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Agonizing Death

Wasnt sure but now I am.

by Johndoeman 6/16/2012

written by Johndoeman

I have tried to kill myself several times. I know I failed cuz I was holding back. Now I no longer feel the need to. I mean I have made a serious effort ( time in hospital and sanatorium) but I could have done it better and have made sure it worked.

Last month I had the privilege of spending 3 days with my father as he died an agonizing death. I am now certain there is no God. No more fear of the after life as I am now certain there isn’t one. Nothing mystic about dying now, we are just animals and we all […]

6/16/2012 1 comment

Obsessive

by Ewald 3/19/2009

written by Ewald

I’m mildly obsessed with the idea of taking my life.

Almost any way possible if I can do it semi-passively.Â It’s almost ironic that I’m no longer afraid of heights because I’d like to fall from them.Â Right now, I’d like to go back downstairs and take the knife and start writing in my skin with blood.Â Conquer my fear of pain as well.

And I’d jut cut and cut and cut.

And if I accidentally let too much blood flow out?Â All the better.

Lately I’ve been trying to deal with food.Â I’ve been forgetting to eat every now and then and eating things with barely any calories […]

3/19/2009 5 comments