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before,now

February 12th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

Before, drawing saves me… but now, it kills me….

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February 12th, 2018by visual eyes

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My Job doesn’t fit me..

February 12th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

I think being an illustrator is not good for me. Well, it’s like I’m not good for an illustrator. This mental issues of mine affects my job. Right now, I can’t seem to draw. I can’t push myself. Not because I feel lazy but because I feel so satisfied with my work but my team, well some of the team, suggest something that DOESN’T really fit in what I’m drawing. I was so satisfied with what I did and already checked if this is okay, if this good and i already finished it maybe 2 weeks ago and it should be submitted 2 WEEKS AGO, …

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Nowhere left to run

February 11th, 2018by HollowOcean

I’ve actually given up. If I was depressed before, I have not the slightest inclination of what to call myself now. I’m just a failure that’s way past self-hatred and just looks in the mirror at a blank slate. All I can do now is sleep, eat, cry, and go on the internet while rebellious tears run down my face. I haven’t gotten out of bed for more than a week now and I’ve gone for longer but there is no hope for me now. How can I possibly keep going? It is so painful to live; I’m so tired of it all, half the …

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Looking back comparison

February 11th, 2018by LMNO

I read this brief article about some undercover high school students, recent grads, 21-25 yrs old and even after just a few years they reported how different high school is than it used to be. Cell phone use is rampant, teachers have less control than ever, and kids still just want someone to talk to.

I’m just repeating the article but it made me think a little and I wouldn’t mind hearing what highschool is like these days

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I had a dream……

February 11th, 2018by mulgrum

last night that I was dying of cancer. Imminently, within 24 hours. I felt myself getting weaker and weaker as I was walking around having an otherwise normal day. Everyone knew I was about to die, and they were ok and accepting. It felt so right, and I woke up with a smile on my face for the first time in a year.

I wish the people in my life cared enough about my happiness to let me go. I know that’s a gross oversimplification, but a guy can dream, can’t he?

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I need answers

February 11th, 2018by lastmemory

It has been in my head for a long time. The idea, I mean. I got the papers, and I wanna do it but i’m scared. I’m scared to get rejected again. I feel like getting to know my biological parents is like a new start, but it’s not. If they really wanted to meet me they would have done it before. They would have tried, right? Or maybe they thought I wouldn’t like them. Maybe i’m not doing it because i’m scared they won’t like me. Like everyone else. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to hurt my mom, she’d feel like i’m leaving …

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Found….

February 11th, 2018by Foundhappiness

Might just have found that special lady…. 🙂

 

 

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Becoming mentally ill

February 11th, 2018by Urm8451n

I’m afraid I’m becoming mentally ill. Fucked up sleeping hours. Night terrors that doesn’t scare me, but they sure are fucked up.

Acting a bit paranoid. Feeling extremely down /depressed. Feeling empty, either hollow and bored or drowned in sadness.

Guys, I hope to hold on to reality. The hard times are temporary. I wish that my sanity would hold strong and overcome this.

I had to write this so if I’ll ever go insane, I would atleast know when it started.

Anyway, stay strong, be brave, yours Jac.

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There’s no point anymore.

February 11th, 2018by dmannn

~Disclaimer: Long Post~

Here’s my story.
When I was a kid I used to excel at academic stuff, aced all tests and ,perfect score almost every time,made my parents and grandparents real proud. Unfortunately I had a little accident that forced me to stay in bed for 2 months. Missed school, got left behind in terms of studies, grades hit rock bottom, didn’t want to catch up and study because I’m a lazy lil’ shit.

Fast forward a few years to my high scool days, I’m not the kid I used to be, haven’t done anything to make my grandparents proud. And then I did something really bad …

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Escaping from reality

February 11th, 2018by Urm8451n

Dealing with demons again, looking for help around this site, perhaps your ways are better than mine.

I feel like I’m shutting down, and I’m drowning under my blanket, as if my breath is slowly getting heavier.

I wanted to know, what is your escape from reality?

Im dealing with lots of complications and my so far only way to cope is to watch cartoons (southpark/Futurama etc) and do sports. Perhaps you can enlighten me. and please keep the “smoke weed” bullshit to yourself.

On another note, I wanted to state that I’m going to find relationship next semester. I’m …

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The inability of getting it together

February 11th, 2018by mindlessgamer619

 Reading about the places still in pieces after Hurricanes Maria and Irma irritates me to no end. I especially feel for people who can’t leave or have to stay due to financial or other reasons.. It’s not fun being stuck in a place where damages range from your roof beginning to come off the house, to no roof at all, to losing everything because of those storms. Where price gouging was rampant and gas stations were so full it could take you hours to get your diesel for your generator, if you even had one..

Today, I feel, disheartened. Still not working yet. Still …

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I should just die

February 11th, 2018by Thoreau

Love does not exist at all, not in the way I hoped it did. I had hoped that when I met him that we would become good friends, then best friends and then bond closer and closer.

We are friends-we are best friends, but I want to be closer, I want to provide him with all of his emotional needs, but he won’t open up. I did open up to him, but he likes me better when I’m less emotional and more surface.

I just feel empty about it. I know that conventionally I am being ridiculous.

sometimes there is a situation that comes up where he has …

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Here my plan…

February 11th, 2018by Jean-bean102

  1. sigh, disconnect from society media for a while.
  2. find Master
  3. become sex slave?
  4. buy a tent, a lot of wines, and take a plane ticket to florida
  5.   …
  6. ……

Honest I don’t know….

Just don’t know what to do with myself. I hit all dead ends relates to people. Any ideas?

So far some suggest I hear from some, go back to college, or find full time jobs… or something..

I don’t want to be alone anymore. I want to feel loved and wanted again.

Updated

  1. finish my class and have enough money to support myself to do what I really want. I miss art world so much.

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Sittin’ on the dock of the bay,wastin’ time…

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February 11th, 2018by visual eyes

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tired

February 11th, 2018by nobodycares

im physically and emotionally tired.. please i want to rest.. its too much…

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Once a grade 7 teacher

February 11th, 2018by DepressedFilipina

I decided to write this note after our discussion yesterday (Jackie and I) that if ever my students would know what I would do to myself may be they would felt bad or down about it, maybe.

To my babies in grade 7,
Don’t feel bad, dont imitate what I did to myself. You still have a lot of days, months, and years to fix yourself. You have all the time in the world, never feel down for something I decided on my own.

I hope you’ll cherish every moment I spent with you as I would also be thankful for the wonderful time you made me experienced.

Those …

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Jonghyun

February 11th, 2018by DepressedFilipina

Today my **** heard about this idol who committed suicide. She said and I quote “Maraming nag-aagaw buhay tas papatayin niya lang sarili”

Wtf? What a nice mindset. Great way to start off a conversation about depression but of course unless you want the person to kill her/himself without thinking too much about it.

You know what? Dont you dare compare the feelings of someone depress with someone else because we all have different demons inside us, we’re all in different levels of hell, we dont fight the same battle and we’ll never be.

She even added “bakit wala ba syang pamilya? Kaibigan? Sinasarili niya kasi”
The type of …

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Update to myself: still alive despite everything

February 11th, 2018by DepressedFilipina

Update to myself: still alive despite everything

I’ve been experiencing hair loss. Not just the simple hair loss in the bath but the type you have even in the bed or pillowcases. Whenever l leave my bed there were certain amount of hair on it, same with ponytails or putting towels on my hair.

Even when I just hand comb my hair there would always be some hair coming along my hands.

But the more bad thing was, I’m not even afraid of what’s happening to me.

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