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Blur

by MissingMarceline 8/28/2013

written by MissingMarceline

I think what hurts the most is that I don’t feel anything anymore. I can’t cry, I can’t scream in anger. I just feel so numb.
I cut deeper and deeper each time but I still don’t feel anything, the sting of the blade is a blessing.
I drink too much, to try to forget, or remember I can’t even tell the difference anymore. There is no concept of time, just a blur of blood and wine.

Sometimes I wish they could see what was happening to me.
It’s like drowning, but I can see everyone else breathing fine.

8/28/2013 1 comment

The Walking Dead

by choke0nyourmisery 8/15/2013

written by choke0nyourmisery

Have you ever reached a point of sadness where you just . . . Stop? You stop thinking because there’s just so many bad thoughts. Any thought you do have is incoherent; merely a few words in a jumble that you can’t put in any sensible order. Nothing seems right. The words mean nothing to you anyway. For these three days or so, you shut down. You are clockwork. It’s almost like nothing matters anymore. You can do anything you like, there are no rules; no restrictions. You walk around following your daily pattern, knowing what you need to do but not thinking about any […]

8/15/2013 3 comments

No Exit

by Jon 6/17/2013

written by Jon

I’m not expecting much. There’s little risk here.

A man jumps from the tenth story of a building. A crowd gathers – though not too close – to the scene of the act. You always need one person to alarm the ambulance; perhaps one to call the police, too. Â I’d recommend someone to clean up the mess.

The rest are mere witnesses. In all, a heartbreak for a few, an inconvenience for some, perhaps an envious end for others.

Now, there is someone else: the person looking down from the ledge. It’s hard to see them, as they’re so high up. There’s the obvious distraction down below, as […]

6/17/2013 3 comments

by myworldcrumbledinmyhands 6/6/2013

written by myworldcrumbledinmyhands

hi, i’m not a good writer, so i’ll just lay it out. Â im 32, ive spent the last four years busting my ass to get into grad school. I have always been depressed, but I don’t remember much from before my dad died. Last may I found out I was gonna have a son. In Sept my mom died. In Dec my baby was born. This semester was a blur, but I managed to fail the GRE, get rejected from grad school, fail a critical class, but I managed to walk with my class back in may. My aunt has just been diagnosed with […]

6/6/2013 0 comment

Life just seems like a blur.

by LebDieSekunde 5/19/2013

written by LebDieSekunde

i remember when life was fun, it was exciting and adventurous. i remember as a little girl, sitting in class dreaming of growing up and travelling the world. i remember dreaming of the places i would go, and the things i would do. i remember dreaming of my career, and the love of my life. but now, i sit here in year 11. life seems to have gone so quickly, i walk through the hallways at school as a Â nobody. invisible and unseen. bad thoughts running through my head, constantly. life seems to be a burden now, a task, something i must endure. yet no […]

5/19/2013 0 comment

my head is currently a scary place to be

by deathlovesme15 4/26/2013

written by deathlovesme15

Hi, my name is Shannon and I am “to far out to find my way back” as I like to say. I have excepted the fact that I may never get better but I never expected to get this bad. Depression is like a roller coaster with up and downs that change so fast that outside life becomes a blur. In short I’m so lost in my own world that I may never find my way out. This scares me more than anything else because my world is like a horror film, full of death and destruction. The one thing that scares me the most […]

4/26/2013 3 comments

what am i doing?

by kfaith18 3/28/2013

written by kfaith18

I’m stuck in place. People rush past me in a blur and no matter how hard i try, i can’t seem to catch up to them. The weight of my life is crushing me, stealing my breath and taking with it my sanity. Every day I have to adjust my faceÂ so that i Â blend in with the world around me. Hide the fear and desperation from my eyes, and pretend to feel normal. Why am i doing this? Why can’t I turn off these thoughts and feelings that make me shrink back into myself.Â I am not this person. This timid, emotional, angery person. I […]

3/28/2013 3 comments

Waking Up

by RachelJ 3/18/2013

written by RachelJ

Waking up–that’s the hardest thing for me to do. I find myself tired all of the time. It’s not so much that I am physically tired as it is that I am mentally tired, and my brain transmits the feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, and restlessness to the rest of my body. My dreams are a blur… images of things that I can’t get to make sense, my meaningless days played back and forth for my mind to review. Scenes for my brain to recount so it can ask itself, “What went wrong?” and “How the hell did we end up here?” Sleep is supposed to […]

3/18/2013 2 comments

Lock . . .

by me-inside 3/12/2013

written by me-inside

Lock the key to my heart. Never again will I let my pain start. Its now just healing, no sorrow to show, that love can hurt. But I will grow into the women that I know. Sometimes love will let you go…Hold your breath, forget,forgive. And it will show he’ll miss you dearly when you go. Be the person your happy to be. Until death takes part, when you’ll be let free. Freedom does last, it does show. Everyone has their opinions, so just let it go. Tomorrow is another chance to show to just have fun being me, until ill let go. Sometimes I […]

3/12/2013 0 comment

Family, Meh who needs em!

by Ari 12/27/2012

written by Ari

My family are all two-faced bitches! If only i had known sooner, i would have never had anything to do with them, although they caused me loads of problems from 2008-2010 so i don’t know why the hell i didn’t come to terms sooner, i’m most likely retarded… All i know is i hate them!

