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Im gonna end it all

May 8th, 2018by lostsoul21817

Im so sick and fucking tired of trying to get through the day.People jus get on my nerves and give me hard times in one way or the other.Im so tired of self motivatin me constantly evryday to keep me frm commiting suicide.But I jus cant take it anymore..Life is harsh and hard.College fkin sucks ….

I will probably end my life next month after I meet up with my family and school friends.Ive been feelin suicidal for the past 8 months or so and i dont really see the point of living.And im feelin too bad bcoz I was really happy and satisfied with my …

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life…

May 8th, 2018by plzhelp

The first time when i opened my eyes to my parents and to this world i thought to myself that this is going to be good i am going to have lots of adventures on life. but when i started to experience it was all just wrong my parents got into some fights when i was 11 years old.. this kept going for 4 years till it hit me why would live the same damn day of fights with my parents and having a brother and sister and them telling me whats happening to mom or dad i just give them my phone or turn …

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I don’t understand why I’m still here

May 8th, 2018by shadowbeam

Nothing about myself is worth anything . I am ashamed of who I am , I hate looking at myself in the mirror , there’s no light in my eyes. Someone who doesn’t even have crazy problems as a lot of other people do .. How could I be that someone who wants to leave this body …? I have it so good comparative to other situations , but that doesn’t change the way I feel . I’m closed off , unreceptive to advice over the screaming echo in my head louder than any voice . I don’t have the courage to pull the trigger …

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pressure

May 8th, 2018by slumpy6dog

I feel like killing myself as more days pass by. I feel my mental health just diminishing slowly, I’m having a mix of suicidal and homicidal thoughts. I really don’t know what to do anymore.

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Shades of emerald

May 8th, 2018by EmptyPluto

You called my name unanswered. I can’t go back in time and attemt to fix what I didn’t do, but I’ll do what I can now. The purity of your heart left a lasting impression on me. An unconditional kindness that has yet to be replicated. You’re such a beautiful person and you deserve everything good in the world. I’m sorry I didn’t help you when you needed it most. It isn’t fair to you and I’m sorry.

If you’re still around, then I hope you’re okay. I pray to the empty skies that you’re okay. If your peace day came, then I hope you …

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May 7th, 2018by definitelyworried

I was watching some videos online of people hanging themselves, and it seems like a long painful death more violant than I thought.

I thought it were to be more peaceful and quicker.

It doesn’t look painless at all.

I still feel like I’m going to have to do it though.

I’m really scared, but I think the time will come when my anguish will be greater than my fear.

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Title

May 7th, 2018by J Doe

I ate a blue berry muffin. I thought about going to eat a burger, but I have eaten out every day for the past week and a half. Too much junk and money wasted. I ran out of meal tickets close to a month ago. I don’t have anywhere to store or cook food with, so you know. I honestly don’t know why I still keep going. This bad feels kind of different to be honest. The type of bad that doesn’t really feel all that different from the regular bad but still has that quality to it …

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Fed Up

May 7th, 2018by IrrationalLion

I’m convinced more than ever the world truly hates me. Its always one thing after another. Needing to do shit for school, neurologist appts that need to be rescheduled, birth control issues. I realize I, like most other people, have shit like this always going on. Daily life struggles and stresses. But most people have a day or two out of the week where they get to do something they truly enjoy doing or get together with a group of friends and get to sit around and joke and laugh and just all together forget about these struggles for the day. I don’t. I don’t …

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Hair

May 7th, 2018by laelaps

Sometimes, most of the times, I think about how easy males have it because they aren’t shamed if they have hair on their bodies.

Personally, my body decided one day to grow hair under my chin and I started shaving it because I know that no one wants to see a girl who has the start of hair growing under their chin. But it’s so hard to hide it now because of the scars it has left and now it looks even worse.

Sometimes I hate my background because I come from a culture that is just quite hairy.

I don’t know what to do …

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Motivation

May 7th, 2018by J Doe

I had a strange dream yesterday that I was supposed to buy a trike for a small kid. I don’t remember, but I think it might have been my sister. I don’t have a sister. I thought to myself that I could stop by a BDSM place before going to walmart to buy the trike, but I ended up in a regular strip club. I fell asleep on their couch in the lobby until I woke up a realized that the BDSM dungeon was across the street. I went in there and I immediately smelled this weird combination of a …

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I’ve got nothing to say

May 7th, 2018by metamorphosis

talking doesn’t solve anything and I want to find a way to get better but the old way never works and im too scared to find a new one

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if you think about/have attempted suicide, please read this.

