Apprehension

I was 13 when I realized that I would inevitably die.

I saw my body changing, and unlike most young teens who would
Enter a phase in which they cannot control their raging hormones and impulses, I merely noted the changes as the first leap toward my inevitable demise.

You see,

The change itself is what inspired this cognition.

I watched myself mature and it disgusted me.

My thoughts became more intelligent and clear, but apprehension and the reluctant realization of my mortality were the first discernible responses to the Change.

Life, at that moment, lost its magic.

I began writing. I played the guitar, in my room, […]