March 24th, 2017by Forevertorn
Does being beautiful has anything to do with self love ? If you absolutely hate yourself and know inside your thrice as ugly as you are pretty outside. Can it make a difference ? A different face outside with a burnt face of a demon inside always looking disgusted of herself. If we were exactly how we looked from the outside life would be much simpler and better. There is a shadow in me and she is a secret she speaks very pathetic things in my ears and has a coal like face she never forgets to remind me how worthless everyone believes Iam. That …
March 24th, 2017by Kur0-Nek0
January the 28th. That’s when I did my first suicide attempt, but I sadly enough failed that day.
Well, I tried it again yesterday. This time by overdosing myself. I just took a bunch of pills with the hope that I would die. I threw some of them up, but just took some extra pills afterwards. Right now I feel really awful; my stomach feels warm, my heart hurts, I feel dizzy and a lot more.. It really sucks that my suicide attempt failed.
I really am a failure..
March 24th, 2017by braiNsane
I want to make a difference, a positive one… You know, for once in my life.
I think I may look into doing volunteer work. I’d also like to make a difference through art, I’m not sure I can actually do that part, but I’d like to.
I just want to start being the person I know I can be. I want to throw all the shit off of me that’s been piling up for so long. I want to stop having a negative impact on all that I touch/do.
If I can’t do any of this, then I don’t know why I’m even here.
March 24th, 2017by tphg
You know I don’t believe in you, but I’m asking you to throw me a bone. In your own special way, you’ve given me everything I’ve asked for, so I hope you’re willing to spare some more fairy dust for me. I’m just not sure exactly what to ask for. It’s all to do with women. Everything else, I have a handle on, but you know that I’m a completely fool around women. I don’t know what to do. I think I want a partner, I get a partner, but then regret it immediately. What’s wrong with me? Why am I incapable of being close …
March 24th, 2017by LittleBead
The more I work the more stressed I am. I’m crying so much because I can’t stand this pressure anymore. They want me to do this and that and I just can’t. My self-esteem and self-confidence are so low that they crawl. I can’t stand this pressure, I can’t. I can’t work anymore in this field. I’m just too stressed, how am I supposed to function if, every time I do something, I feel that I have failed? I’m crying now and I can’t stop these tears. I don’t know what I should do. I’m not functional. I’m screwed. I wish so much I could …
March 24th, 2017by mindlessgamer619
No matter what I do or don’t do, by the time my parents come home, it’s the same thing every single day:
1. wake up to do early morning chores at like 6-7 in the morning, or wake up early to forcefully go with my mother to deal with some kind of errand for her or my dad.
2. Usually winds up taking a few hours, so I may not even make it back home before 12 pm at times.
3. Shitty online college I was forced into. I try to give it a couple hours, but they want me to put in like all of my friggin …
March 24th, 2017by wanted85
I’ve been trying to be ok for so long. On the outside I make you all laugh at my random behavior, because that’s who I am, completely random and totally insane, not for any reason other than by making others smile it makes me not hate myself for a few seconds. But truth be told i hate me, I hate me so much. I just see no point in continuing in this life. There is nothing in this world that gives me hope. I drink, I drink so much so I don’t feel, I don’t think, I don’t care.
Do I have friends? Yes and I …
March 24th, 2017by butterfly75
I’m only 17, and I developed these hearing issues all of a sudden, which doctors cannot cure, about a year ago. I already had these emotional problems (anxiety, depression etc.) and now this? My anxiety has gotten so severe I never feel calm. I really tried to have hope in the beginning but how can you when you’re having constant panic attacks? I can’t sleep at night. I decided not to go to college (I don’t think I could go through it.) I’ve stopped talking to my (very few) friends. My poor parents try to help me but I can’t tell my therapist my plans because …
March 24th, 2017by foxinthesnow
I keep in my heart our bond always.
I stopped being spiritual a long time ago. I became logical.
I feel so bad for my dogs, they don’t deserve to be dealing with this toxic place.
I love them so, so much.
Why did the bad people have to come and make our lives even worser than it already were?
There’s only one answer. I was never meant to be here. I was not meant for anything good, and anyone close to me, will be hurt by the bad people as well. Like my son, innocent in this. Like my mom, selfless. Like my dogs, helpless.
I wish …
March 23rd, 2017by J Doe
Hello. So it’s been a while since I’ve posted. Almost 2 weeks. Some things have happened since then. Went to Minnesota to visit my uncle. Adolescent Psychiatrist. Gave me some tips in what to look for. Told him things I’ve never told another person. Felt odd. I haven’t been on in a while. Don’t know if it’s because I don’t need this place (for now) or because I just forgot. I really don’t know what these pills are doing to me. I’ve stopped thinking about death. Is it because of my break …
March 23rd, 2017by babypanda
Why do I have trouble communicating? Why can’t I be normal? Why do I have to have stupid ass issues and a constant need to self deprecate? Why am I still here?
A constant stream of why’s are always running through my head at breakneck speed, when will I have answers? When will I finally fix myself?
Fuck all this.