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Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder

My Life Now…

by whyme336 3/14/2017

written by whyme336

Wow… it has been over three years since I have been on this site. I found a new site I have been posting on more recently called inkvite. But I would like to take a step back and tell you my story…

As a child I had extremely bad separation anxiety but none of my doctors ever believed my mom. As I got old my mom noticed characteristics of ADD/ADHD in me and she tried to get me tested but no one would test me. She eventually gave up her fight.

As a middle schooler things started getting bad. I was always picked on and bullied. […]

3/14/2017 1 comment

Guilt, Selfishness, Anger and Depression

by Lazarus 11/2/2016

written by Lazarus

Forgive me for the aggressive, hastily written few paragraphs

I cannot help but be angry with myself for all the pointless bullshit I’ve put myself through. Fuck, man, I just want to die. But that’d be pointless. I’d be leaving behind a path of selfish destruction.

I’m so fucking selfish for feeling this way. So fucking guilty of this. Of hating myself and my life and knowing that there isn’t a single possible outcome to my life that would be something I’d like. I’m lonely. I’m really fucking lonely. I don’t have anyone. Nobody. (Not romantically. Nothing. The only person […]

11/2/2016 3 comments

So it has come to this

by bornLoser20 8/30/2015

written by bornLoser20

The time has come for this worthless trash to go….this might be one hell of a lame post considering my skills at writting ( at everything in fact ).

Anyway, how should I even start ? By the truth maybe, I’m a 21 years old loser who disagree with the meaning of his life. I always lived a loser’s life as far as I recall, but childhood innocence (I guess ) prevented me from realizing it, ignorance is bliss after all, starting as an hyperactive, but outgoing kid able to make friends, to a slowly (but surely) shying away teenager, and adult too for that matter, […]

8/30/2015 9 comments

There is a light, no matter what you think.

by reidyph 8/19/2015

written by reidyph

My mental health begun at the age of 8, kinda. That’s when I first recognised I was hearing thing’s that other people around me weren’t hearing, and I had the energy not even adults had. This begun to scare me, I didn’t know what to do with all the rapid thoughts racing around my mind and at 11 started to self harm, which I thought was the perfect way to deal with how I was feeling. It wasn’t, because still, at 21 I am self harming, to degrees where I require stitching and hospital treatment.

However, I’m 21 and I’m still here. I attempted suicide at […]

8/19/2015 1 comment

Endless Suffering

by WalkingZombie 7/18/2015

written by WalkingZombie

My suffering has been never ending for over twelve years. I am 18 years old and about to finish high school. I don’t know if I will reach that finish line, as I am stumbling hard. I won’t go into my whole backstory, but I will mention some of it.

I’ve suffered extreme bullying for my whole school life. When I finally got into high school, I thought it would change…I thought it would be different. How wrong I was.

The bullying started up again very quickly, but none of the teachers ever gave a shit. Recently, that bullying has turned into sexual harassment, and nothing is […]

7/18/2015 8 comments

My battle with depression and suicide (Help)

by Parzival 3/3/2015

written by Parzival

I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the […]

3/3/2015 5 comments

Has Anyone Undergone This Treatment.

by AshCoveredAngel 3/1/2015

written by AshCoveredAngel

Has any completed or started doing ECT? (Electroconvulsive Therapy )

I’m pretty much giving up on the “normal” forms of treatment. I know 15 different meds and 15 different psychiatrists might not seem like a lot to some people on here but I feel I have already suffered enough as a result of those treatment options.

At this point if I do go back to “normal” treatments I have a list of antidepressants I cannot take based off of genetic testing and I will absolutely refuse to take a mood stabilizer again because if I do take one I’ll probably be dead withing 2 weeks […]

3/1/2015 5 comments

Acceptance Should Be Acceptable.

by AshCoveredAngel 11/6/2014

written by AshCoveredAngel

After 9 years of thinking about suicide every day (first time I ever thought about it I was about 9, I’m now 22) I finally decided to let everyone know. In October I texted my mother & husband about it. My husband’s response was an atypical caring one, “just hold on” “you’re strong” “you can make it.” “we’ll survive together” etc. You know the garbage anyone spews at someone who comes forward professing their suicidal thoughts. My mother however took the atypical rude approach, “so many people have it so much worse” “you have no idea what it’s really like to struggle” “you’re life has […]

11/6/2014 3 comments

ADHD saved my life. at least for now.

by AestuoCauda 2/22/2014

written by AestuoCauda

I’d rather not get into the “drama” about why I was wanting to die but i will say what put it to a stop, at least for the time being. I didn’t want to end my life by my own hands, first of all. I just wanted death, not suicide, but death by any means I could think of. But the more and more I tried to think of ways i could die without it truly having it been seen as suicide, my mind just started wandering to other things. No super important “life changing discoveries”, no mind shattering “realizations”, none of those last minute […]

2/22/2014 7 comments