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Cheesy inspirational crap

  October 5th, 2018 by PatheticMale

So I just watched a documentary about a current poly addict. The dude seems like he has a kind soul but the horrible circumstances in his life just destroyed him like he was abused by his parents and shit… The video ended with him telling a story. I normally hate these cheesy inspirational things but this one really resonated with me I guess. It went like this: Two fathers are with their daughters in the park and one of the girls just keeps falling over and over. So one father asks: “Who is this girl that is falling constantly?” And the other one tells him: …

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Desperate

  October 5th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I can´t find anyone to love because I´m depressed and have low self esteem. I am depressed because I can´t find anyone. I feel like I don´t deserve it.
It´s like a closed never ending cycle. I don´t know what to do.

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The Sooner I Die The Better

  October 5th, 2018 by NobodyKnowsorCares

Hello people of The Suicide Project, since my last posts in Aug, not going to lie its been pretty good, moved in to college, am enjoying my course, meeting new people and a whole new town.

But this fairytale only lasted till recently. Its been a month in college. Ive made a lowkey fool of myself. Ive ruined peoples friendships. I ruined a relationship that I rushed into with someone unbelievable and now its unfixable (dont give me that petty “oh you can fix anything if you put your mind to it” bullshit). I honestly loved her, but now she would rather see me rot in …

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Right

  October 4th, 2018 by OnlyFurther

She was right to call me hopeless.

I am truly inadequate.

I will never lead a successful life.

Such foresight from an elementary school teacher.

Hate is all I deserve; they were right to hate me in the end.

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failure waste

  October 4th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I hate myself more than I love you. I hate myself more than I could ever love you. Which means I don’t really love you. Which makes me hate me more. I never ever believed in you. I never ever believed in me. I never believed in either of us.

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Weed

  October 4th, 2018 by lazyjake

Weed is the only thing that makes me feel like staying alive. The only thing that makes me feel like there is a reason to live. Its depressing and happy at the same time. Maybe when smash comes out I’ll feel a bit better. Maybe I’ll be able to play baseball next year and it’ll make me feel better. Idk. But sober me just wants to die all the God damn fucking time

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  October 4th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

I feel like shit

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Cats

  October 4th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

IDK what to do with myself. Really.

I’m very sorry and very alone.

I’m in deep mourning for 2 years since my first cat died and I cant get over it because the other cat died too.

My heart is broken. My soul is bitter. I’m hopeless.

My cats were all for me…my family my best friends my reason to be here.

Now I’m stuck trying to live till die. I miss that real pure love and joy only a cat can share…

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Pink Floyd – Echoes, Part 1 (Live at Pompeii)

  October 4th, 2018 by Taf Taf

 

Lyrics:

Overhead the albatross
Hangs motionless upon the air
And deep beneath the rolling waves
In labyrinths of coral caves
The echo of a distant time
Comes willowing across the sand
And everything is green and submarine
And no one called us to the land
And no one knows the wheres or whys
Something stirs and something tries
Starts to climb toward the light
Strangers passing in the street
By chance two separate glances meet
And I am you and what I see is me
And do I take you by the hand
And lead you through the land
And help me understand
The best I can
And no one calls us

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  October 4th, 2018 by jr.

I really wish  I could kill myself now

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Lousy

  October 4th, 2018 by morado123

I’m so sick and tired of my lousy self.

I’m not gallant enough to tell everyone that whatever they heard about me from my ex is false.

I just didn’t want to give my ex satisfaction that he made me mad.

Oh, this so sounds like teenage angst. Fuck.

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  October 4th, 2018 by skia

I HAVE SAD DAYS.

I ALSO HAVE BETTER DAYS.

SOMEHOW THESE DAYS, I CAN’T DISTINGUISH BETWEEN THE TWO ANYMORE.

I FEEL LIKE SHIT.
I DONT KNOW IF I’M ACTUALLY LIVING OR JUST WAITING FOR SOMETHING WHO KNOWS WHAT.

