I dont wanna slip up i hurting so bad its like a part of me is fading away i try not to worry because i know ill have it back one day but its killing me to know it’ll be out of my reach for any amount of time at the moment thoughts of suicide are racing through my head so i think im ganna do what i call a cleannsing take an extremly long shower blast my music and cry …….i need it
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Blast
Sometimes all we really want to do is shut out the world. Crawl into our bed, pull the blankets over our heads, and blast some depressing songs. I can completely relate to this. My parents say that i need to get out more and i need to come out of my room more frequently but my room is my sanctuary. It’s where i feel the safest. My blades, my “Torture Toys”, my laptop, my phone.. these are all in my room.
My boyfriend used to wonder why i dont talk much or why i look sad all the time. he didnt understand that i had just […]
Every morninq I ask myself Is life worth livinq or should I blast myself-z-ro-tupac.
written by lifeishorrible
Nothinqleft I know what you mean,why can’t they see that I’m dyinq Inside?One qirl that I met for one day felt the same way as I did and still couldn’t see that I hide the real me by smilinq and lauqhinq all them damn time.I woke up today feelinq that It’s not even worth me wastinq another day,I’m just a waste of air.I decided to start cuttinq on my wrist aqain.I realized that I have so many vains stickinq out and that I can end It whenever I want so why am I still here?Is It possible that I don’t wanna die yet?No.I don’t […]
ight as well start with a smiling face because im pretty sure i wont end the journal with it once ive finished writing all this , well as the title says where to begin , i guess i should start with positive , i managed to draw Ezio Auditore de firenze  even though i think i messed up slightly with the face and hands , but nobodys perfect , at least now i know what to work on which is a positive XD ……trying to think what else is positive , well ive got my birthday in 11 months lol but its going to be […]