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I

  October 6th, 2018 by jr.

“I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can’t stand it any longer”

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  October 6th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Someone asked me if l could destroy the world, would l do it? I think yes, what about you?

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Pain pain pain

  October 6th, 2018 by LittleBead

No, stop. Stop. Stop. Pain. Pain. Pain. Why… Why. And again. And again. Pain. Please stop. Hurting. So much. Stop. Pain. Hurts. So much. Too much.

 

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close call, relived but also not relived

  October 6th, 2018 by frog

i was about to write about my potential suicide and back story but after about three sentences i got disturbed. i already collected the photos and notes i wanted to take with me but after a lot of conversation I lost my “mood” and now i don’t know what to do with my self. i was in a way exited to be relived of my pain.

I’ve been considering suicide for a long time now. at least once a week id think about it and its pros v.s. cons and sometimes every day and night for many weeks at a time and here is my summary:

pros:

you’ll …

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  October 6th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Note to self: When l will unleash the beast from within me l suggest yall to take cover.

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I like being close-minded, thank you very much.

  October 6th, 2018 by JustSomeGuy4455

I like being close-minded. I love caring about myself first before anybody else because I know they’re just going to backstab me when they’re through.

For far too long, I have allowed others to manipulate and hurt me into being “open-minded,” to tell me that I’m wrong for putting my own personal needs before the needs of the rest. I’ve been used and abused for allowing people to tell that I’m wrong for going with my gut instincts more than the pack instinct. “Open-mindedness” has damaged me to the point where I can barely manage to sleep at night.

Close-mindedness allows me to take better care of myself …

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The sole thing that can console me wholly

  October 6th, 2018 by morado123

I’ve loved music since I was very young. Learning piano from such a young age allowed me to develop perfect pitch, and this ability has helped me a few times. I actually remixed some of the songs my friend liked and scored the music, enabling my friend to play her favorite music with our school orchestra.

My music ability is a gift. Yes, it’s useless unless it’s used for entertainment purposes, and frankly, I’m fine with using it for my happiness.

I can never make “new” songs. I cannot compose. Yet, I’m an excellent “copycat.” I can perfectly hear the notes of the music I hear and …

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Triggered

  October 6th, 2018 by milquetoast

Things seem to be getting worse as of late. I’m back to sleeping on the floor, and thoughts of suicide are constant. I can’t cope anymore. 

I just had a meltdown. My father sent me a friend request and it triggered extremely bad body memories and some bits and pieces of flashbacks. I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in weeks, and I’m back down to 0 days clean. My leg is stinging, it hurts terribly. But it’s distracting me for the moment. I like to press on the fresh cuts to make the pain worse, sometimes I scratch them until they open and …

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New relief.

  October 6th, 2018 by strawberrycrown

For anyone who has been reading my posts since I joined, would know that I, like many other people on this site, cut myself in desperate times. However, I haven’t in a couple months even when I wanted to. I realised that maybe it isn’t the best/only way to deal with problems and I hope other people can stop too. But the end of one addiction is the beginning of another one and unfortunately for my health, I’ve started smoking about 2 months ago and before that, did it probably once a week for a few months. Not a lot but still I’m doing it. …

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Today I cry.

  October 6th, 2018 by strawberrycrown

I always try

To never cry.

Nobody must see

The tears coming out of me.

On the inside

My emotions hide.

So nobody can see,

That today I cry.

 

Very few people in my life have seen me cry and I like to keep it that way. My friends think of me as always being happy and this has been true for a little while. However, someone new come into my life a couple weeks ago and really messed with my head the last few days. He made me feel worthless and question everything good in my life. It made me have other struggles with close friends which caused me to be so …

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there is no god

  October 6th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

 

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nothing left

  October 5th, 2018 by somesadgirl

I wake up and all I feel is darkness.
There’s no emotions left in me, my body is worn out and is fight it’s last sparks.
How do I explain it to people when they don’t understand or brush it off as nothing?
Would it create more problems than solutions?
Each day I wake up gets more and more hard to do anything. It’s pointless to find the meaning in things life have to offer or enjoying the “simple pleasures of life”. I’m at my last break, I’m quickly giving up and there’s not much left for me to do.

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P is for Pluto

  October 5th, 2018 by Atintofgreen

Hey! If you ever need a buddy let me know. We should meet up at Rabbit and watch a movie or better yet have a karaoke.

p.s the karaoke part was more of a joke, not the best singer here

Hope you’re doing well

-Atinto

 

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Waiting

  October 5th, 2018 by They Call Me Amy

Hello again everyone. Things have been pretty tough recently, I’ve been struggling to get out of bed, to eat, to talk to people. The impulses are strong. I’ve almost jumped off my window a couple months ago.

My parents are getting old and my dad is a little sick again. I feel bad for them because they have to live and put up with me and all my psychological issues. There is not a day where I wish I wasn’t born. I am turning 23 this month. I am not getting better.

I finally reached the point where there is no hope. And it’s not as dark …

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To thehusk

  October 5th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

Sufjan Stevens’ music really helps me feel better, for a time being. I know a few other people here have posted his songs before… I don’t know if it’ll help you, but your post reminded me of this song.

You know what, I killed a mouse once, after it got caught in an old mouse trap that failed to kill it. But he didn’t look all that pathetic or desperate. He looked angry and squeeked at me before I finished him off… Thinking about that little rat having the balls to hiss at me even while trapped, starved and with a broken spine lends a perspective …

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Time

  October 5th, 2018 by unknownsoldier

I find myself so busy I don’t have time for this site anymore… I guess that can be a good thing

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Is It Worth It?

  October 5th, 2018 by thehusk

Today I came across a dying rabbit while out walking. It had a deep wound at the back of it’s neck, presumably from where it had been bitten. My guess is that my approach had scared off whatever predator made the kill. It was just lying there, chest rising and falling as it breathed in and out, gazing up helplessly. I assume it was paralyzed. I’ve come across a fair number of animal corpses before, and live ones are everywhere this time of year, but I don’t think I’ve ever been that close to something that large while it was actually dying.

What struck me was …

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Meditation and Depression (my results)

  October 5th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

I use to meditate regularly but for five days I decided to meditate intensily trying to follow what I guy told in youtube he did.

He isolated himself from all and meditated 8 hours a day for 10 days. In the end he got rid of depression. My intention was that too.

For 5 days I restricted my contacts with external world in 90% but I couldnt meditate 8 hours a day because my body ached a lot when meditating in the same position. I could stand 30min each session of meditation in the beginning and one hour in …

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  October 5th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

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There was someone on here who posted Blue Moon by Elvis once…

It made me sad. You could tell they lost their soul mate and their life had become lame and mundane as a result. I pray for them sometimes, even though I don’t really believe in shit like that.

Looking back, I wish I could have shared the works of Virginia Woolf with them… She killed herself by drowning, making her death a badass metaphor about her love. I still wonder if they’re okay sometimes. I think they would’ve appreciated someone so relatable.

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What a day

  October 5th, 2018 by EmptyFuckUp

I have this friend who we go for coffee every now and then and we’re cool he tells me about his job and he works in general mental health so naturally he’s able to spot a lot about me. I was okay with that, he kinda got it without being too much for me.

Today we meet up and he’s being himself and getting me to talk even when I don’t want to and is analysising what I say but in a way that’s comforting. I don’t know it’s hard to explain we have an easy friendship he’s been through a lot too and gets why …

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