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Sorry I’m weird

March 23rd, 2017by babypanda

I always end up back here when I feel self hate, and it’s always because I don’t want to share it with anyone I know. Somehow telling strangers my dark thoughts always works out better for me than when I tell him or any other person. I don’t feel guilty about saying what I feel and how it makes me react.

On here, it’s okay for me to feel suicidal and cry about it, because I don’t have to worry about triggering bad memories or someone’s misplaced pity. I know that I’m not going to act on it, and I know I’ll get through it. I …

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Die me please

March 23rd, 2017by doomhead

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Honestly

March 23rd, 2017by doomhead

I got high the other day and went down my SP story feed and got so scared of what I saw and thought really deeply about it on the side of my entire life to even what others close to me or who ever may of felt about me..I was thinking so deep into each one.. all I could comprehend was that it was disturbing as hell..I think I was having a panic attack because on fact that I’m suicidal.. I’m sober now..and don’t have that same sense anymore sense I’ve came down..Im just In a i wanna die now mood..it may sound like I’m …

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Suicide Note

March 23rd, 2017by Music Is My Escape

Dear mother,
I know you tried just to hide your secret hatred for me,
But I guess you shouldn’t have bothered ’cause you knew that I was gonna go anyway.

Dear father,
I’m sorry that I was never what you ever wanted,
But I guess you won’t even bother, ’cause at least I’ll never disappoint you again.

Hey there, long lost friend,
Do you finally want to see me again, now that I am long, long, gone?
Don’t you dare apologize for all those things that you didn’t do,
’cause every conflict that we had was for me to take the blame, and it’s always been my fault that I threw it all on …

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I hate

March 23rd, 2017by Forevertorn

My new smile I have developed. A new facial expression I have copied from some pathetic loser. The language issue Iam facing. I seem to be knowing no language now. Yes I can write effectively but when it comes to talking it’s taking me a long time to remember a simple word like ‘obviously’. I will need to learn speaking. My intentions while speaking are different my words come out in chunks slurred and stammer a lot.
Why do I care about it anyways?

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Everyone is

March 23rd, 2017by Forevertorn

People are evolved and enlightened. Everyone is. This is a new era and I feel like Im the only one who is yet to get to that high level of existence like everyone. They dont get crying spells they are super stable they are not suffering so deeply. They don’t live in installments. They have life insurances. They have long term friendships.

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Who else or just me

March 23rd, 2017by Forevertorn

I always need to connect my doctor with the characters of mental asylum movies I have binge-watched. I felt so fake today going out of house I was looking up and down everywhere staring deep into people nervous as fuck crossing everybodys way stumbling on people almost passed out didnt know where I was heading.. Its always embarassing. My tone had changed to a 10 year old very scared girl. Im happy I found some money today Im glad I’ll be gone in 3 days.

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Plans got messed up

March 23rd, 2017by TragedyOfJohn

I was supposed to kill myself yesterday, but I found out my mom has to go through more cancer treatment and I don’t think it will appropriate to kill myself while my mom is going through this treatment.

After months planning now this happens. This really sucks. I really hate waiting for this. Just want to get this over with 🙁

Hopefully I will be able to do it in couple in weeks. I want to be out of here by April 24th. *Fingers crossed*

Peace

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Down in a hole

March 23rd, 2017by braiNsane

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late night high: bees

March 23rd, 2017by death bunny

this post can come off as boring, but some of you could find this interesting.

yesterday, like everyday in the past couple of months, i got high. it’s usually what’s letting me sleep these days. somehow i got thinking about bees. why do they sting? the short answer is because they sense danger. well, danger can mean death, but it can also mean surviving – while stinging will definitely kill them. so why do they sting? thank humanity for google. apparently, it’s an instinct. the death, quite gruesome too – “When a honey bee stings a person, it cannot pull the barbed stinger back out. It …

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I am becoming psychotic

March 23rd, 2017by lilxtina

I have started to hear things, see things that to other people may be disturbing.

I think people talk about me when I walk by them, people laugh at me, are they? I don’t know. Why shouldn’t they, I am troubled and everyone can see it.

Everything is hard, and everything has always been hard, 3 months ago I would have said ther was a tiny bit of hope, but then surely I was destroyed again. I have gone through a traumatic experience that has altered my course in life and now there is no turning back.

I ask myself everyday why I am still …

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DBT

March 23rd, 2017by death bunny

so yeah.. i started going to these DBT meetings. actually, i’ve only been to one meeting, next one is next week. i was skeptic, but to my surprise i found it somewhat comforting.. knowing there are people who think similar things. in similar matters. it’s a great relief, because until then i thought i was the only one who had these cognitive patterns.
anyone here knows what i’m talking about?/go to DBT meetings?

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risky

March 23rd, 2017by spectralgiraffe

i have an amazing online boyfriend… but i’m worried that he will get fed up with my problems. he’s always there for me and I try to always be there for him.

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What’s been up in my life!

March 23rd, 2017by KatRose

I been going through a lot of things and i think i’m going a lil crazy! But today my step dad sat me down and said that he was so so sorry that he hurt me and ruined me….tbh i was stunned i didn’t no what to do but cry…idk why but i did, and he hugged me after i said sorry for crying(bc i hate crying in front ppl) and he said awee sweetie you did noting wrong, then he looked me in the eyes and said i regret so much and i’m truly sorry for hurting you the way i did when i …

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All my things are here

March 23rd, 2017by foxinthesnow

All our belongings, things that mean a lot to me. Our whole life. Photos, memories, everything. Baby clothes. I don’t know how these things will get back to my family.

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Almost April

March 23rd, 2017by foxinthesnow

I’m so sorry S & S. I love you with all my heart, and wish to hold you forever.

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survivers

March 23rd, 2017by Jazzy

Right now you might be in a situation that you think you won’t survive but six months ago you were in a situation that you didn’t think you’d survive and two years before that you were in a situation you didn’t think you’d survive and the point is you will always surprise yourself and you will always make it through…

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Richard ‘Rich51bruhh’: The Last Days

March 23rd, 2017by rich51bruhh

Saturday, March 1st, 2025:

*LA Woman (The Doors) playing loudly in the background* I sit there staring at the picture of all the famous cinema italian gangsters my brother gifted me 8 christmas’s ago. I finish my beer as I wait for the acid to kick in. Time to drift away; I dont want to be home.

Sunday, March 2nd, 2025:

*Little Wing (Jimi Hendrix) playing loudly on repeat*

I hold the needle of the drug I have always feared. The drug I swore never to take. I prep the heroin in hopes I get it right. Live or die – I don’t care. I atleast wanted to numb …

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Ghost in a Shell

March 23rd, 2017by EyeOfHorus

I feel out of place in my own skin. I hide behind the mask of a face of a person I’m not. I bear the emotions of someone in the past. It’s all just one big facade. One giant ruse. I want to die, but I’m too young, too volatile to die yet. I guess the kid deserves more than for this empty soul to take his life. I mean, he does his best, he means well, but ever since the day she left him, he’s been different. Oh well, I tried and so did he, I guess.

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