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  December 1st, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Are you your own enemy or do you have others outside yourself?
Why do people have to be so cold?

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Lost

  December 1st, 2018 by tiredofchronicpain

I have this strange habit of going outside to my parents’s car and just talk to myself. I do a vitriolic rant on life, and the day. “Carpe Diem” is what the haves say who don’t know better; as the day ahead is one more day to your grave. And another day to regret…

Today was my first day of work. We moved overseas and I got a 1 month waiter position that seemed promising to do and not too stressful. Little did I know. The idiot running the place, in charge of the whole place is 10 years younger than me, worked there for 4 …

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Trapped again

  December 1st, 2018 by Clayton Michaels

I’m surrounded by horrible people and I’m becoming a horrible person.  I’m tired of being abused and losing. I’m tired of trying only to fail.  I’m afraid of the future in my current state, afraid of death, hospitalization, and jail.

I don’t even remember what it’s like to be loved.  People hate me without ever getting to know me and they judge me based on the way I react when I fall into their traps.  I’m tired of being lied to and abused, called names and deliberately bullied.

It’s okay for everybody to mistreat and disrespect me, but when I get pushed over the edge they can …

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  December 1st, 2018 by Tellmewhy

I would destroy the universe or the world or just myself if l could
Im crying
I cant live like this anymore, l have to leave

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A wall still stands

  December 1st, 2018 by Clayton Michaels

My hands are beaten, broken, bleeding;

My fists are clenched

to tight to come apart.

My knuckles torn against this epitaph in stone;

The scars grow deeper

with the pounding of my heart.

 

A wall still stands

as my feelings for you

that are too strong

for me to overcome.

A wall still stands

as a memory of you

so I can’t again let myself love someone…

so I can’t again let myself trust someone…

So I can’t again let myself f*ck someone…

So I can’t again let myself come undone…

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Is this a love tragedy?

  December 1st, 2018 by Black Holez

I’m at a crossroads. If I’m going to lose it all, might as well go to a monastery and shut myself in instead of killing myself but I don’t want to lose my girlfriend for 13 years who has been with me all this time during the darkest stage in my life. My heart aches because my choice is on the extremes. I want to better myself but that entails losing in the end the one I love. I don’t want to lose her. I want to grow old and be together with her since I was faithful and had no other girl but her …

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I step out.. but my body keep trembling

  December 1st, 2018 by Itscolourlife

I step out today
I finally step out today !!
It feels really weird..

I sit in the foodcourt balcony
And i can see people below me
Eating laughing crying

But i feel weird
My body keep trembling on its own..
Its like a nervous feeling
But idk what exactly..
My heart feels like im riding a scary rollercoaster
Its beating fast

My head start to hurt a little bit
My stomach feels weird

What is this??
WHAT IS THIS??

It feels so wrong
I try to take a deep breath..
But it wont disappear..

What is this…
Does anyone who have depression ever feel like this too?

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People know…

  December 1st, 2018 by FreeButCaptive

Everybody knows that I’m depressed but they just make fun of me for it. Whenever I bring it up to my friends in a text message they just say “Poor You”. I can’t take it anymore. School sucks. Home sucks. Outside sucks.

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Since 2015

  November 30th, 2018 by Wotan

I have been a silent watcher and reader since 2015.

I first created an account when I spent a few months in Japan.

I have not been better since 3 years.

I am in so much pain, please help me.

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  November 30th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

How lonely are you and why?

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I want to Puke

  November 30th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

Kill me..
Love me..
Break me..
Kill me..

My head hurts..
My eyes cant focused..
I feel disgusted..
I want to puke..

Whats the reason?
Idk..
Its just..
I hate my life so much
I want to puke..

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“What is your dream..?” he asked

  November 30th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

When he ask me
” What is your dream..? ”
I keep silence

And he said
” I just want to live right now.. at least ”
I keep silence

And when I finally say my thought
I say..
” Nothing ”

The time keep going for him
But the time already stop for me

I really want to say this
To you..
To the world..

” I want to fly and die beautifully surrounding by flower petals ”

It will be an unreachable dream
And like a gift
For me..

To you..
To whose birthday is 2 Dec
I dont want to hurt you
For the sake of the first love you had for me

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“Neutering pets is evil”

  November 30th, 2018 by anonymousie

Me and my boyfriend share two cats. One is almost two years old, the other is probably almost a year. Neither of them are neutered. I’d like to get them neutered but since they’re my boyfriend’s cats as well as mine, he doesn’t want to get them neutered because it’s “evil” and I don’t think it’s worth a fight so I just let him be ignorant. He doesn’t listen to reason, I’ve tried to explain the benefits of neutering like a hundred times but he still insists that it’s evil. So basically I’m just here to rant about it a little.

I just don’t get what’s …

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I am “better” today

  November 30th, 2018 by PatheticMale

Yesterday I just had anxiety/nervous breakdown like never before. IDK why. I was just walking around the house anxious and suicidal for the whole afternoon and evening (when I came from fking school). Today I am better tho! I am back to my routine of going to school and then sleeping/lying in bed for the rest of the day. I am really just a useless piece of shit. The only people that care about me are my close family and I do nothing but make them worried about me and my future. I really just wanna seize to exist.

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  November 30th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Do you feel like people, the world is cold and doesn’t give a fuck about you?

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too messed up for myself, even…

  November 30th, 2018 by Mouse

*not really suicide related, just kind of!

My ex really isn’t a bad person, just a lost one and kind of like me in some ways.
I’ve pretty much chosen this suffering as I keep him in my life.
I can’t really relate to anyone else.
I even give him advice regarding the new girl he is dating. I sure love inflicting hurt on myself! Although I’m curious as well. I’m really all over the place. I told him yesterday some really horrible things (I hate your guts completely, for example)

I don’t have many friends and that is also part of my own choosing and as I said, I …

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the autumn of my life

  November 30th, 2018 by ebullientballoon

As a rule, I am sentimental to the point of neurosis.  Given as I am to swaying wildly from one emotional extreme to the other, when it comes to making permanent changes, (or changes I view as permanent) I stop in my tracks.  I freeze.  I let dilapidation surround me.  I orgiastically wreathe myself in ambivalence.  This has had the benefit of keeping me alive when I would’ve rather died, but it also has the deleterious effect of keeping me in a state in which a full, worthwhile life is impossible.  And so I begrudgingly trundle myself from one moment to the next, one impulse …

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Desperate for human contact

  November 30th, 2018 by Black Holez

Despite being around people, why do I long for the need if human contact and sense of belongingness?

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The shortest long summer

  November 30th, 2018 by bd2342f2

This felt like the shortest summer I’ve ever experienced, yet every day drags on for what feels like an eternity. Ever since the spring; the past evaporates because it’s empty and meaningless, while the present day grinds slowly on, ablating.

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Is it just me

  November 29th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Does anyone else feel like they have at least 20 snooty whores lurking at every corner?

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