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urges

April 13th, 2018by spectralgiraffe

to kill myself.
my life will never get better. me and mum have been controlled by my dad.. her for years. in my case, pretty much my whole life. I’m too weak and drained. I need it to be over. The controlling mostly comes in the form on not being allowed outside unless he is watching me and/or her. This includes even A STEP outside the front door. we are not allowed to go anywhere.
life is so pointless and always will be. I don’t even know what a life is and I’m 25 this year.
I feel I need to meet my online boyfriend, but then again …

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I don’t know why I cried

April 13th, 2018by J Doe

I just got off the phone with my mom. I’ve been meaning to tell her that I haven’t been keeping up with my medication and that I’m not doing too well. I told her and she explained some things and I agreed with them. She said that I’m not doing to well for a number of reasons. I can’t really put them into words, but I understand them. Then I started to cry. I told her that I love her and the I want to see her and my dad and my brother. I told her that I …

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friday the 13th

April 13th, 2018by iamdarling

hey. today is friday the 13th. but, it doesn’t make much of a difference, since all days of life for me hold a significant amount of bad luck and misfortune.

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Obsessed to be something else?

April 13th, 2018by Leafa0910

Hi… So… Uh… Well, maybe it’s not really related to suicide at all but… Have any of you ever, like, unconsciously forcing yourself to be sad? To be hated? To be… You know. Kind of suicidal? Cause I surely have. I guess.

Oh boi. How do I even start this. I don’t really know exactly when did this starts but… I mean, I’m not depressed or anything like that! Seriously, I’m normal and healthy af. But for some reason, lately I’ve been trying hard to hurt myself, I’ve been trying to suck all the negative emotion inside me, I’ve been trying to make …

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April 13th, 2018by Hulk

Do what you want but face the consequence
I am a savage in a civilized by force world

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What to say to someone…

April 13th, 2018by Lawli

when they say they want to die, they are literally depressed all the time and have been for a very long time, things just get worse for them and they are talking to me about it but I don’t know what to say? Right now I am only in the position to talk to them through social media as well…

I feel like I don’t have much time

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HDS with a chance of…

April 12th, 2018by Hazy Day Sunflower

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– – –

April 12th, 2018by whiskered-fish

Today I learned that my psychiatrist diagnosed me with schizophrenia last month. He didn’t even tell me. I found out this morning, through my therapist.

I want to get a second opinion, because doctors aren’t infallible, and I’ve been misdiagnosed before. But if the diagnosis really is accurate, then I guess y’all can serve me a big fat pie of “I told you so.”

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HDS with a chance of spring

April 12th, 2018by Hazy Day Sunflower

Better version

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FML

April 12th, 2018by fakingit

Got fired from my new job in less then two weeks that’s a new record for me. All my medication is failing again and it hurts to get out of bed and I’m trying so hard to eat. Back downhill I go…

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favourite foods!

April 12th, 2018by spookichick

hi!

i am interested in people’s favourite food! it can be ANYTHING.

mine is cheese enchiladas.

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deleting later

April 12th, 2018by iamdarling

i just finished carrying out one of my ocd compulsions, and for some reason it just doesn’t feel right. this is one of my compulsions that takes quite a lot of time to complete, so i’m not going to redo it. i’m trying to tell myself ‘it’s okay, we’ve finished it, there’s no need for us to feel like this.’ i don’t know if it’s working, but it’s better than reinforcing any negative thoughts.

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The Fear of The Nonexistent

April 12th, 2018by Diver

Anxiety is fucking awful, you probably all know that. It’s constantly consuming me and forcing me to stress over every tiny thing, but I’m not motivated enough to actually act on any of these fears. “Worrying about work due in the next day that you haven’t done yet? Never mind, it’ll only make you more miserable.” I can’t go on like this- it’s killing me.

Every second, every minute, every day, my guts twist and ache inside me, even when there isn’t anything wrong. There’s an endless, nagging terror of:

“If things seem to be going well, then something’s got to go wrong soon.”

And so I wait, …

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More motivated…..

April 12th, 2018by Urm8451n

My heart is on the floor around, and the sickness that has haunted me all my life, is taking a human form.

She [the sickness/disease ]  is crawling to my knees to keep it’s weight on me, she doesn’t want me to move forward. At this time all I can make, is thoughts.

At times like these I like to gather my self into a greater form. I like to heal the wounds by giving them reasons and justifications – I’m walking alone, but I’m the one who is paving the path. Healing the woulds is something to be done with mind only.

But….

but the wounds keep coming …

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Controlling my emotions

April 12th, 2018by onlyoption

I have borderline personality disorder, and I’m fighting a mood swing, I don’t want my new bf to witness me losing my shit. he knows about my BDP and weve been friends and housemates for over a year so he’s seen my mood swings before, but he dosent like them, he tolerates them. My Uni coursework is getting to me, and exams are 2 weeks away. I don’t know how to find an outlet for my anger and sadness. my Boxing club has been terminated and I cant run as typical British weather is being horrendous. I’m also changing hormone tablets so have to avoid …

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Terrified For My Life

April 12th, 2018by GerbzBaby

Last night was the most goddamn frightening experience I had ever lived through. I had an older man approach me at a gas station late at night near my friends house.

Before he approached me he was looking at me through my car front windshield which I thought was weird but I dismissed it because sometimes I’m guilty of doing that too on accident. At first I thought he was walking around to the other side of his car and at this time I was looking down at my phone trying to find my mothers contact to ask her a question. I glanced up for a …

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What would a world be like if

April 12th, 2018by eternaldarkness

…everyone who wanted to end their lives could? Like a peaceful pill could be granted to anyone who really wanted to end it all?

-there would be so many fewer unwanted pregnancies

-there would be SO much less pain-
–no more pain from the elderly suffering and slooowly dying in agony,
–no more pain from those forever tortured from childhood,
–no more pain from those who can never attain happiness
–no more pain from those who are just so sick and tired of life or struggling

-Life would be more joyous for the living- no more debbie downers and depressives like us to drag anyone down.
-Planet Earth …

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Just a Little Background, I Guess

April 12th, 2018by Wixx

I’ve never posted here before, or ever really posted anything about my feelings publicly before. I never learned to properly express my emotions, either. I think that has led to me having a lot of things bottled up inside me. My childhood wasn’t great, so I have a lot of feelings built up about that. I ended up having to act like an adult before I got the chance to really have a childhood. I think that’s really taken a toll on me. I may end up posting here more. It can never hurt to try another way of coping.

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April 11th, 2018by thehusk

I can’t keep anything straight in my mind for more than a few hours. I don’t want to die. But I don’t know how to live with myself. It’s been over 10 years now, and I’ve only made it worse. It’s like this festering wound that I made in my mind, and I can’t stop picking at it. And every time I do I dig it a little deeper.

But scratching it is the only thing that really feels good anymore. Resisting it just leaves me feeling utterly empty. Resisting it means acknowledging the reality, and I don’t know how to do that. Because the reality …

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Finding And Knowing Myself

April 11th, 2018by Todamnbad

I come to realize how fake of a human being i actually am. I hide my depression, pretending to be happy. I think I’m at a point where money couldn’t make me happy, not because i don’t have any, but because money can’t solve my problems. I ust find ways to cope and take my problems head on. I always try strengthen my weaknesses. If i’m bad at something, I try making myself better at it which is a good thing because practice makes perfect. I came to a point in life, where words don’t hurt anymore. I have reached my lowest low, which means …

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