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Zoos

  January 3rd, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Can you imagine a zoo full of humans and a bunch of animals lining up just to watch these ‘amazing’ humans every single day? 😛

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Chester Bennington Syndrome

  January 3rd, 2019 by Two-Faced

The day I’ll get drunk is the day I kill myself because of all these urges I’m suppressing. If I even for a moment allow myself to get drunk this person will destroy everything I have. I got drunk once and beat up a cousin, but the high felt so good that I couldn’t even care, and when it was over it was the best night I had in a long time.

That’s why Chester always makes me think, I miss him and now Linkin Park will never be the same. Shinoda is alright but he isn’t Chester. Chester was the voice with the scars and …

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A stare of desperation from Chocolate Chip.

  January 3rd, 2019 by Once

Yesterday afternoon, a small cat blocked an alley I was driving through. Wouldn’t move, just stood there, staring at me. Staring, and not moving. I honked the horn lightly, inched forward a bit, nothing. Just staring at me. Ahh hell. I was in a hurry, but I also love cats, so I got out and tried to shoo it away, but again, it just stared, immobile. Jesus flippin’ salami. I reached down and petted it, noting it’s bony spine. Very bony spine. It finally starts moving – towards my truck. No. Noooo. Go away cat, I’m going to be late. SHOOOO.

No. Staring at me still, …

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Resolving Life by Philosophy

  January 3rd, 2019 by Two-Faced

I am an off and on listener of Alan Watts and one concept he stated opened my mind. He mentions the idea of a ghost is that it exists in a plane separate from the physical, so the only way it experiences the world is through the fear of its victims. So if you see a ghost then rather than be afraid, walk right through it, then it ceases to exist.

I want this to be real, because my mind is lost in pain, regret and fear. Anxiety is killing me, and I don’t want it to be the reason I die. But then again it …

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What do you think of humanity?

  January 3rd, 2019 by PatheticMale

Do you think humanity is good? Do you think its existence is justified? Would you erase humanity as a whole if you could? Why/why not?

I would say I am pro-human. Sure, the majority of people are ignorant idiots (people can be so dumb sometimes, its really mind boggling) who will take advantage of you whenever possible. Most of people are caught up in their own reality and dont see the bigger picture, they dont even want to see it. And then there are some people that are just straight up pure evil. But I also believe that there is much good in average people too …

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Mental Health

  January 3rd, 2019 by ravingbean

Living with mental illness is so hard. I’ve been depressed since I was a kid. Nothing seems to work. Anxiety has taken over my life. I’m paralyzed by it. I can’t seem to accomplish anything. I am scarred by years of self harm. Part of me wants out. But I can’t help feeling that there is something good out there.  Is there any hope?  Can anyone relate?

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I Care

  January 3rd, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

A lot of times when I post, I’m talking about my own problems. At the same time, part of the reason I’m here is because I care about what happens to the rest of you too. Sometimes it feels like I just have too much empathy for people in excruciating emotional and mental pain. It hurts to see you all hurting so bad. I want to help each and every one of you, but I know it’s not possible.

If you’re reading this, just know that someone out there in the world cares about what happens to you. I’ve been known to be crass, harsh, and …

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This is it

  January 3rd, 2019 by anonymousbuthere

Goodbye, world.

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Sorry, Goodbye

  January 3rd, 2019 by anonymousbuthere

I have a good life. I have parents, siblings, God, friends and love. But… I’m empty. I’m selfish. I try to pretend to be humble, but at the end of the day, I’m just trying to stand out. And I hate it. I’m inflicting pain on those who try to care for me. I give them troubles and tribulations. It’s not fair. I’m sorry; it’s all my fault. But everything will be ok now. Thank you for doing things that I never will deserve. Sorry for being weak, pathetic, anxious, self-absorbed, narcissistic, and pretentious. I love you endlessly. Sorry for being this way.

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Adderall

  January 2nd, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

I think I’m addicted to Adderall but I’m not sure. What’s the difference between recreational use and an addiction? I started using because it helped with depression and motivation issues related to depression. I dont know now.