May 7th, 2018by PsychopathicQween

Do you know what it feels like to be completely hopeless and feel like you can’t do anything? That you start to belive what people think about you? That’s what happened to me.

I attempted suicide 6 times within the past 3 years. 2 of those times, i went to a hospital and nearly died of bloodloss. The other 4 times… lets just say that i was seconds away from going to a hospital again. It has come to this point, that it feels a little odd, does it not? 6 times i tried to kill myself, 6 times i tried to break that curse called …

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How Can You Even Say That?

May 7th, 2018by Koda

You are my SISTER. You should be understanding.

Instead, you tell me that nothing is wrong with me?

And I am forced to bring up a professional diagnosis and an attempted suicide to end this argument?

How can you say that?

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In pain

May 7th, 2018by shockabsorber

Always brooding.lost somewhere.talking very less and slow.postponing and delaying are my all time companions.still 7 years left to get out of this prison.so much considered useless that unofficially abandoned by family. No good money with me.no contact no phone calls with family it’s really painful just invisible so low energy so bad communication so bad cognition so harmless that I am best alive vegetable.wats d point living I will never know only this part I know best.its body my head that feels a lot of pain but I am sure that pain is coming from within don’t know wherefrom.so can’t kill the body coz it’s …

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No will.

May 7th, 2018by Charlottevics

I have no more will to live. I don’t even really care to write about it anymore. I want to but I’m emotionally dead and when I try nothing really comes out. I think it’s because I’ve become so fucking miserable, the majority of the time my mood is as low as 1-3/10, that I don’t feel sad at all about the idea of dying young anymore.

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May 7th, 2018by spookichick

when i was nursing, i was assigned to a client on my ward. he was dying on my shift, but was very cognitively well. i had my assistant work with the other 11 clients so that i could be there for him, and him alone. he had no family or friends. during our last conversation, he suggested that i go on a break. i argued with him, but he insisted. i went for a 15 min. break , and when i returned he was dead. i guessed that he knew that he was dying and wanted to go alone. it intrigued me that he had …

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a normal life

May 7th, 2018by miszion

I wonder what it would be like to have a normal, happy life. I wonder what it would’ve been like, as child and teenager, to wake up in a clean home with amenities and loving parents. I wonder what finishing high school would’ve been like, and starting college that same year like so many people normally do. I wonder what it would be like to see the word “Mom” on my phone screen, maybe with a heart emoji next to it, calling me just to ask how I’m doing.

I often think about what my life would be like if he never died. Just typing that …

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Please, flush it all away….

May 7th, 2018by atlasbleeding1

“Mother in Arms”

The world, in its glorious wonder

     Will burn down its wretched inhabitants;

Or they shall scorch themselves to ashes,

     With their infinite knowledge.

Regression to the former, renewal’s blessing.

     The naivety of our progress,

While She slowly suffers from our strife and sloth.

 

” Mass Extinction”

Life is passing you by,

But these people are not worth salvage.

Thus, acclimation is only by necessity,

For human contact.

Walden seems like Olympus.

Nothingness seems like Everything.

 

“To Starve”

I

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You Made My Heart Stop Beating

May 6th, 2018by BlueDiamond

Your words, bits by bits committed to memory
twirling and destroying, making me nauseous
turning the photos black, your anger slipping out
like muddy water from a foundation

Your silence makes me drown in a sea of blood
heat flashes inside my head, slowly breathing until I halt
goosebumps and hair standing on ends as you watch
with hawk eyes,

Your unappreciated touching makes me hold my breath
sliding your hand down my back, brushing between my legs
my muscles twitching but frozen in their tracks
now my mind has to leave, dreaming of something better
Man, I wish you disappear.

Your lack of care makes me wonder if there’s something inside
damaged frontal lobes? Was time cruel to …

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2

May 6th, 2018by J Doe

There is 3 in 2. I’m apathetic to all. I think I need to leave. I’m just no good. I get that. I’m just not all that into it. I get that. Not at all happy. I miss those nights where it is warm and you hear the bugs in the trees. I miss those days where I wake up and don’t think too hard about any of it. I miss having an idea of where I was going. What is the point of this place again? Why do I come and write here …

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