My husband has left me. I cant take it. Why is God letting me suffer? Why is he letting my husband hurt me like this? Our marriage hasnt been the best the past year and now its officially over. I dont want this. We have a newborn and I think im pregnant again. My husband says im nothing to him and he hopes i kill myself. He practically cheers me on to do it. Ive cried and begged God to help me. But i dont get anything. I know i shouldnt want to die cause of my kids. But my husband says they are better […]
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I can’t stop listening to these songs.. they describe my pain my sadness my anger… The story of my end…
Mudvayne – scream with me
Ever feel like dying, Ever feel alone, Ever feel like crying, Lost child in a store, Ever feel life pushing, Shoving you away, Ever feel like breaking down, Funeral in the rain
Feel life slipping away, Stand in the corner and scream with me, A body full of empty, A head thats full of rage, Better belive it, Stand in the closet and scream with me A mind thats like a fire, Driven by the pain, Better believe it
Ever feel like lying, Down […]
Emotions swirling
Happiness, anger, sadness
Which do i feel?
I feel fake
Unloved, unwanted
I am weak
Just a side character
I seek to be noticed
and held
But no one can see me
Amd i transparent? Invisible?
Doesn`t anybody care?
I cry silent tears
and everything i say falls on deaf ears
I am a souless doll
I have no free will
A doll`s emotions are painted on
Artificial
No one knows what the doll wanted
For the doll doesn`t speak for itself
I have to be a Fake person
to be seen
I have to be perfect
not me
I have to live up to
Expectations
not my limits
Everyday my will and emotions leak
From a cut in my being
A cut so deep that not even stitches
Could keep infection out
I […]
I have made my decision no chickening out. Â I am posting this so when my family goes through my phone which they will they will see i weighed my options and i was sure. Â You cant escape yourself and i am the problem i cant blame anyone but me. I truly believe this is the best for everyone no more worries about me cutting or worries about me being depressed i will be gone and their lives can go on and be happy. They deserve te best amd im not it
Well I ask you all. Is this world worth livng in anymore? I can’t find very many reasons for it to be. And I’m so young I should be enjoying life but instead I’m depressed andd looking for a way out. I’m to chiken to kill myself though. I don’t wanna die in pain. I want to die fast and not painfull. And I sure as hell don’t want to come back. Yes my parents and friends may miss me but they would have to understand I can’t handel it anymore. I’m not gonna go anywhere in life. I will probally become a drug addict […]
Today was actually ok, my dad didnt yell that much my mom was nice and everything went pretty smoothly…only probelm is tommorows monday amd get to see all the bitchy cheerlearders and other annoying assholes…i wish my friends understood, whemever i start to tell them they get this wierd arkward lookso i always end up making it into a joke and pretend it was nothing. Im tired if trying to conform into to someome im not..i dont even know who i anymore. From basicaly kindergarden i was the “wierd kid” the one who was always too mature, my mom used to call me an […]