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Burden

  February 6th, 2019 by Badbrainz

When I was working my siblings mooched off me even tho thry both were out of school and were fully capable of getting a job, for years i provided for them and helped instruct them in getting a job. Now that im disabled they treat me like a burden and refuse to even provide me a meal. Fuck this

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blues of my soul

  February 5th, 2019 by Yazmina

hello, again.
Today is blue, i..’m feeling blue.
i’m getting closer to the day everything will collapse…
i’m an illustrator and i’m more into painting these days… anyways.
Someone asked me today…what happened with my degree…BOY did i almost broke down, i was able to hold on to me a bit more…. just… you know? I live in México, a not so bad city in México, it’s true that we got corruption everyday, everywhere, it’s HORRIBLE, i… want to cry right now……. but i’m trying not to. you see… i worked on my thesis for almost 3 years, i gave my everything and more, the principal finally gave …

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Plutz

  February 5th, 2019 by Atintofgreen

Hey! What adventures have you been up to?

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Rivets?

  February 5th, 2019 by mysteriousvisitor

Hello old internet friends!

Rivets still around? He was the original reason I joined & I tried to say goodbye a couple of times before leaving.

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I HAVE to end my life soon

  February 5th, 2019 by ivebeenhereb4

I have been on this site off and on for nearly a decade. I’m tired of being permasuicideal. I know in the next 18 months I’m going to finally blow my head off my shoulders. I’m so sick of explaining my situation under different screennames I’m not going to detail my situation. I’m just screaming here so I dont cut myself. I hate all of the anxiety I face I hate being too ugly for a woman in the most promiscuous era of human history. I’m fractured im old and I’m fucking tired of everything.

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  February 5th, 2019 by Gary

is it worth it

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My plan

  February 5th, 2019 by Hoody

No methods related. I will pick a date on this post, try to live as normal as possible before it comes, and when it comes, we will see. Based on the sechdule of next semester, i will probably feel most suicidal in May, or June. If everything goes smoothly, i will be getting a certificate and be free from school in July. On May 15, i will see how things are going on, and make a decision on wether to delay it or do it.

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Sixty More Years Alone

  February 4th, 2019 by LiquidHuman

I promised someone I wouldn’t kill myself.
I was a beautifully poetic moment and all. He gave me some good points as to why I shouldn’t off myself. I might have cried a little. We both got closer to each other because of it. And maybe it does make me feel a little better about myself. But looking back in it, I kinda wish I didn’t make that promise. Because now I have to commit to staying alive.
The truth is, I’d rather not be here. I rather not slog through this earth any longer than I have to. Not too long ago I looked up the …

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Let’s run away together

  February 4th, 2019 by They Call Me Amy

Hello everyone. I relapsed and I am ashamed of it. I ended up walking alone at night and had this urge to just run away. Do you guys also have this feeling that you don’t which place is the right one for you? So you just want to run as fast as you could until you can’t feel your legs anymore?

I really lost touch with myself this last year, which was one of the hardest ones in my life. I am looking for myself and my purpose but sometimes it seems like I’ll never find it unless I run away to this unknown place

 

 

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Detox

  February 4th, 2019 by PatheticMale

So today I started my detox from over 2 years of daily smoking weed. Even this first day was (still is but Im over the worst today I think…) horrible. When I came home I was just doing nothing for hours but thinking whether I should relapse or not. At one point I even loaded my bong but I ended up resisting and not taking the hit.

My goal is to be able to last a week at least but I keep asking myself what is the point of it when after a week I will just return to my old habits again… I really dont know if …

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  February 4th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

Feeling like the end is near

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Things don’t change

  February 4th, 2019 by arielblaze

It has been 6 years since I came to this site for the first time and post something about me and my suicidal thoughts, and that sort of thing. It has been 6 years, and there were times I passed long periods without even thinking of writing anything here, because it became senseless, but generally, I never managed to stop returning to this site again and again, as I didn’t managed to stop to thinking about death and suicide. It is just not possible, when you look at the real things in their most naked sight, to don’t feel that wish to just die. And …

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I don’t know who i am anymore

  February 4th, 2019 by careforme

life has been so hard for me lately with losing my baby and dealing with work and home life is just stressful i try and stay positive for my sisters to show them i’m okay but deep down i just want to take a knife and end my misery but ive raised my two sisters since i was 10 ive watched them grow up i held them when they were sick or cried over a scraped knee i always bath them make sure they eat always having them dressed warm so they dont get cold i do everything a mother is to do for her …

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I’m fucking crazy

  February 4th, 2019 by shatterediris

things are not right, and I know it

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Life

  February 4th, 2019 by Two-Faced

https://youtu.be/cjVQ36NhbMk

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Despise

  February 4th, 2019 by morado123

Self-hate has always been pervasive in my mind.

Yet, it has become stronger lately.

I hate me.

I hope I’m dead.

I hope someone punish me for being me.

Kill me.

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I should get going

  February 4th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

My ex broke up with his new girlfriend today. I can’t believe what he was saying about her. He said that she didn’t appreciate him and that she didn’t have her life in order (newsflash: neither does he!) He didn’t think a great deal of her. He was like, screw her. He told me that. They had only been together for 6 months.

I am starting to fear that my ex is a sociopath. Because literally he was talking about how great he was and how she wasn’t that good.

He told me that he didn’t want to hurt me again by saying he wanted me. Because …

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Opening the last door

  February 4th, 2019 by Nothing92

This post is to serve as my introduction to the Suicide Project as well as a kind of flippant virtual testament.

Had I been told one year before that I would be deeply suicidal and humbled beyond all conceivable limits, I would have laughed.

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The Final Light

  February 4th, 2019 by xRocketroxasx

I’ve been reading quietly on here for a while. I figure that’s how most people introduce themselves here on this site. I’ve been holding on too for a long time, longer than I care to admit, but the thing that has kept me here is finally over. No reasons to stay now. That final piece of light has finally been snuffed out, and I don’t know how long I’ll last without anything to light my way.

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