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Medication and Depression

by JiminyCrispies 5/22/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My psychiatrist wanted to up my medication. I refused. So, instead of letting it go, my psychiatrist is giving me some time to think about it. I haven’t been taking it still, but my Mum’s getting my prescription tomorrow and making me restart it again.

I have just under 2 months to decided whether I want to up the dosage or not. Honestly, I can feel myself getting worse each day. My depression is getting bad again, and all I want to do is just give up.

The voices are getting too much, and I can’t tell anyone. There’s no point telling my family because they can’t […]

5/22/2016 1 comment

My depression is back.

by myheartisinsedona 5/16/2016

written by myheartisinsedona

I have been the happiest I’ve been in years these past few months. I’ve been feeling confident and beautiful but today all my depression flooded back. I know it’s going to be bad again. I’m not going to be able to get out of bed again. I have a beautiful 5 month old Husky. He is my best friend in the world and I love him so much. He doesn’t really care for me though haha but I don’t mind because I love him so much. But I know I’m not going to provide him with the care he needs anymore. I knows this hole […]

5/16/2016 3 comments

RTW Trip and Stuff, i guess

by JiminyCrispies 4/16/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Today, surprisingly, I wasn’t as hyperactive for a few hours. I still wasn’t anywhere near the ‘normal calm’, but I wasn’t talking constantly and I didn’t rush around everywhere as much.

Although, it’s gotten bad again as time has got on. It’s now 2AM, and I’m somewhat “calmer” again – but I can feel the hyperness coming back.

My mum found out I’ve done no work for college over the holiday – which ultimately means I’ll fail this year and be kicked off the course – and she yelled at me non-stop for a good half hour.

I’ve tried to tell her I’ve had more important things to […]

4/16/2016 2 comments

In limbo

by Drowning 3/18/2016

written by Drowning

I’m not to sure what I feel but the longer I go on I think I’m less likely to act on my suicidal thoughts again I attempted twice but wasn’t really planned like don’t get me wrong I think about it most of the day and the last few days have been rather smooth in reality but things keep going smooth il see how things go not to say WHEN and that when will happen at some point thing will get bad again or something will happen that will get me thinking to act again but I hope I get the strength and courage to […]

3/18/2016 2 comments

Downhill

by Bri 2/29/2016

written by Bri

At least that’s how it feels everything is going.

Everyone here would love to disagree with me. “But Brittany, you’re such a brilliant girl!” “But Brittany, you’re such a social butterfly! Everyone loves you!”

It doesn’t feel like it…

I can’t find the will to get out of bed anymore, I think it’s getting bad again, but I don’t know how to tell anyone… Because there’s always something they see that somehow proves that I’m completely fine- in their opinion. I’m constantly numb. I’ve thought of things I haven’t thought of in a while and it scares me. I don’t want to go back to being desperate to […]

2/29/2016 5 comments

Tired

by JiminyCrispies 1/22/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. I won’t sleep. I’ve had barely any sleep this past week. It’s getting bad again. I’ve slept 2 nights (Monday and Wednesday , I think) for about 4/5 hours each night, and the hours weren’t consistent. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, with falling back asleep awful. But despite this sleep deprivation, I need to stay awake. I need to watch in the night for them. They’re in my room constantly. Watching me. I need to stay awake so they don’t get me. The only time I can sleep is when they’re not there – which […]

1/22/2016 1 comment

I hurt myself today

by 200085 1/10/2016

written by 200085

Sorry im not jonny cash but yeah i hurt myself. I couldnt get out of my head and couldnt stop crying. Its the only thing that helps other then taking something, and there arent any of those around so. Next best thing right. Is it bad that im saying this. Im sorry i didnt mean to cause any trouble its just talking helps after too, but im alone at the moment. I think its because part of me feels bad because this is the only thing that is keeping me “ok” untill i start feeling bad again. At the sametime im kind of […]

1/10/2016 3 comments

Do you think that some people are just cursed?

by hollylion 11/23/2015

written by hollylion

It’s something that’s just in fairytales and movies, but sometimes I wonder if there is such a thing as being cursed? If there is something out there in the universe that causes some lives to be charmed, normal, whatever and some to be unfortunate.

I used to post here a long time ago. I had a plan to travel and if that went well I would give life a chance and if it didn’t then I was ready to kill myself. I had pills ordered and everything.

And things got better. Then bad again, then better, then bad again. But then things got perfect. I ripped up […]

11/23/2015 8 comments

So what has been happening to me last months?

by Heiwana 11/11/2015

written by Heiwana

Nobody cares but I need to vent.

So after summer vacations and in the first week of school I tried to kill myself 2 times with pills, one of those times I got 3 days in hospital. After that I started medication and got a bit better. The friendship with my “best friend” is now in a strange phase. I made mistakes that I regret, he is really ice cold and has been avoiding me. This hurts so much that I am getting bad again. Actually I am good sometimes and bad other times, like a rollercoaster and the new medication I started this month is […]

11/11/2015 2 comments

Day 14.

by Alex 11/5/2015

written by Alex

I’m afraid I’ve gone bad again. Well let’s be honest… I was never fine.

I’ve quite my job where I had to handle all the sexual harassment from my boss.

