I’ve been cutting since 7th grade. In 7th grade is when I first got bullied, some girl called me ugly, I told her off, she got her friends to go kick my ass blah blah blah. I dropped out half the year and decided homeschooling would be better for me, but no. It got worse, it lead to cyber bullying. I went back in 8th grade thinking it would actually be better since new people will come in, it was actually way worse than the year before. Rumors went around and what not. I left half that year also. During that summer, I made a […]
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So, Im new on here and I’m not sure how to start this, but i guess ill just get to it.
My Life is like a Lifetime movie.
The reason I started cutting was because of my friend, Andrew. He was literally my bestfriend…. and I kinda had a crush on him. I knew that he had problems in his life, but dont we all? Yeah, I feel like a total ***** now.
Anyways, his family life was worse than I knew. I found this out when I walked to his house. I knew his parents weren’t home(they never were) because his dad was a jackass who, for all […]
I’ve had depression since I was around 10 years old. My father used to bash me for every little thing, whilst my mother would just sit, watch and laugh. It’s been some years now, my parents did however get better, BUT that’s only after I finally grew the courage to tell the police, anyways just two days ago, I celebrated my 19th birthday, I thought about killing myself at the end of the night, but couldn’t mostly because 3 of my friends were with me till morning. Anyways, I try to move on, every day, but the memories always haunt me, and it’s not only […]
Who am I? I was born November 22nd, 1997. My parents?.. Ha, no. I didn’t have any. They abandoned me in a apartment all the time so they could go buy drugs! Why? I don’t know. Both of them had been in and out of jail multiple times. One day, while they were off getting drugs, I was at the apartment and neighbors heard me crying. They called the police… The police knocked on the door. No answer. They kicked down the door. I was taken away. I remember being in a cop car starring out the windows while it moved. I had no idea […]
If you wont listen to me, then how can i listen to you?
You expect me to understand?
Stand by and watch?
I tried to do that, i really did.
tried to see if you could find your way on your own.
But you couldnt.
Whether you really couldnt do it,
or if you just decided that you want to be miserable…
Ive tried to help you.
You blow off everything i saw, and hang up on me when i am being honest with you.
And honesty is what you said you wanted,,
not lies and bullshit..
the truth and straight shit.
Im sorry.
I love you dearly, with all my heart.
I want you to stay around forever and […]
People who talk to me always make me feel better , but I don’t. Know , I feel like Im nothing ,<\3 , I want to feel good , :/ I need a bestfriend maybe a guy bestfriend I don't have one :/ idk , im stupid anyways 🙁
I’m 17 years old, I suffer from BDD(body dysmorphic disorder), social anxiety, depression, and I’m pretty sure I have unstable emotions. My father committed suicide when I was 3 years old and from then my mother raised me and my two older sisters while she abused depression pills, she would always go out to drink and come home drunk and mean, whenever a guy would come into her life she forgot she had children. I was too young to realize all that was happening around me.I’ve been bullied since I was in 4th grade, I only had one friend until we entered middle school and […]
All i can think about is suicide. In the daytime, at school, at home, in the shower, outside, and especially at when i go to bed. Does anyone else think of suicide that much? It’s strange, there’s really not much to think about it, but i can’t think about anything else. My 2 friends, the only people i’ve told, say i should talk to the school counseller. Should i go? I mean, maybe it’ll help, maybe it won’t. But i don’t like talking to people about my ‘problems’ and i don’t want it to get to my parents, i don’t want them to worry about […]
when u have so much to say but nothing is coming out your mouth .
when you have so much pain that u cry yourself to sleep .
when you have no family and no friends .
when u stay inside while other teens are out having a blast .
when u look in the mirror and are unhappy .
when everyone does you grimey .
when your misunderstood and nobody understands .
when u feel alone .
when u feel like u have no purpose on earth anymore .
when u cant stop cutting your arm .
is like the blade is your bestfriend .
