So my depression started when i was bullied severely in middle school and summer camp, people really don’t know how much this messes up a person. I became introverted and started thinking of my own death constantly at a young age , to the people that say it gets better i just have to laugh. Because now that I am older I found out that I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, and not to mention I am a 30 year old unsuccessful virgin that also has erectile dysfunction. It seems that God is just laughing at me just like the builles did when I was a […]
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Attempt Suicide
I never keep promises unless I reeeeeeeally have to
The only reason I keep any promises is when either the law or the medical establishment forces me to keep them…
I’m a survivor and haven’t yet killed myself, nor have I gone with counting down five years from now to die at my own hands, because I was made to swear that I wouldn’t attempt suicide again, nor ask to be helped to die again, by who? The fucking doctors. I love them, yet they give me a hard burden to bear. I love one friend in this world, a few family members only.
I never believed in […]
So after hours of deliberation, multiple new cuts, and a few realizations, it has come to be apparent that I should in fact attempt suicide once more. This will be the 3rd real dedicated attempt and hopefully the last. If I wake up in a hospital bed ahain I will be beyond pissed off. This would is beyond fucked up. Good people die, good people suffer, and assholes get to keep living happy lives. So I’m not gonna live in this world anymore. I don’t care if there’s another one ill go to when I die, I’d actually prefer to cease to exist. Ehatever happens […]
just before i start of how i attempted suicide and got depression over a dream i had, i would like to say this might be long and goes for 1500 words.. sorry for so long.. please read it and thanks 🙂
This happend last year when i was 14 years old, i am currently 15 years old…. here what happend. This is in term 3 year 8. IÂ fell asleep on a sunday night, that night i had a dream, i was staring into the eyes of this really beautiful blonde girl… it felt like minutes, just her and me in black emptyness staring into each others […]
I just moved in to a place where I can’t cut or physically harm myself in anyway. As dysfunctional as it seems, I moved in with my ex gf, her boyfriend, and their 4 kids. So on the plus side while i will still think about it, at least now I am in a place where I can’t talk about it, injure myself, or attempt suicide for now at least. Guess there is a silver lining in every cloud.
I am a shy eighteen year old girl, and have been a victim of bullying for the past nine years.
It first started when I was in the 5th grade and had moved to a new school. I was allocated a new friend to help me find my feet, but instead I had someone who would emotionally abuse me for the next three years. I told my mom in the 7th grade – she said she was mad at my “friend”, but she never did anything about it. All she could say was, “It’s a phase; it’ll pass.” I never told her about the other girl […]