I’ve lived anything but a normal life & I just turned 20. My parents were both abused. My dad was physically beaten by his father. My mother was raped many times during her childhood by her step dad. My parents hooked up (drunk) at a party & 9 months later I was born. I am a bastard. My parents got married when I was 3. My mom was addicted to crack until I was in kindergarten. My dad physically & emotionally abused her until she left him (moved out) when I was in 7th grade. My mom stayed with him that long because she wanted […]
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Amber
Amber afternoon
Too cold to cross the room
Angels patrol our roof
Black eyes and cigarettes
Blue smoke and tenderness
Never leave the bed
You wait for me and I will pick you up right here (x3)
Old souls (x3)
I had a good friend commit suicide 5 years ago. I love and miss you Amber. I know you have found peace.
So when i was about 5 i lost my parents, well at the time none of my family wanted me so i went to foster care. When i was about 8 years old i was adopted by great parents, or at least i thought. Growing up it was alright i got picked on alot though because ive always had short hair my whole life ive had it. Well it wasnt until recently that i had started coming out with being a lesbian. Everyone hated me at my school. I only had one friend which was my sister Amber. Im 13 and shes 14. I became […]
I’ve been thinking about you today. How are you doing? How was your day? Were you able to talk to your kids today? Stay strong!
Why do siblings always know exactly where to peirce you with a knife to make it hurt so bad that you just want to crumble into a million pieces and just break down and fall and cry forever. They can always make sure you are always either happy or sad. One jab of that stupid knife of theirs and youre down for the count.
I hate feeling left out and hate when people make me feel small and my sisters know that. I just went into my sisters room real quick to tell her something and she told me to get out. (not a good […]
This is for a friend of mine, who had longed to leave this life behind.Â
Her name was Amber and she was a ray of brilliance. Her life seemed like any other. (not to say it was perfect. Her mum never had never any time for her so, she was at my house often. Once, we even threw her a birthday party because her mum had either forgotten or didn’t have the money) Amber was beautiful and smart, too. She was accepted into one of those magnet schools and was successful in her early years of school. She quit the magnet school, however. I recall her grades […]
I spent most of today doing math homework with a girl from my class. Â I actually didn’t mind the math homework so much because at least it meant I got to socialize with someone. Â But it also depressed me. Â She kept getting messages on her phone from friends and several people she knew stopped to say hi to her as they walked to class. Â And then there’s me, for whom it’s unusual if I get more than a couple texts a week and all the social interactions I’ve had in the past 7 months can be counted on my hands. Â I miss Amber more […]
amber died today, at 10:30 AM, January 10th. 2012. I just got out of school thanks to exams, and she was sleeping at my house. I will never ever forget that sight…I will definetly have nightmares. Sorry for telling everyone my ‘life-story’ but i feel so much better when i tell someone, even if it is on the internet. Please, DON’T TRY TO KILL YOURSELVES!!!!! Life is worth it, trust me. Things will get better, I promise.
i don’t really know what to say so I’ll start with this. I’m not suicidal. I’m just on this page because I learned in class that Suicide is probably on the charts of teen killings. I don’t understand why people would wanna take their lives away. I’m deeply sadden. And I’m not just saying that. Killing yourself is very sad. And I barley know you guys, just wonder how your loved ones feel. And if you’re saying “loved ones”? Wtf is she talking about…I don’t have any loved ones. Ok, but do you honesty think killing yourself is the ultimate answer? I mean seriously, its […]