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intermission: volume one

November 12th, 2017by lover

“the suicide project”. i don’t know what the initial intention was, but it pains me—reading the countless stories of tragedy shared here.

for me, personally, i use this website as an open diary. i chose this website in particular because of its privacy, yet constant activity—near instantaneous feedback. i don’t share everything—or much at all, for that matter—but i find solace in my melancholy, curating the bittersweet of my day-to-day mundanities into three hundred carefully-chosen words or less. i write because pain in the format of poetry has proven easier for me to swallow.

i hope my words evoke emotion—i hope i can manifest feeling within those …

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Good Morning SP

November 12th, 2017by rivets

This is a bunny singing gorillaz kind of morning.

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unbelievable

November 12th, 2017by lover

time flies. two months ago—maybe even two weeks—i never would have thought i’d be here. we texted for hours, your friends know who i am, you told me about your dreams and aspirations—you offered to make music together.

i think one of the things i love about you most is your passion. you have plans, you care. you have clear sight on the impact you want to make.

at two am, at two pm, it’s always you. i care about you so deeply—my heart is so, so open for you. i know you’ll never feel the same, but just having the chance to know what goes on …

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Online friends

November 12th, 2017by Number

Im just wondering how do i make online friends? Like penpals kinda thing

Im a nice person. I’m just not very nice to myself.. or people that i feel threatened by. Which could possibly be everyone i come into contact with during my day haha.

I just want people who i feel comfortable saying “im having an absolute shit day today, what are you up?” People who d ask questions and show interest

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A good dream

November 12th, 2017by Number

A good dream for me is one where I’m going to die. Not necessarily where im going to kill myself.

Obviously i cant continue a dream once im dead. But the theme is always the same. I have a way out

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Does anyone get this too?

November 12th, 2017by Number

I watch people dying in movies.. or in real life on the news etc.. and i feel.. envious. I think “lucky bastard”

I know this is horrible cause they dont want to be in this position. And knowing my luck i would probably feel the same if i ACTUALLY was in their position.

But i cant help it. I see them die. And i secretly wish i was them or i wish to trade places with them.

Does anyone else get this?

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No control

November 12th, 2017by Number

So it just occured to me that the situation at the moment that is causing me grief… i have absolutely no control over. They could go ahead and screw me over and it would be completely beyond my control.

So ive narrowed it down to just my thoughts. So i might as well drink to distract myself. To depress my thoughts. Lol not helpful i know 🙁

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I want to stop breathing

November 11th, 2017by ??????????

The mental health system is a joke, theres little help from the medication they force on me then do no more than that afterwards. I swear i was better off self medicating, the side affects are horrible. I feel fake, if anything they make me feel crazy like im controlling a character on a videogame. I cant even get real sleep, just short naps. Im treated like im on parole, if say the wrong thing its back to the mental hospital for me. Ive already given up, just waiting for the moment my death will be les of an inconvenience on my family.

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Unwanted

November 11th, 2017by TiredGenX

My cries of help have gone unanswered. Instead of hearing my pain, you choose only to see my flaws. You see me as weak, as ugly, as “less than.” I am not better than you. In fact, I am not even as good as you – and you let me know it. You tell anyone who will listen how bad you think I am. Now they think I’m bad, too.

And strangers – they see me as “ugly” and “unlikable” and “incompetent” just because of my face. Or bitchy. I get that, too. They don’t want my recommendations or my referrals. They see me as stupid and recruiters …

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Assisted Dying, Mentally Ill — Food for Thought

November 11th, 2017by Mark_1981

… “Misperceptions about mental illness lead some people to oppose extending the right to medically assisted death to people with mental illness. Many believe that psychological suffering is less onerous than physical suffering. Others maintain that mental illness impairs the rational, careful thinking required to provide informed consent. And because mental illnesses are rarely associated with imminent natural deaths, providing medical assistance in dying seems premature, and perhaps even heartless, to many. These impressions offer poor guidance in the debate.

