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Haven’t left my apt in 2 weeks

November 11th, 2017by eternaldarkness

I did go down to get my mail a couple of times and went to Target 2x to get some food, but other than that, I haven’t gone outside for about 2.5 weeks now.

I don’t really have real food in my apt (ate chips for breakfast, yeah bad I know) and logically I ought to go out and get food, but it requires energy and effort.  I have chronic fatigue and foot issues so it’s always hard and physically painful on my feet to get out.

It’s much more comfortable staying in, but
Staying in = no real food (I can order but the food isn’t the …

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Reincarnation

November 11th, 2017by eternaldarkness

I don’t believe in reincarnation, but let’s suppose it’s true.  Would you still be in such a rush to kill yourself?  When you know you gotta do all this shit all over again?  Granted, you’d get a new life so it could be better, or it could be worse.  And let’s suppose you had a guaranteed reliable method. Would you do it?

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I think my dog is dying

November 11th, 2017by PurpleK

I know this is probably stupid, but I’m really upset right now. My dog, the dog I grew up with and played with when I had no actual friends is dying and I’m not there. I just need for her to still be there when I come home… She’s always been this constant in my life.

She’s at the vets now, a really good vet clinic, but they’re saying there’s not much hope.

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as things are

November 11th, 2017by freeroma

I have a friend at work who gives me rides when I need it.
With the colder weather, he still says he’s worried that if anything happens to me out there on my bike, I could get hypothermia.
I think the only thing that will ever happen to me out there is me.

That’s actually been a preferred method of mine.. and at this point..
It wouldn’t be difficult. And I think that’s why I crashed so hard the other night, yesterday. Haven’t fell that hard in ages, I think. Never quite like that.
Living is hard.

Days take forever, this morning feels like yesterday, a few …

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Rant

November 11th, 2017by lostallhope001

‘suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems’. I HATE THIS SAYING. MY PROBLEMS ARE NOT TEMPORARY

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Not okay

November 11th, 2017by violet_

Please learn the definition of consent.

Please learn the definition of sexual assault.

Masturbating in front of someone, or on the phone without their consent is NOT okay.

Doing it once, NOT okay.

Doing it again, NOT okay.

Doing it again after knowing the person said it wasn’t okay, NOT okay.

 

 

 

 

 

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imtired

November 11th, 2017by Dungeon

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I just want to give up
Im doing this for no reason
I dont want to die anymore
I dont want to live anymore
just let me have nice dreams
and sleep
god im so tiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtiredimtired

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lol

November 10th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

Funny how someone can say that they are open minded, yet it is only when it suits them.

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online friends

November 10th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

Straight up, I don’t really want any. Before anyone says ‘wahhhh but you have an online bf’ well yes I do. And while that is going nicely, its also exhausting at the same time. It doesn’t matter how open one is, there’s the element of having to be careful with what you say. And that’s just 2 reasons I don’t want friends. Look I already know this isn’t a great post if I look selfish yes I already know oh and lastly I can’t really relate to many people. So why don’t I just go away? I’m a lurker here… I’m free to do that. …

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wtf! my older sister called the cops on me for yelling

November 10th, 2017by sadlife958

Anyways a few months back my sister & my mother disconnected me from their T-Mobile family plan my mother claims she had no idea but it doesn’t matter because in the end my mom took her side & gave her full authority on the family plan. So I had no phone & no way to make phone calls to order food for pickup. So I noticed that the house phone Battery was dead so I inserted it back in its stand & left for a few minutes to charge & when I came back I couldn’t believe what I saw so I yelled at my …

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friends…

November 10th, 2017by Birdsndflies

i hope I pass out. wish me sweet dreams!

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Mindless rant

November 10th, 2017by User Unknown

I hope my family does not embalm my body. I want to become one with the Earth as soon as possible when I eventually go to hell next month.

Goodnight everybody, going to watch some cartoons and hope I don’t wake up tomorrow morning 😛

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November 10th, 2017by User Unknown

♪its all over, but the dreaming

poor little dreams, that is trying to come true♪

the end is nigh 😛

 

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dear a,

November 10th, 2017by superficiality

we broke up 429 days ago. i remember everything like it was yesterday. but it wasn’t yesterday.

you probably don’t even remember my birthday, but i remember yours. april 21st. i remember so many of the little things, things that are practically embedded into my brain.

you love sweet tea. you love to go hunting. you have a little brother. you play baseball. you did cross country, but you hurt your knee. you once lived in michigan. you ex-girlfriend hurt you. you listen to country music, especially luke bryan. your mom drives a grey mazda, cx-5. you don’t like heights. you once threw up after riding a …

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It’s bad for me, but it makes me happy..

November 10th, 2017by lonelylostsoul

Yeah.. I uh.. I have started drinking beer. 4% of alcohol, but it still counts. I know. I f*cked up really badly. So badly that my only true friend threatens me that she’ll abandon me, just like that, if I don’t stop. I somehow find a way to f*ck up everything I can.. I just wish I f*cking killed myself when I had the chance to.. I just don’t want this life anymore.. I am only alive right now, because if I killed myself, my only true friend would too. Only because of that. No other reason. If it wasn’t for her I’d be dead …

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November 10th, 2017by broken_song

Once there was a woman, let’s call her Ri.
She wasn’t perfect by any means, but she cared
She had friends, she had people she loved, and who loved her
She tried her best, and despite everything, she was a good person

But at some point, she died. No, that’s not right. I killed her.
No one noticed it at the time, not even me, but I replaced her.
I can’t say exactly when. Probably sometime last year? Maybe earlier than that even.
I stole her life, I stole her memories, I stole her body.
People didn’t notice me pretending to be her at first
But I was never good at being her. I …

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desire to die

November 10th, 2017by lostallhope001

Is there anybody on SP who has a ‘normal’ and happy life, but has an extreme desire to be dead (without a known reason). I have always found this fascinating

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Help

November 10th, 2017by lostallhope001

How do you overcome the fear of death?

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Rejected By Suicide

November 10th, 2017by superficiality

I can’t lie, not here, because everyone here is here for a reason. I’m here, for a reason. Or, so, I think.

July 27th, a Thursday, I attempted for the first time. I’ve self-harmed plenty of times before, since the age of 14. However, it wasn’t until July 27th, that I actually tried to go through with it. I was alone, in my room, crying my eyes out. I didn’t even think about grabbing a razor, that’s how tired I was. I used to cut, but that, to me, does nothing effective. It bleeds, it scabs, it scars. Time after time, my cuts continue to disappear …

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I hate being a perfectionist.

November 10th, 2017by LonelyBird

I hate the way I’ve been treating my boyfriend and the fact that I have gained 10 pounds in two months.

I hate that I’m getting 60’s on all of my fucking midterms.

I hate that I have been through hell and back 10 millions fucking times and I still can’t get a break.

I hate that everyone I know thinks they’ve had it tough when the worse thing they’ve gone through is  bad break up.

I hate that no one knows how strong I am for making it this far.

I hate that I think about killing myself every single fucking day.

I hate that my therapist has cancelled our …

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