Its been a long time since ive been here.
I was 14 or 15 when i found this site and im 19 now. Its pretty crazy to be back on here but i need some kind of support. Dont get me wrong ive grown a lot and for a while i felt happy. I thought things get better but they dont. Happy fades and misery will take over soon enough. Except now im miserable about more serious things like being able to pay for a roof over my head. I feel like im drowning and theres nobody at the surface to pull me up.
Sometimes when im driving to work ill just think to myself “i wish id get in a car accident” because i feel so done with life. I feel drained and tored and just done. I feel like at any moment i could die and it would all be over.
I dont even have anyone to talk to about it. I mention how i feel to my boyfriend and he gets angry at me. I know it hurts him that i want to hurt myself but sometimes i nust need a hug and he doesnt understand that.
I just wanna sleep. 🙁