12/27/2012 3 comments

I’m pretty sure I remember being happy

by wtfithastostopright 11/6/2012

written by wtfithastostopright

Its not totally clear. Everything between now and when I was a miserable as a child is a blur now. Things really sucked, I met her and things were good for a bit. However all that good is gone now and it just feels I’ll I can recall now is a 33 year continuum of shit. I guess I’m grateful there were a few good years.

11/6/2012 0 comment

I am the worst God has made

by Shiann 10/14/2012

written by Shiann

I hate what I hear everyday my minds always a blur its never enough no matter how much i take in. I strive to be perfect I need to be perfect. It takes over me to the point were I am disabled I am so utterly disappointed with the life and body i am given so angered that I cant do anything right. Nothing works it makes me wonder why a God would make such a pitiful person like myself. Being shameful of every breath I take is a worthy punishment for a piece of dog shit like myself. When this world comes to end […]

10/14/2012 10 comments

I am a horrible person.

by fourshots22 9/7/2012

written by fourshots22

Ive always had this depression and I never really tried to get rid of it because it helps with my art.Ive never been good at anything but that especially writting I tend to over write….like right now.Its never been this bad but I guess its becuse ive never fucked up this bad and I know youre going to think of me as one of the most cruel horrible heartless dumbasses but I assure you, I do have a heart Im just stupid.Back in highschool my freshman year was just a blur I mean it started off bad I was hit by suburban the third […]

9/7/2012 6 comments

Lonely Girl

by Addiictivetragedy 7/24/2012

written by Addiictivetragedy

theirs a lonely girl im the corner of the bed . Crying about something that her nana just said. She is nothing to every one and every one is nothing to her … Going on life like this she see’s it as a blur …going place to place,home to home ,trying to fined some one that would make her feel loved … But to her thats something she’ll never be apart of … As she’s crying all alone in the corner her bed … She’s remembering the hurtful past that forever stays in her head ..she wants to die of all the pain that people […]

7/24/2012 14 comments

am i going crazy.. or am i already there..?

by Me myself and time 7/10/2012

written by Me myself and time

Voices..
I hear them, talking, bitching, jeering.. They are trying to make me do some bad shit.. Kill her..she deserves to die.. No she hasn’t done anything… Yet. They make me cut.. Deeper, deeper.. Let it rain you coward.. I cannot complain of being alone.. I’m never alone.. They don’t let me be alone.. Ever. Your ugly, your fat, you emo, you *****, your worthless, not good enough.. You will never be up to your mothers..”Standard”… So you cut, cut the pain away, watch it bleed out of you…

Darkness..
I can feel them.. All of them.. Their thoughts.. Their voices whisper in my ears.. I […]

7/10/2012 2 comments

5/5/2004 my world ended, my life nearly followed.

by Unique 6/27/2012

written by Unique

Hello, this is my story.

Pre 5/5/2004 I was just a normal person, i had bipolar but i was diagnosed as a child and managed it with hardcore meditation my whole life. Other than that my life was normal. nothing traumatic ever happened to me. I never lost anyone. I was attending college. I had a beautiful girlfriend. I was smart, i had the whole world in front of me.

On the 5/5/2004 i woke up in my GF’s college house, it was cold and i was shivering. I rolled over and Jane was not there. I got up and saw here keys and phone on the […]

6/27/2012 5 comments

the past few days…

by rawrimaturtle.. 5/11/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

the past few days have been a blur really… like its all just a dream.. tho i know its not.. my brain is all jumbled up.. i try to think and i freak out a bit becuz it just get worse.. ugh life.. i go to the doctors today for my seconds check up about my depression.. hopefully it goes good… i feel so lost.. so very very lost in this world… i have no idea where im going..

-RawrImaTurtle…..

5/11/2012 0 comment

fucking insomnia

by isabelle 4/4/2012

written by isabelle

i cant sleep, its not working! its like 4 am where i am and I CANNOT FUCKING REST IN THE SLIGHTEST OF FASHIONS. you would think after having insomnia fro 4 years i would know how to deal with it, but i dont i just get angry and frustrated then waste my days in a fuzzy, sleep deprived blur. people complain about missing one or two nights sleep and im just there being like ‘dude nto only did i cut myself and consider suicide last night but i havent slept properly in over a week’. and when i do sleep.. bad things very bad things […]

4/4/2012 2 comments

Memories haunt me.

by lifeinnhell 3/26/2012

written by lifeinnhell

I feel like my life has been a blur..a blur I didnt want to acknowledge until I realized its eating me inside and im basically dead already. I am ashamed of myself and I cant speak to ANYBODY about this. I dont want to die.. but i dont want to exist either. I dont want to exist because there is not a day im not reminded of the torture and abuse i had to withstand and have never been able to share with anybody. I was sexually abused and molested when i was a kid..for several years. I was confused. I didnt know what was […]

3/26/2012 2 comments

too much

by toomuch 3/24/2012

written by toomuch

My story starts when I was in high school, I was just an average teenager there never really stood out, however I did get picked on a bit, I was getting good grades in physics chemistry and calculus but I always felt like something was missing. When I was 15 I started experimenting with drugs, extacy and alcohol mostly and I also started boxing. Although boxing was good for me physically I had a lot of built up anger inside me, maybe learning how to hurt people wasn’t the smartest decision for me toÂ make. It made me feel good the the crack on the pads […]

3/24/2012 1 comment

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