I’ve had enough suffering with depression for a while. Now my best friend is going through alot of problems, and i mean ALOT. i need to stay with her and help her through it all, but it kills me. I’m always flashing back to when i was were she is now.. alone, anorexic, crying, cutting, all of it. Now i have to sit here and watch her deal with all of this, and i have to try and help her get better. Shes really stubborn as it is, but shes in denial, she doesnt see whats really going on, and she doesnt see where everyone […]
I have a million things that I want to type but I dont know where to start.. I honestly feel empty again. I suffered a few years ago with suicide, but I was somehow able to come out of it.. A year or so later I became very depressed again and started to be suicidal and starting cutting. I hate saying that.. I cut. Not because it’s bad or wrong, I just don’t like the sound of it. Anyway, somehow i was able to tell my mom and i was able to get the help i needed. i was put on medication and seeing a […]
Today I picked up a knife and stroked the edge of it. It cut a small line into my fingertip. I asked myself why did you just do that? I didn’t know. I’m not usually suicidal and I definitely do not want to be. My cousin took his own life and it wrecked my family, hurting everyone and separating his mother and father. I guess the reason why was because the past weeks have been rough. Family life is hard because there are few moments of peace and quiet. Everyone is so angry at one another and they yell at me. In school I struggled. […]
The thing about my cutting, is that I can’t stop, it’s the only way I even know how to cope. My parents tried to force me to quit cutting. The stress made me want to do it even more. So I continued and even picked up smoking. They stopped trying to make me quit, because they thought they did a good job, and that I had quit. They all have no clue I continued or picked up another habit. I just cut less than two hours ago, my entire stomach basically. Covered in blood from my habit, burning from all the pain. I sadly like […]
Hey. I’m a freshman in highschool. I’m only 14. Yeah, go ahead tell me I’m young, and I have so much to look forward into life, but I don’t. My parents hate me. My friends hate me. Â Best of all, I hate me. Why? You may ask. Just because. My story? Here you go…
My hell, started last year, in eighth grade. I never noticed that I was always pretending to be happy, until me and my bestfriend were bullied everyday at school. Called whores, skanks, ugly, all the names in the book. It even happened over Facebook for me, I was attacked by maybe 7? […]
There are those that you trust & those that you enjoy spending time with right?
My friend is leaving the country for a long time. Happy for him, better life where his going anyways! I’ve helped him out when he had his huuuuge fallout with his ex, I was the “shoulder to cry on” friend. He was aaalways calling me his bestfriend, being appreciative about my existence and shared with me everything he thought I should know. ha sooo I could say I was pretty much his little treasure box, we were good friends! I didn’t see him more or less than a friend, sooo he […]
For the past year, I’ve been struggling with life. Attempted suicide, cut, people were made aware, my parents said I had “no reason” or I did it “to be cool”. They even told everybody that. Never even considered counseling or meds. Just acting like it never happened, they didn’t even give a fuck. I still cut, I’m still depressed, I think about suicide just about at least once a day. I’ve got help once, what’s the point in trying to get help again? It’ll end the same anyways. If I do permanently harm myself its not like anyone will care. Except my bestfriend. Besides her, […]
My brother went to prison for selling herion, he used it himself too. He was so messed up. For two fucking years. I was 9 when he started using, I didnt know what was going on. But when I was 11 he went to prison, my mom sat me down and told me what was going on. I cryed legitamently for 2 weeks. I skipped school for 2 weeks. I was so scared and I just didnt know what to do. It deffinitly made me change, it made my whole family change. My parents have to raise one of his kids and his wifes parents […]
One of my friends told the head of my school everything. My depression,the cutting, the suicidal thoughts.
Now everyone is laughing at me, indirecting me and I can’t fucking be arsed with it. The girl who is supposed to be my bestfriend has tweeted twice about me,
“I want to commit suicide for no reason at all lol :):):)”
“Cuttin my wrists at the moment bcos my friends care about me x”
Charming, right?
i’ve literally been crying none stop. i feel so unneeded. it’s like just one something good happens to me it’s gone in a flash, or like if something good has been going on i’m just waiting for something bad to come. i’m so paranoid. like i can’t be happy, cause if i am something bad is bound to happen. plus my bestfriend of 5 years isn’t even there for me. all i do is need someone to talk to, to get this all out…everytime we make plans and i go to tell her she bails on me. not to mention i’ve been a cutter for […]
So I just qot off the phone with my old bestfriend,I miss her!!!!!I wanna qive her the biqqest huq!!!So I told her about Teenqirl and this site.I told her to click my name and read my posts If she wants to know the real me.After readinq my embarrassinq Wrestlemania post,out of nowhere she starts cryinq and tells me “why would you do that?”Why would you cut your self?”She saw the cuttinq picture that I have.I couldn’t really say anythinq cause my friend was riqht next to me so I told her I’ll call her back.Her reaction made me feel horrible like fuck I should just […]