People say only cowards kill themselves…they need a way out so they take their own lives. That’s not true people have so many problems when they hit bottom you would think the only way to go from there is up. Some people like myself mentally and physically can’t we don’t see no were to go…we once had a thing that pushed us to live, but that thing is no longer there. I’m going to be honest I think about killing myself at least once a day. To be honest again if I knew how many pills to take then I would be already gone…I don’t want to wake back up I want to be gone. That’s why most kids today have not killed themselves they are afraid to wake back up. We go day by day thinking why would god put me in this life? Why would he suffer me like this? God loves all his children he gives us a path and we have to choose it…he want’s no matter what for us to live no matter what we are going through. That’s the amazing thing about humans we are born to fight. If you are like me I keep everything held in I don’t like to talk about my problems, it usually all builds up until I have a breaking point. I am at my breaking point now…I may not even be here tomorrow. People say that they are here for us and people love and will miss us but they don’t process the fact that once we are gone they will remember but like everything else they will forget…the love they had for us will still be there but the pain won’t hurt them after time passes…I know what all you guys are going through believe me I know. I am 15 and have a lot of life ahead of me but what I want most out of the world is not to live that life I want to be gone.
People call suicide “Selfish,”
Well I believe it’s time for me to be selfish.
All this world has done for me is drag me down,
it’s the weight that’s pulling me down to the bottom.
Why should I care about others feelings being hurt,
when they have done nothing to benefit mine.
We’re all going to die sometime,
so why not do it now?
Get it over with,
so the scars of grief caused by our deaths heal,
so our sorrow of being alive will end.
your halo of gold
i take it
i steal you away chil’
to my palace
in the darkness
i shape you
red and black
you are mine
out into the sun
into the moonlight
break them chil’
kill their babies
poison their water
burn their crops
break the glass
make them crumble
as they turn to ash
go forth chil’
leave your chocolate behind
and become the devil
this world will end
burn them all
I need some advice. Lately I have been worrying a lot about different things, and it is causing me to have more frequent (sometimes daily) anxiety attacks. I cannot keep taking xanax for them everytime, I don’t want to form an addiction.
But anyway, I’ve had worries and thoughts bouncing around in my head at 100 miles an hour. I worry about dad who is working 2 minimum wage jobs and having an nondependable car to travel to work. , I worry about my brother with cerebral palsy who is confined to his room because he doesn’t like to go places for fear of inconviening other people (he’s in a wheelchair), I worry about my mom and her weight, my mother’s boyfriend who has kids that abuse him, and my grandparents passing away. I love them so much. I worry about my fiance being unemployed and not being able to find work.
I worry about the homeless people I encounter in this cold weather. I’ve even been breaking down in tears if I see a dead animal in the road.
I want SO BADLY to help these people, but I can’t like I want to. I just want my mind to slow down!!! I know worrying won’t help anything, but I can’t stop. What should I do? How can I stop these anxiety attacks and worrying so much?