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Almost

  January 2nd, 2019 by heartlessviking

I almost succeeded in doing it. I was going to quietly fade away…. it was so fucking close. The pain was delicious. *sigh*

They can’t get me a therapist for another month. My car broke down on the way home from the hospital and am still waiting to find out how bad that is going to be.

It’s just, enough. I don’t care about hurting anyone anymore. No one fucking cares how hurt I am….

It doesn’t matter. If I express my method they’ll just lock me up and put me on bad drugs. When the time comes I’m going to quietly go out and do it, screw …

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….

  January 2nd, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Ever since I deleted the video game my ex bf plays (that was my main way of communicating with him these days), I’ve felt sick, mostly been in bed for the past 2 days…
I’m not sure if that’s a coincidence.
And I want to die so badly…
I must have him in my life…
Oh, I must…
No, I don’t need to have him in my life.
He might as well be an addictive drug and I stopped taking that drug. I hope this gets easier over time 🙁

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It doesn’t matter anymore

  January 2nd, 2019 by careforme

Its been a rough few couple of days finding out the guy who is your best friend is also your crush I told him how I felt and now I regret it every single damn day because he doesn’t like me more then a friend instead he’s in love with his best friend she’s his lock screen and everything im not trying to sound jealous but im hurt because he knew I liked him and he never once told me about her so im really hurt and broken but what’s it matter right my life is shit everyday so fuck everyone im done 🙁 im …

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The Walls aren’t real

  January 2nd, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

Today, I told a friend of mine that I’ve been feeling depressed. I told her about how I didnt like my job, how I wish I wouldve gone to school for music instead, how I was concerned about my Adderall use, how I’m 27 and still single. Her response was ” You forget the world is so big. The walls you see are man’s creation. You need to see past the illusion of the society we live in.”

Illusions indeed. I got so caught up in what I thought everyone else might have been judging me about that I hadn’t stopped to think that not many …

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Does anyone else identify as an animal?

  January 2nd, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

I know that I’m a mouse.
Does anyone know that they are an animal? Are you a dog, cat, rabbit, lion, tiger, wolf, dragon?
I don’t tell people that I’m a mouse because they would think that I’m a freak.

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Cryptic Venting

  January 2nd, 2019 by thehusk

Life and me…we don’t mix well. And a large part of that is on me. I had to be the one with all this neurotic shit built into the very foundation of his mind. Everyone else seems to do just fine without thinking about it (though maybe some are in denial.) But I had to be the one to get all hung up on what cannot be. So I get to spend years torturing myself over this fucking dumb distortion. My mind is fucking broken, at the deepest emotional level. The thing that feels most meaningful in this world is something that cannot be. And …

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Strange feeling…

  January 2nd, 2019 by lonewolf23

I haven’t felt this way in a while. It happens very rarely with me even when I should feel this way but i think I’ll let it have it’s expression for a change. I rarely get angry. I’m always really calm and easygoing but after cowering in my room for 5 days straight and not doing anything but sitting on my bed all day and napping here and there with a couple sides of deep thought…..I’ve had enough of just simply existing. I have 2 job interviews tomorrow so I guess that’s something to look forward to. I suppose it’s healthy to release some pent …

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Torn between staying with my gf and leaving for a monastery

  January 2nd, 2019 by Black Holez

I’m torn. I’m 33 years old. I’ve got a gf of 13 years with me and God knows I want to marry her, have kids and be with her forever but given my current situation, I don’t even think I can provide her with what she wants – children and family. On the other hand, the allure of becoming a monk and being in a monastery grows more and more by the day. I’ve got nothing going for me. I’ve got no job, I’ve got no friends and I’m constantly depressed all the time knowing I’ve pushed away people and having no one in my …

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  January 2nd, 2019 by Tellmewhy

Does anyone know the whole truth about all?

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Hmm, 349 days without a drink..

  January 1st, 2019 by headupunderdarkcloud

..maybe 350, how much does a couple more hours really matter though? It was an interesting thing, and now over.. Not like I’ve tried, but the last 9 nights has seen to that. Last night’s was a half bottle of Jack and couple flutes of cheap Champaign. I celebrated, watching reruns of the Larry Sanders show and half-heartedly alphabetizing my record collection. Pretty spectacular evening. Happy New Year!

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