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I ain’t gonna make I have no friends
I am becoming my own worst enemy once again
Why doesn’t anybody care?
Why won’t nobody help me?
All of this for a stupid prophecy!?
All of my life I have pretended not to know
Everything good thing I had have now become owed
I’m trying to cry, trapped with pain
My god is the only reason I am still the same
I’m sick, no help no doctor a queue
I’m lonely, no friends, no one real in my life to talk too
The things they have done and what I have had to do […]
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Bound
Trapped in my own mind,
Bound by anxiety
I’ve caged myself, with contradicting reason. I push people and emotions away so I don’t get hurt, but I worry they’ll leave forever.
I don’t know how to to escape… yet I hold the key to this cage.
For the past weeks I’ve noticed everyone smile and be happy, Lying to everyone and saying I’m happy so I will be explaining my feelins through these lyrics:
“Seems like the gods are punishing me
shackled in chains I just can’t Break free
Hands round my throat tighten the grip
bound by my sins so my wings have been clipped
I’m paying the price, I’m doing the time
serving my sentence for doing the crime
So show me the heavens or drag me to hell
my story is over i bid you farewell, I bid you farewell
now drag me to hell”
I did not write these lyrics BFMV did, its the easiest way to […]
I can’t keep from dwelling on the fact that I set myself up to be alone. I’m used to people not being there for me, but normally there’s those few people that are always there.  This time even they have drifted away. It seems like over night I slipped back into my old skin of sadness and loneliness. I thought that I had learned to be happy again. She opened up a whole new world of beauty to me. Was it a new world so sweet or was I just blinded by her sweetness? I’m so confused and numb. I’m remembering what it feels like to be alone. […]
…I was scrolling through my fb news feed…and…they made a video and posted it to my wall, the gist of the viddeo is that
1.) I’m F.U.B.A.R (fucked up beyond all recognition)
2.) a dying freak.
3.) was bound to get cancer.
4.) I probably have herpes too.
and 5.) I should’ve passed out and fallen off the building that night…
:’)
im done. thats it. ive honestly fucked up enough that i dont care anymore about consequences. im good enough with words im bound to get my point across. my parents arent being any nicer to me they havent really even changed. my sister is becoming controllable but now i thought if i cant speak at home fucking things around at school will help release anger….well now all the fighting and swearing with teachers countless numbers of detentions now im finally suspended and soon to have court involved ha fuck that! i have the best boyfriend ever and i might run out of town tonight with […]
I threw everything into the river, everything that represents him. A gift for valentines day he gave me, a bracelet, a love not, a comb he left at my place, only little things which I still had. They had to go. I went, I threw them one by one, banishing the memories that they were bound too. Then the last thing, the box.
I call it the box to those who actually care, that know about it. The box is about 20cm by 7cm by 5cm, small, brown, smells of worn perfume and nights out. Inside, 4 blood soaked tissues, a pair of scissors, a suicide […]
My world is sinking in
Ankle-deep
And skin, too thin.
Trapped in solitude,
Surrounded by multitudes,
Misunderstood
Left unprotected,
Left too corrected.
Caught in a dream world,
Not here, not there.
Nowhere.
Bullet in my head,
Swinging from a tree,
Buried six feet under,
Why won’t she die?
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Ripped and broken,
Torn a sunder,
With a heart like hers,
It’s a wonder.
Let her wander,
In the desert,
Through the mud,
There is no water,
Only sun..
Breaking chains,
Breaking free,
Still feel bound,
To every day.
Breaking hearts,
Broken mind,
Breaking promises,
Need to unwind.
Breaking faces with fists of iron,
And suffering the consequences
From whence they burn.
Time to sleep,
Time to die,
It’s better than this,
Unable to cry.
Foundering in my thoughts,
Left to think,
It’s a crime,
To plot to murder yourself
For less than the dime
You found in your wallet,
Hidden in […]
Wrapped in a catacomb, bound by my fears
Insanity knocks, as doomsday is near
I open the door, and let it walk in
To take me to ruins, to show me the end
Lucid at times, and fearing what’s next
But insanity reassures me, I’ll enjoy the big wreck
I’ll glow in the torment, that takes over my mind
And relish in darkness, that is so easy to find
I will walk in the pestialance, that grows oh so near
But will not feel the sickness, as I face my own fear
I glance at the shell, that once held my life
And I know now at […]
My Immortal lyrics:
I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound […]
Life the hound
the equivocal
comes to me at a bound
either to rend me
or to befriend me
I don’t know his intentions
till he jumps at my bare hand
with teeth or tongue
meanwhile I wait for the event
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I like this poem,because it expresses my feelings of anxiety
and apprehension.I just wish I knew the poet who made it.