McGill University philosopher Daniel Weinstock and others have noted that the moral case for medically assisted dying rests on two principles—respect for individual autonomy and compassion. …

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Pretend happy face – Husband not there.

November 11th, 2017by snowcold

I have been contemplating suicide for awhile now. I see a psychiatrist and I told him about my thoughts on thinking about doing it. I have depression as well, which just makes the cycle worse. He increased my anti depressants and I will see him soon.
My issue is with my husband. I opened up to him about how I am feeling, and he doesn’t get it. He says “you look and seem happy”, but I am not. I put on a good game face in respect for my 2 boys. I don’t want them to see their mom upset and moping around. I smile and …

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How to overcome the fear of suicide?

November 11th, 2017by Fuckyouall

I’m not asking you for any methods to be clear, I already know my method and as it is against the rules i will obviously not share this.
My problem is I have no room to play around, I’m not trying to make a suicidal gesture, I want to be dead on the first try but I can’t cope with the massive fear coming along with it. I am not depressed and I’ve tried to resolve my problems, I’ve talked to family and counselors, none of which helped because I’m in a truly unsolvable situation. I don’t want to die but I have to which makes …

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they ask me why i dont smile? do you?

November 11th, 2017by sadlife958

but I tell them that I am. see… oh wait that’s me smiling while thinking about everything. Do any of you smile like this?

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how on earth did my online friend find my comment?

November 11th, 2017by sadlife958

I have some online friends that I made from chats on YouTube live streams. And IDK how my online friend found my comment?  Could it be from my G+ account that’s attached to my gmail YouTube account+ IDK.  Anyways as you see my names Russ(Nick name) but I removed my last name and Sophie’s last name to.

THIS IS THE FULL COMMENT THAT I WROTE ONTHE VIDEO

“I came here because I am at the end of my line! to whoever is reading word of advice if things ever go bad out of nowhere in your life please don’t …

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ditch hop

November 11th, 2017by freeroma

I wish the sun meant more. Goodnight.

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Mediums

November 11th, 2017by lostallhope001

Those who don’t believe in an afterlife (me personally hope there is nothing after death, but I don’t know), what about mediums?

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#booze

November 11th, 2017by The Rising Sun

I feel alcohol helps me get through the bad times. Anybody else feel the same?

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Why can’t life just loosen its hold on me?

November 11th, 2017by kamidaka

My boss called me, she wants me back, she says she needs me because all the new people don’t make as much work as I do.

But I don’t need money. I’ll die next week. I panicked and told her I would do it. Of course, I can cancel anytime, but why did I accept? I’ll cancel now.

There’s no other option. I have to die. All of my failsafes are gone now. If they find out what I did they’ll keep me alive, but will torture me until I cannot longer think or speak. They’ll not allow me to kill myself, they’ll tie me up and …

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Should I stay or should I go?

November 11th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

So the story is as follows. I pay 4500$ to a sadistic mentally deficient nasty bald man who gave me a DUI when I was not driving drunk at all. Bottom line. AT ALL. I WAS NOT DRIVING. I am on probation for 2 years. I was planning to kill myself 5 years ago. But it kept falling through. I had gun to shoot myself some mentally deficient found it and gave it away to the stupid fucks that call themselves “cops.” Next thing I was going to do (a year later. I think it was a day after my 6 or 7 time being molested) is drive to a …

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How much do you eat?

November 11th, 2017by eternaldarkness

I guess most people eat 3 meals a day, but was just wondering how much do people really eat? Do you eat 3 big meals a day? 3 small meals? Eat 5 cuz no one’s looking? Snack all day long? Eat just 1 big meal a day? Guess I’m hungry and thinking of food. Well, I’m always thinkin’ of food.

They say males should consume 2500 calories/day and females 2000. I wonder how much do people actually consume? What would your guess be? (don’t forget to count all that cheese and dressing and bacon …

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