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Anxiety Disorder

I’ve been considering suicide for a long time.

by jessvhp 3/12/2014

written by jessvhp

Hello. I’m jess. I’m fourteen years old, and I’ve gone crazy.

I found this site when I was looking for ways to commit suicide. I thought it would be nice to finally talk to someone, and explain my madness to them.

I’m going to list all the reasons why I want to end my life.

1. I live in a country that’s incredibly corrupt. I don’t see a future for me, and we’re going through so much pain right now… that I want to end it. I’m filled with rage.

2. I know I’m young, but I’ve done things I shouldn’t have and my anxiety is killing me because […]

3/12/2014 5 comments

A waste…

by roseofsharon19 9/11/2013

written by roseofsharon19

I am a 20 year old female attending university within my home town. I honestly feel lost within my own life. I am a waste of space. I do not know how to cook, terrible at cleaning, and struggle to manage a workload in school that others would find easy. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety disorder. I was never social as a child; I can’t go up to someone and start a conversation. I had a happy childhood, up to a point. Our home has come under disrepair within the past decade or so. I love my parents, at least I […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

How do you know when it’s time??

by Blue Butterfly 8/26/2013

written by Blue Butterfly

Hi there, i’m not going to bore you with my life story, i’ll be here all day! But just in a nutshell, I’ve suffered from severe depression, anxiety and Borderline personality disorder for over 10 years. I’ve tried absolutely everything to try get better, including ECT. Â Anyway, I’ve been thinking about suicide for at least the last 2 years and I’ve attempted several timesÂ with no luck (obviously!). I really cannot stand living anymore and the pain is unbearable!

Just out of curiosity, how do you know when enough is enough? I see some of you have set a deadline (scuse the pun) for your suicide. How […]

8/26/2013 5 comments

Contemplating my death

by Ladylady 7/17/2013

written by Ladylady

Since I was seventeen I have suffered from an anxiety disorder so that’s four years now. It gets better then it gets worse. The constant up and down exhausts me so much. I have tried all types of treatments and I consider myself quite a worldly and wise person for my age. I have tried much self therapy and my own things to help with recovery but I have only gotten so far and fallen back in the hole that is my disorder. I have contemplated suicide numerous times but have never actually attempted it. I’m sick of it and I’m just tired so tired. […]

7/17/2013 4 comments

Depressed aquarius

by imperfectionist 7/17/2013

written by imperfectionist

To whomever reads this

I see a therapist to deal with my anxiety disorder that is heavily plagued with panic attacks and I am often ‘scared’ into a state of immobility where I cannot think move or breathe for short periods of time.

Anyway, we were discussing characteristics of what a person with anxiety exhibits and whether there are any common links. He had studied all his patients (and aside from other details he wasn’t able to release under confidentiality laws) he was able to tell me 64% of his patients were aquarius.

It is funny that this statistic exists. A profiling overview of an aquarius person states […]

7/17/2013 12 comments

Opening up.

by Depersonalization 7/16/2013

written by Depersonalization

I had never heard of this sight until tonight. I saw a friend post about it on Facebook & instantly thought that it was a sign.

Let me just begin with a little bit about me. I am 18, I live in a town I hate, & I hate most people. I’ve never really blogged, but I’ve always wanted to. It really helps me to write & I need to have a way to calm myself down. I really don’t know how to explain myself because I don’t really know who I am anymore. I don’t want to hear that I’m too young & that I […]

7/16/2013 4 comments

A bit edgy and uneasy.

by lenabeaumont 7/12/2013

written by lenabeaumont

Lately, i’ve been thinking about suicide. This anxiety is eating me out alive. I feel it nonstop, it’s always there. The feeling is so unreal, that it’s a mixture of the shock you get after hearing about the death of a loved one, and going down a big hill on a roller coaster. I have an anxiety disorder and a broken family. My parents rarely understand anything i’m going through, yet they’re always there for me. There’s a boy I love and he doesn’t love me back. He’s also depressed. If he were to die today, so would I. It would be my fault if […]

7/12/2013 1 comment

by bethymas 3/4/2013

written by bethymas

I literally have suicidal thoughts in my head all of the time. I can’t even cope anymore, I have no one now me and my boyfriend broke up:( Â I thought he was going to help me get through everything but clearly not. It all started at the beginning of 2012, we started talking and I was so happy but then I Â started to get Â bullied. I then developed an eating disorder, anxiety disorder and depression. I started to cut myself and ended up having cuts all up my wrists and thighs. I would go home and cry for hours. During this time, Â Josh, my boyfriend, […]

3/4/2013 0 comment

General Information

by Ana 2/17/2013

written by Ana

Hi I’m Ana.

I made an account because this site looked interesting, and I’ve been suicidal for a long time. So while I’m here, I just thought I’d give you some general information about myself.

-I’m 15 years old, and more mature than a lot of teenagers my age.

-Female

-I’m insecure about a lot of things, but one thing about myself is that I’m damn well proud of my body.

-I’m easily angered.

-I don’t share a lot of personally information.

Disorders, Hospitalizations, Self-harm History

Disorders

(None of these have been self-diagnosed)

Mood Disorder (most likely bi-polar)

Anxiety Disorder

SexualÂ Re-activityÂ Disorder

Anorexia Nervosa

2/17/2013 9 comments

You know that feeling…

by mysmilecoversalot :) 12/26/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

You know that feeling when you are losing yourself again, when everything you’ve worked so hard to build up is falling apart? You know you’re slipping but there’s nothing you can do except pray for strength.

I’m 17 and I’ve felt this way far too many times.

I feel lost, like my life has lost all its meaning.

