Escape. That’s what we desire. Want. Who doesn’t need to be wanted? This is our shot.
The reason we feel so empty and vile about ourselves isn’t our fault, it’s our
environment. We are one and the same and we need to take steps to stay alive. That’s
why I’m leaving to roam the country, feel free and alive again…like I did before and
I’m inviting any of you to join me. All we need is each other. There is unity in who
we are. We may be the black sheep, the broken hearted, the crazy psychos. But we are
also the explorers, the innovators, the care free, and the loving. We got one life to
live and maybe we feel so down because we aren’t living it. I already have a car, I plan
on getting a different vehicle before I leave. This will all happen within the next
month to 3 months at the max. Currently I am only going to bring along people 18+. I just would
love some companions on my journey. With nothing to hold us back, There is a place out
there for us all, we just need to find it. Whether you string along with me until the
end or you find where you want to be in a small little town you’re free to come or go
as you please. We won’t struggle, I know how to survive this kind of life as I’ve done
it before. If you don’t have a committment to your children there is no reason for you
to say no to coming with me, for you have no obligations. Hold my hand and know that
there are brighter days for all of us. It’s just on you take this opportunity to embrace
it. I know I’ve decided and I am. This will be in America, but if you are from another
country, we can always try to get you here. Truth is I’ve felt the same as everyones
posts I been reading and it makes me sad. We are all so full of potentional and we
could change the world it’s just that we don’t feel good mentally. I don’t want us to
die I want us to be together. We really are one, and we’ll go from place to place, telling
and making new stories, meeting new people, helping others, looking for a place to call
home, listening to our music, hopping trains, fishing for food, camping, driving down
abandoned roads at 90 mph, read books under the stars, party with strangers, exploring
places people rarely see, and sharing it all with the people we care about. I’m inviting
you all to a new lifestyle. I’m inviting you all to the TRLT legacy. The Road Less
Traveled= TRLT. Don’t give up on life, love rewards love, and anything that endures for
a shorter time than the soul does is incapible of satisfying the soul. Well these memories
will last forever. TRLT Legacy.
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I think i know whats wrong with me now. Its not that im suicidal. I just dont care about myself or anyone else anymore. I used to be the most talkative person to the point my mother told i talk too much as much as she does. But one thing I can say I’ve learned about people and myself is that for some it takes a lot to change them or for some like the joker says in the dark night it only takes a little push. I myself was to take a lot however letting my current girlfriend deep into my heart was a huge mistake. She has done so much damage to me to where I dont trust what people say, I get angry over small things, I dont care about people, and I just want to be left alone. I leave for boot camp in 22 days and I already feel lost and what im told the Marines do in trainning I feel like my mind will be permanently fixed this way. I want to be who I was again not who I am now. I havent prayed in awhile because I feel God hasnt been listening to me so my faith is about gone. I wont tell my parents because they will put me in counseling. I guess the purpose of this post is not that im giving up but I want to find myself before its too late. Can anyone help or guide me somehow?
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by KissOfDeath
written by KissOfDeath
It seems like forever since I’ve been on this website, and I pity myself for needing to come back, for needing to vent about something that never leaves, the follows me as close as my own shadow.
This feeling, this dreaded feeling is back, and as I try, day by day, to push it to the back of my mind, all it does is grow, feeding off my happiness.
I’m upset, so upset that it seems that all is going well, yet this feeling won’t allow me to feel joy, to feel anything besides remorse. I want to be the one who is always smiling, not just externally, but internally too.
There’s no way to avoid this feeling, no way to diminish it, so I might as well welcome it.
So here I am, welcoming the ending, with shaking arms and a flooded heart.
Maybe when I’m engulfed by this feeling, I won’t feel anything anymore.
I’ve got a roommate that I love dearly. Keep in mind, I knew that he didn’t want to marry me, he claimed is was just his friend. He’s was not in the best of health, and I’ve done things for him that only medical people would do; enemas, insulin shots, emptied urinals. I’ve even handled his mail and banking when he’s in the hospital. Now, after 15 years, his health is better, and he’s going back to his old self, screwing any female that looks like a stripper.
But this man, whom I love dearly, doesn’t love me. We got into a hell of a fight. I’m not good enough for him; I’m lazy and fat, and just tonight he hit me twice and called me an “idiot”, “Fucking *****”, “Crazy *****”, etc.
You see, I’m 49 years old. I was molested as a child and my father HATED me. I have no children, no family, no friends. I’m Bi-Polar II and have horrible PMS. In the past I’ve lost my house, my car, several jobs, and my husband. Currently I have no money, no job, and nowhere to go.
As if now I have 30 days to get move out. Where the fuck am I going to go?
I don’t want to “start again”. I don’t want a “new beginning”. I just want out. But I don’t have the courage or the means to kill myself. I’m so fucking useless, even to myself.
Thanks for listening.
Today I went to my same old school followed the same routine with the same people who wouldn’t care if I never showed up again. I listen and talked while I was ignored again and no one even noticed when i didn’t show up to lunch. I don’t belong where I am and I feel so alone. Nothing matters to me anymore, not sports, not running, not being social, I used to love to go out but now i just want to stay in bed all day and shut my brain off. The only reason Im still fighting is for my little sister and my mom, Im losing hope of getting better and starting to give up…….
~SN
People call suicide “Selfish,”
Well I believe it’s time for me to be selfish.
All this world has done for me is drag me down,
it’s the weight that’s pulling me down to the bottom.
Why should I care about others feelings being hurt,
when they have done nothing to benefit mine.
We’re all going to die sometime,
so why not do it now?
Get it over with,
so the scars of grief caused by our deaths heal,
so our sorrow of being alive will end.
so hi… to be honest i dont know what i am supposed to put on here so im going to try this. yes i am very sad,
no my dad doesnt rape me. no my family does not hit me. actually my moms side of the family is nice ..
my dad does drink all the time. my mom is very stressed, my sister hates everything and my brother is bullied, people are very mean to me for being diffrent , and liking things normal 14 year olds would like… im the girl you walk by in the mall who has eye liner every where and all black and your mom looks at you and she shakes her head. im also the girl who is called “hoe” “slut” and nameslike those. i came to this website to see if anyone understands me… i mean i hardly understand myself but still… ummm i dont if any one will actaully take the time to read this but if you do please comment and tell me if im not insane
have you ever wanted to die?
have you ever been up at 3 in the morning crying feeling so sad you use a piece of metal to cut your wrist or thigh or where ever open… and it makes you feel better ??
have you ever felt worthless? yep thats me i cant stop cutting. or crying. i want to die you know it sucks. pills dont help, talking to a person who doesnt even know who understands me, they just went to collage and now they think they can talk to me about it, and they sit in there chair stairing at me nodding there head, because thats what there getting paid to do. well i have to go but i will finish this later
i want all of you to know . if you feel the way i do, your amazing , and perfect.. please dont give up i love you