Hello everyone. I don’t understand my depression and often times I want to kill myself for being so goddamn fucking stupid and putting my boyfriend through hell. Me and my brother both have clinical depression. This isn’t something that can be fixed with just “positive thinking”. We need our anti-depressents. I hate to say the most cliche thing any depressed person could ever say but I really have always been a lonely person who never could hold a friendship. Kids wouldn’t tease me,They would belittle me. This isn’t what has made me depressed but this has shaped my lack of social skills. This world and […]
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Im going to keep this short, and I`ll be back.
Mom, Dad,and well everyone else, You`ll never read this but Im sorry. Sorry for everything. Im sorry your daughter goes to sleep wanting to kill herself. Im sorry you dont understand. Im not trying to act like a whore, but if being wanted is what keeps me alive let me keep it. I cant do this anymore. Im going to wait till im on the anti depressents, Im going to pretend everythings okay. But if one more thing happens..Im gone. Out of this world.
“If you want to help me, help me die”…Im not happy anymore..And i […]
in responce to that first comment on my last blog (sorry about the spelling): i didnt mean for it to sound like i was competing, or even to insinuate that this is, somehow a competion. just that i got the feeling that my last post was being pooh- poohed as unimportat. any way. i cant talk to my friend (we’re 17), thats really the whole problem, i dont know how to express my self (hense competition thing), i either underestimate the whole situation, and then people dont belive me, or i go ott, and end up getting really defensive.Â
i cant talk to my mum or dad, […]