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What is happening to me?

by ellenish 1/24/2013

written by ellenish

I’m a single mom and my whole world has collapsed around me. Â I was laid off from work and cannot find another job. Â The bank foreclosed on my home. Â My only vehicle broke down and was towed to an impound lot. Â My mother passed away and I couldn’t afford to go to her funeral – my own mother’s funeral. Â I’ll NEVER forgive myself!

I have no money at all…none! Â I can’t even get myself to the food pantry without a car. Â On top of everything else, Â I caught the flu, my washer machine flooded my home, the microwave started on fire, the garage door broke and […]

1/24/2013 8 comments

stalemate (I’m a brand new user)

by walkingcontradiction 1/20/2013

written by walkingcontradiction

I try to plan an effective way to kill myself, how to do so in a way that would still put my organs to good use, how to do so in a way that minimizes the chance of survival etc. etc. but as I am being comforted by my planning, the people I am close to in my life pop up in my mind. Then my resolve disappears.

I couldn’t do something like that to them, whether or not I manage to make it look like an accident. I’ve never experienced someone close to me dying so I have no idea how painful it actually […]

1/20/2013 7 comments

the Brand new Lovesong

by windbreak 7/17/2012

written by windbreak

Oh man… it feels like it’s been so long. These last 2 years have taken everything out of me.. except for my life. I can’t live like this. Not for much longer at least. The days drag on longer and longer. Some days aren’t so bad, but it just keeps coming back. It’s always going to be a part of me. This is who i am now.

I almost got to the point where i didn’t want to jump in front of the bus one day… just that one day. Is it really worth living when you feel like this? You don’t live to be happy.. […]

7/17/2012 0 comment

It has been two weeks since i attempted and i want to try again.

by AliceInWonderLand 4/30/2012

written by AliceInWonderLand

Hi, im brand new to this forum , i’ll guess i will try and get this out.

i tried to kill myself two weeks ago, i got put in hospital ,but now i want to try again,i am desperate to die. Attempting has only made me realize i am strong enough to do it again without failing this time. I am at a loss for words , i am so fucking depressed. i have nothing to live for. i need an end to this.

4/30/2012 4 comments