Yes. I’m okay.
I can finally breathe. Exams are over. 2 rotations down, 4 more to go.
I feel… Alive.
No cutting needed. Haven’t made a cut in over 2 months.
Suicide thoughts… What is that again?
I’m moving on. I’m moving forward. Ylem is getting her life back on track and I couldn’t be happier.
I’ll make a proper update when I’m not as busy. Just wanted to pop in, say hi and see how all of you have been doing.
Keep smiling peeps.
Ylem is out!!
I saw my friend again for the first time in forever (like 2 months!) which is the longest it’s gone without seeing him. And he says the same old thing, that it’s not all about looks to him but it clearly is, because no one is up to the very high standards he sets for girls. If she couldn’t be a supermodel or a hot stripper or porn star, or is too many additional 1lb increments over the 100 lb limit, then there’s not a chance in hell they could get with him. And that’s how he is whether he will admit it or not.
So anyway, he […]
Its been awhile probably because I’ve been happy and getting good help. But now some bad decisions on my part has triggered my depression bad. I’m trying not to think suicidal but i am going to cut so I won’t. I was 2 months clean. I hate my life.
Im 22 years .Ive been with a girl for 3 years i gave her my all. I fucked up talked to someone . I never cheated just talked. She left me a month ago. she left school and left me with all the and the 2 cats. Today i lost my job. So i cant pay rent. Im behind 2 months on cable and dte. I cant do it anymore Im not strong enough anymore. Im miserable. I tried to OD on tylenol. That didnt work. Im depressed. Ive never n so I my life. Ive slit my wrist, is my first time it it […]
It is sad to think that today you would have been 19.. I feel like people all around nd me die so young . Probably even for you all. Good souls are taken every day . Kids are being diagnosed with cancer at 2, people are being killed by terrorists, or even getting into a car accident . He died just a 2 months before his 18th. […]
I have known my husband for 5 years, married for 3.
I have come to the conclusion that one does not know loneliness until married to someone who ignores you.
Intimacy and sex are very important to me. I love cuddling, massaging, touching, and making love to my husband. My husband does not reciprocate very much. And now he also doesn’t have sex very much. My husband has depression. In the last 6 1/2 months we have had sex 4 times. 4 (that’s four) times in 6 1/2 months (little over half a year). We used to have sex everyday.
My husband also likes to […]
I haven’t been happy in almost 2 months everyday it seems like I’ll never be happy again I’m still trying to get over my ex And I have other problems I keep thinking that life’s going to get better but when I’ve been waiting for a while I do think about suicide and cutting myself I haven’t cut myself in a few weeks and I also want to run away from home I want to cry but I try to hold it back and I feel like I have no one to talk to about all this I don’t think I’ll be happy anytime soon […]
There’s no hope of my finding a place to live. My income isn’t enough for an SRO which is stricter than getting an apartment. Those are shitty jail cell sized rooms you pay as much for as an apartment, to share a bathroom with the building, having to eat all of your meals out as food isn’t allowed, and you can’t have visitors. Even worse is proving income. You can’t prove you have an income at all when everything is done over the internet. I get paid through online payroll services to an online (prepaid) bank account. No paper is exchanged and that’s what they […]
If I don’t feel better by 2 months or so I’m going to kill myself.
I haven’t cut myself for like 2 months, but I really want to right now. I just need to feel the pain.
So, I will maybe make a journal to force me stop eating until death.
Next month, I will be completely alone in the flat for 2 months, so it would be easy to let me die. It’s ideal.
I hope I will become very weak, and the death will be sweet.
I tried some times, but there have been things that made me consider that hope in my life was still possible. I was wrong everytime.
I have no money, because unemployed, and the social help stopped, and I won’t ask them another help, I have one month, and I won’t be tempted to buy food, because I have no […]
paralyzed as my chest felt heavy i saw him after 2 months. i wasnt in good mood but i wanted him to see me becase i knew if he did we would both smile but that never happened. feeling guilty because i have a bf but he always crawls his way into my heart. he’s mysterious, dark, and is beautiful while my bf is dark, sarcastic, and also beautiful. they both make me smile and laugh at my worst times and are both there for me. (no joke this feels like some twilight bullshit.)
my ex came back into my life. She told me the biggest load of bullshit and that we need to stop talking, then 2 months later she texts me about how she cried cause she missed me. WHat the fuck. HOW’re you gonna lie to me, then tell then come back 2 months later. I tried so hard to bring back the relationship but she just ignored me. I brought her back of course, she’s like the only person i think ever cared about me, About my well being. Shes the only person on earth who knows im suicidal. She’s the main reason i wanna […]
I was longer than I’ve ever been without self harming. Yesterday made it exactly 2 months.. but it’s been so hard amd each day has been exhausting. Today I just couldn’t handle it anymore, and I cut. :'( Here it starts again….. sigh. I really can’t handle this much longer, literally
I’m afraid of my exam. 2 months more. I feel I wanna suicide. I may get bad grades. I’m little weak. If I fail my 1st time advanced exam is that the end of my future success. Please help. I can’t make my parents sad either with my bad grades. I’m suicidal. Your comments are highly appreciated.
When I was a freshman in high school. I thought graduating would be some type of exciting, overly overwhelming, and a burst of happiness moment. Well looks like I was wrong again, It’s the week of my graduation, my depression is back again, I’m not stable whatsoever financially or emotionally, my relationship w/ my boyfriend is most likely going to crumble within 2 months or so, I’m just very unhappy. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Now I’m here. Typing this bullshit. Fuck.
Im not crazy , just alone, need employment, cant get out of house, lost my last job 2 months ago hitting on a girl, which i would never do ever but wasnt thinking clearly from the kratom. Im about 400 pounds and i feel lazy and lethargic alot. I worked at 711 for about a year, hard to keep up but i tried reallh hard. Then i got a job as a security officer. im a nice guy, why did i have to hit on that woman, i should of not did it, noe i have 14 dollars living with my brother, ive messed up […]
I took the biggest leap in attempting to exit last night and it failed… obviously. So many things could have gone wrong or the helium wasn’t as pure as I was led to believe, but once I put the bag on, I was so sure I’d be a goner. Two days prior and I failed hanging myself nearly 30 different times/positions. I am in a state of regrouping as I will try until success… I can almost see my last resort being to fully hang myself (full suspension bs my failed partial suspension) but not until I try once more with the helium… and not […]
3 years, 2 months and 10 days ago I tried to kill myself. Long story short I took a bunch of pills, wound up in the hospital and was saved. After a 6th months of pills, therapy I gave up on other people to solve my problem for me. I began the internal struggle of dealing with my depression and suicidal thoughts. Since then I have graduated high school, gone to college, and made many other advancements in my life. I guess you could say things were going well.
When I started college I joined the ROTC program because it had always been my dream serve my […]
Just a glimpse into my ordinary life…I was at work just like every other day and decided to check my personal email on my phone during lunch. A funny yet perverted friend of mine found a craigslist ad and receive various semi-nude and nude photos from the person and he sent them to me. This is nothing new but in the pictures, the background items seemed familiar. I ask him to forward the email chain to me and I pulled the metadata from the pictures and they were taken at the same time as my wife was at a friend’s house out-of-state and the make […]
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