I find it really hard to let go and say what I want on this site I guess because I don’t do it at all and if I do it’s once in a blue moon but right now my thoughts are racing and I want to speak freely.
This week hasn’t been to great for me and I’m feeling indifferent about it, I haven’t been able to focus on my work and have been getting very little sleep I guess it’s because last year around Christmas is when my depression was worse than normal. I was reflecting Â to last year when I got depression, I remember thinking of everything to do to get rid of it because I felt ashamed and I still do. I’ve noticed that depression,suicide,and other mental illnesses aren’t really seen in a good light (self-explanatory) but what I mean is that your told things like “think about someone who has it worse than you” or ” do you know how selfish it is to feel that way” and it makes me sad to hear because it’s like saying your problems don’t matter to say that to me is really hurtful because instead of giving support to the person you’re crushing their spirits, I guess that’s how some of the people around me make me feel. Everything’s moving so fast, kids my age are out there following their dreams and I’m here depressed.