, NEVER by any stretch of anyone’s diseased, selfish imagination, NEVER have children. Ok? Fucking genetic Typhoid Marys passing your shit …

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When we reach it, Scammer? I’ve been promised to be addicted, to be death. This made you and perpetrators due suffering.

  December 2nd, 2018 by Yikrens

I really don’t like it. The progress in getting to know much Substances I’ve reached a kinda weird point.

First off, all the Dealer delivers me is something else but still potent. It is not the first try to get me addicted to something. A bit hilliarious that by this huge Methamphetamine and some MDA plus 2C-B I’m now without sleep the 3rd Day.

Why do I follow this?

Look, as I want truly with no Imaginary or Religious PoV of what will show when you’re gone. I don’t really am Interested into.

Anything I can take will make me weaker, lighter and more fragile.

But I am not brave …

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Just Why

  December 1st, 2018 by Todamnbad

My heart is beating and I have a pulse

But I don’t feel alive

I have thoughts and feelings

But I don’t feel alive

Nobody cares about me

That’s why I want to die

 

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Alone, my own worst enemy

  December 1st, 2018 by heartlessviking

This is my story, abridged, but I just need to get it out. I don’t know if it will help me, or anyone.

I’m an only child. Maybe that doesn’t matter. The thing is there were no brothers and sisters, no one ever approached me in my parents eyes. I didn’t understand other children. There was some sort of commonality that they had, I didn’t.

So there was always reading, I wanted to be understood but at least I could understand others. Slowly but surely I would figure out other humans, but I never figured out how to be like them.

Anyway, I learned to function. My parents …

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Today I was more afraid of living than I was of dying.

  December 1st, 2018 by indigo rain

I’ve been procrastinating school responsibilities lately and my externship starts next semester. I’m absolutely petrified. One of my professors said, “If you don’t believe in yourself, no one is going to believe in you.” This keeps creeping into my mind. I don’t believe in myself. I’m not stupid. I’m a good test taker, but when it comes to interacting with people, I feel like I don’t connect. What if I freeze? What if I say something stupid? What if I cry? Suicide has increasingly been on my mind due to these thoughts, among others. When I was in high school (I’m 23 now) I …

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Social Isolation and debilitating depression

  December 1st, 2018 by Black Holez

My social isolation is so severe that I don’t have any close friends I can confide with and just stay at the house all day and mope in bed. I’m basically a recluse who does nothing with his life. The only time I get out of bed and go outside is when I fetch my girlfriend when her school is finished or go eat outside. I wonder how many are in the same boat as me. Is anybody else suffering from a debilitating depression as severe as this?

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can’t even play an online game!!!

  December 1st, 2018 by Mouse

I’m bad at an online game, so what?
Stupid admin told me that I play there just to lag the whole server (I live far away from the server) and I’m a shitty player and my machine (computer) is shit. Seriously I just want to play for fun. I can’t without some FUCKTARD making comments.
FUCK YOU!!!

Sorry if my comment seems hateful, this is a rant and I’m frankly extremely tired of stuff like this.

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Living without peace and quiet

  December 1st, 2018 by NeverKnown

I’m *VERY* behind in my schoolwork. This *should* be my last real week of university, and I *should* graduate the week after next, but I’m so behind in my capstone that I feel like I’m going to lose it. My mom is fucking insane. She rambles on like a neurotic, won’t leave me alone, is incredibly verbally abusive, and I don’t have anywhere or anyway to go. And she *KNOWS* the pressure I’m under, but she won’t leave me the fuck alone. She knows I even had to take 2-3 weeks off from work just to be able to almost have enough time to work. …

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  December 1st, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Are you your own enemy or do you have others outside yourself?
Why do people have to be so cold?

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