This year, right after summer vacation I was called into the counselors office at school. Last year I had an eating disorder but refused all the help my teachers and counselors tried to give me. She was just checking on me and I excitedly told her how […]

12/26/2012 2 comments

I can’t explain why…

by mysmilecoversalot :) 12/22/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

I’m 17 years old, a senior in high school. My grades are flawless, I’m going to college next year on an academic scholarship. I’m going to be a neonatal nurse, to save innocent babies. I’ve never drank, never smoked, I rarely swear, I refuse to do drugs, andÂ I’ve told guys no when they want to sleep with me, all to set a good example for my younger sisters. My teachers love me,”I never fail to brighten their day!” Next month I’m going to be an American Sign Language teacher to elementary students and in March I’m going to be an aunt for the first […]

12/22/2012 6 comments

I’m done.

by melirochka 12/14/2012

written by melirochka

Well let me begin from theÂ beginning…I was born in Ukraine and moved here when i was four with my parents and my brother, i learnedÂ EnglishÂ and life was great even though we were poor. Then we moved to a little town with a little school and life gradually started getting worse by the day, we had financial problems and my mom went to school when I was in the 9th grade, so she was always stressed and she would put all her anger on my brother and I, but especially on me. I’ve always been on the heavy side, and always have been made fun of […]

12/14/2012 2 comments

i dont know why

by jessjesslynn 11/29/2012

written by jessjesslynn

my name is jess and ive been fighting deppression for 3 years i have also been fighting self harm for 2 year and i have recently stopped (for now) and i have an anxiety disorder. so as you can see, im pretty messed up! but what i am going to tell you next you might think im really crazy i think. but for some reason i fantisize about death. i have always just wanted to die. i dont know why i guess cause my life is just so effed up. maybe because ive lived enough of my life to know that i dont want to […]

11/29/2012 1 comment

I’m such a waste.

by Adrienne 9/11/2012

written by Adrienne

I posted something the other day, but it really didn’t explain my ‘history’ as people are calling it.

Hey. I’m Adrienne. People call me Addie. I’m almost 18. I have a great family (except my dad). I put a shitload of pressure on myself. I have been cutting myself for about 6 years. It got pretty hard-core during the last 3 years. I don’t do it to feel alive, per se; I do it to punish myself for anything I can think of, or if I just feel depressed. I have attempted suicide twice, both times failing (obviously). I have been seriously considering doing it again, […]

9/11/2012 3 comments

A few options beyond psychiatric meds

by jennydreadful 8/10/2012

written by jennydreadful

First off, I want to say that I understand how people here feel, because I felt that way for years.Â And I do believe in an individual’s right to take their own life.Â So I’m not going to tell anyone that it’s bad to feel that way.Â I’ve noticed that some people here feel that they’ve exhausted their options, so I just wanted to throw a few out there that a lot of people don’t know about.Â So if you’re someone that would like to live if you could just feel better, think about looking into the things below:

-Hormonal imbalances and blood sugar disorders can […]

8/10/2012 0 comment

i wish that i didn’t feel like a monster

by tphg 8/1/2012

written by tphg

i feel ugly inside, like i have nothing positive to offer the people of earth. all the wrong things bring me joy and the right things make me feel uncomfortable. i laughed at a disabled woman on saturday and it was the hardest and most enjoyable laugh that ive had in months. i look forward to other peoples misery and usually slink away from smiling faces and the stories behind them.

what am i? i dont believe in anything(angels, demons etc) so im just a disturbed human. ive been hurt to the point that other peoples hurt is all that i crave; hurt people hurt […]

8/1/2012 5 comments

Feels like I’m living a double life

by rose1234 6/17/2012

written by rose1234

Its seriously amazing at what you can hide by just putting on a smile. I am currently struggling with anxiety disorder, depression, and an eating disorder (Ednos). I hate my body and my self esteem is broken. Every time I talk to a guy, I have to back off because I don’t think I deserve to be loved. If I can’t even love myself ya know? I feel bad for anyone to ever like me because I have to hide how emotionally damaged I am. They don’t deserve to love me I’m tooo broken to deserve shit. I just want to be happy. No one […]

6/17/2012 5 comments

Torement.

by Empty_Soul 6/14/2012

written by Empty_Soul

Severe clinical depression, anxiety disorder.. Cutting, 2 failed attempts. I have felt lost, hopeless, disconnected from life and it’s surroundings. Everything and everyone I’ve ever know has left me alone. I feel so confused. I believe I don’t have purpose anymore and I don’t know how to fix it. Many thoughts of another attempt plague my mind. I’ve had terrible luck with women in my life. I found this site and I knew I needed to get this off my chest. I would like to know if anyone can relate to me .. And if you guys/ girls want to know more about my […]

6/14/2012 2 comments

Why am I here?

by LostCause 6/9/2012

written by LostCause

I’m a christian. I love God with all my being, but i always wonder to myself why I’m here. My life is a miserable wreck. I’m fat and ugly. I’m not “popular”. I have almost no friends.Â My family is way messed up. My Dad doesn’t give a crap about me and my step mom is a snobby psycho. My sister is moved in with us for reasons I have no right to explain. My sisters daughter is everything I’m not and makes me feel jealous everyday, my little brother is a major douche bag and is probably going to end up caught […]

6/9/2012 1 comment

Mental illnesses don’t define me

by mysmilecoversalot :) 6/8/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Today I went to my cousin’s open house. There was this little girl there, 6 years old, that I had never met before. She saw me giving the other kids “airplane” rides and wanted one as well. She waited in line multiple times, until I was too exasted to lift anyone else. Then she wouldn’t stop following me, so I started talking to her. You know how little kids like to tell you really unimportant things and many times nobody truly listens to? Well I like to listen. I like to ask them questions and hear all the innocent things running through their heads. So […]

6/8/2012 3 comments

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