My “friends” don’t really reach out to me. I kind of don’t care yet it hurts .. does that make sense?

Still planning on my second attempt.

I did buy an anxiety toy so I can at least deal with that somehow.

But to be honest. The day for me to go seems closer and closer. Slowly.

11/5/2015 9 comments

Its getting bad again

by ella 8/3/2015

written by ella

This time of year always fucks me up, the goddamn school year is starting again. I don’t know, when I look back, the year don’t seem so bad but its the before and during that makes me wanna kill myself? If that makes any sense? Like the anticipation of knowing my anxiety levels will be off the roof again? Knowing that I will be aware of every move and word that comes from my mouth? Knowing that nothing really matters yet I fuckin care and make myself think that I need to impress and make sure people don’t get a hint that I actually want […]

8/3/2015 1 comment

I dont know what to say sooo… hi?

by Orphaned Soul 7/25/2015

written by Orphaned Soul

Hi im an introvert and i dont like people. im blunt and not very compassionate especially towards myself. I dont like myself and I dont know why. Ive cut before and have hurt others who dont understand what it is like to be me. I do care but i act like i dont. I feel alone even though i know i have people who love me. I dont know if others feel this way. Theres a lot of things that have hapend throughout my life people dont seem to understand. They think its a phase or just a way of acting out. Im talking to […]

7/25/2015 1 comment

Doesn’t work that way.

by Jalkns 4/7/2015

written by Jalkns

Comrades, we live in a world without justice and evil. I want to tell you guys, that are suffering, that its only bad right now, but that is not the case. It gets bad, then good, and suddenly gets bad again. Possibly even worse than before. But it doesn’t have to stop there. You don’t have to give up just because its bad right now. It WILL get good again. Its almost like the eye of the hurricane. Don’t get me wrong, the actual hurricane is hellish, but the eye is the period of a light breeze, ray of sunlight and nature at its most […]

4/7/2015 0 comment

Again?!?

by Moggie 3/18/2015

written by Moggie

I feel bad again. Those bad thoughts so many times a day. On meds. Guess I’m just screwed up. I just want to sleep! World, let me please!

3/18/2015 0 comment

First post

by melmel 1/28/2015

written by melmel

Hi, my name is Melissa. I’m very new to this, I just wanted to share some stuff about my life.
Ever since I was little my mom and dad always had problems so, they’d fight a whole lot and my mom would kick my dad out of the house. My mom would kick my dad out of the house, because he’d always be drinking, and they were always fighting with eachother. I remember hearing my mom cry outside at 3 in the morning, my dad going outside and asking what was wrong when he was the problem.
I would get depressed, because my dad was […]

1/28/2015 3 comments

Bye Everyone SP users…

by TheTreeOfMyLife 11/29/2014

written by TheTreeOfMyLife

finally my death comes, my breathing is really bad again…
these are my last word in this site… I need to write something for my family too, I want to thank them for everything… bye…

thanks everyone…

My Name Is: Inuk ***** goodbye…

11/29/2014 4 comments

She Always Calls Me Her Dork

by Frostydork 11/4/2014

written by Frostydork

Hello everyone, I guess I will start this off by introducing myself. My name is Adam. I guess I should start at the beginning. Growing up, I was a pretty lonely kid. I was the typical black sheep and outcast. I remember one time when I first started school. Every kid in the class had to choose a partner to play with, and of course I was the only one left without one. Anyway, it didn’t really bother me then. When I turned 8, my mother and father split up. My mother had custody. She was more interested in girlfriends than men. Long story short, […]

11/4/2014 5 comments

I Feel My Life Will Never Get Better

by That1guy94 7/9/2014

written by That1guy94

So I finally thought I had a reason to keep living. I thought I was going to be finally happy again in my life that I hadn’t felt in years. I thought it was good again. I finally fixed things with the girl and the love of my life. But like always I fuck everything up in my life and make things bad again. So now being back down again I find out I have to have a heart ultrasound done cuz I might have a thick heart or something like that. And if I have anything wrong with my heart I can’t do the […]

7/9/2014 5 comments

Moving forward

by Jaye 6/13/2014

written by Jaye

I haven’t posted in a while so thought I’d give an update for anyone who’s interested.
Also, I’m hoping it might give some people a bit of hope? Who knows.

Last time I posted I was literally at the point of ending it all. I’d already tried once but passed out; I’d been taken in by the police on a separate occasion and things were getting messy. I just wanted things over. There didn’t seem to be any other way that made sense. I had one last visit with my psych and they upped my meds. They told me they were putting me into day hospital. […]

6/13/2014 3 comments

I don’t think I could ever really do it but sometimes I wish I could

by womaninamber 3/16/2014

written by womaninamber

I thought I would never have suicidal thoughts again as long as I got a decent job. Now by some miracle I have a decent job but I don’t have any friends or anyone to talk to and I’m having the thoughts again, not as strongly but they’re there. I don’t think I could ever really do it, so maybe I’m just whining, but I really thought I’d never feel this bad again.

I used to have a lot of friends online but now I have only a few and they’re all really busy. And I haven’t had a face-to-face friend in years, or even someone […]

3/16/2014 4 comments

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