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  April 6th, 2019 by lovewhateverr

5 April 2019 11:23pm-12:01am

I just don’t know anymore. I’m not sure of anything in my life and I can’t trust anyone around me. I still can’t believe that you’re gone, I see you every single day and I don’t know whether that’s worse than not seeing you at all. I’m trying so damn hard to make it every day, and without you, I’m so lost all the time. It’s so awkward to hang out with our friends because they’re still friends with both of us. I know that I can’t keep lingering on this, its been 3 months, but did 2 years really mean nothing?

You knew [...]
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the loneliest feeling

  April 5th, 2019 by eviewiththebpd

i’ve been living alone for a few months in an entirely new place, away from my friends and family, but the loneliest i’ve ever felt is while sitting on the bathroom floor, sticking my finger down my throat.


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  April 5th, 2019 by GodLike

I feel deepressed and l wanna die. What’s the purpose of life?


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It never gets better

  April 5th, 2019 by koolkat19

I should have killed myself when I was 18. I’m not good at anything. I hate this world. I hate myself. Nothing good ever happens to me. I can never connect with anyone on any type of level. I go around handicapped by my hatred of living. I have lived my life and nothing has came of it. There’s nothing remarkable about me and I only ever bring my mom disappointment and distress.


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The Giver

  April 5th, 2019 by Once

Rosemary requested release, and the memories returned to the people. . .

Hmmm.

So I wonder what exactly is going through Jonas’s mind, knowing that.

No spoilers. Still reading. Good story.


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Imagine

  April 5th, 2019 by GodLike

If life sucks so much why can’t we change it when we want, the way we want or maybe we should die without having to kill ourselves. Maybe in the future technology will allow us to make our dream lives a reality.
I can hardly stay in my bed. I see so much injustice that l feel like ripping the heads off the ones who do these unfair things


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So Very Tired.

  April 5th, 2019 by rivets

Other people are exhausting. Having to deal with bills and corporations is exhausting. Having to deal with government agencies is exhausting. Having to talk to people is exhausting. Typing is exhausting. Thinking is exhausting. Countering stilted points other people make, that they know are stilted and yet still make them, is exhausting. Having to smile and act friendly despite all of this is exhausting. Can I just go to sleep for a couple of days and not have anyone bother me? On second thought, that sounds exhausting. I think I’m turning into the Sloth Demon from Dragon Age. I’d fight you about it, but I’m [...]
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Bipolar 2?

  April 5th, 2019 by Daisy_rosieismyrealname

Honestly think I’m Bipolar. The past few weeks I’ve struggled to get out of bed, go to school or function. I tried to take my life and my only regret was that it didn’t work. Today, besides the annoying spots of irritability when I take my irrational anger out on friends and family, I feel great. How could I ever feel like that? It feels like weeks ago when it was less that 48 hours ago when I considered jumping in front of a car.

Besides having to pick up all the pieces from my non-functional days, I feel like I have so much to live [...]
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So many of us………….. But all alone

  April 5th, 2019 by tired123

I see so many people on here that have the same thoughts and same feelings as i do. It’s funny i feel so completely alone, like nobody can understand my feelings of depression….. Nobody can understand the push in my mind to end my life. The hole i feel in my soul… Then I come on here and I see all of you having the same thoughts and feelings. I honestly dont know if it makes me feel better or if it makes me think things will never get better. I have had an exit plan for years but i dont do it for my [...]
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“have you been taking your meds?”

  April 4th, 2019 by spookichick

i just finished a lengthy text message tirade with my cousin, and she is a force to be reckoned with. without getting into too many details, she attempted to put me into the “mentally ill box”, in an effort to win the argument that we were having. in the past, i have always caved; questioned my sanity. this time was different in that i fought back, and will continue to do so until the issue is resolved. i was wondering if anyone can relate to people using your diagnosis as a weapon against you.


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Thoughts.

  April 4th, 2019 by anonymous7777

Every single day, a thought of me committing suicide or me simply not being here.. crosses my mind.

I want to obtain happiness within, but the darkness/sadness wins every time. It’s hard to walk up a very steep hill with 20tons on your back.

My thoughts are always with me, I cannot escape them.

my thoughts hurt me. actions hurt me. everything hurts.


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Not Important.

  April 4th, 2019 by anonymous7777

I am currently a senior in high school. As the time went on throughout my high school years, I slowly started to gather information and reasoning on why I don’t need to be here anymore. I don’t feel important and there have been so many incidences where I was not remembered by the people I thought would. My “friends” all worry about each other, but when it comes to me I am nothing nor a thought. I have a multitude of stress at home to go along with my sadness and it just becomes too overwhelming. I also have work that kicks me while I’m [...]
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Me

  April 4th, 2019 by GodLike

I feel lonely, l have no friends. I don’t have a job. I’m 29 years old. I live with my mother and her mom. We don’t have great relationships, quite the contrary. I’m taking psychiatric pills. I took them for 10 years. I had many bad moments. I live in east Europe.


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Broke and Behind

  April 4th, 2019 by SuicideOverAgony

I don’t know if I should go to a hospital and check myself in or not but I stay up all night and sit In my room thinking about life and what I want to do. I get suicidal thoughts evrynight and It hurts because I’m not where I want to be, I don’t have a girlfriend or a freind to help me through this. I’m broke and behind. I have no one, I know no one. I really want to start my online business, get my diploma, drivers license then go on to college. But I can’t do anything without this thoughts torturing me. [...]
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  April 4th, 2019 by a falling star

i sit in the darkness of my room whilst my favorite playlist is playing. it’s 2 pm in the morning, i’m awake staring out into the distance and at the night sky. thoughts are flying through my head, the voices are screaming, i am silent. i wish upon a falling star to disappear. i think of the peace i would feel if that would happen, i pray for it. i wish i could stay in this moment forever, i don’t want the sun to rise… i am such a mess

“whatever happens, know that i will love you forever and be on your side no matter [...]
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  April 4th, 2019 by GodLike

I’m thinking if l should do it, l lean towards it


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hate this version of myself

  April 4th, 2019 by eviewiththebpd

i don’t know what to do. i haven’t told anybody. i’ve been starving, and purging what i do eat. i’ve struggled with disordered eating for 7 years, but it’s been a while since i starved for an extended period of time.
i hate doing this, because it reminds me of my year 8 self, who called girls horrible names and thought you were nothing if you weren’t thin. but a switch flipped in my brain the other day and i realised that one of the main reasons i can’t enjoy anything sexual is because i find myself repulsive.
i’m used to trying not to eat, [...]
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vent

  April 4th, 2019 by chiliandlime

does anyone else feel hungry, but have no real desire to eat? like you have to force yourself?

i woke up today and put on my favorite jeans and they’re baggy. they slip down my hips and i lost my belt.

i’m hungry and it hurts, but i don’t want it. i’m dirty but i don’t want to shower. i’m so tired. so, so exhausted.


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Give up

  April 4th, 2019 by usefulpaperclip

I just want to give up. I went from not wanting to kill myself and just wanting to die, then I wanted to kill my self, then I went back to just wanting to die. Now, I think I may want to go back to killing myself. I’ve also started thinking about starving myself again.

 

P.s. this is my first post

p.p.s my kik is usefulpaperclip if anyone wants to talk

 


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  April 3rd, 2019 by GodLike

I kinda want to kill myself but not really sure. Maybe if l had the dream life l don’t know if l would wanna die.


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