I WROTE THIS RANDOMLY, IMPULSIVELY. I MUST HAVE BEEN SUFFERING THESE DAYS TOO MUCH.

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Soul Slowly Dying

  October 4th, 2018 by IrrationalLion

I knew my soul was dying but up until now there was always something still keeping me here. I don’t feel it anymore. I feel my soul slowly dying.I feel myself going down a path of a girl who doesn’t care what happens. I’m trying to stop myself and keep myself on the right path but I can’t help it I just don’t care anymore about anything. It all seems so pointless when I’m this miserable. I wish I could kill myself or at least harm myself or, probably the smarter option, go get counseling but I honestly can’t imagine finally talking to someone after …

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  October 4th, 2018 by NotConfidentAnymore

Sometimes I get to think that depression is a lifelong thing, that it isn’t something you get out of it… It’s just something that when you get it, it lives with you, you only live enough to learn how to manage it or you commit suicide, or you’re lucky because “mother nature” gives you a deathly illness and all you have to do is wait for the day to die.

But then I realize that it is on me to get out of this, that if I keep getting from my College to Home (in my country we don’t live in our college, we just go …

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Random Events

  October 4th, 2018 by rivets

What do you do when someone you dislike viscerally just received the worst news imaginable? I could be an ass and revel in it, but that’s harsh even for me. I feel for the guy, even if I can’t stand him. The news he got is enough to push a normally sane person to suicide. I’d be looking for the nearest bridge if it were me. It got me thinking – I don’t look for the nearest bridge, myself, because I lack that solidity of a reason. Mine would be much more nebulous and hard to pin down. Society is a shitty thing. I dunno …

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I have no one

  October 4th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

They said your family, friends, or someone in this world
There must be someone who can help you
No..
Ive tried it..

I try to tell them but they are not there
I try to tell my friends but they got annoyed and leave me at the end
I try to tell my mom but she just said get over it
I try to tell my sister but she just said im stress too
I try to tell my dad but he said you are worthy try your best

Im trying but i never been there
What I want to be
What I want to have
Kill me
Please kill me
Please

They said the one you left will have …

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goodbye with love

  October 3rd, 2018 by lover

it’s nearly been a year since i’ve updated this profile. a lot has changed. please take the time to read everything, and please leave thoughts and good wishes.

things i’ve learned:
• acting on fleeting emotional responses in an already sensitive situation won’t improve the issue, it will only increase and intensify the emotions of everyone involved
• every person has their own agenda. when my actions interrupt—even slightly—another person’s agenda, irritation and frustration is understandable and expected (and just because i’m the cause, doesn’t mean i’m inherently a bad person).
• it isn’t my duty to control other people’s lives, and it doesn’t benefit any of us.
• …

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Between

  October 3rd, 2018 by thehusk

The thing about my mind is that it generates just enough of a sense of purpose to induce longing, anxiety, and restlessness, without providing enough hope to motivate consistent or effective action towards a goal. I’m basically telling myself over and over: ‘Here is this special, wonderful, totally meaningful thing, which is absolutely worth living for and pursuing. And it’s basically impossible for you to get anywhere close.’

It’s the f*cking conflict of it that I hate. Simultaneously believing that something is important and meaningful and yet also hopeless and pointless. If I could just consistently believe one thing, one way or the other, then I …

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  October 3rd, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

… I chose using drugs to run away over the greatest person I ever met.

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My Life Story (Short Form)

  October 3rd, 2018 by AshCoveredAngel

*Content warning* Several forms of abuse and assault.

My story is a long twisted road as it starts from before my existence really.

I am a product of statutory rape. My 13 year old mother who had been abandoned by her alcoholic father clung to love wherever she thought she felt a single glimmer of it.

My dad was 18. When he was told to “get a job, get a car, and be responsible” he decided to take off. To this day he is still afraid of being charged for what he did. We met when I was 15, he was an alcoholic for 10 of the …

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